you are my star

Zhao Jingchen didn't bring Zheng Xiang back, Zhao Xing didn't know until he saw him that Zhao Jingchen broke up with Zheng Xiang.

The thing that I was looking forward to so much before happened suddenly, and Zhao Xingjian didn't feel much anymore.He didn't know what kind of feelings he had for Zhao Jingchen now, but he definitely didn't like it, but Zhao Xing doubted it when he saw it. Was it because he didn't like it deeply enough when he said so decisively that he didn't love him?But when I think about it now, it was nothing more than the appearance of another person, which calmed my ignorant and throbbing heart. Now he only has lingering feelings in his heart, and he can no longer pretend to be someone else.

Years later, Zhao Jingchen was invited out for a drink by several high school classmates. It had been a long time since they had seen each other, so he inevitably drank more.Zhao Jingchen couldn't drink, so he was the first one to get down on the ground.

Qi Zihang saw that Zhao Jingchen was uncomfortable lying on the sofa alone, so he thought about calling Zhao Jingchen's family to pick him up, but after thinking about it, he felt that it was not good to trouble the old man so late, he remembered that Zhao Jingchen seemed to have a girlfriend, The Chinese New Year should come back, so I woke up Zhao Jingchen and asked him, "What's your wife's phone number? I'll call her to pick you up. Seeing how cowardly you are, you've only had a few drinks before it's broken." ?”

Zhao Jingchen didn't hear what Qi Zihang said, only heard the word "telephone", so he took out the mobile phone from his pants pocket and handed it over.

Qi Zihang thought to himself, what a master, I'll look for it myself, so he took it and looked through Zhao Jingchen's phone address book.But Zhao Jingchen's habit is not good, there are no notes in his address book, they are all names, Qi Zihang has no idea who is who, let alone find Zhao Jingchen's girlfriend's phone number.

"Zhao Jingchen, I can't find you either. What's your wife's name?" Qi Zihang stretched out his hand and pushed Zhao Jingchen who was on the sofa, and the other party opened his eyes leisurely, and then shouted, "Who is your wife? I His mother has no daughter-in-law, my daughter-in-law ran away with someone."

His voice was loud enough that everyone who was still busy around looked at him.Qi Zihang was embarrassed for Zhao Jingchen, so he quickly asked everyone to stop watching and play with himself, then turned his head to look at Zhao Jingchen, thinking, no wonder he was so drunk, he was cuckolded, and he couldn't help feeling a little sympathy for him again.

Qi Zihang said again into Zhao Jingchen's ear, "Tell me about your parents' phone number, and I'll ask someone to pick you up, otherwise you'll be in a lot of trouble."

Zhao Jingchen raised his head and squinted at Qi Zihang, and then he heard what he said clearly, so he grabbed the phone and flipped through it for a while, then handed it to Qi Zihang, pointed to a phone number on it and said, "Call him."

Qi Zihang looked at the name on the phone, and Zhao Xing saw that it seemed to be Zhao Jingchen's younger brother, so he thought it was reliable, so he dialed it.There was a young boy's voice on the other end of the phone. After hearing the situation clearly, he hurriedly responded, saying that he would come over in half an hour.

After Zhao Jingchen was settled, Qi Zihang continued to play.

Half an hour later, Zhao Xingjian really arrived. When Qi Zihang saw a fair, thin and tall boy coming in, he knew it was Zhao Xingjian, and hurried to help Zhao Jingchen with him.

Someone might have asked Zhao Jingchen about his being cheated on the way, because Zhao Jingchen kept talking to himself, "My wife ran away with someone, my wife ran away with someone."

Qi Zihang cursed secretly, and at the same time sneered at the woman, but what he didn't know was that the daughter-in-law Zhao Jingchen was talking about was actually Zhao Xingjian.

Seeing that Zhao Xing had thanked Qi Zihang, he helped Zhao Jingchen staggered out of the box door.When they got downstairs, Zhao Jingchen vomited once lying on the base of the wall, and then started to mutter about how he was dumped. Zhao Xing felt uncomfortable when he heard that.

Zhao Xingjian wanted to send Zhao Jingchen home, but Zhao Jingchen refused, saying that he didn't want to disturb his parents, so he had to take Zhao Xingjian to the hotel. Zhao Xingjian had no choice but to think it would be inconvenient to go home now, so he simply helped Zhao Jingchen go. The nearest hotel.

After entering the room, Zhao Xing saw that he wanted to wash Zhao Jingchen. He had never seen Zhao Jingchen like this before, and wondered if it was so painful to lose love?I'm not like that either. After thinking about it, I can't break up with Yu Chong, it's just that I can't meet each other recently.

Seeing that Zhao Xing had just turned around, he was pulled back by Zhao Jingchen's arm.Zhao Xingjian was taken aback, and subconsciously called out, "Second Brother..."

Zhao Jingchen pulled Zhao Xingjian to him, hugged his waist and said not to leave.

Seeing helplessness, Zhao Xing sighed and said, "Second brother, I'm not Zheng Xiang, you've got the wrong person."

Zhao Jingchen still didn't let go, kept yelling don't go away, called Zhao Xingjian's name after a while, said something else inexplicably, and then yelled together, "Xingjian, don't go, How can you be with Yu Chong, then what should I do?"

Zhao Xingjian couldn't believe his ears for a moment, he stood there blankly, not sure whether he heard it wrong or understood it wrong, but obviously it was neither.

It turns out that I have never been unrequited love?Zhao Xingjian suddenly wanted to laugh, and also a little bit like crying. When he fell in love with Zhao Jingchen bitterly, he thought that the other party didn't like him. When he finally got out of this relationship and fell in love with another person, he came to follow him again. I say I like it.

Zhao Xingjian felt that God made a big joke on him, but he couldn't laugh.

After helping Zhao Jingchen wipe his face, he regained consciousness a little.Zhao Jingchen leaned against the head of the bed, Zhao Xingjian was sitting on the other bed, the two of them were silent for a while, and then Zhao Jingchen opened his mouth, "Xingjian, I was not joking just now, I know you like me, I already knew .”

Zhao Xingjian had guessed something a long time ago, so he was not surprised to hear Zhao Jingchen say that at this moment. He just smiled helplessly, and then asked, "That's why you wanted to avoid me. Did you think I was perverted at the beginning?"

Zhao Jingchen shook his head, sighed, and his consciousness became clearer, "I'm not avoiding you, I'm avoiding myself, I don't know if it's because we got too close since we were young, and I don't know if you misjudged me feelings, but I know very well that I have feelings for you that I shouldn't have."

Zhao Xingjian listened quietly, and began to think back on his previously ignorant feelings, but he couldn't find a clear segment or node, feeling vague and unrealistic.

"Later I made a girlfriend, firstly to make you give up, and secondly to make me feel at ease. I always thought that I should like girls, and I am also very happy with Zheng Xiang." Zhao Jingchen said while watching Zhao Xing glanced at him and found that the other party had his head down and didn't know what he was thinking, so he continued, "But I can't deceive myself, I have never been in love with Zheng Xiang, the more I restrain myself from thinking about you, you The more it appeared in my mind, I was afraid that I would not be able to restrain myself, I was afraid of misleading you, so I kept holding back from contacting you until I knew that you were with Yu Chong..."

The more Zhao Jingchen spoke, his voice became softer, until he talked about Yu Chong, the voice gradually faded away.He wanted to vomit again, bent over and started to vomit, Zhao Xingjian quickly got up and went to the bathroom to get a basin, and ran over to catch it for him.

He vomited again, rinsed his mouth, Zhao Jingchen sat up straight, and suddenly pulled Zhao Xingjian who was beside the bed into his arms. Zhao Xingjian didn't know what Zhao Jingchen wanted, so he could only call his second brother and push him hard.

"Why can't he do it and I can't!" Zhao Jingchen yelled violently, and slapped Zhao Xingjian with his hands. He slapped Zhao Xingjian a little hard this time. His face was red with palm prints.

After reacting for a while, Zhao Xingcai looked at Zhao Jingchen dumbly, and said to him, "Second brother, you drank too much..."

"Don't call me second brother, I'm not your second brother!" After Zhao Jingchen hit Zhao Xingjian, he was quiet at first, but when Zhao Xingjian opened his mouth, he became hysterical again, "I'm not your second brother. She was pregnant with me, and my surname is not Zhao at all. How can I be your elder brother? My parents kept it a secret in order not to make grandma sad, so I am not your second elder brother!" Zhao Jingchen pushed Zhao Xing to see his stiff body, and stared at him His eyes said, "Xingjian, we don't have any blood relationship, do you know that?"

Zhao Xingjian's head can no longer hold too many things, and it is still "buzzing" at this moment, making him unable to think about any problems at all. He feels that he has lived a bit too "exciting" during this period. It should happen, What shouldn't have happened has happened, what should have been experienced, what shouldn't have been experienced, has also been experienced. He suddenly remembered that Yu Chong asked himself before, when you were with me, were you happy?Zhao Xingjian thought, the days with Yu Chong were really the happiest.

Forcefully breaking away Zhao Jingchen's hand holding his arm, Zhao Xing walked out as if he had lost his soul. He didn't want to stay in this room anymore, not even for a second.

Zhao Jingchen also lost his soul, and wanted to ask Zhao Xing to see him, but he couldn't move his legs no matter what.

When he woke up the next day, Zhao Jingchen remembered the bastard thing he did the night before. He went to see Zhao Xing again, apologized to him, and told him not to say that he was not Zhao Haicheng's biological son. , Zhao Xing saw that he was packing up the books he was going to bring to school the next day, and nodded after Zhao Jingchen finished speaking, and said, "I know."

Zhao Xingjian's attitude was neither salty nor insipid, and he was no longer the excited and cautious look he faced before. Zhao Jingchen felt somewhat uncomfortable when he saw Zhao Xingjian like this. He felt that Zhao Xingjian seemed to have grown up all of a sudden, changed You have to make yourself feel strange.

Zhao Jingchen liked Zhao Xingjian, but in the current situation, what he said and what he did seemed inappropriate. The university started late, and Zhao Jingchen wanted to stay at home for a while. He told Ye Shuya that he would take Zhao Xingjian to and from school these days. Let Ye Shuya rest more, Ye Shuya is naturally willing, grateful and sad.

In this way, Zhao Jingchen waited downstairs at Zhao Xingjian's house every day before dawn, walked him to school, and picked him up after school at night.The two of them tacitly did not mention what happened that night when Zhao Jingchen was drunk. They each had their own thoughts, and they usually kept silent.

Zhao Xingjian became so quiet, which made Zhao Jingchen feel distressed. During this period of time, his father's illness, and the matter with Yu Chong, weighed on Zhao Xingjian like two mountains, making him a little out of breath.Zhao Jingchen felt uncomfortable when he thought of Zhao Xingjian, who was alive and kicking like a little monkey in the past.