wild love theory

132.

Seeing Qi Qing like this, Xu Huansen felt sore and blocked in his heart.He leaned over to pull Qiqing, Qiqing remained motionless, maintaining a collapsed posture, his laughter and crying were so hasty, trembling, he stayed where he was, with nowhere to go.

"I'll take you away, okay?" Xu Huansen's nasal voice was thick, and he seemed to be about to cry, "Don't do this, get up quickly, let's go."

"Are you going to take me away?" Qi Qing raised her face and asked vaguely.

Xu Huansen remembered.In Ponta, Qi Qing asked him this way, and at the bar, he asked him the same way.If he doesn't take him away, who else will take him in?He repented and no longer wanted to follow Tang Yiqu's admonitions and threats, even though he would be repaired miserably in the end.At this moment, he decided to go all out.He is like a generous fighter about to go to battle, heroic and irreversible.

"I'll take you away, Qi Qing. Come with me, okay?"

Qi Qing stretched out his hand tremblingly, and he caught it.

The moment their skins touched, their hearts constricted, and the air in their chests had never been so thin, and they were about to suffocate to death.The pain squeezed the two of them together, gradually moving closer.

Qi Qing quietly followed him home.It was so quiet that Xu Huansen felt distressed.

"Are you hungry?" Xu Huansen clicked on the food delivery app and asked.

Qi Qing shook his head.

Xu Huansen stretched out his arms cautiously and embraced him.Qi Qing leaned against him obediently, with some rare fragility.He couldn't bear it, couldn't bear him being so lost.However, he didn't dare to comfort her easily, for he was afraid that if he said even one wrong word, the scar would be uncovered and bloody.

"If you don't eat, you will be hungry..." Xu Huansen was extremely patient, "If you are hungry, you will have a stomachache. If you have a stomachache, we will need medical treatment, maybe you will have to go to the hospital..."

As soon as she heard the word "hospital", Qi Qing tightened her body nervously and tried her best to curl into his arms, but he was so tall that he couldn't settle in Xu Huansen's arms at all.However, if he does not attach to him, who can he attach to?It was an accident that he was picked up, and he got a happy life that shouldn't belong to him.But did he do something wrong?Was he forcing them to adopt him?

He remembered that when Han Wei asked him if he would go home with him, he was bewitched by the man's tenderness for a moment, so he nodded.He was still a child, and he didn't know what was behind this gentleness. He was bound into a net, and in the net was the car accident that changed everyone.Since then, he lost his parents and brothers, and became an orphan.They raised him and cared for him with guilt. Isn't this also kidnapping him?Aren't they also imprisoning themselves?He grew up in a doting prison, and since then he has lost even the ability to escape.

He suddenly felt impermanence and the sadness from the depths of fate, "Xu Huansen, don't you have anything to ask me?"

Xu Huansen just hugged him tightly and sighed.In fact, he can understand him better than anyone else. When he was a teenager and thought he was the luckiest person in the world, his father died suddenly, his family fell into ruin, his relatives and friends turned against each other for money, and his mother hid from him and cried secretly. .Overnight, he fell from the clouds to the mud.Fate is impermanent, and it is really not something that ordinary people can break.

He clearly saw his grief, just like seeing himself back then, their outlines gradually overlapped and became the same, no matter how hard they struggled, they were still falling and collapsing.Qi Qing is an adult who has delayed growing up, more like a child who doesn't know much about the world.He survived one step ahead of him and got relief.At this moment, he felt extremely distressed for him.

"If you have nowhere to go, just stay with me." Xu Huansen gently stroked Qi Qing's curly hair, it was amazing, as if he learned without a teacher, he could also release his warmth and pity someone.

"Don't be afraid, I'm here, with you, you know? I should like you, but I didn't dare to admit it before, but now I admit that I can't live without you, and you won't go anywhere in the future, Just stay with me, okay?"

Qi Qing was shocked and looked at him in disbelief.He opened his mouth wide, took a deep breath, and murmured: "I...I am useless now, I have nothing left, do you still want me?"

"Fool," Xu Huansen smiled indulgently, "Don't you still have me?"

"With me, isn't that enough?"

Qi Qing sobbed and hugged him tightly, and he shed tears for him again.But this time, there was no hypocrisy, it was not a dream that could be broken immediately, but Xu Huansen's willingness, he waited, even at an inappropriate moment.

Xu Huansen hugged him even harder, hugging him so tightly, wishing to make up for all the hugs he missed before.

133.

Qi Qing hid for two days under Xu Huansen's unprecedented gentle protection, until the evening of the third day, when it was getting dark, Tang Yiqu and Han Wei both arrived.

"Why didn't you answer the phone?" Tang Yiqu asked with a slap in the face.

Qi Qing lowered her head and said nothing.In fact, he was already prepared to be questioned, but when he faced Tang Yiqu and Han Wei, he suddenly realized that everything was more difficult than he imagined.They had been his perfect father, but the reality was nothing more than an illusion.Their love for him is conditional and based on the atonement for Xing Wanghai's father, Xing Yun, who lost control for no reason and destroyed his original family.Both Ye Mi and Ye Ling didn't want to see him, because they would think of the bitter fruit caused by Xing Yun, and if they looked at him more, it would be a reminder to Ling Chi, so they would put the cart before the horse and think that he was the chief culprit of all the misfortunes.So many people died, why was he the only one who survived?

Xing Wanghai's relatives used to just wear a mask to treat themselves well, and they were always regretting and changing their minds in their hearts, just waiting for his mistakes to persecute their interests.For Han Wei and Tang Yiqu, he was never their real child, just an outsider.It's just an altar where one can kneel and kowtow, born of a sense of guilt.

"Do you still want me?" Qi Qing was expressionless.

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Tang Yiqu turned angry, and turned to Xu Huansen, "What kind of ecstasy soup did you drink with him again? What nonsense did you talk about?"

"It has nothing to do with him!" Qi Qing suddenly raised her voice, her tone was sharp, like an ice pick, and began to pierce people's hearts, "Why do you always blame others? Could it be that you did something wrong in the first place? People, in the end, are ridiculously posing as victims!"

Han Wei and Tang Yiqu were stunned at the same time, unable to understand what he was saying.

"I know it all! I remember everything! Stop pretending!"

"Zai Zai," Tang Yiqu stepped forward, wanting to appease the agitated Qi Qing, "What do you know? Tell me well..."

"Don't touch me!" Qi Qing blocked Tang Yiqu's approaching arm in disgust, "...you are deliberately treating me well so that I can't remember it, and make me forget the past. Are you afraid that I will retaliate when I grow up? Are you afraid One day I will find out that Xing Wanghai's father is a murderer! How stupid I am, I have been an accomplice for so many years! I am so self-righteous and treat my enemy as a relative, I am such a bastard, the most hateful bastard in the world...I hate you, I I hate you, why didn’t you kill me together back then? You still pretended to be a Bodhisattva and raised me up?!”

When he spoke these words, his face was distorted because of anger.He thought that venting his resentment would make him feel less pain, but now he was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe, and the pain was so unbearable.He felt that he stepped on a piece of glass and saw the secret truth hidden under the glass, but because he stepped on it, he wanted to see more clearly, so it was crumbling and ready to shatter at any time, so that he would be like the glass, To pieces.

Tang Yiqu walked over unrelentingly, wanting to be the same as before, like a father, to comfort and coax him.But he pushed him away heavily, and even trampled on his father's love without saying a word.

He said: "You are not qualified to be my father, you are the accomplices of the murderer, you deserve to have no children!"

Suddenly, with a slap, Han Wei slapped him, making Qi Qing dumb.This slap was not too hard, but it still left a red mark.

Qi Qing was expressionless and motionless, but she was collapsing inevitably.He lowered his head, the focus of his eyes began to collapse.

Han Wei immediately regretted it.He couldn't bear to see Tang Yiqu's sadness, but he also didn't want to see Qi Qing run away.He was uneasy, the thing he had feared for a long time finally happened. He thought he handled it seamlessly and buried the past intact, but he didn't know which link went wrong, and Qi Qing remembered so many details.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Han Wei said sadly, "Does it hurt? Dad's fault, I was wrong... I hit you when I got excited, forgive Dad..."

Seeing that Qi Qing didn't respond, he wanted to step forward to comfort her, but was blocked by a silent chest.

"That's enough, don't force him anymore, please go back." Xu Huansen said sternly and firmly, "If you really still care about him, then leaving now is the greatest concern for him."

"I..." Han Wei wanted to argue for something, but found himself too bitter to say a word.

Tang Yiqu stopped him, took his hand silently, and passed on the temperature of An Xin to him.

"Let's go, Lao Han, give Zai Zai some time to think clearly."

After speaking, he turned to Qi Qing, took a deep breath, and then slowly let it out, pouring out the words that had been brewing for a long time.

"You can choose not to recognize us, but I want you to believe that although Lao Han and I cannot have a child of our own, we treat you as our own and have always loved you in our own way, no I hope you have a worse life than other children. No, it is because we love you so much that we will do everything we can to protect you and let you live in a vacuum forever without worries. We admit that we have done wrong, I only know that I dote on you blindly, and I don't treat you as a real adult. Then from today, you will grow up."

Xu Huansen sent Han Wei and Tang Yiqu to the entrance.

"No matter when he comes back, we will wait for him." Tang Yiqu walked outside the door, turned around suddenly, and said to Xu Huansen.

Xu Huansen smiled dryly, "You'd better have a chance to say this to him face to face."

Han Wei was reluctant to leave, but he and Tang Yiqu really had no reason to stay.

"Please take good care of him." Han Wei added from the side.

"You don't need to tell me, I will." Xu Huansen vowed.

After closing the door, Xu Huansen leaned against the wall and sighed heavily.Qi Qing was buried on the sofa in the living room, lifeless.Xu Huansen walked over, lowered his head, and observed what was going on with him.Caught off guard, Qi Qing stretched out her hand, wrapped his arms around his waist, and pulled him into the sofa. The two of them pressed against their chests, and their breathing was also entangled.

"I only have you." Qi Qing said next to his neck.

Xu Huansen felt his fear, even his breath trembled.

Is this still love?That glorious, flooded sun that is called upon and adored on stage.

In an instant, the sun sank and everything was darkened.

"Xu Huansen." Qi Qing called his name, "Don't betray me."

Xu Huansen gave a soft "hmm".

Sometimes, you can only have the courage to continue living by constantly asking for affirmative answers like this.

He kissed him gently, kissed his wound, kissed his broken heart.