you are my star

After Yu Chong came out from Zhao Xingjian's house, he turned off his mobile phone and didn't dare to go home. He didn't know what he was running away from. Zhao Xingjian couldn't explain it to him, so he could only think about it over and over again. Zhao Jingchen's daughter, now that Zhao Jingchen is dead, Zhao Xingjian helped him raise his daughter... Zhao Xingjian's cold temper, if he didn't love him, he wouldn't have made it this far...

Yu Chong was even afraid to hear such a fact from Zhao Xingjian's mouth. He couldn't compete with Zhao Jingchen when he was alive, but now that he is dead, how can he argue with him?

Li Yiwei had an empty house on the outskirts of the city, and Yu Chong didn't dare to go home, so he lived there temporarily.Li Yiwei looked at Yu Chong and turned himself into a half-dead look again. Although he didn't know the ins and outs, he knew that he must have something to do with Zhao Xingjian. For so many years, every time Yu Chong did this, it was because of Zhao Xingjian. .

Li Yiwei got married last year, and he learned a new word from his wife. He looked at Yu Chong because Zhao Xingjian hid at home every day to get drunk, and even ignored his work. His wife said, this is called love brain.

In fact, Li Yiwei has never understood, since their student days, he has not understood, what kind of magic power does this Zhao Xingjian have that can make Yu Chong so fascinated? There is no difference between boys. If you have to say something is different, it is nothing more than that he is more delicate and gentle than other boys of the same age, and there is nothing else.

Yu Chong has locked himself in the house for three days. He asked Li Yiwei to buy some wine for him, and used it every day to relieve his worries. In the end, the beer bottles and cans were piled up on the ground, and there was nowhere to stay.Li Yiwei was afraid that Yu Chong would drink himself to death if this continued, so he refused his request to let him buy wine again, and then called Yan Hui to ask her to come and take care of Yu Chong.

Yu Chong hadn't shaved his beard, didn't change his clothes, pulled off his tie and threw himself on the sofa, no longer his usual high-spirited appearance, no different from those drunks on the street.

"I said buddy, can you be a little promising? If you have a misunderstanding, explain it, if you have a conflict, break up, don't make yourself half dead, okay?" Li Yiwei couldn't stand it anymore, and sat next to Yu Chong to persuade him.

"You know what a fart." Yu Chong said unhappily to Li Yiwei, hiccupped and said, "If others don't know, can you know? He Zhao Xingjian is half my life. Without him, I will be half dead." ?"

Although Yu Chong couldn't see, Li Yiwei still rolled his eyes at him.With Yu Chong like this, Li Yiwei knew that what he said was useless, so he got up and took his clothes and left. He still had to earn money to support his family, so he didn't dare to spend so much time with Yu Chong.

Ever since Yan Hui answered Zhao Xingjian's call that day, she has been looking for Yu Chong. There was no one at home, and he didn't answer the phone. When Yan Hui was wondering where he had gone, Li Yiwei called.She had already prepared to go abroad in the past few days, but she couldn't ignore Yu Chong, refunded her ticket and went directly to Li Yiwei.

The doorbell rang outside for a long time, and Yu Chong couldn't stand the noise, so he got up from the sofa and prepared to open the door.As soon as he opened the door, he saw his mother standing outside the door.

When Yu Chong saw Yan Hui, he immediately collapsed. He was about 1.8 meters tall, slumped on Yan Hui's shoulder, and called him hoarsely, "Mom..."

Yan Hui patted Yu Chong's head, then carried him into the room with difficulty until he was placed on the sofa in the living room.She glanced at the countless wine bottles piled up on the floor, and then at Yu Chong's face, which was tossing herself into a ghost, and sighed helplessly, then turned and went into the bathroom, intending to get some water for her. Yu Chong wiped his face.

When the warm towel touched his face, Yu Chong woke up a little bit. He closed his eyes and called Zhao Xingjian's name, which made Yan Hui even more uncomfortable.

"Xingjian is looking for you all over the world in a hurry, what's the matter with you, why are you arguing when you are doing well?" Yan Hui grabbed Yu Chong's hand to wipe it again, and asked him while wiping it.

Yu Chong heard someone talking next to him, so he slowly opened his eyes, and when he opened his eyes, he saw his mother sitting next to him, pursing his lips and about to cry.Yan Hui seldom saw Yu Chong in such a fragile state. She had put all her heart on Yu Cheng before. Although she had fulfilled the responsibility of a mother to Yu Chong, she still cared too little for him on weekdays, so that Yu Chong was not very close to her when he was young.Yan Hui doesn't like children, and knows that she is cold-tempered, but the older she gets, the more her motherhood seems to be stimulated. Not only does she look at Yu Chong, but now even Zhao Xing sees her as her own. I don't know, but she knows the suffering of the two children best. It's really not easy for them to get together now. She doesn't want to see them separated because of some misunderstanding.

Seeing Yu Chong's aggrieved appearance, Yan Hui put down the towel and touched his face and asked him, "What's wrong, son? Tell Mom."

"Mom..." Yu Chong called her again, and before Yan Hui agreed, he said in an aggrieved tone, "Zhao Jingchen is dead."

Yan Hui's hand paused.She knew about Zhao Jingchen, when Yu Chong broke up with Zhao Xing, when they arrived in America, Yu Chong just threw things in the room and shouted, how am I not as good as Zhao Jingchen?

"Mom, do you think the living are better than the dead?" Yu Chong was still lying on the sofa, his eyes looked over, and the sadness in his eyes couldn't be concealed.

Yan Hui rubbed Yu Chong's face, and asked him, "What's the matter? Xing Jian told you that he still likes Zhao Jingchen, so he can't forget him?"

Yu Chong heard his mother ask this question, tilted his head and thought for a while, and then said, "He said he likes me..."

Although Yan Hui didn't know what happened between the two of them, she knew it was another misunderstanding.Zhao Xing saw that she didn't know, but Yan Hui understood Yu Chong's temperament.Yu Chong, just like his name, has been impulsive since he was a child. Sometimes when he encounters things that he can't bear in principle, he will explode as soon as he says it. She even regrets it now, why she gave him such a name.

"If he likes you, it's all right? Living or dying is not the measure of loving a person. Some people have become cinnabar moles, while others have passed away. Isn't it important to cherish the talents in front of you? Xingjian knows better than you This is the truth." Yan Hui went to get the towel on the tea table, and wanted to wipe Yu Chong's face again.

"But Zhao Si is Zhao Jingchen's daughter." Yu Chong said again, his tone was quite calm.

Yan Hui's hand stopped again, she thought for a while, and said to Yu Chong, "Didn't you say before that you don't care whose daughter Zhao Si is? You said that as long as you can see Zhao Xing again, you don't care. forget?"

Yu Chong suddenly sat up from the sofa, Yan Hui was taken aback by him, and Yu Chong said excitedly, "I don't care who Zhao Si is the daughter of Zhao Xingjian, but why is it Zhao Jingchen's? Mom, Do you know how I feel? I am afraid to see Zhao Xingjian now, I am afraid that he will tell me that he raised the child for him because he cannot forget Zhao Jingchen, I am too scared, you know..." Yu Chong's voice trembled , the whole shoulder trembled slightly, Yan Hui gently held Yu Chong's hand, and moved closer to him, gently stroking his back with the other hand.

"Then what's the use of avoiding him? It's better to talk about it. Whether you love it or not is a matter between two people. If he likes you, you can't drive him away. If he doesn't like you, You can't grab it." Yan Hui thought about what Zhao Xingjian said to her that day that he loved him even more deeply, and thought about his expression when he heard her talking about Yu Chong, knowing that the child had Yu Chong in his heart. of.

Although Yu Chong drank, his mind was still clear. After he was excited, he gradually calmed down after listening to what his mother said to him.

Zhao Xingjian has thought a lot these past few days, and remembered many things again. Although he is still sad, he is better than chaotic. Get used to it.

In the years when his family suffered from accidents, Zhao Xingjian really felt that he would collapse at any time. Without Yu Chong around him, he didn't even have a person to confide in. If it wasn't for Zhao Si, Zhao Xingjian really didn't know that he could Can't get over it.

Zhao Xingjian didn't have trouble with himself, and the guilt towards Zhao Jingchen was not for no reason. He knew that Zhao Jingchen resented him and hated him, because in the first few years, Zhao Jingchen came to Zhao Xingjian's dream almost every night and asked him, why did you kill me? .Zhao Xingjian was really scared. Alcohol and sex couldn't bring him a moment of relief. This feeling of living in guilt and fear all the time almost drove Zhao Xingjian crazy. That's why he Will choose to forget.

I took the time to go back to the place where I used to live, where it was demolished and built, and it is no longer what it used to be.Yu Chong's family's villa is gone. Zhao Xingjian still remembers when Yu Chong left the country and stood in front of his house, feeling empty in his heart.

Somehow, they made a detour to the big road behind their house. The road was still there, and it was wider.The acacia tree beside the road is still there, but the gazebo is gone.

Zhao Xingjian stood under the tree blankly, thinking about those people or things he met in his student days, and suddenly felt that everything in the past was like a big dream.

Zhao Xingjian's forehead was smashed by him last time, and he didn't bandage it in time and went to take a shower to blow it out. In the past two days, he suddenly became infected.He was sitting on the sofa putting a Band-Aid on himself when he heard a knock on the door outside.Seeing that Zhao Xing intuitively thought it would be Yu Chong, he put on his shoes and hurried over to open the door.

But as soon as he opened the door, his smile froze.

When Ma Weixu saw Zhao Xingjian, his eyes lit up. Without waiting for Zhao Xingjian's reaction, he pushed him inside, then went straight into Zhao Xingjian's bedroom and took a look, and then went to the bathroom to take a look. The man turned around and looked at Zhao Xing with a smile, "Is that man gone? I have been observing for several days, but he hasn't come back for several days, right? There is no car, no shoes outside, and no shoes in the room. It's so abnormal, did you break up?" He approached Zhao Xingjian while asking.

Zhao Xingjian was afraid from the moment he saw Ma Weixu. He had seen Ma Weixu's abnormality before, but he never thought that he would monitor him all the time. It was simply too scary.Seeing that Zhao Xing turned around and was about to run out the door, Ma Weixu caught up and grabbed his arm and dragged him back. He forced Zhao Xing to face him. He saw a band-aid on his forehead, but Zhao Xing saw that it was crooked. , revealing a small scar with bright red edges.

Ma Weixu suddenly became excited. He looked at this small piece of dark red against Zhao Xingjian's haggard porcelain-like skin, and suddenly felt dry mouth. Then, regardless of Zhao Xingjian's struggle, he pulled someone to press His head just started licking the wound on his forehead.

At this moment, Ma Weixu kept licking Zhao Xingjian's wound like a poisonous snake spitting out a letter. Zhao Xingjian felt very sick when he saw the pain, and arched his back to hide from him.Ma Weixu stopped suddenly, then grabbed Zhao Xingjian's hair and made him face him. He held Zhao Xingjian's hand with his other hand and asked him to touch his head, "Touch it, you hit me last time The hole in the hole is still not healed, Xing Jian, why are you injured now, who hit it? That man?"

Zhao Xingjian looked at Ma Weixu's ugly and wretched face in front of him, trembling with anger, he gritted his teeth and said, "Let me go."

Ma Weixu hates the way Zhao Xingjian looks at him. There is disdain, contempt, and even disdain in those eyes. When he looked at that man, it was obviously not like this. It was obviously vivid. His eyes were flowing and affectionate. I have secretly seen them kissing in the car a few times, and Zhao Xing saw being imprisoned in that man's arms, he enjoyed it, why couldn't he?

"Is he richer than me?" Ma Weixu did not let go of Zhao Xingjian, but pulled his hair to bring his face closer to him, "You are not a woman, why do you also learn to cling to the rich and powerful?" , you also need a man to support? Huh?"

Zhao Xingjian was grabbed by Ma Weixu's hair and was forced to look up. The wound on his forehead started to bleed again because of Ma Weixu's touch just now. The blood flowed down Zhao Xingjian's forehead, over his eyebrows, and over his eyes. , Flowing all over the face.

"It's so pretty." Ma Weixu said, "Xing Jian, you're so pretty."

Zhao Xingjian felt that Ma Weixu was crazy, and he didn't want to be crazy with him, so while Ma Weixu was in a daze, he stepped on his foot hard, making the other party loose, then he broke away from Ma Weixu and ran out the door.

Ma Weixu only reacted for a few seconds, then rushed forward and dragged Zhao Xingjian back, cursing, "Bitch!"