Male heart trembling

Although it's freezing outside, the house is extremely warm. Geothermal heating can always make every corner of the room warm. Even sitting cross-legged on the ground feels very comfortable.Just like Mr. Tang's secret words, he really longed to have a good time tonight.Because of their own reasons, he has business to discuss, and I have studies to prepare for. Although we live under the same roof and sleep on the same bed, it has been a long time since we crossed the line.Even though I would still touch his chest mischievously, even if he still hugged me tightly in his arms to rest before going to bed, but soon, perhaps in less than three or two minutes, we were both so tired that we fell asleep.

Today, his mood was not too high, but he expressed his desire for passion in code words, and I was already hungry and thirsty, so I hurriedly spread the quilt to welcome the next pleasure.The sound of the shower running in the bathroom stopped abruptly, and after a while Mr. Tang walked back to the bedroom wrapped in a towel.I like to see him with only a bath towel wrapped around his waist, which can not only show the proud muscles of the upper body, but also mysteriously wrap the area I desire, bringing me spiritual impact while visual impact reverie.

He walked slowly into the depths of the bedroom, and I could smell the aroma of shower gel on his body, the fragrance of shampoo on his hair, and the smell of being wet all over his body.I was sitting on the bed, wearing white underwear, shaking the black bow tie in my hand. As long as he was happy, I would put on the bow tie and twist my chubby figure in front of him until the underwear fell off, revealing the sexy and seductive body all over my body. Everyone is in his hands.This is his little hobby, he likes me doing this very much, and I no longer feel embarrassed, and will always try my best to satisfy his desire.

But unexpectedly, he didn't care about my posing on the bed, but sat alone on the sofa in the bedroom, smoking in a dark corner hidden from the bedside lamp.I'm a little confused, should I take off my clothes from the beginning and wait for him?Or are you going to put on a bow tie and dance for him from the start?Looking back on every passion in the past, it seems that no matter what I do, he is very happy, and he never refuses the sexiness I show.

I believe that I have done nothing wrong, and I have not made him unhappy. I am afraid that it is something about work that still lingers in his heart.I quietly got out of bed and came to his side. I wanted to sit on his lap and act coquettishly to please him.But before I acted, he said what was hidden in his heart.

"Just in time, after the new year, Ms. Zhao and I will announce our marriage." Mr. Tang said.

I was a little dazed, and didn't know what to do for a while, so I could only give up all my plans of being coquettish and pleasing, and stood by Mr. Tang's side like a fool.Even though I knew from the beginning that the physical marriage was a show, even if I knew from the beginning that the physical marriage would end in success, I never expected that this show would end in failure, and I have already done it, Mr. Tang Preparations for marriage, but when this matter was actually implemented, I still couldn't accept it, as if the man I loved was really going to marry someone else.

Ah, no, isn't it supposed to be marriage?What's the difference between physical marriage and non-physical marriage? Anyway, they are all marriages with certificates.

Mr. Tang did not intend to comfort me at all, but kept smoking his expensive Cuban cigars, the huge red dots flashed in the dark, the familiar smell of tobacco made my eyes uncomfortable, Or my eyes are moist because I feel uncomfortable.But I didn't cry, let alone sob.

I squatted halfway in front of Mr. Tang, and said in a low voice: "Since you said that the physical marriage started, I have done psychological construction for myself. I thought I could accept this result smoothly, but unexpectedly, I still couldn't accept it for a moment just now, but Fortunately, I've come to my senses, I'm just worried that you're not feeling well, and in fact judging from your mood today, you're really not feeling well."

Mr. Tang sighed and said: "I always tell you that everything is false and nothing will change, just to give you more space, but although I keep comforting you like this, I actually don't like it in my heart, you It should be understandable, unless it is absolutely necessary, who is willing to go this way? I love you, and I love myself too."

"You love me, so you give me money, which is very kind to me, but you feel sorry for yourself, but you can't give yourself money, because the money belongs to you, and you can't be extra good to yourself, because people You can’t deceive yourself.” I said, “No matter how clever the doctor’s technique is, he still can’t save his own life. When the time comes, he will naturally accept the result.”

"Yeah, I can be nice to you, but I can't be nice to myself."

Although I can't really understand the pain in Mr. Tang's heart, if I think about the discomfort in my heart, I'm afraid I can understand that Mr. Tang feels twice as uncomfortable as I am.He can use all his strength to feel sorry for me, but he can't comfort himself with all he can have.And I understand that I can't do anything worthwhile, but there is only one thing that I can do from the first day I met Mr. Tang, and it is also what Mr. Tang wanted me to do before he knew me. .

Getting happiness from physical touch is something I have learned from the very beginning, and I have continued to increase my experience. I can give Mr. Tang an unparalleled enjoyment, although this has become less important as we get along for a long time. No matter what new feelings I have, although this matter is no longer the most important support for getting along with each other, when Mr. Tang is helpless, lost and confused, I am afraid that this is the only thing I can do for him.

I finally understand that no matter how much I have grown, everything must return to the original point.