Male heart trembling

Physical marriage is a kind of poison. Even though it seems that it can bring a wider living space to one's repressed life on the surface, but only when it is actually practiced will one understand that the pain of self-torture can only be swallowed alone.

Clearly not interested in women at all, yet want to show incomparable affection in front of outsiders, I finally understand why those movie stars say they can’t get out of their roles. Today, more than half a year later, Mr. Tang and I seem to be in the confusion. At a loss, just like those professional actors.

We are very clear that we will not fall in love with women, and still maintain our liking for each other, but when we are persuading ourselves to go out with women all the time, in fact, our inner feelings are not comfortable, even very Oops.

We start to feel dazed, as if we really aren't gay anymore.We are confused, maybe the blessings from everyone are heartfelt, and our relationship with women is also heartfelt.

But whenever we come back from acting and return to the life that really belongs to us, when I lie on the bed and feel the burly muscles of Mr. Tang and the familiar smell of tobacco, I can clearly feel the power of reality.

After all, I am only interested in men, and after all, I will only enjoy ambiguity under the muscles that belong to men, not the white and graceful figure of women.

Everything outside is blooming like a brocade, and everything relaxed and comfortable is just a dream. In that world that is reality to most people, Mr. Tang, Ms. Zhao, and Ms. Xu and I are actually dreaming.But in the place that really belongs to creating sleep dreams, Mr. Tang, Ms. Zhao and Ms. Xu and I can actually feel the reality.

This is our reality. We have always longed to live in our own dreams, but in order to maintain this dream, we go to other people's world to fabricate lies, but we will only wake up when others are really dreaming.

Fortunately, with the care of Mr. Tang, the mental torment will always drift away a little bit, although it will still come to my heart in the dead of night, we simply love each other and can tide over the difficulties together.It is precisely because of the mental torture that makes us feel suffocated that Mr. Tang will change his previous requirements and no longer let me keep my original intention, and he will not worry that I will be confused by money, and will put a lot of delicious, easy-to-use, Fun spend on me.

When the spirit cannot be healed, it can only use substances to find balance. Fortunately, Mr. Tang has substances.

But even though physical marriage has brought us so much confusion, the matter itself still needs to be carried out according to the established process.

It is the coldest time in the north, and the Spring Festival of this year is coming quietly.As usual, I went back to Yantai to pay a symbolic visit to my parents and relatives.This time I didn't feel lost, facing their respective families and the fact that they still couldn't accommodate me, I didn't feel sad at all.

My parents still gave me a sum of money, and as usual, they gave me separately in private.Although the amount of money was incomparable with the amount Mr. Tang gave me, I happily accepted it and promised to study hard and be filial to them after work.

It is impossible for me to tell them that I have been taken care of. I only say that I earn some money from part-time jobs and can maintain my study life.So even though I don't appear to be poor anymore, they still treat me as a poor child and spare no effort to give me the private money they have accumulated for a year.

A few days after the Spring Festival, Mr. Tang came back very late. He was not in a high mood, and he was afraid that something difficult to deal with had happened.Regarding these, I never take the initiative to ask, so as not to be annoying, I just stay by my side obediently to make him happy. If he is willing to speak, I will listen to him carefully. If he is unwilling to speak, I will just snuggle up to him The little pet in his arms, or simply show him dancing with his bare butt and bow tie.

I can always find a way to please him, thanks to his liking for me, he seems to be happy no matter what I do.

Mr. Tang's dullness aroused my curiosity. I came from the bedroom to the living room, and called him cautiously in front of the hall light. He held me in his arms, gently hugged me, and said, "I'll go wash first."

I'll go take a bath first, this is a secret signal we gradually developed, if you say this sentence, there will be ups and downs after washing, otherwise he will just go to take a bath silently and won't mention it to me.

His meaning is very clear, I will wash first, you are ready to serve me.

I didn't have any hesitation, anyway, I had already washed myself clean, and I longed for Mr. Tang's sexy body, and I could be happy whenever I wanted.I even looked forward to it. Mr. Tang has been very busy recently, and we haven't had any passion for a long time.

There was the sound of water in the bathroom. Mr. Tang liked to hum songs while taking a shower, but he didn't make any sound today.I wanted to sneak into the bathroom and give him a sensual surprise in the shower, but after thinking about it carefully, his mood today was really abnormal, so I gave up this ambiguous trick, and put the pillow and quilt in peace Well, welcome to the next passion.