Meet·Lijiang

What we miss may not only be love, but also life.

-------------------------------------------------- -------------------------- Zhuang Sheng's Travel Diary The next day, Yan Yu booked a flight home, and Zhuang Zijing and grandpa also I booked a plane ticket back to Beijing, but because my father and brother couldn't go home yet, Liang Simin persuaded them to stay in Dali for two more days.

When Yan Yu went to the airport, Zhuang Zijing drove her in Liang Jinlan's car.

"What do you think now?" On the way, the two were silent for a long time, and it was Yan Yu who spoke first.

"Which way?" Zhuang Zijing's voice was calm, she was driving seriously.

Yan Yu glanced sideways at Zhuang Zijing, and his voice was a little lonely: "I always thought that I was the most suitable candidate for you. We had a beautiful past, and I will give you a beautiful future. Whether it is I can afford both material and spiritual things. I even planned that we will travel several times a year, where we will go, and what kind of room we will live in. I have imagined a life with you in the morning and you in the sunset , but I can’t imagine the scene where you are with others. Over the years, I have thought about it a lot. These fantasies supported me to go all the way, supported me to accept surrender, and supported me to give up myself... I always thought that the relationship between us was like a time Farewell, you will come back eventually. It’s like a close lover who has to leave home to make a living. One is working hard, and the other is waiting obsessively.”

She didn't sleep all night last night, her eyes were bloodshot.Letting go is already the final outcome, but after persisting for so many years, especially after seeing hope some time ago, Yan Yu let go of everything and came to Lijiang, in order to get back what was lost back then.But now to let go, there is almost no place to put those heaviness and persistence for a while.

"So, what if Du Lang is still there? Do you think I'm still the one waiting?" Zhuang Zijing spoke in a soft but clear voice.

Yan Yu lowered his head slightly and smiled wryly: "I once thought that after you get married, I still won't give up on you. As long as I have the ability, I will kill Yixing and take you back."

"Even if we're married?" Zhuang Zijing finally glanced sideways at her.

"Yes, even if you are married. I don't care. You married him when I was unable to protect you, but as long as I have enough strength, I will definitely snatch you back."

"What if we had kids?"

"Your child is my child, and I will love her."

Zhuang Zijing didn't answer, just looked at the road ahead, the car drove smoothly, just like her heart at the moment: "If I get married, I will be responsible to my husband, and I will try my best to fall in love with him, why are you Will you feel that I have been waiting for you in the same place, and will not fall in love with the husband with whom I get along day and night?"

Yan Yu turned his head in surprise: "Are you in love with Du Lang?"

Zhuang Zijing smiled wryly and shook her head: "I'm working hard. I will try my best to love someone who will spend my whole life with me. Is love bigger than the sky? Then why do you want someone else to be a victim of love? It was the Du family who proposed my engagement to Du Lang. I came out, but they didn't force me, and even the original intention of the Du family was a kind of repayment for everything my father had done for their family. Although the repayment should not be in the form of love, at least, their original intention was kind The pressure between us comes from your family and my family. In fact, it has nothing to do with the Du family. The Du family doesn't even know about our relationship. Why should the Du family be the victim? Why should the Du Lang be the victim? Or since I promised to marry him, then I will do it seriously."

"Even if you have to?"

"Where does life come from so many imperatives?"

"My house, and yours?"

"To submit is to submit. There is no point in submitting and then not accepting. We are all adults and take responsibility for our actions. If I marry Durand, I will be responsible to him. If I have children with him, I will And take responsibility for the kids."

"And what is your duty to me?"

"From the time we broke up, I have no responsibility for you." Zhuang Zijing said: "But I hope you live happily, because you used to be my responsibility, and I once thought I was your responsibility. This at least shows that We used to admire each other so much…”

Yan Yu opened his mouth, was silent again, and then said: "But now Du Lang is gone after all."

Zhuang Zijing nodded slightly: "So those things you once thought supported you to go down like this are actually not that important. Maybe it's just an excuse for giving up at the beginning, otherwise sometimes people will hate you for your compromise and cowardice. Own."

The two were silent for a while, Yan Yu wanted to explain but he didn't speak up. Humans are such animals, when they have to find an excuse for their actions, they always attribute their cowardly actions to the fault of others.It was others who separated me and my lover, it was others who put tremendous pressure on me, it was others who bullied the weak...it was others...

"But I was the one who let go..." Yan Yu lowered his head and said softly, with regret, unwillingness, remorse, and deep pain in his tone.Is it because I let go that I have come to the present? Is it because I let go, so those reasons or excuses I made can't offset the pain caused by the cowardice back then, so I am unwilling, so I believe everything will be repeated. Come.

Zhuang Zijing looked sideways at Yan Yu: "Different decisions made by the same person will have different results, and the same decision will have different results if made by different people. Your decision back then cannot be said to be wrong, because if you It's not you, without such obsession, maybe you have already found your happiness, and if I'm not me, if I prefer life in a big city, or care more about material life, then maybe we will still be together."

"Or if there is no Yang Hui..." Yan Yu laughed at himself.

Zhuang Zijing thought for a while, then nodded: "Yes, this possibility cannot be ruled out."

"But these are just ifs." Yan Yu felt a little lonely.

"Life is short, there are not so many ifs, live in the present, do the most correct thing in the present, and live the happiest life in the present, then now is the future, and you will live as smoothly as you do now. No regrets. These years, you I live in dissatisfaction, and I also spend a lot of time in regret. But I think we all have an obligation to find our own happiness."

Yan Yu didn't speak anymore, the car quickly drove to the airport, and Zhuang Zijing helped Yan Yu get the luggage.When passing through the security check, Yan Yu turned around and looked at Zhuang Zijing: "I think what I missed is not only our love."

Zhuang Zijing looked at her seriously and listened to her next words.

"There is still life." She said, "I wish you happiness."

Then Yan Yu turned and left.

Zhuang Zijing looked at the person who was gradually disappearing at the security checkpoint, and suddenly overlapped with the indifferent but handsome person many years ago.She couldn't help feeling hot in her heart, and whispered towards the security checkpoint: "I will be happy, and so will you."

For the next two days, Zhuang Zijing did not go to work.The main activity every day is to accompany grandpa for a walk on the Erhai Lake. Like most people who came off the battlefield, the old man likes to recall those glorious years, likes to comment on politics, and hates corruption.Although he is now over 80 years old, he still has the temperament of a general in every gesture.

And Zhuang Zijing, who lacked family affection since she was a child, now stays with her grandfather, letting go of the unhappiness about family affection in the past, feeling the care and love of her relatives, and feeling warm from the bottom of her heart.

Liang Jinlan also came to join in the fun when he was not busy with work, serving tea and water and being very attentive.The old man became more and more satisfied with Liang Jinlan, and even invited Liang Jinlan to Beijing to play, but Zhuang Zijing became a little worried.

"Don't let the old man misunderstand." Taking advantage of the gap between the old man and Liang Simin playing chess, Zhuang Zijing found Liang Jinlan's office.

Liang Jinlan grinned: "I think he misunderstood a long time ago."

Zhuang Zijing closed the door and looked at Liang Jinlan with a dark face: "Then you are still so enthusiastic. I really misunderstood then, you can solve it yourself."

Liang Jinlan tilted his head: "My dad has already misunderstood, let him misunderstand again, and then I will find an excuse to send Miss Ding away. I think he will have no objections. When Miss Ding leaves Qingyun, Then there will be no more misunderstandings."

Zhuang Zijing sighed: "I'm afraid that the misunderstanding will be too deep, and it will be difficult to deal with it then."

Liang Jinlan thought for a while, and then smiled mischievously: "How about this, let the two old people misunderstand, after I deal with Ding Ziwei, if you still need it, I will continue to serve as a shield for you, if you No need, just tell Grandpa Wang that I'm gay. No matter how satisfied he is with me, he'll probably kick me out of the house. "

"Can you figure this out too?!"

Liang Jinlan nodded, and then said seriously: "During this period of time, I have had a lot of contact with your grandfather, and I feel that although the old man is not considered pedantic, it may still be very difficult to accept your affairs. You must carefully consider whether to leave about the cabinet."

Zhuang Zijing nodded heavily: "I've been thinking about this question. Although grandpa is in good health, he is over 80 after all. If this kind of thing hits too hard, I'm afraid he won't be able to bear it. If it wasn't for this reason, In the past few days, I must have found an opportunity to confess to him."

"If it doesn't work, then let him misunderstand." Liang Jinlan said: "With me as a shield, at least you don't have to worry too much about your family who will arrange another partner for you. Before I find a girlfriend to get married, this shield But it’s all very useful.”

"I'm afraid the paper won't hold fire." Zhuang Zijing said, "And I don't really want to hide it."

Liang Jinlan suddenly laughed: "I know, just like when you said it to me, a sentence popped up suddenly, which can make people have a heart attack-I mean, if you say this to the old man .”

Zhuang Zijing nodded: "Of course I won't be so casual, I will be cautious. By the way, when are you going back to Kunming?"

"It has been arranged, it will be next week..."

Liang Jinlan had just finished speaking, when the office door was pushed open with a slam, and Ding Ziwei stood at the door, looking at Zhuang Zijing angrily.

Ding Ziwei had just received the news that Liang Jinlan would return to Kunming in a week. There were also two store managers on the transfer order, but her name was not on the transfer order, so she came to Liang Jinlan to find out what happened.

And Zhuang Zijing, who was standing opposite Liang Jinlan's desk, couldn't help but frowned when she turned her head and saw Ding Ziwei: "It's hard for men to like you like this."

Ding Ziwei suddenly felt that a mouthful of blood had rushed to her throat.