Meet·Lijiang

The two finally sat in a small barbecue restaurant by the Erhai Sea. The simple shed built with generous umbrellas was surrounded by a circle of canvas to keep out the wind. There are too many, so it seems very quiet, only the smell of charcoal in the air, and the faint smell of barbecue quietly wafting far away.

On both sides of the strip-shaped low wooden table, Zhuang Zijing and Yan Yu sat down.The store greeted the two of them, opened a bottle of warm soy milk for them, and then returned to the grill to get busy.

"Everyone should do what they should do." Zhuang Zijing said while holding the cup. The soy milk in the cup was still hot, just enough to warm her hands.

"Then what should be done?" Yan Yu didn't move, letting the soy milk in the cup in front of him steam.Her eyes fixed on Zhuang Zijing stubbornly.Zhuang Zijing was a little different tonight, her mood was flat and slow, and she was obviously well prepared for this conversation, which made Yan Yu feel that she might be facing an important conversation.

"Do what makes you happy." Zhuang Zijing looked at her.

"You are my happiness, without you, where would my happiness come from?" Yan Yu's answer was very firm.

Zhuang Zijing shook her head: "That's just your obsession. You think it should be like this, so you take this as the goal of your behavior. In fact, maybe no one has to get someone to be happy. Yang Hui once told me about The logic of love. She said, if you like it, go after it, and if you can’t catch it, give up. If you catch it, you should understand it well. After understanding it, if there is something bad, then you can adjust it. If you can’t adjust it, then break up. And I There will be no future with you, so I will not be your happiness."

"I can fight, I can do better than her. I will not lose to her." Yan Yu said with a frown.She couldn't accept that she lost to that country car repairman.So even though Zhuang Zijing said it so firmly, Yan Yu still felt that it was not true.

Zhuang Zijing smiled: "There is no one who loses to whom, only who is more suitable for whom. A lot of things have happened in the past few months, I have thought a lot, this time I am not blind, I know exactly what I want What kind of life do I want to be with, and what kind of person do I want to be with. I know you can’t understand that I choose Yang Hui, but what I hope you understand is that for me, to be a calm and free person, to go The most important thing is to enjoy the life you want, which has nothing to do with family background, education, work or income. It has nothing to do with your sincerity."

"Isn't it just because of novelty?" Yan Yu gripped the edge of the table very hard.

"Of course not. I have thought about this question very seriously. Is my liking for her a temporary liking, or is it true from the bottom of my heart? I also thought that if she is just my temporary need, then can we go to the end? , In short, I think more than you worry about, and my final conclusion is to be a happy person, live the life I want to live, like the person I like, and love hard.”

"You are not worthy at all." Yan Yu's voice was not loud, but he spoke very forcefully.

Zhuang Zijing finally found out that what she said to her these days might not make much sense, people are different, running through the whole world with a kind of logic might only appear in novels, she sighed: "I have read My adoptive mother didn't speak, because I finally realized that we are not in the same world, I can't change her, and I can't save her, so I learned to let go. And today I want to have a good chat with you and I don't expect you I really came to my senses and let it go. But at least I want to try, because... I have loved. So I hope you can live well. So I hope that person who used to be very chic and arrogant will return to your body, Yan Yu , be a person you like. I think what you are doing now is not what you like. "

Yan Yu looked at Zhuang Zijing for a long time: "I really don't understand your logic."

Zhuang Zijing gently pulled her lips, but she didn't smile after all: "Being together is a kind of recognition. Even if we break up, there is no need to become an enemy. We broke up. I have learned to let go and start to live again. I I also hope that you can let go, be the you that I liked once, and find your own happiness. I may not be able to convince you, but at least I need to tell you the truth, and the truth is actually very simple. First, I will not be with you Together, second, for me, you have distorted yourself. The free and easy and arrogant person has become worldly. And this distortion and loss is because of obsession with me. I hope I made it clear , and then you can also think about what you really want.”

After speaking, Zhuang Zijing got up, paid the money, and left alone.

Yan Yu stared blankly at the place that had become a piece of air. It wasn't until the glass of soy milk in front of her was completely cold that she realized that her cheeks were also a little cold. cold.

Because I can't forget the sweetness of that love, I always want to fight for it again, because I have been annoyed by my decision to let go, so when I see hope again, I would rather let go of everything and work hard.

For her, let go of the pride of the past, for her, start to calculate with the behavior of disdain, and for her, use all your advantages to achieve the goal.

Distorted?

Zhuang Zijing said that she was distorted. In this chase, she had become unbearable to the world, and she had become a person who could not be liked by others, nor could she like herself.

Love is a devil, it demonizes a person's heart, and also demonizes a person's behavior.When finally faced with the impossible defeat, Yan Yu looked down at himself, at his thoughts and behaviors these days, and began to feel disgusted.

What about the proud man?What about the one who ignored everything?What about the cool, all-staring guy?When did you lose yourself and your indifference.Love is the reason for everything and the excuse for everything.However, the current self, even if he feels that he can no longer fall in love, how can he get the love of others!

The wind by the Erhai Sea seems to be extremely cold, Yan Yu felt his body shiver uncontrollably.The barbecue has been brought up by the boss.Somewhat unconsciously, she reached out and picked up a bunch, then chewed and swallowed.

When did you become like this?

Yan Yu recalled.

When Li Feng forced Zhuang Zijing to leave her, when her parents locked her in the house and wanted to completely sever ties with Zijing, when the people around her used various names to force her to submit... …

At that time, all the pride and ego were burned to ashes by anger, and when I finally surrendered, where did the pride go?So I keep working hard, constantly adjusting the company's strategy, trying my best to let the Yan family break away from Yixing's attachment, and also trying my best to let myself gradually control the Yan family.

Without strategy, without means, how can you do this?And what supports me to do this is the only belief, that is, to be strong enough to be free enough.This is what this world, which is full of malice against itself, has taught itself.But now, looking back at these years of hard work, have I made a mistake?

Yan Yu smiled wryly.

Are you wrong?

If there is nothing wrong, why did it fail in the end?This cruel society taught me that I have to be strong to be free. I tried every means to make myself stronger and able to control my destiny. Now that I have done it, why can't I still control love? When she didn't know the ability of love, she had already gone so far.

Is the miss due to fault, or is it due to fate?

Or, as Zhuang Zijing said, she is no longer the original self.She used to think that it might be good to seek out the music, and for that purpose, to learn a little bit of the world, but now, she said that she has been distorted.I lost myself and lost my direction when I grew up with hardships and bends, so I probably lost myself in the end.

Yan Yu stood up and walked towards the hotel.

Whether it was due to fault or fate, he and Zhuang Zijing had already missed each other.All the pain and grief, all the hard work and persistence, in the end, it is still a footnote to miss.

In a daze, Yan Yu looked at the sky dotted with a few stars, and laughed at himself.If this is the end, so be it.

Originally, there were so many plans, and so many unfulfilled schemes, they were all let go, no matter how unwilling they were.As Zhuang Zijing said, let go, and then look at yourself, see what you look like now, and what you want now.

Zhuang Zijing, who returned to the hotel, called Yang Hui.

"I know you will try to keep her away from you, but I didn't expect you to be so direct." Yang Hui listened to Zhuang Zijing's description of meeting Yan Yu today on the other end of the phone, and seemed a little surprised.In her heart, although Zhuang Zijing was a free and easy person, she always cared about other people's feelings, and she would not take the initiative to hurt others unless necessary.

Zhuang Zijing was sitting on a chair, the computer in front of her was turned on, and her recent investment had already paid off, but this was not a reason to relax: "I hope to live like you."

"Like me?" Yang Hui was a little surprised.

"Be as honest as you are, and use that honesty to solve problems. Sometimes it's not necessarily a good thing not to say it, and it's not really good to people to give people leeway. Speak clearly, maybe it will make people face reality .”

"So is she facing reality?"

Zhuang Zijing sighed: "I'm not sure, but I hope my words can make her feel something. People always have to think, and because of thinking, they can tell what they want and live happily, and I really I hope she can live happily ever after. This is not hypocrisy, but sincerity. She used to be so good, even though she is not the person I want, but I still hope she can live back to herself and live happily.”

Yang Hui's voice was gentle: "It seems that my woman is really a very kind person."

Zhuang Zijing smiled: "Don't think about it, I only have you in my heart now."

Yang Hui laughed over there: "Of course, I'm not that petty. What's more, love requires trust. I believe you will work hard to open up a broad road for our future."

"I'm just a little worried about my family now. I need to find a suitable way for everyone to accept." Zhuang Zijing said.

"If it's hard for you to say, let me do it. I'll make them admit me one by one." Yang Hui said very flatly, but full of confidence.

And Zhuang Zijing smiled: "This is what I should do. If I can't do this, how can I face the future with you."