fragrant like sunlight

Those beautiful smiles and eye contact make me willfully want to ask for a response from you.

And the silence when you passed by is like a wordless rejection.

I finally understand that my unwillingness is just an illusion of my wishful thinking.

Want to meet - this kind of hope is intensely filled every day of the holiday.

Finally, the day of school starts, and the seat needs to be adjusted on the first day of the new semester.

Keshan was still in the last row, but instead of the window seat, it was changed to the corner closest to the rear door.Just lean back your chair a bit to see the plants growing in the walkway planters.At the end of winter in February, there are only tenacious green radishes, but the delicate flowers have not yet been seen.

Jiang An moved diagonally forward, and the front row was replaced by an English class representative.

Ke Shan actually still has some memories of the window, but after a day, he is very satisfied with the current seating arrangement.

I thought I would have to wait until the afternoon English class to see Pei Jing, but I didn't expect someone to pat me on the shoulder during the break in the morning.

The moment I turned my head, I saw the person I missed for a vacation without warning. I was completely unprepared, and my heart was beating violently.

At a glance, I found that the teacher's hair was short. The short black hair on the forehead was not neatly cut, but it was unspeakably cute. The disobedient hair on the top of the head was a little mischievously curled up.If it weren't for the teacher's uniform on his body, he would really look like a college student who is still studying.

Pei Jing curled the corner of his mouth, and a sly light shone in his eyes. "You look at the back door this semester?"

Ke Shan was in a trance for a while with this playful and chuckling expression, and he just nodded in a daze.

So Pei Jing smiled and rubbed Ke Shan's head, then walked past him to the English class representative to explain the matter.

Ke Shan touched his hair that was touched by the teacher, his face was flushed, and he lay on the table to secretly look at the teacher's profile.

What should I do, I seem to like it more after meeting.

If Ke Shan had to say what is wrong with this seat, it would be that there are many things to do.For example, I was often used as a microphone by people in other classes, and even called out to help by classmates I didn't know, and I was caught by the sports committee of the next class to play more frequently.

In early March, the sun was shining and warm at noon after the temperature rose.Ke Shan was caught playing a game again during his lunch break, but a small accident happened not long after.The ball bounced out of the hoop and accidentally hit a passing lower-grade girl. Ke Shan accompanied her to the infirmary, but fortunately nothing happened to her.

Ke Shan apologized again on the way back to the classroom, the girl generously said that she didn't mind, and asked Ke Shan a lot of questions, the atmosphere was rather harmonious.In order to accommodate the other party, Ke Shan followed the lower grade side of the corridor, and suddenly ran into Pei Jing who was holding a pile of exercise books.

Pei Jing first looked at Ke Shan in surprise, as if wondering why Ke Shan appeared in the lower grades.Then he glanced at the girl next to Ke Shan, and when he looked at Ke Shan again, there was a mocking look in his eyes.Passed by them without a word.

The moment they passed each other, the silence magnified infinitely, and Ke Shan had a fear that if he was left alone, he would become indifferent. This kind of inner uneasiness even produced the illusion of tinnitus.He didn't have time to pay attention to etiquette such as saying goodbye to the girl next to him, so he turned around and quickly chased after that person.

"Teacher, I'll get it for you." Ke Shan rushed to Pei Jing and took the exercise book.

"Thank you." Pei Jing glanced behind Ke Shan, seemingly hesitating to speak.But I immediately remind myself why I should meddle in my own business. Today's high school students basically have the ability to handle private affairs well, so there is no need to interfere too much as a teacher.

Remembering the teasing look in his eyes just now, Ke Shan took the initiative to explain: "It's not what you think. I have nothing to do with that girl."

Pei Jing smiled, "Don't worry, I'm not so rigid, as long as I can take care of my studies, students fall in love..."

"That's not what I meant." Ke Shan suddenly interrupted Pei Jing loudly.

Pei Jing was taken aback, a little surprised at Ke Shan's almost angry tone, and the hurt look on his face.

Ke Shan was also stunned.

He explained to Pei Jing that it was not because of puppy love, but because he was afraid that he would think that he liked someone else.I was eager to explain the misunderstanding to him, but found that I was not in his consideration at all.For him, he is just a student within his duties, and he doesn't care who he is with.

When I heard him say the word "rest assured", I seemed to be pushed away by him, and all the previous efforts to get closer to him seemed so insignificant.Disappointment, frustration, grievances... The depressed mood hits violently, I feel it personally, and I can't control these strange emotions uncomfortablely, and it's too late to react.

While depressed, there is also a trace of unwillingness.

Ke Shan put the exercise book behind Pei Jing's desk and said in a low voice, "Teacher, you don't understand my mood at all."

This complaining tone left Pei Jing in a state of confusion. After a long time, he frowned and felt bored.

So what are you in the mood for.

After a few days, Pei Jing couldn't help but care about Ke Shan.When I asked him to get up to answer questions in class, his eyes were dim, and he was completely different from the expectant and slightly excited look before.Pei Jing didn't understand what he did that day to make those clear and shining light brown eyes lose their light.

Suddenly, some nostalgia, the dazzling color in his eyes when he smiled.

Jiang An felt that Ke Shan was a little different.Before, he had an indifferent demeanor, making innocuous jokes, and didn't care about anything, whether it was bad or good.But now he could see what he was longing for, as if he couldn't hide his emotions, even the people around him could feel them.become alive.

Jiang An decided to find out when he was free in physical education class.

"Ke San, what happened recently?"

"fine."

"Are you brother? If you have something to say, I will definitely help you, except for borrowing money."

Ke Shan smiled and glanced at Jiang An, "The sun is shining brightly, please give me some water."

"No problem, you can still drink a bottle of water."

Ke Shan stopped in front of the drink cabinet in the canteen, and his eyes could not help but fall on the sports drink that Pei Jing rewarded him during the sports meeting.At that time, Mingming thought that he might be special to him.Ke Shan twitched the corners of his mouth with a wry smile, but still couldn't hold back and took a bottle.

"Why are you drinking this again?" Jiang An asked when paying.

"No way, I like it." Ke Shan shrugged.

Jiang An found that there was one more change in Ke Shan, that is, he started talking about things he likes or is interested in.

Walking out of the canteen, Ke Shan put his left hand on his forehead to block the too dazzling sunlight, and took a sip of his drink. "Actually, I think the taste is average."

"Then you still like it?"

"It would be a pity if you like it just because of the taste."

"Damn it, where did you get your lines?"

Seeing that Ke Shan seemed to be in a much better mood, Jiang An forgot to pursue what he wanted to find out.The two were chatting about some novels they had read recently, when Ke Shan suddenly stopped and looked straight ahead.

Following his gaze, Jiang An saw Pei Jing and another female teacher walking this way. He didn't know what to say, but the female teacher seemed to be smiling happily.

Ke Shan looked at the figures who were talking harmoniously in the distance, and the strong sunlight shrouded them seemed to be mocking him, causing pain in his eye sockets.

"Wow, Teacher Pei is very popular. But it's true, the conditions are so good, there must be many girls who like it." After Jiang An said this, Ke Shan suddenly pulled him to the corner and hid.

"What are you doing?" Jiang An was at a loss.

Ke Shan didn't have the strength to answer, but felt his vision gradually blurred as he leaned against the wall and squatted down slowly.

The unwillingness to stick to it these days is nothing but a mirage built by self-goodness.Only now did I realize that that person never belonged to me, and I was still demanding his response.

I am too capricious, I am too ignorant.

"Ke Shan? You look bad, are you really okay!"

Ke Shan shook his head.Is my current appearance so bad that my classmates will show such worried expressions?

"It's okay, it's just that the sun is a little harsh."

Ke Shan closed his eyes and tightly held the bottle in his hand.Something was stuck in his chest, heavily, depressing his heart.Sadly, I couldn't breathe.

It's such a sad thing to like, I only know now.