Male heart trembling

Hearing the word "failure", my mood plummeted.Why live up to it?Is he finally tired of playing with me?Had my face and my body no longer attracted him?Or did he find a bigger boy who was more attractive than me?

To live up to means to be abandoned, that's how I understand it.

I walked away from him, like a white rabbit with drooping ears, like a puppy walking out of the water, lost its soul, lost its appearance, probably showing a bit of aggrieved and helpless.And it was this kind of performance that perhaps disturbed Mr. Tang's greatest weakness towards me. He pulled me back to his side and into his arms again.

I didn't cry, although my nose was a little sore, but I didn't cry after all, because I was a little puzzled, if Mr. Tang didn't want to play with me anymore, and wanted to kick me away and replace it with another fresh big boy, he wouldn't You should still let me come, you shouldn't still hug me to relieve the pain in your heart, let alone hold me in your arms at this moment.

I didn't dare to look at him, but he still lifted my chin domineeringly and looked straight at me.What a cruel man, always full of arrogance, and when this arrogance is imposed on me, it is an inescapable vulnerability.I have no time to escape, no time to hide my shyness, I will be forced to face everything that I dare not face the most.

For example, when I took a shower before the first skin-to-skin kiss, I was forced to be looked at by him with a springy look, and I couldn't bear to refuse or say no. As soon as the door opened, I was looked at carefully by him.

For example, when I tasted his body for the first time, I knelt between his legs, stared straight at him and didn't know what to say, and he pressed my head, not allowing a moment of hesitation.But he still wants me to look into his eyes when I feel most humiliated, to look into a domineering and powerful eye that brings me a sense of humiliation.

Later, I fell in love with this man, and under the nourishment of love, all the humiliation became sentimental. I no longer had any shyness, but let go of my body to cooperate with Mr. Tang, to satisfy him, and to be happy myself.

Thinking about it carefully, Mr. Tang's domineering is like a pair of giant hands, pushing me, who is shy and shy, all the way to the road of maturity that I can't turn back.Although I am still a big boy now, I have seen and experienced more and matured more than other big boys of the same age.I was a big boy and gradually became a little man.

I looked into Mr. Tang's eyes, he was calm, even though I had just felt his heart beating faster.This man is always so attractive, even when he opens his mouth to let me down.

Mr. Tang asked lightly: "It's just right, what are you thinking about again? What I said is disappointing, not what you think."

"Then what do you think I think?"

As if I were desperate, I decided to confront Mr. Tang once. Although this is not a confrontation in the strict sense, in our relationship between strength and weakness, it is not easy for me to confront to this extent.

"You must think I'm not going to want you anymore, don't you?"

"Is not it?"

"Of course not, I like you and I won't let you go," he said.

My tears welled up at this moment, not many, just made my eyes moist.I don't know why I cry, is it because I feel lucky that I won't be abandoned?Or is it because you don't want to believe Mr. Tang's sweet words anymore?

I said: "Yeah, it seems that you haven't had enough of me yet, but you're almost done enough, otherwise how could you let me down?"

I have already said this kind of nonsense, but Mr. Tang did not show the anger and fury I thought, but still calmly said to me: "Just right, since I let you come to this apartment, I am no longer I'm playing with you, can't you feel it?"

I didn't know what to say, and all my energy to try to resist was exhausted after those two or three sentences.I am such a person who cannot fight, weak, extremely weak.

Mr. Tang said: "Our acquaintance was indeed a game, but it has changed since then. I think you should be able to feel it."

I sat upright on his lap and put my arms around his neck, like a coquettish child, and asked in a begging tone: "Then why do you say you want to let me down? You have been in a bad mood, and finally you have to say If I live up to the word, can’t I have doubts?”

It turns out that I can act like a baby, as long as I need to act like a baby.It turns out that I can also say Qiong Yao's lines, as long as I don't know what to say.

But I didn't feel sour, and it was still far from the real Qiong Yao's lines, but as a living person, a person like me, it was incredible that I could speak to this level.

Mr. Tang smiled wryly, and said: "It seems that I scared you, don't be afraid, and don't be sad, I have no intention of not wanting you, even if I still play, I'm far from enough, you are so attractive. "

"Then why...why do you want to let me down?"

Mr. Tang motioned me to get off him, then found the phone, and showed me a photo from it.There are two people in the photo, one is Mr. Tang, and the other is a handsome big boy snuggled up to him.