Male heart trembling

The campus in spring is full of vitality. In this place called the ivory tower, everyone is full of vitality.Young people have opportunities, young people have the future, and the same youth also gives rise to various vocabulary.

I don’t know when it started, everyone used the words picking up soap, gay, gay friend and chrysanthemum in various places to ridicule and make fun of. Although these words that are obviously related to gays are not full of malice and hostility by everyone I used it on each other, but it still gave me a sense of detachment, as if they had discovered something.Whenever I hear them say these few words, I feel guilty, and my heart is empty, as if I was caught.

Gradually I got used to hearing these words from others, they were really not hostile, just teasing each other, even every boy in our dormitory became each other’s gay friends.It’s just that they don’t know that those funny stories about picking up soap and that night of chrysanthemums are just a joke in their mouths, a talk to tease others, but it’s a real life for me.

When taking a bath with Mr. Tang, he once threw away a piece of soap with a face full of jokes, and I picked it up with a smile, and he held me in his arms and stroked me gently. On such a night, the chrysanthemums bloomed extremely brilliantly.

These small interests are additives to continue the happiness between me and Mr. Tang. Any slight movement, whether it affects the skin-to-skin relationship or not, will be infinitely magnified by our tacit understanding and become an element of happiness.

In the morning, Mr. Tang stood in front of the bathroom mirror to shave. I have seen such a beautiful moment too many times, and I have been infatuated with it too many times, but every time I can't help but look at it and lick my face Let Mr. Tang shave me.He will be very careful and careful to restore my face to a clean appearance, and leave a deep kiss at the end.

"Just right, I forgot to tell you something, that Miss Xu will contact you in a few days." Mr. Tang said.

"What are you contacting me for?"

"Miss Xu is a delicate person. She thinks that since we will have the opportunity to meet in the future, it's better to find an opportunity to get acquainted with you first." Mr. Tang said: "Miss Zhao told me that Miss Xu doesn't want to get along with you because of her and you. The relationship between the four of us is unfamiliar, which affects the mood of the four of us when we are together."

"She wants to get acquainted with me first, so that it will be easier when we go out together?"

"That's it. Don't worry. It has nothing to do with the marriage. You just make friends and get to know each other better. As for when I will contact you, I don't know. She is studying in Beijing. I'm afraid it will have to wait until the weekend." .”

I whispered: "But the weekend is for you, I don't want to go out with her."

Mr. Tang touched my face and said with a smile: "We stick together every day, isn't it annoying?"

"I'm not bothered..."

"Okay, that's it for now," Mr. Tang said.

Ms. Xu did not contact me soon, but quietly appeared at noon on a Wednesday half a month later.While I was sweating profusely on the basketball court, a girl’s gentle and modest voice came from outside the iron fence in the distance: "Lu Zhenghao, Lu Zhenghao."

Looking back, it was the beautiful Miss Xu, and her voice was so pleasant that all the brats on the court stopped moving and looked at the same place as me.Ms. Xu was still wearing light-colored soft clothes, which didn't look expensive, but they were so different.This is a low-key girl, but she still can't hide her irresistible temperament.

I hurried over to greet her, she smiled and wanted to find a quiet place to chat.I took her to a small road, which is the back of the cafeteria, and there are basically no students coming here.

I was sloppy, wearing a vest and shorts for playing, sweating profusely, and said awkwardly: "I heard Brother Wu said that you wanted to find me, but I didn't expect it to be this time."

"Isn't this a good time? Ah, maybe you haven't had lunch yet?" Miss Xu asked caringly.

I shook my hands and said, "I've already eaten, it's just that you look at me like this, it's very rude."

Ms. Xu still smiled and said, "Isn't that what students are like? Actually, I also like to play, but only in physical education class."

Ms. Xu looked down at my basketball shoes and said, "You just wear these shoes to play? This is a limited edition, so expensive, don't you feel bad?"

I scratched my head in embarrassment, and said, "Who are you willing to wear? I wear ordinary basketball shoes. Brother Wu saw it later. If I have to wear these shoes to play, that's all I can do."

Ms. Xu covered her mouth and smiled, and said, "Mr. Tang really loves you."

"He is very kind to me... I think Miss Zhao must be very kind to you." I said.

Talking about men and men, women and women, we are all a little embarrassed. Although we each enjoy the happiness and joy brought by the same sex, we still feel that something is wrong when we talk to each other.From this point of view, Ms. Xu and I have the same mentality. We are willing to accept the happiness of being with the same sex, not to endure this longing, and we can seek expression in every world alone, but we cannot mention it to others. Any little secret about ourselves.

I think that Mr. Tang and Ms. Zhao are probably not such people. They are polite and public, have the capital to handle their own preferences, and have the ability to stop others from slandering them.But Ms. Xu and I are different. We don't have such a mentality, and we don't have that kind of ability.

Ms. Xu said: "She treats me very well, maybe even better than Mr. Tang treats you. After all, women are always more delicate when they are together."

I said, "Although brother Wu is a rough man, he is actually quite delicate. Of course, he is still very manly."

"Should they tell you about the marriage? I mean, about the marriage between us."

I lowered my head and said: "Brother Wu told me that I can't accept it, but as long as everyone thinks it should be done, I will agree. But at present, Brother Wu respects my opinion and will not force me What to accept. Well, of course, I don't think you are bad, it's just that I'm not used to physical marriage."

"It doesn't matter. In fact, I don't accept it very much. Fortunately, although she likes to express her opinion, she always imposes it on me intentionally or unintentionally. But as long as I don't like it, she won't force it."

"None of them are high-handed people," I said.

A gust of wind blew, and Ms. Xu said softly: "Although the weather is getting warmer, you are prone to catch a cold even if you are sweating profusely. Go back to the dormitory and change your clothes. The garden over there is in a good environment. I will wait for you there. "