Sparkling

Once he wakes up, what comes over him like a tide is nothing but pain.

The pain was so great that he could accept it without expression, whether it was physical or psychological.

Occasionally, when I think back on my short twenty-odd years of life, nothing but boredom is still boring.

When I was a child, when I didn't know what pain and boredom were, I lived happily for a while, as if the happiest moments in my life were consumed at that time.

Ever since Mom and Dad started quarreling, it was like a gray curtain was brushed off, and the happy days disappeared.

At that time, he was still a primary school student, small in stature, and very timid. Once his parents started to quarrel at home, he was like a frightened little rabbit, huddled in the corner in horror, and did not dare to cry.

When grandma rushed to try to break the fight, grandpa would pick up his small schoolbag, push it out with others, let him go to the neighbor's brother to do his homework, and pick him up later.

There was a neighbor named Xu Feng who was two years older than him.Because of repeated grades, I was in the same class as him.

Xu's father owns a fishing boat and is not often at home. Xu's mother always goes out to play mahjong, and most of the time Xu Feng is alone at home.

With a small schoolbag on his back, Ye Lin knocked on the door of Xu Feng's house with a heavy face, every time he opened the door quickly for him, and then said with a clear face, "Come in."

The two of them are very close, and they can seamlessly step into Xu Feng's small courtyard when they walk out of their own small courtyard, and the beating and scolding next door can be heard clearly even in Xu Feng's house.

Ye Lin always moves a reclining chair, spreads homework books, exercise books and pencil cases on it, and then sits on the small bench to do homework upright.

Xu Feng is not the kind of serious student. When Ye Lin was doing his homework, he would watch TV in the living room.

There was a TV series on the TV, and the plot was very interesting, but the noise from the next door came from time to time, and it was hard to get immersed in the plot. Suddenly, a violent smashing sound frightened Xu Feng into a shiver.The neighbor next door seems to have made a move, throwing something.Xu Feng couldn't help looking at Ye Lin.

With his back facing him, Ye Lin was sitting by the small door, which was wide open, and outside the door was the taro-colored sunset.

He saw Ye Linduan's hunched little shoulders shake quickly, and he stood still for a few seconds like a statue, and then continued to write on the notebook with a pencil forced to be calm.

As it was written, an arc fell quickly and dripped onto the book.

Ye Lin cried.

Xu Feng looked at his tense body, smacked his lips, turned his head and continued watching TV.

Ye Lin didn't stay at his house for too long, his grandma came to take him back before dinner.

The quarrel didn't subside at night, but Ye Lin didn't come over again. Maybe it's because he finished his homework, Xu Feng thought.He flicked the remote control boredly until there was only the cool evening news left on the TV.

The next day when he yawned and slipped into the classroom through the back door, he saw Ye Lin at a glance.

He sat alone next to the garbage dump in the last row.

Xu Feng slipped back to his seat, was caught by the teacher for being late, scolded him sternly, and told him to stand behind as punishment.

Xu Feng is used to being scolded, so it doesn't matter.He took out the textbook from his schoolbag, took a comic book with him, and walked to the end of the classroom in a hurry.

The end of the classroom was not far from the last row. He clattered through the pages of the book, and flipped through the comics inside.

The students in the class began to read the textbooks, "Everyone has their own favorite things, like the hometown described by Qi Jun, and the lovely pearl bird in Feng Jicai's eyes. What is your favorite thing..."

The immature children's voice recited loudly echoed in the classroom, Xu Feng enjoyed the last view of the small highlands in the classroom, listening to the chirping voices colliding in his mind, but his eyes involuntarily glanced towards Ye Lin.

His seat was not in the last row, but in the second row from the front.Xu Feng saw that his schoolbag, stationery and other things were well placed in the second row, and he only brought himself and books to the last row, probably because he made some mistakes and was punished by the teacher.Xu Feng came late and felt that he missed the good show of the morning reading class.

I don't know why, seeing Ye Lin's misfortune, he doesn't feel sympathetic at all.

He is like an emotionless spectator, watching his life, doing nothing but watching from a distance.

Xu Feng is older than most of the classmates in the class, two years old.

In the eyes of primary school students, this age gap is simply too big. Xu Feng is the tallest in the class, and he is also the one who disregards the teacher the least.

He may not be the most mischievous student, the student who loves to make trouble the most, but the indifferent aura when he talks to the teacher is beyond the reach of other children.Even in the face of the teacher's anger, he looked as if he had restrained his stance, without a smiley face.He listened carefully, but he obviously didn't listen to it without any shame, which shocked all the children in the class.

After all, children still regard the teacher's words as older than the sky.

It is rumored that Xu Feng ran with his father on a fishing boat for a while, and only came back to school later.This unusual experience gave him a bit of an uneasy color, and Xu Feng also had no intention of getting along with a group of elementary school students, so he was mostly alone.

While the teacher turned his head to write on the blackboard, Xu Feng quietly moved towards Ye Lin, and blew two breaths on the back of his head.

Ye Lin felt the wind on his hair and suddenly turned around.

"How did you get here?"

Xu Feng asked him with his mouth.

Ye Lin looked the same as usual, very normal, frowning, with long eyebrows pressed down, looking bitter, Xu Feng wanted to laugh when he saw it.

"Because I didn't hand in my homework."

Ye Lin replied quietly.

He was inexperienced in speaking secretly in class, and he didn't have a good grasp of the strength of his voice. He was a little shy, his voice fluctuated from high to low, and he was a bit stupid.

"Didn't you do it yesterday?"

Just as Ye Lin was about to answer, the teacher called out his name sharply.

"Sit in the last row and dare to whisper to each other, don't you want to stand for punishment too!"

He turned his head away in fright and ignored Xu Feng.

Xu Feng withdrew his gaze, and met the eyes of the teacher on the podium from a distance for a round.Xu Feng lazily leaned against the back wall, feeling that life is really lonely.

Wouldn't it be nice to just come over and stand with him as punishment...

In the evening, the neighbors started arguing again.

Xu Feng looked at his watch, the time was almost up, Ye Lin should be coming soon.

He thought so for granted, thinking that he could ask about his lost homework later, waiting and waiting, and fell asleep on the sofa like this.

When I woke up, everything was quiet.

It was already dark, and the door hadn't had time to close in the afternoon. The night wind blew in from there, blowing up the thin curtains and flying them silently. It was a bit cold and made people feel lonely.

Xu Feng blinked in the darkness, his thoughts seemed to be still in the dream just now.

It may not be a dream, maybe it's just a memory hidden in a certain corner of his heart, and he can't find it when he deliberately looks for it, but occasionally a dream lets him know that this memory is still in a certain corner of his heart.

That was the first time he went to sea with his father.

Dad has a fishing boat of his own, not big, half-new and not old, but it belongs to Dad, his own fishing boat.

Xu Feng, who was on the boat for the first time, was so excited that he couldn't help jumping up on the rickety boat, but was stopped by his father.

He watched as his father manipulated the boat skillfully and slowly left the shore. The turbulent sea water made white foam beside the boat, as if walking on top of the foam, going out to sea.

He still remembered that the weather was very good that day, the sun was beautiful and not dazzling, sprinkled on the vast sea, the birds hovered above his head for a while, and flew far away at other times, only two fluttering wings could be seen.

He loves to run to the guardrail, hold on to the railing tightly, and listen to the sound of the long sea water. "Hoo--" came, and "Wow--" passed, unhurried and continuous.

If you close your eyes and listen, even if you don't do anything, just listening will make you feel very happy and happy.

When I opened my eyes, I immediately saw the blue sky, which was so blue that it was the purest blue sky without a trace of variegation.Looking down, I saw the sun shining on the turbulent sea and on the waves, turning into a vast and jumping golden light.

"Sparkling."

At that time, he was in the third grade, and when he learned this word, it jumped into his mind all at once, and he could never forget it.

Later, when he saw Ye Lin for the first time, what he thought of was also the surging waves of golden light.

At that time, he was so small, even smaller than now, a small ball, held by his parents, his eyes turned into small crescents when he laughed, and the sound of laughing was like a small bell, giggling together string.

It's not the current look with lowered brows and frowning faces all day long.

Xu Feng listened intently in the dark, only hearing the sound of the wind blowing newspapers on the coffee table.

The younger brother next door didn't come today.

Sometimes the more you think things are logical, the more often they don't happen.

This is the first time he has experienced this feeling.