you are my star

Standing at the door of his house, Zhao Xingjian straightened his slightly wrinkled shirt, then lowered his head to pick out the keys in the pocket of the suit hanging on his arm.

The key went into the hole, and with a "click", the door opened itself from the inside before he had time to turn it.

Zhao Si poked his head and looked out, and saw Zhao Xingjian standing outside the door, so he opened the door with confidence, and said to him, "Dad, why did you come back?"

Zhao Xingjian was stunned for a moment when he saw Zhao Si, and then said seriously, "Why didn't you ask who opened the door casually? How many times have I told you, can't you remember?"

Seeing that Zhao Xingjian was angry, Zhao Si's upturned face drooped immediately, and she whispered, "I'm sorry, I won't do it next time."

"Next time, next time, how can there be so many next times? It's not worrying at all to have such a big child."

Zhao Xingjian was still angry, and walked towards the living room while blaming him.

Zhao Si stepped back tactfully.She didn't dare to refute, because she knew she was wrong.When I was young, I ate candies given by others, and almost left with a strange uncle. If Zhao Xingjian hadn't arrived in time, Zhao Si probably wouldn't have had the chance to see his father again.

So Zhao Si can understand his father's anger very well, but he just doesn't have a long memory.

Zhao Xingjian changed into his slippers, went straight to the sofa, and then slumped on it.

He took off his glasses and put them on the coffee table next to him, stretched out his hand and pinched the bridge of his nose, and then began to close his eyes and meditate.

Zhao Si also jumped onto the sofa, sat next to Zhao Xingjian, and asked him, "Dad, do you want me to rub your shoulders for you?"

Zhao Xingjian said indifferently: "No need."

"Oh." Zhao Si replied disappointedly, without saying anything.

Zhao Xingjian heard her loss, and reached out to pat her head.

Zhao Si's hair was not combed, it was loosely hung on the back of her head, her hair was smooth and smooth, with a hint of coolness, it felt like fine silk and satin, as if it had magical powers to soothe Zhao Xingjian's anxiety at the moment heart.

"By the way, didn't your mother say to take you to the playground today? Why did she send you back again? Where is she?" Zhao Xingjian asked after a while.

"Her husband returned to China today, and my mother said she was going to pick him up and take me out to play another day."

I see.Zhao Xingjian sighed.For Jiang Nan, everything is more important than her daughter.

"When did she send you back?" Zhao Xingjian asked.

"This morning." Zhao Si replied with his head tilted.

Fortunately, it wasn't sent back last night. If Jiang Nan let Zhao Si stay at home all night, Zhao Xingjian would really have to call her and say.

Jiang Nan is Zhao Xingjian's ex-wife. After the two divorced, Zhao Si was raised by herself. Jiang Nan got married later, but the child still missed her mother, so Zhao Si often went to Jiang Nan's place.

"Then you stay at home today. I'll go to bed later. When Sister Feng comes, let her cook for the two of you. You don't have to cook for me. I won't eat. You are not allowed to go out and disturb me. Hear No?" Zhao Xingjian closed his eyes and confessed.

Zhao Sichong made a face at Zhao Xingjian, and said, "I know."

Zhao Xingjian sat up from the sofa, nodded in satisfaction, and then suddenly remembered something, so he added, "Do not open the door to people you don't know."

"Oh, I got it, Dad is really long-winded." Zhao Si became impatient this time.

Zhao Xingjian smiled and licked Zhao Si's head, then went into the bedroom.

He was so tired that when he lay on the bed, every bone, every muscle, every cell in his body was screaming for pain.

Had a crazy time last night.Although it's not like I haven't had drunken sex and one-night stands before, it's really the first time in so many years that I was as crazy as last night.

Zhao Xingjian had a strange sense of familiarity with the man who pressed on him last night, piercing through him again and again, bringing him extreme joy and pain.

Helpless, he was too drunk last night, Zhao Xingjian couldn't remember his appearance at all, he only remembered the man calling his name when he was in love, and the warm hand he inserted into his hair and caressed.

When Yu Chong met Zhao Xingjian in the bar, the other party was lying on the bar counter drunk and unconscious.Yu rushed over to pay the money for him, stopped the man's waist and walked out.

The waiter twitched his lips and muttered in a low voice, "I'm so anxious."

Indeed, Yu Chong was really in a hurry, he never thought that after so many years, he would meet Zhao Xingjian in this kind of place.And the throbbing and enthusiastic memory that was supposed to be wiped away by time clearly appeared in Yu Chong's mind.

Throwing the man into the car, before Zhao Xingjian could react, Yu Chong leaned over to kiss him.He roughly grabbed Zhao Xingjian's hair and forced him to look at him.But Zhao Xingjian drank too much and squinted at Yu Chong, but he still couldn't focus and couldn't speak.

"Zhao Xingjian, didn't you say that you would be better off without me? Then why the hell did you make yourself into such a ghostly person, come to the bar late at night to get drunk, is it too lonely? ?ah?"

The indescribable emotions in Yu Chong's eyes included anger and distress.But he still exerted force and pulled Zhao Xingjian's hair even tighter.Seeing the pain, Zhao Xing groaned in pain.

Yu Chong paused, but still did not let go.

"Why the hell are you pretending to be drunk? Open your dog eyes and look at me. Didn't you say that as long as I get out of the way, you can live well? I'm getting out of here. Now you fucking open your eyes and see , who of us has a better life?"

Yu Chong was a little hysterical. The hot breath he exhaled when he spoke was sprayed on Zhao Xingjian's face, making Zhao Xingjian feel uncomfortable. He twisted his nose and made a painful expression, but Yu Chong grabbed his hair when he wanted to turn his head away. Pulled back.

"You fucking talk!" Yu Chong shouted.

Zhao Xingjian was in a daze and didn't know what happened, but he felt that someone was roughly grabbing him and venting his anger on himself.Seeing that Zhao Xing was already uncomfortable, he frowned even more.

"Are you sick?" Zhao Xingjian couldn't take it anymore, raised his head hard, and said this sentence vaguely. "Get up." Then he reached out and tried to push away the person who was pressing on him.

Helplessly, Yu Chong was stronger, and Zhao Xingjian couldn't push it at all.

"I told you to get off me!" Zhao Xingjian was angry this time.

"Don't you want to find someone to open a room? I am satisfied with you." Yu Chong said jokingly.

Seeing this, Zhao Xing opened his eyes and looked at Yu Chong, but the person in front of him was still blurred. He said word by word, "I'm not looking for you."

"Fuck!" Yu Chong cursed, then lowered his head and gnawed at Zhao Xingjian's lips.There was a burst of alcohol smell, but Yu Chong didn't find it annoying. He pressed Zhao Xingjian's restless arm with one hand, and still grabbed his hair with the other hand, imprisoning Zhao Xingjian in a posture of complete control. Seeing the stars, this gave Yu Chong a strange pleasure.

During the entanglement, Zhao Xingjian's glasses touched Yu Chong's nose, Yu Chong reached out to take them off for him, then Yu Chong stopped and looked down at Zhao Xingjian.

Zhao Xingjian was also looking up at him.

Yu Chong used to think that Zhao Xingjian's eyes were like his name, filled with stars, shining and bright.

Now too.

Uncontrollably, Yu Chong lowered his head and kissed Zhao Xingjian's eyes.

Zhao Xingjian also suddenly became quiet, and let the other party kiss him with his eyes closed.

I can't remember at all how I went to the hotel with that man that night, and how I rolled into bed.I just remembered that when I woke up the next day, that person was gone, and Zhao Xingjian's body seemed to be falling apart, every movement hurts everywhere.

Zhao Xingjian slept until the afternoon and did not wake up. Sister Feng had already left. Zhao Si sat on the sofa and watched TV boredly. When his eyes were tired, he went to the bedroom to draw, and when he was tired, he came out to watch TV. Repeatedly, she herself felt bored.

Seeing Zhao Xingjian's gold-rimmed glasses on the coffee table, Zhao Si curiously picked them up and put them on, then twisted his nose in disgust, "There is no prescription, won't it hurt to wear your nose all day long?" She He muttered something softly, then took off his glasses and put them back in place.

Zhao Xingjian actually has very good eyesight and doesn't need to wear glasses at all, but because she looks small, once when she sent Zhao Si to kindergarten, her teacher thought she was Zhao Si's brother.In addition, he was promoted to be a department manager, and it is hard to be convinced with a student face. Therefore, Zhao Xingjian felt that it was necessary for him to dress up a little older, ah no, a little more mature, so he said nothing He said that he went to the optical shop to get a pair of glasses without prescription, and he has been wearing them until now.

But it was really effective. Ever since he wore glasses, his whole person had an aura of calmness and prestige. Not only Zhao Sihao took care of him, but even his employees were respectful to him.

But Zhao Xingjian doesn't know, his glasses paired with his iceberg face, every time he looks serious in the company's suit and shoes, how scary it is.Several of his little girls called him privately, a gentle scum.

Zhao Si sneaked into Zhao Xingjian's room, then climbed onto his bed, lifted the quilt and got in.Seeing that Zhao Xing was woken up, he was not annoyed, so he let Zhao Si make troubles.

"dad?"

"Ok?"

Zhao Si called Zhao Xingjian, and then stopped talking.

"Ask whatever you want." Zhao Xingjian naturally knew what Zhao Si was thinking. After all, he was the child he brought up with his own hands.

"Will you find me a stepmother?"

really.Zhao Xingjian smiled, and played around with one finger around Zhao Si's long hair.

"If I want to find a stepmother for you, can I wait until today? I have too much entertainment recently, so I often come back late, don't worry."

Hearing what Zhao Xingjian said, Zhao Si's tense little body relaxed, and she took advantage of the opportunity to arch into Zhao Xingjian's arms, and said in a muffled voice, "Mom just found a new husband." I don’t want to accompany me, and I don’t want you to do the same.”

Zhao Xingjian's heart suddenly twitched. He gently stroked Zhao Si's hair and said softly, "I'm sorry, Sisi, Dad will definitely accompany you more in the future."

Zhao Si nodded and said, "I love my father the most."

The afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled into the house and shone on the bodies of the father and daughter sleeping in each other's arms, looking so warm.

Zhao Sinuan was so warm that he fell asleep, but Zhao Xingjian didn't feel sleepy at all. He stared out the window blankly. The sunset glow was like fire, reflecting the whole sky incomparably gorgeous, just like that evening many years ago, when the clouds that day were more beautiful than they are now. Even more beautiful.