Male heart trembling

If the part of my life about Mr. Tang can be posted online to show off, just like other people show affection, maybe my friends will see more than just a glamorous scene in the circle of friends.

In addition to seeing photos of me standing next to European buildings in smart clothes, I will also know that Mr. Tang’s suit and leather shoes are not suitable for going out and complaining again and again, so that he went to the mall to buy a whole set of casual clothes before he burst into laughter again.

In addition to being able to see me wearing sunglasses on the seaside in Southeast Asia and taking selfies with the blue sea and blue sky, showing half of my firm chest muscles by the way, I will also know that Mr. Tang has sunburned his skin because of insufficient sun protection measures. Those who are seen by others The muscles that are full of temptation can't even be touched in the end.

In addition to being able to see the chic appearance of me riding a horse towards the sunset on the prairie, I also know that because of the difference in temperature between morning and evening, Mr. Tang, who has always been very strong, finally caught a cold and had a fever. He was directly admitted to the local hospital and talked about it for several days. Nonsense, in the end when I wiped my tears and felt very distressed, I reluctantly smiled at me, telling me not to worry.

Life may be like this. Others can see our happy and cool photos on the streets of Europe, the seaside of Southeast Asia, and the grasslands of Tibet, but they don’t know that there are all kinds of embarrassing endings behind them.

Just like my life with Mr. Tang, sometimes we are not understood by outsiders, but we are very happy.Sometimes our happiness is understood by people of the same kind, but in fact, Mr. Tang is always on top. Even though he keeps being gentle with me again and again, between the lines and in every detail of life, the main theme is that I am pleasing him after all.Even though I have the right to lose my temper, as long as Mr. Tang coaxes me, I have no right to continue to lose my temper.

To put it simply, don't be shameless.

I always seem to be able to see through the most essential reality of each other's happiness, so I have been able to persist smoothly in this period from deformity to peace, but always accompanied by the deformity that people wearing colored glasses think, all because I know my position .

Just like what Mr. Tang has been worried about, I can't become a person who has forgotten my original intention because of endless wealth. Like Mr. Tang's last partner, not only changed the face, but also destroyed the beauty.

I have always been careful and frugal in my life. Although Mr. Tang gave me enough wealth and material comforts beyond my ability, I still maintain frugality. I will never spend money indiscriminately, and I will never get carried away.

But in fact, I understand that when I suddenly become rich, it is absolutely impossible to be exactly the same as before. Mr. Tang must also feel it, but as long as we keep within a certain degree, life can continue.

I once read an article, he said, are you worried about your significant other going to places that shouldn't be during the business trip.I thought about it carefully at the time. With Mr. Tang's attitude towards life, it is probably impossible to tie myself to me alone. As he said, he used to be a playboy who wasted his nights, and he would find someone to accompany him every night. Change when you are tired, and live a life of intoxication and indulgence.

Until the age of 30, he suddenly hoped to find a regular partner and live a stable life.He really did this, and tried to live a regular life with a few people, and said to me during the second Spring Festival when I met Mr. Tang: "Lu Zheng, we have known each other for two years, and you haven't changed, and neither have I." It's greasy, it's amazing."

I put myself in Mr. Tang's perspective and thought about this issue. If a person who is used to indulgent life wants to live a stable life with another person, this person must surpass those people in the past by a large margin. The power to conquer.

As for me, although I am not the most handsome person in the world, in Mr. Tang's opinion, my figure and appearance are completely outstanding, at least the type he likes.My character and my obedience to him are what brought him a sense of conquest and stability.A man with money and power, tall and powerful, what he wants is the thrill of conquest, and what he wants is a submissive person by his side?

So I don't worry about whether Mr. Tang will indulge when he is on a business trip, whether he will call a dozen boys from the nightclub to spend the night with him.Because I am not Mr. Tang's only one, and I am not the one who can stand on his head and order him to behave better.Although I have obtained many rights and even privileges from Mr. Tang, there are actually not many opportunities to be unrestrained.

A playboy wants to live a stable and ordinary life, just like a high-ranking emperor wants to live a life of ordinary people. You can coax him to play, but really don’t believe this is true. One day, the emperor will have to Is the emperor, the playboy will still be a playboy.

Unless I have the ability to make him give up on me, make him feel that being with others is a blasphemy against me, and even become a lot more honest because he is afraid that I will be unhappy.But do I have this ability?Not now, not in the future, maybe not in the next life.

So I can't control Mr. Tang. I can only cherish every day and night with him because I love him. As for the others, they are beyond my ability.

In my life, there are hidden high-profiles and hidden panics, all because I was shocked by his domineering in the first year of knowing Mr. Tang.It's all because I was infected by his gentleness in the second year of knowing Mr. Tang.Sometimes I can recognize reality and not be that youth full of daydreams.I will also be intoxicated from time to time, and I will be captured in a self-willed mist, and I will be intoxicated and unable to extricate myself.

Mr. Tang's kindness to me has been magnified infinitely in the second year of our acquaintance, to the point where I once felt that this could be the case for the rest of my life, but there is only one thing that can make me feel better every time I try to numb myself. Back to reality, that is physical marriage.