you are my star

"Fuck!" Yu Chong cursed suddenly, then pinched Zhao Xingjian's chin with one hand and pushed him against the wall. He approached Zhao Xingjian, stared into his eyes and asked, "Then why are you raising the child for Zhao Jingchen?" Huh? Why?" Yu Chong said while exerting force on his hands, he forced Zhao Xingjian to look up at himself, Zhao Xingjian was lifted up by Yu Chong's chin, and his feet were slightly off the ground.

"Yu Chong, it hurts..." Seeing two hands grasping Yu Chong's wrist, Zhao Xing said with some difficulty, "I don't know, but I really don't like Zhao Jingchen. I haven't liked Zhao Jingchen since I was with you." He's gone, listen to me explain..."

Seeing Zhao Xing crying out in pain, Yu Chong relaxed a little, but after seeing Zhao Xing's face, he couldn't calm down, "You don't like him, you raise a child for him, if you like him, do you want to give him a child?" Have a baby? Huh?" He said excitedly, and the strength in his hand was unconsciously increased, "Don't you want to explain, I will give you a chance, explain."

Yu Chong knew that he was impulsive again, but he couldn't help it. Zhao Jingchen was a thorn in his heart. When he heard that Zhao Si was Zhao Jingchen's child, he was about to go crazy. He tried to restrain himself, but it was useless.

Zhao Xingjian was trying to think about something in his head, and he didn't know how to explain it. He was so confused, how could he explain it to Yu Chong?He looked at Yu Chong's face flushed with anger, his thick eyebrows were wrinkled, and his long and narrow eyes were shining dangerously, he was angry again.But Zhao Xingjian didn't know how to explain it, he looked at Yu Chong and said calmly, "I forgot..."

"See you, Zhao Xing!" Yu Chong suddenly called Zhao Xingjian's name loudly, and then said to him in a sad tone, "Can you stop teasing me, can you give me some dignity?"

Seeing that Zhao Xing raised his eyes, those eyes were filled with tears again. It was really pitiful to look at. Yu Chong looked at him for a while, and then asked him, "How many people have you seduced with your eyes? I, Zhao Jingchen, Ma Weixu, who else?"

Seeing that Zhao Xing didn't speak, he looked at Yu Chong's bloodshot eyes and his haggard and sad face, and suddenly felt distressed. He leaned forward to kiss Yu Chong, but Yu Chong avoided it with his face turned sideways.

Yu Chong let go of Zhao Xingjian, threw him aside, and said, "If you forgot, go back to the room and think about it. After you figure it out, how to explain it to me before you come out."

Seeing that the outstretched hand stopped in the air, Zhao Xing looked at Yu Chong's side face, then nodded, turned and entered the bedroom.

Zhao Xingjian felt that his head was going to explode, he shook his head hard, then tremblingly went to the bedside to get his mobile phone, he turned to Zhao Jingchen's number, dialed him, but found that it was an empty number, Zhao Xingjian hung up Yes, and then dialed it again. This action was repeated more than a dozen times, and he finally gave up.

Zhao Jingchen, where are you...

Zhao Xing saw that he had been sitting on the bed for a whole day, and it was getting dark outside, so he opened the door and came out.

Yu Chong sat against the wall at the door, with cigarette butts all over the floor. He saw Zhao Xingjian come out, stubbed out the cigarette in his hand, stood up from the ground, pinched Zhao Xingjian's chin and looked at his face, and found that he was just eyes. I was swollen from crying, so I felt relieved, and said to Zhao Xingjian in a hoarse voice, "Go take a bath first."

Zhao Xingjian nodded, then went to the bathroom with heavy steps.

In the middle of washing, Yu Chong came in. He hugged Zhao Xingjian in his arms, and then pressed against the wall and tossed hard.Yu Chong was crazy this time, with a lot of strength, he didn't say a word and just pushed hard. Zhao Xing knew that Yu Chong was feeling bad, so he followed him in everything.

After finishing the bathroom, Yu Chong hugged Zhao Xingjian to the bed again. The two of them were still wet. Zhao Xingjian rubbed against the sheet uncomfortably. Yu Chong wrapped Zhao Xingjian in the sheet and dried him, then wiped the wet The bed sheet was torn off, thrown on the ground, and pressed down again.

Seeing that Zhao Xing hadn't slept all night, and was tortured in the bathroom just now, he had already lost his strength, tired and sleepy, and couldn't even open his eyes.Before Yu Chong reached the end, Zhao Xingjian arched his stomach and convulsed. Yu Chong pinched his waist and pushed him back to the bed. Crying, "Yu Chong, don't, don't..."

Yu Chong didn't let him go either.

His stomach convulsed again. Zhao Xingjian was afraid that he would not be able to bear the loud noise, so he pulled the corner of the quilt and bit it into his mouth. He kept scratching the bed with his hands. He scattered the quilt. Xing Jian's hand held both of his wrists, and started another round of offensive.

Zhao Xingjian didn't know how long he had been floating in the sea of ​​desire. He only knew that in the end, he couldn't even cry, he didn't have any strength in his body, and he couldn't even open his eyes.

Yu Chong just ended, and leaned over to press Zhao Xingjian again. Zhao Xingjian thought that Yu Chong was going to ask again, so his body trembled sensitively.

"Hey, don't do it anymore." Yu Chong whispered softly in Zhao Xingjian's ear, and Zhao Xingjian's body relaxed.

After a while, when Zhao Xingjian was in a daze and was about to fall asleep, he felt Yu Chong pressing his forehead against his own, and then said to himself, "Zhao Xingjian, are you relying on me liking you to make the decision?" Dare to stab a knife in my heart again and again."

Zhao Xingjian shook his head, wanted to speak but could not make a sound.

"Whoever Zhao Si's child is, I don't care if she is your child with another woman, but why..." Yu Chong gritted his teeth while talking, "But why is she Zhao Jingchen's child, why is she the child of Zhao Jingchen? ...You asked Zhao Jingchen's daughter to call you father, see Zhao Xing, what do you want me to do?"

Yu Chong was stunned for a while, and then murmured, "Zhao Si, Zhao Si... Who misses whom? Zhao Jingchen? Hehe..." He has always believed in Zhao Xingjian, whether Zhao Xingjian will tell the past, He doesn't ask.He knew that Zhao Xing met Zhao Jingchen because Zhao Jingchen left him, but he didn't know why they couldn't get together later, and when they met again, he rushed forward again desperately. He was even dazzled by this lost and found happiness. When I hugged myself and said "I love you" over and over again, I didn't even think about whether he had said that to Zhao Jingchen, why he suddenly responded to me, whether he really let go of Zhao Jingchen, The person he loved since he was a child... He remembered Jiang Nan's words again, and he also wanted to ask Zhao Xingjian if Zhao Jingchen would still be with him if he didn't die.

Yu Chong felt that he was still stupid.

Seeing that Zhao Xing heard Yu Chong talking to him in a daze, but couldn't hear clearly, he wanted to open his eyes to look at him, his eyelids were so tired that it didn't look like his own, and he couldn't open them no matter what, he only knew Yu Chong's tone was sad , Knowing that he is sad, I want to hug him, but I can't lift my hand.

"Do you think I really can't live without you? Do you think I can't live without you?" Yu Chong asked again.

Zhao Xingjian shook his head in panic, calling Yu Chong's name.

Seeing Zhao Xingjian like this, Yu Chong bowed his head and kissed him lightly on the forehead, then got up to leave, but Zhao Xingjian hugged his neck, "Yu Chong don't go, Yu Chong, don't leave me... "

Seeing that Zhao Xingjian's eyes were still closed, Yu Chong knew that he was very tired and should still be asleep. He looked at him complicatedly for a while, then broke away Zhao Xingjian's arms around his neck, got up and got out of bed, put on Clothes, open the door and leave.

When Zhao Xingjian woke up, it was already the morning of the next day. He habitually looked for Yu Chong, but the bed beside him was empty and cold, so there was no Yu Chong.

Zhao Xingjian suddenly sat up from the bed, took the phone and called Yu Chong, but the phone was turned off, Zhao Xingjian called again, but it was still turned off.

"Yu Chong, Yu Chong, don't leave me..." Zhao Xingjian's voice was trembling, and the hand making the call was also trembling. Tears were streaming down his face, but he didn't bother to wipe them off.

The head began to sink into boundless dull pain again, Zhao Xingjian suddenly threw the phone away, bumped his head against the head of the bed like crazy, and shouted while bumping, "What the hell is going on, can someone tell me... ..."

The whole bed was shaken by Zhao Xingjian's bump. Blood oozes from his forehead, but he can't feel any pain. The pain in his head, like ten thousand ants climbing and biting, has occupied all Zhao Xingjian's consciousness. The strength is getting stronger and stronger, and I can't wait to knock myself out, so as to relieve this painful sadness.

But he still didn't faint, but he lost his strength in the end, and he slid down the bed. He buried himself in the quilt, which seemed to still have the smell of afterglow. He took a few greedy breaths, and then He slowly closed his eyes.

Zhao Xingjian seemed to have another very long dream, which was his life in college, and Zhao Jingchen who suddenly disappeared in his world also appeared in this long dream...