senior [rebirth]

Lin Xi didn't see the flick, he was in the kitchen pressing his cell phone.

The frequency of Li Rende's text messages to him has increased since the torrential rain in the city, but Lin Xi didn't receive it this morning, so he took the initiative to send a message to ask.

However, when he came back from the living room, the first thing he noticed was not Liu Hao in the thin blanket, but the various snacks on the table.

...So the senior just now was just superficially indifferent.

Lin Xi proudly sighed again in his heart that his senior was really a good person, and temporarily put aside the matter of Li Rende's text messages, and happily ran to call Liu Hao who was in the thin blanket.

However, for some reason, Liu Hao seemed to be having a hard time shouting today.

Lin Xi kept coaxing, persuading, and tugging at the side for a full 10 minutes before finally letting him slowly remove his dark face from the quilt.

Lin Xi hurriedly took advantage of the victory to pursue the attack, and took a lot of effort to stuff a hamburger that Liu Hao liked into his hand.

Or the kind that peels off the outer packaging.

After finishing all this with difficulty, Lin Xi was so busy that he almost broke out in a sweat in the air-conditioned room. Seeing Liu Hao finally took his first bite, he finally breathed a sigh of relief.

He basically came here to Liu Hao in this way for the past few days, but today's time was extra long, which made it a little exaggerated, so Lin Xi didn't think there was anything wrong.

Seeing that Liu Hao had eaten, he was grabbing a cup of Coke and wanted to say something to cheer up the atmosphere, but he just heard the phone ringing that he left in the kitchen to charge.

Very short, it is the sound of information.

Maybe it was Li Rende who returned.

Realizing this, Lin Xi hastily put down the Coke that hadn't had time to insert the straw, said, "Brother Hao, eat more", and ran to the kitchen like going to the market.

Looking at the whole process, he was as busy as a little farmer who couldn't finish his work.

Xu Hanlai's living room is a little far from the kitchen, so even though it is open, it looks like two spaces.Without Lin Xi, who was standing around, the atmosphere in the living room suddenly became silent.

It seemed that only Liu Hao chewing food slowly and the sound of packaging bags rubbing were left in the air.

His face was still very deep, his eyes were fixed on the front without blinking, and his hamburger was biting slowly like a machine.Due to not having a good meal for a few days, his cheeks have become thinner. At first glance, he looks really depressed. Coupled with the chicken nest head that has not been tidied all morning, he has a full sense of shape.

Xu Hanlai stood by the coffee table and watched him.

He changed into a cold-toned glossy casual outfit when he first went shopping, and now he was standing aside, his thin back was straight, and the line of his hanging arms looked a little lazy under the loose casual clothes.

The pure black hair is indeed longer than before, making the skin fairer.

After returning home, Xu Hanlai can be said to have seen all of Lin Xi's busy appearance. Although he was not at home during the day a few days ago, he can probably imagine that from Lin Xi's extremely smooth movements. What a scene it should be.

Putting his hands in his pockets now, after Lin Xi ran away, he looked at Liu Hao's appearance and said indifferently.

"Shame on me?"

Liu Hao continued to stare straight ahead without blinking, and then silently took a bite of the hamburger, as if he didn't hear it.

Seeing this, Xu Hanlai took out the house key from his pocket, bent over and sat on a corner of the sofa, put the key on the table and at the same time brought over the Coke that Lin Xi had just put down, inserted the straw for him, and said.

"It seems that I don't want it."

When his words fell to the ground, Liu Hao was still chewing.

After swallowing the hamburger in his mouth for about two or three seconds, he suddenly laughed silently as if he couldn't hold back, his eyes narrowed into slits, and his mouth grew exaggeratedly. After a long time, he turned his head and raised an eyebrow at Xu Hanlai.

Xu Hanlai didn't bother to look at it, so he just said, "Just accept it when you see it."

Liu Hao shrugged, looked at the hamburger in his hand, and said triumphantly: "Then Xiao Linzi is willing to coax others, you don't care."

Xu Hanlai originally wanted to reach out to pick a hamburger for Lin Xi, but when he heard Liu Hao's words, he turned his head to look at him, smiled and said, "You really want to be taken care of by me?"

His smile didn't look aggressive at all, but Liu Hao stopped talking with guilt for no reason, and stopped looking at him, and instead raised his head to look at Lin Xi in the kitchen.

He had been sitting in that position for too long just now, seeing that Lin Xi's back was facing their direction, he immediately relaxed his waist, lay down on the sofa like a rogue, and smiled comfortably all over his body: "Oh, brother Han, I think when we went to It’s right to go through the back door, Xiao Linzi is really a treasure.”

Xu Hanlai frowned: "Knowing that you still make him worry all day long?"

Liu Hao said nothing, and his smile faded a little.

After a long time, I stared at the hamburger in my hand and said to myself: "Brother, you don't know, since my mother left, no one has coaxed me like this for a long time."

Xu Han had a meal, but he didn't say anything this time. He reached out and took Lin Xi's favorite hamburger, and carefully unwrapped it for him.

"If I can go to the mountain to pray for blessings in the future, I will be the first to pray for Xiao Linzi." Liu Hao turned the hamburger in his hand, and said to himself: "Such a good brother should be covered up a lot."

Xu Hanlai put the disassembled hamburger on the table, glanced at him and said, "You don't need that, just make less trouble."

Liu Hao snorted, and stretched out his foot to kick him: "You said there is no shortage, no shortage? Ren Xiaolinzi hasn't said anything yet, so don't do it for you."

How could Xu Han give him a kick, and he dodged without raising his eyes, not even letting Liu Hao touch the edge of the cloth.On the contrary, the latter fell on the sofa because of too much force, and the hamburger in his hand almost flew out.

He frantically picked up the hamburger, but Xu Hanlai on the other end was very present.There is also leisure to help Lin Xi unpack a few boxes of chicken wings, and after Liu Hao catches the burger in embarrassment, he turns his head and smiles at him very lightly, saying in a pleasant voice: "I have worked hard recently, and I can speak idioms." used."

Liu Hao: "...I'm a prestigious student in Zheng'er Bajing No. [-] Middle School. Why can't I use Yue Zu as my substitute? It means you don't always make decisions for Xiao Linzi, who is not from your family, understand?"

Then he pulled his thick eyebrows with an exaggerated expression: "Besides, he asked me several times in the morning if he wanted to be together. I wondered if Xiao Linzi couldn't bear to part with me. Hey brother, you said whether I want it in the afternoon, pretending to avoid the trouble Let's go with you? Huh?"

Xu Hanlai rested his elbows on his knees, and looked at Liu Hao, who was working so hard to suppress his voice, and suddenly showed a friendly smile.

Liu Hao: "..."

He always felt that something was wrong.

This is indeed the case. When Lin Xi came back from the kitchen with his mobile phone, he asked Liu Hao again in a daze if he wanted to go to the dessert shop with them in the afternoon. Xu Han next to him came to cut off the beard.

"I just asked, and he said he was in a bad mood and wanted to be alone at home."

This person lied as if it were true, and his face still had the smile of a perfect senior. He could easily deceive all the innocent elementary school students. He still looked at Liu Hao considerately and said, "Isn't it?"

Liu Hao: "..."

Then, when the lunch was over and Liu Hao wanted to go out together, he threw his arms around and escorted Lin Xi out of the door.

Liu Hao: "..."

It was true that the rain in the city had lessened this afternoon, but it was only a little bit. An umbrella was still needed to go out, there was still water on the ground, and the air was filled with the smell of wet mud.

It doesn't look like a good weather.

There are very few pedestrians on the road, and the sounds on the street are covered by the rain.

Xu Hanlai held the umbrella handle and looked out of the umbrella, thinking that the rain should not stop for a while.

It was inconvenient to do anything outside on a rainy day, so he thought about how to find a suitable dessert shop as quickly as possible, and then quickly took the child home from the bad weather to have a good rest. The child is a little absent-minded.

The specific symptoms are as follows--he has accidentally stepped on the shallow water on the ground twice in a row and splashed on his shoe.

At the first time, Xu Hanlai thought that Lin Xi didn't pay attention, and didn't worry about it at all, but he didn't expect that a large amount of water would follow one after another, and almost completely poured one side of his shoe.

The rain was falling outside the umbrella, Xu Hanlai looked down at the shoe surface that had darkened in an instant, raised his eyebrows, turned his eyes calmly, and looked under the umbrella, his eyes were obviously looking at the road, but it seemed that he was not looking at it Lin Xi.

The child is wearing a pair of canvas shoes today. These shoes have been set up for most of the summer vacation, and they look older than the beginning.The soles of these shoes are thin, and they can't stop the water that has rained heavily for several days. In fact, they got soaked shortly after going out, but Lin Xi didn't seem to feel it.

With his hands in his pockets, he walked carelessly.

Although his eyes were looking at the road ahead, all he could think about was the text message he received in the kitchen not long ago.

From Li Rende.

After failing to receive Li Rende's punctual message at [-]:[-] a while ago, Lin Xi finally took the initiative to send one out of worry, and received a reply not long after.

He said that it was because he was working outside late that day, and the mobile phone was out of battery, so he didn't send it. As soon as he got home and recharged it, he immediately replied to Lin Xi's message and asked how Lin Xi was doing.

After reading it, Lin Xi still felt uneasy, worried that Li Rende would hide something from him, so he called directly.But Li Rende was indeed at home, because Lin Xi heard Lin Meiling talking in the background sound.

With a high voice: "Li Rende? Who are you calling?"

In Li Rende's always silent phone call, it was extremely clear and harsh. After Lin Xi heard it, for some reason, his heart trembled, and he hung up the phone in a hurry without asking all the questions he had thought.

Li Rende immediately sent a message asking what happened to him, Lin Xi only said it was nothing.

In the next few days, there will be continuous torrential rain all over the city.As a result, Li Rende sent greetings to him more frequently, and Lin Xi returned them frequently. Almost every text message would tell Li Rende not to go out to work during heavy rain, and not to be reluctant for a day or two.

Li Rende responded one by one, and also told Lin Xi to pay attention to safety.

Probably because he was really idle at home. Later, he edited the text messages to Lin Xi and got longer and longer. At the beginning, he only occasionally mentioned Lin Meiling's situation. Seeing that Lin Xi didn't object, he mentioned more later.

Lin Xi read it all.

Putting aside the miscellaneous things, Li Rende's text messages are sorted out --- Lin Meiling's situation may not be suitable for giving birth to that child.

The matter of Gao Yiliang and Grandma Lin in the early years has been accumulated in her heart for many years, which has caused her mental state to be not very good, and it has gradually affected her body. In addition to the four words of an advanced puerpera, Li Rende took her for a prenatal checkup, and even the doctor said that The child comes at the wrong time, it is not suitable, and the risk is too great.

Li Rende was not prepared for the arrival of this child, and he was worried about Lin Meiling's health, and also worried about Lin Xi who would not go home all day, so when he heard what the doctor said, he immediately persuaded Lin Meiling not to go.

But Lin Meiling refused.

She has been paranoid in the past few years, and she seemed to explode after learning that she was pregnant, and she couldn't tolerate others saying that the child was not good.

Lin Xi had already quarreled with Li Rende on the day he returned to school, and even quarreled with Li Rende directly in front of the doctor during the prenatal checkup. He said that he must give birth to the baby, and he didn't even listen to the doctor's words.Even because people around her persuaded her to take it off, her desire to protect the fetus became stronger, and she got into trouble several times in the workplace, causing complaints in the office to continue.

The leaders of the courtyard have always known about her situation in the past few years, so they have reduced her class hours because of this. This time, things happened frequently, so they simply refused to let her go to school with an excuse, but they probably watched the late Grandma Lin and Lin Lin again. For the sake of grandpa's face, he just took a vacation for the office, and his return is to be determined.

It is self-evident what it means.

Lin Meiling has been at home on vacation since then, but even so, it has not improved her condition particularly well, and there are still turmoil at home.

– Lin Xi half-read and half-guessed the whole story.

Li Rende probably didn't want to cause too much trouble for the child. In fact, he rarely mentioned some negative realities in the text messages. Except for his mother's health, everything else was positive. do not mention.

But Lin Xi is no longer the 16-year-old Lin Xi.

Just from his posts of "I'm in a bad mood and lose my temper", "I've been resting at home recently, and my health is much better", "The leaders in the hospital often call to ask about your mother", etc. Let's combine Lin Meiling's live situation , You can basically guess the ins and outs.

But Li Rende didn't seem to care about these things. He always told Lin Xi in the text messages that Lin Meiling was fine staying at home. Since the doctor said that she was not in good health, maybe staying at home and taking care of her would make her better.Even if it's not for the fetus but for Lin Meiling herself, it's a good thing.Moreover, stopping work just allows Lin Meiling to cultivate her body and mind, and relieve her psychological pressure, which is very good.

In the next few days, I also told Lin Xi that since Lin Meiling raised her baby at home, her temperament seemed to have improved a lot. As long as she didn't mention the matter of not having children, she was so gentle that she seemed to be back to Li Rende when she first met her in the academy many years ago. when.As long as there is no quarrel, the little home seems to be different from before, and it is much more warm. It would be even better if Lin Xi could go back to eat and talk with them.

But such text messages were not sent many times, and Li Rende would often add another sentence, saying that the child was still not acceptable.

These text messages babbled and became more and more messy. Some sentences had to be read several times before they could be understood. People could feel Li Rende's contradictions through the screen, but Lin Xi could understand it very well.

Knowing that Li Rende feels that Lin Meiling's current appearance is very good on the one hand, combined with his own flesh and blood in the belly, he vaguely feels that the family has been renewed and peaceful, and on the other hand, Lin Meiling's actual physical condition is as follows: The reality is like a mountain pressing down on him, warning him that he cannot have a child.

It's like an oasis in the desert, which appeared in front of his eyes after traveling thousands of miles, but someone reminded him all the time that it was fake.

Lin Xi understood his feelings, so after reading it, he always advised Li Rende to take his time and not to rush.Later, he also told Li Rende his thoughts, saying that he didn't mind the birth of this child.

However, Li Rende always seemed to lose sight of the second half of Lin Xi's sentence.

In Li Rende's conception, Lin Xi is still a child. From Gao Yiliang to Lin Meiling, this child has suffered so many grievances. When he encounters unhappy things, he will probably just swallow it in his stomach. How can he say it?So he has always regarded Lin Xi's words as being brave, and always told Lin Xi that if there is anything to tell him, his uncle will definitely find a way.

Li Rende has a clumsy mouth and can't say particularly beautiful words, but every time he reads the text messages comforting Lin Xi repeatedly, he first reads them several times, and sometimes feels inappropriate for the text messages that have already been sent, so he will clumsily follow up with another text message. Added, for fear of hurting the sensitive mind of the teenager.

Lin Xi saw all these.

He never doubted Li Rende's kindness to him, and never overcomprehended what Li Rende said to persuade him, but he could also see that Li Rende said less and less words like don't want children.

It is one of them that he is somewhat moved by his own flesh and blood, and more, Lin Xi thinks it is because of Lin Meiling.

Lin Meiling used to be like a landmine ready to explode at home when she was not pregnant, but now that she is pregnant, the danger is even higher, and if she makes a mistake, half the sky can be blown up.Li Rende took care of Lin Meiling like this, and he had to be careful every step of the way. Lin Xi could almost imagine how he was battered at home.

And the sovereignty over whether or not to have a child is still with Lin Meiling.

Li Rende is not the strong side of the family, but he has always assumed the responsibility of taking care of the two of them. He only has a lot of worries, so he is more and more afraid to make promises casually.

But Lin Xi thought that a lot of things must have happened at home in the rainstorm these days, that's why Li Rende, who has always been gentle, didn't return for a long time under his greeting today, and only sent him a very serious and firm message at noon. news.

Said he had decided he didn't want the baby anymore.

It was not said that it was a joint decision with Lin Meiling, so Lin Xi guessed that there must be a bad fight in the family.

"Still stepping on?" When Xu Hanlai's voice sounded, Lin Xi was about to step into the bottomless muddy water.

When he came back to see it, he wanted to avoid it, but the puddle was too large, and Lin Xi's sense of balance was poor, so he jumped a few times in a panic, before barely stepping on the edge.

Water splashed down the soles of his shoes.

As soon as Lin Xi turned his head, he saw the senior's uppers, which were dark and shallow on both sides.

"..."

Xu Hanlai met his astonished gaze, smiled slightly, and said softly, "It's the third time."

Lin Xi: "..."

He stood up, touched his head in embarrassment and said, "Yes, I'm sorry senior, I didn't mean it, I'll wash it for you when I get back."

Xu Hanlai glanced at his subconscious movement of shrinking his neck, laughed, and said, "It's okay."

The lights of the cars on the driveway turned on slowly, and they honked their horns to remind them from time to time. Xu Hanlai paused for a while, and then answered: "Can't you find the dessert shop?"

Lin Xi was taken aback.

Then he quickly realized that the senior should have sensed that something was wrong with him just now.Otherwise, the two of them came out to find a dessert shop, so why did they suddenly ask him such a question.

Lin Xi lowered his head, hesitated for a while, and then said: "Look for it, I must be looking for it."

Dessert shops must be looking for, as for Li Rende... Lin Xi hasn't made up his mind yet.

Xu Hanlai responded, looked at the child's lowered head, and did not question him as usual.

Just accompany him to continue walking in the heavy rain.

The sidewalks after the rainstorm are empty, as are the roads leading outside.

Lin Xi walked very carefully this time, always paying attention to the senior next door, not letting himself step on the water, and not immersing himself in his own world, so he could smell the rain that occasionally brought the scent of mint on the senior Wind, conscious unconsciousness.

Lin Xi looked at his toes, listened to the rain falling in his ears, and walked, and suddenly asked, "Senior, do you think I'm a little too timid?"

He has been quite closed since he was a child. When he was first troubled by gangsters, he should have told the teacher, but he didn't dare. Later, he was surrounded by gangsters in an alley. If it wasn't for the appearance of the senior, no one knew what would have happened. , I don’t know what will become of it later; and I am dissatisfied with the situation at home, but in fact Lin Xi hasn’t changed much in his life.

He is not a very powerful person. In his previous life, it took him most of his energy just to get himself out of the psychological predicament, but even this was thanks to the seniors.

As a result, he dared not go north because of various worries, and missed the precious time to spend time with the people he liked.

Lin Xi felt that his life was muddled, and every time he wanted to rush forward, he would be pushed back inexplicably. In fact, there is nothing shining about him. An ordinary person, but he didn't want to get the gift of fate and be able to return to this important period for him.

...However, even if he did it all over again, facing such an unexpected situation, Lin Xi's first reaction was still that he didn't want to go home.

Even though he knew very well in his heart how difficult it would be for Li Rende to face Lin Meiling in that state alone, he still chose to hide at the end of the phone and just ask.

It's really bad.

Xu Hanlai glanced at Lin Xi beside him, and said without thinking, "No."

Lin Xi stepped forward over a puddle, smiled and said, "I think so. Has Brother Hao experienced something? I think he handled it better than me, and his personality is much better than mine."

Not only Liu Hao, but also Xu Hanlai.

Lin Xi thought, if they were given the opportunity to go back to the past, they would definitely be able to change a lot, at least more than him.

Xu Hanlai turned his head to see him stepping over the puddle, couldn't help but reached out and rubbed the child's head and said, "So self-deprecating?"

With this mood right now, Lin Xi was unwilling to be rubbed on the head by him.It just made the tip of his nose sore, what's wrong with it after a long time?

At this moment, it was rare to reach out and slap the senior's hand off, and blinked and said bravely: "To be honest, if Brother Hao was in ancient times, he might have become a hero who fights for justice."

"how about you?"

Lin Xi was frustrated: "I'll farm at home."

Xu Han was amused, and tilted his head to look at the child's body: "Can you move it?"

Lin Xi's chest bulged, and he was about to say something confidently, but after he looked down, he was discouraged again: "...Maybe I can't."

Xu Hanlai rarely laughed.

His voice has always been pleasant, and even his laughter is magnetic, unhurried, and sounds very gentle.After a while, I subconsciously wanted to reach out and touch the child's round head again.

But after thinking that he was still unwilling just now, he put it down again and put it back in his pocket. After thinking about it, he turned to speak seriously.

"The work of the few of us during the summer vacation is based on your arrangement. Xiao Lin dares to come up with ideas and dare to do them. To be honest, I really don't think you are timid."

After Xu Han finished speaking, he paused for a while, then turned his head to look at Lin Xi: "But people who are not timid in this matter may not be timid in other things, so if you really feel that you have been timid Then try to adjust yourself, and then face it after you have adjusted.”

Lin Xi looked up.

Seeing Xu Hanlai squinted his eyes and continued: "If you haven't adjusted well, just take a break and continue to adjust, don't put too much pressure on yourself. You have always had a good temper, and you can forgive so many people and so many things, why are you always wrong? Can you be a little more lenient?"

Lin Xi looked at him, looked at him, and suddenly smiled.

It was raining heavily outside the umbrella. It was clearly two o'clock in the afternoon, but the sky was gray.

Lin Xi thought that maybe the surrounding environment was too real, his five senses and thoughts changed with the environment, and sometimes he was overly immersed in the role of a high school student.But he actually left high school more than ten years ago, and he didn't come back to this era to do homework, set up a stall, or even such trivial things as college entrance examinations.

He has a greater mission.

The senior is right. He can indeed forgive many people and things, but he cannot forgive himself alone. Others can have time to rest and adjust, but he can't.

Because he already missed it once.

This second chance was hard-won, and he should cherish every step he took. All the difficulties in front of him were no match for the worst ending he had ever experienced.If he starts to be timid about this issue, how will he overcome the greater difficulties in the future?

Lin Xi thought about it, and then suddenly went to hold Xu Hanlai's hand.

Xu Hanlai's body temperature has always been relatively low, especially in rainy days. Lin Xi's warm palm grabbed his wrist, lifted his hand up, and placed it on his head, telling the senior whether he wanted to do it or not. He completed his movements, and even raised his head to rub his hand actively.

Then he took a deep breath, bent his round eyes, and said with a smile, "Okay."

"I think I'm adjusted now."

He shouldn't forget that everything else was incidental, and his biggest mission back here was to protect the person in front of him.

He has nothing to face.