you are my star

Zhao Xingjian's hometown is in a small county in the north.His father is a policeman, and his mother is a female worker in the workplace. Although the family is not considered rich, thanks to the efforts of the family, Zhao Xingjian lived in a building when he was very young. It is a well-off family.

Residential buildings at that time were not like they are now, with more than a dozen or twenty floors at every turn. Basically, six floors were the standard configuration, with two households on one floor, with east and west doors facing each other.Zhao Xingjian lived on the fourth floor, neither high nor low, so climbing the stairs would not be so tiring.

The mother Zhao Xing met had very few relatives, and he only had one uncle, and because they were far away, they had little contact.But Dad's side is very lively. His father is the second child in the family. Zhao Xingjian also has an uncle and an uncle. The uncle's family has a son and a daughter, and the third uncle's family is the same as his own, with only one son.However, among the four children of the same generation, Zhao Xingjian is the youngest and the youngest, but at the same time he is also the smartest one. He has good grades since he was a child, and he is also clever, so his family likes him very much, especially his grandma.

When Zhao Xingjian was six years old, the whole family moved from the village to the county seat, but only Zhao Xingjian's family lived in a building, and his grandparents, uncles, three uncles and three uncles lived in a nearby courtyard house.In fact, it is called a courtyard house. To put it bluntly, it is a large one-story house, divided into east rooms, west rooms, and middle rooms.

Zhao Xingjian's building is next to his grandma's house, and he can see it at a glance from his bedroom window.It's just that the house is covered by tall poplar and plane trees, and only the lime-grinded roof and outline can be seen.Looking further into the distance, you can still see the speeding train and the shadowy mountain.

There are few mountains in the plain, even if he only saw the outlines, Zhao Xingjian was very excited. His father knew that he liked mountains, so he often took him for a ride on a motorcycle. Sometimes when he went far, the outlines of those mountains appeared It's getting closer, but it just won't get there.After too many times, Zhao Xing didn't like to go there, he hated this feeling.

He likes to finish his homework every day, lie on the window sill and look in the direction of grandma's house, and listen to the sound of the train in the distance, and after a while, light smoke from cooking comes out from the chimney of grandma's house .

What is the second brother's family eating today?Zhao Xingjian often couldn't help thinking this way, if there is something delicious, he would like to eat again.

Zhao Xingjian and his second brother Zhao Jingchen are only two years apart. They have played together since childhood. Elementary school, junior high school, and high school are all in the same school. They always go to and from school together. It can be said that they have established a deep friendship and are inseparable all day long. Like two brothers.But for the eldest brother and eldest sister, Zhao Xingjian is not so close, I don't know if it is because of the age difference or other reasons, anyway, they just can't get close.

This year, Zhao Xing was in his freshman year of high school, and he couldn't keep up with the new courses.What Zhao Jingchen said was right, the courses in junior high school are not comparable to those in high school, they are not at the same level at all.When Zhao Xing saw it, he scoffed at the time, saying that it was all about studying anyway, so what could be different?But when he really went to high school, Zhao Xing knew that his second brother was right!I used to go to junior high school as if it was just for fun, and I could get into the top three in the grade by just listening to the lectures, but in high school, it was really a bit difficult.

However, Zhao Xingjian has always been a person who refuses to admit defeat. It only took half a semester to catch up with his grades. Although he can't be called a top student, he can still be in the top five in the class.In the only key high school in this county, his grades are completely enough to enter a good university.

Zhao Jingchen was in the third year of high school, and his grades were not bad. Zhao Xing would ask his second brother about anything he didn't understand.It's just that Zhao Jingchen studied literature, and Zhao Xingjian wanted to choose science, which made him rather depressed.

Although Zhao Xingjian and Zhao Jingchen's house looked close, they were actually quite far away. It took a long detour and two traffic lights.Every time he went to school, Zhao Jingchen would wait for him at the entrance of Zhao Xingjian's alley.

The weather is getting hotter and hotter, Zhao Xingjian is not used to taking a nap anymore, because he can't wake up when he sleeps, so he just eats lunch every day for a while, washes his face and then goes out.He didn't want Zhao Jingchen to wait any longer.

When he rode his bicycle to the entrance of the alley, Zhao Jingchen was already waiting there.He parked his bicycle under the willow tree on the side of the road, sat on the seat, put one foot on the curb, and put the other foot on the road to keep his balance. He was holding a book in the shade of the tree Review your homework.

Zhao Xing saw him from afar.Zhao Jingchen was wearing a baggy school uniform, and because of the heat, he rolled up his school uniform sleeves, exposing his strong and thick forearms.

Seeing that he was approaching, Zhao Xing called out, "Second brother."

Zhao Jingchen raised his head upon hearing the sound, and looked at Zhao Xingjian.

The weather was really too hot. There were beads of sweat rolling down Zhao Jingchen's forehead and nose, falling into his eyes, which made Zhao Jingchen blink hard, and then shook his slender head. The splash hit Zhao Xingjian's face.Seeing Zhao Jingchen, Zhao Xing swallowed suddenly.

"Why did you come out so early today? You scared me." Zhao Jingchen said to Zhao Xingjian.

Zhao Xingjian came back to his senses and said, "Aren't I afraid that you will be anxious to wait? Jiang Nan, that dawdler, doesn't know when he will come. I will wait with you. Doesn't it seem that you are not bored, hehe." When Zhao Xing smiled, he showed two small canine teeth, which looked very cute against his age.

Zhao Jingchen smiled at him, then reached out and waved the book in his hand, saying, "If you don't come, I can still read for a while."

Zhao Xingjian also smiled awkwardly, and said, "Look and see, I just don't want to quarrel with you."

Zhao Jingchen is about to take the college entrance examination in less than a month. At such a critical moment, it can be said that he cherishes time like life and races against time.Zhao Xing naturally didn't dare to disturb him when he saw it, and obediently leaned to one side to enjoy the cool.

Zhao Xingjian is really right, Jiang Nan is just a dawdle, a big dawdle!He stood here for a full 10 minutes before the girl hurried over.

"I'm sorry, I took a nap and woke up late." Jiang Nan hurriedly explained out of breath before the car stopped.

"It's getting late, two minutes later, I'm really late." Zhao Jingchen looked at Jiang Nan and said with a smile.

"Two minutes later, I'm really late!" Zhao Xingjian emphasized again.

"Okay, you parrot, your second brother said that I can't do it again, and you say it again?" Jiang Nan's face was flushed red, and he was still panting heavily, but even this did not delay the conversation with Zhao Xingjian bickered.

"Hey, who are you calling a parrot?"

"Say you."

"you……"

Seeing that Zhao Xing was still arguing, Zhao Jingchen pulled his arm forward, "Okay, there's still time to quarrel, and I don't want to check what time it is, I'm really late if I don't leave."

Zhao Xing saw that he was pedaling the bicycle helplessly, and he still didn't forget to turn around and tell Jiang Nan, "Be early next time."

"Oh, I know, it's long-winded." Jiang Nan stuck out her tongue behind Zhao Xingjian.

Zhao Jingchen and Zhao Xingjian rode forward side by side, Jiang Nan caught up, grabbed Zhao Xingjian's arm with one hand, and said to him, "Zhao Xingjian, your mountain bike is so cool, take me for a while, I just came out In a hurry, I rode hard, and now I can’t even use my legs.”

Zhao Xingjian’s mountain bike was a gift from his father when he successfully passed the high school entrance examination, and he didn’t buy it just to impress. There was something in Jiang Nan’s words, so Zhao Xingjian was naturally upset and spoke angrily, “You Don't touch me, I'm hot, if my mother said something happened to us recently, it would be dangerous for a girl to go out alone, I wouldn't bother to wait for you, you girls are troublesome." The mother Zhao Xing met and Jiang Nan's mother Working in a factory, the two families are not far away, and the children are still in the same class, so they are very close.

"Cut, who cares to make you wait."

The two began to quarrel again, Zhao Jingchen shook his head helplessly, and said to Jiang Nan: "Jiang Nan, come to me, I will take you, Zhao Xing sees that the thin arms and legs probably can't take you, don't bother late."

Jiang Nan happily responded to Zhao Jingchen's words, then rode to Zhao Jingchen's arm, and said with a smile, "Thank you, brother Jingchen."

Zhao Xingjian was so angry that his hair was standing on end, he shouted at Jiang Nan from behind, "That's my brother!"

Jiang Nan turned around and made a face at Zhao Xingjian, Zhao Xingjian was so angry that he wanted to hit someone.

Fortunately, the three of them rode their bicycles fast, and there were still 5 minutes before the bell rang when they arrived at school.

Zhao Jingchen went to the school supermarket to buy two bottles of water, unscrewed one bottle and drank it himself, and handed the other bottle to Zhao Xingjian.

Zhao Xing saw it but didn't answer it, his eyes rolled around, not knowing what he was thinking.

"Hold it, what are you doing in a daze? Hurry up and go to the classroom when it's over." Zhao Jingchen urged.

Zhao Xingjian suddenly grinned at Zhao Jingchen, then snatched the bottle of water that Zhao Jingchen drank and ran towards the classroom, "I'll drink your bottle, I'm too lazy to unscrew the cap, thank you second brother."

The voice floated farther and farther away, Zhao Jingchen watched Zhao Xingjian running away like a rabbit, shook his head helplessly at his back, and said to himself, "This brat."

Zhao Xingjian likes Zhao Jingchen, not the kind of liking between brothers, but the kind of liking that wants to be with him forever.I don't know when it started, but by the time Zhao Xingjian realized it, his feelings for Zhao Jingchen had already deteriorated.

Seeing that Zhao Xing had never liked a girl before, the first feeling he had in his ignorance was to his second brother.At first, Zhao Xingjian was also very distressed, but as he grew older, he became more and more clear about his sexual orientation.He's gay, yes, he only likes men.

This is a secret that Zhao Xingjian has, a secret that only he knows.He didn't dare to tell this secret, because he knew that once this secret was revealed, it would set off a bloody storm in this family.