Male heart trembling

At the end of spring and the beginning of summer, when all the flowers are waiting to bloom, when Mr. Tang and I returned to Tianjin from Europe, and when I was still unwilling to go to school, Mr. Tang told me in a plain tone that he was going to have a relationship with Mr. Zhao. The lady made the relationship public.

According to the normal process, a man and a woman should know each other well and love each other before going public. However, Mr. Tang and Ms. Zhao have a special relationship. They don't need any prelude, just make the result public.Anyway, this is a transaction that both parties are satisfied with, there will be no possibility of breaking up, and the result will be told to everyone without any worries, and there will be no fear.

After returning from Hangzhou, the several contacts between Mr. Tang and Ms. Zhao were within the scope of my knowledge. In fact, Mr. Tang was concerned about my feelings and would notify me in advance of every time they met alone, so I had a reason Trust me, they don't really know each other.

Notifications, yes, just notifications, Mr. Tang will give me orders in the tone of notifications for many things, although he seems to respect me gently, but does not leave a trace of refutation.Just as he informed me that their relationship was going to be made public, I had no room for rebuttal.

I suddenly discovered that this trip to Europe was simply a piece of candy that Mr. Tang gave me to make me happy, and then let me accept things that I was actually unwilling to accept in my heart.I heaved a long sigh. Since I couldn't refute it, I just accepted it. Anyway, Mr. Tang has an irrefutable right to speak. He has given me enough face to coax me to go to Europe in advance.

I found that I love this man very much, and I also found that because I love this man deeply, I have turned myself into a person who can comfort myself.Is this a progress of human nature, or a regression?

That night, Mr. Tang still seemed to want to please me. He touched my body gently, like peeling corn, and took off the shy clothes one by one. With his warm and powerful palms, he brought me skin The feeling of ecstasy after touching.

I don't know whether I am a human toy in Mr. Tang's hands, or the object of love in his arms.I don't know whether I am enjoying the refreshment under his care, or satisfying his desire to touch.In short, I lay flat beside him, naked, giving up every shy and non-shy part of my body, with a feeling of ecstasy, catering to the comfort of the man around me.

Am I satisfying him, or is he teasing me?These are not important, I snuggled into his arms in a daze, enjoying this intimacy, feeling his breath and body temperature, and those sweet words lingering in my ears.

I released it, and under the teasing of Mr. Tang's palm, under the rhythm of fast and slow, I released it very thoroughly. This is a perfect refreshment that can be felt without any effort.I squinted and looked at Mr. Tang. Is it his turn to enter my body and release energy?

But he didn't, he wiped my body clean, hugged me in his arms and kissed, and said in his ear: "I know you are unhappy, but there are some things that must be done, I promise that as long as you want, every night in the future will be fine It's what it looks like today."

Is this a statement of determination or false sweet talk?I don't have the ability to distinguish, just like when I was teased by Mr. Tang to feel refreshed, I didn't know whether I was cooperating with him or he was pleasing me.It's too complicated, and my simple brain can't work out the answer to this kind of question.

I have always understood, and I have always reminded myself that the reason why Mr. Tang accepts physical marriage is to give an explanation to the family, and more importantly, to find a breakthrough for his high-pressure life and find a breathing space.

Although Mr. Tang always said that the purpose of physical marriage is to make our lives easier and allow me to get more space, in fact, Mr. Tang’s physical marriage is not aimed at allowing me to gain space alone, but Let every man living with Mr. Tang get the same living space, and the ultimate beneficiary of this space is actually Mr. Tang himself.

Even though Mr. Tang said [-] benefits of physical marriage to me, the greatest benefit of physical marriage will eventually fall on Mr. Tang, not me and everyone who was raised by Mr. Tang like me.

So I know very well that although Mr. Tang has always claimed that it is for my own good, he will actually say these words to the next, next, and next person.

Even so, I still feel happy, at least Mr. Tang is willing to put these words on me.It is impossible for us to live a lifetime, and we will part ways in the end, so we can just make it clear.

I know my status well, if Mr. Tang is willing to coax me, I have to give face to face, so I acted like a baby in his arms, teased his chest, pouted my buttocks and bloomed chrysanthemums.Mr. Tang smiled gratifiedly, gratified at my sensibility.

In the frantic bombardment of piston movement, I feel another perspective to observe the world.After the piston movement was over, he was so gentle and considerate when he held me in his arms and trembled together, but when he was leaning on the bedside and smoking an afterthought, I felt that he was still buying sex, and I was still selling sex.

Early the next morning, we had breakfast peacefully. He sent me to school, and then went to Ms. Zhao to deal with the things that they were unwilling but had to deal with.

I sat in the classroom in a trance, why the green shoots outside have turned into green leaves, but my calm heart has caused waves again?Are the green leaves growing too fast, or am I schizophrenic?