senior [rebirth]

The layout of Lin Xi’s house is old, and the master bedroom is the only room facing the sun. In the past, the door of this room had to be opened to let the sunlight into the living room and make the home brighter.

However, it has been raining all over the city in the past few days, and it doesn't make much difference whether it can be opened or not.

Lin Xi knocked twice, and greeted Lin Meiling who was inside, but got no response, but slowly pushed the door open.

The atmosphere in the master bedroom is different from the dim living room. The lights are on, and the air conditioner is beeping lowly, which makes the air in the room smell fresher than the outside. At the same time, it seems to be mixed with a little flower fragrance.

Lin Xi was stunned for a moment when he heard it.

His eyes subconsciously fell to the window sill, and he saw a bouquet of narcissus placed on it.

... Lin Xi has not seen Lin Meiling raising flowers for many years.

In my impression, the young Lin Meiling loves making flowers and plants very much. She is good at this. Not only can she arrange flowers and plants beautifully, but also the scent of those scents is very special and pleasant.

This smell was smelled by Lin Xi when he was young, and it almost represented that he had only a small amount of warm childhood.

Later, I opened a pet cafe, and Lin Xi also raised some, but I have never raised the smell and appearance that Lin Meiling raised at the beginning.

There are narcissus on the window sill, and the air conditioner is delivering cool air. Lin Meiling is sitting on the bed, with her black hair hanging down her shoulders. She is still relatively slender, holding two long needles in her hands, and lowering her eyes, as if she is knitting a small cuff. She chose a warm beige color, probably imagining how the sweater was shaped by the cuffs and then worn by someone, a faint smile appeared on the corner of Lin Meiling's lips.

This scene, combined with the originally quiet indoor air, is almost like a painting.

But for some reason, Lin Xi's body tensed unconsciously in front of such a beautiful picture, and the instinctive tension came back to his heart when he went upstairs, which was completely different from the state when he was talking to Li Rende outside just now.

Even Lin Meiling was smiling.

The room was too quiet, Lin Xi lowered his eyes to glance, subconsciously relaxed his movements, turned his head and closed the door lightly, and then looked at Lin Meiling's men again.

The long needle is wrapped with wool, and what is knitted is a sweater.

Calculated according to the time, even if the child can be kept, it will be born in April or May next year, and it will not be able to wear this sweater for a short time.But Lin Meiling still enjoys knitting, as can be seen from her expression.

There is not much space in the house, Lin Meiling must have heard Lin Xi's voice, and also heard his greeting just now, but she didn't respond at all. After Lin Xi came in, she didn't even glance at the door, just continued to take it easy Slowly weaving the needle and thread in my hand, as if Lin Xi didn't exist at all.

The feeling of repulsion and wanting to escape surged up from the depths of his body inexplicably again, and it took Lin Xi a lot of effort to hold down this instinctive consciousness.

Then he comforted himself and thought, Lin Meiling is fine like this, if Li Rende hadn't told him a lot before coming in, he could hardly tell that Lin Meiling was in poor health.

Now that he's here, Lin Xi doesn't intend to stand still.

After he calmed down for a while, he took two steps forward, moved the chair beside the bed that Li Rende probably put aside, and then put the porridge on the bedside table.

The space at home is really not big, and the same is true for the master bedroom. The space beside the bed is basically squeezed out by chairs and bedside tables. The closer Lin Xi gets to Lin Meiling, the more nervous she feels, and she accidentally stepped on the leg of her trousers when she was making room for herself. , staggered a bit.

He quickly stood up, cleared his throat and said, "Mom, are you hungry for the porridge made by uncle? Have some."

Lin Meiling kept sewing in her hands, lowered her eyelids, and said softly, "Your uncle invited you here?"

Lin Meiling was born as a lady, and her every move has always been dignified. Later, she became a teacher and experienced decades of precipitation. This temperament has become more obvious in her now. When she speaks well, people can't help but feel sad respectful.

Lin Xi was really too familiar with her, and now she shook her head slightly: "No, I came here by myself, didn't I stay at my classmate's house a few days ago? I want to come in and see you when I come back."

"Really?" Lin Meiling pulled the needle and thread: "You were at a classmate's house a few days ago?"

Lin Xi was really afraid that Lin Meiling would say such things.

His body has always carried some natural reactions of this age, and this reaction was the strongest when he saw Lin Meiling.

Every time he hears it, his body will have uncontrollable emotional ups and downs. No matter how rational his brain is, he can't stop the frustration and sadness that arises.

I saw Lin Xi lowered his head and pressed down hard, and then responded casually, pushing the porridge towards Lin Meiling: "Mom, drink some, even if your body doesn't have an appetite, you should eat more. The child here still depends on you, if you don’t eat, how will he grow up?”

When it comes to the word "child", Lin Meiling is really sensitive.

I saw her eyes that were drooping and knitting clothes suddenly lift up, those eyes have experienced years, the whites of the eyes are far more than the black ones, the eyes are cold and sharp, and the voice raised a little bit meanly: "So you came to persuade me not to let him go." ?”

Seeing that her mood fluctuated, Lin Xi quickly comforted her: "No, Mom, I just came to see you. This child belongs to you and uncle. You can discuss it. I will definitely not interrupt. I just came to see you. , okay?"

During this period of time, she repeatedly went to the hospital to be stimulated. Lin Meiling was really vigilant about this matter. Her mental state was originally not good, and now she is even more vulnerable.Even though Lin Xi's tone of voice was soft enough, Lin Meiling still stared at him for a long time, and then gradually let go of the thorns all over her body, and said coldly, "It's good that you know what to think."

"Hey." Lin Xi answered with a smile, and continued to persuade her after a while: "Mom, drink some porridge."

Lin Meiling glanced at him, but still didn't drink.

Instead, he pulled the quilt around his abdomen, and then continued to knit the little cuff with his head down.

A strand of black hair fell down from behind her ear, and she looked very peaceful and quiet, as if she had returned to the scene she painted when she first entered the door.But Lin Xi was so close to her at the moment, looking at Lin Meiling and then at the porridge, he always felt something was wrong.

Li Rende is very careful, the indoor temperature under the effect of the air conditioner is just right, for Lin Xi, covering her with a quilt is too much, and Lin Meiling is pregnant, so it's okay to cover her body if she is weak, why do she have to stretch her stomach around her?

And when she lowered her head again this time, the corners of her mouth didn't seem to have the smile just now, and she even pursed slightly.

Lin Xi frowned, and said hesitantly: "Mom, don't you want to drink porridge? It won't taste good after it's cooled."

These words were like the last knife to break through the fake painting, Lin Meiling's expression suddenly became irritable: "What are you drinking? How do I know if you have said one thing and said another, and put something in my porridge? "

Lin Xi's face froze.

...Lin Meiling's physical condition is worse than he thought.

Although she was influenced by Gao Yiliang in her previous life, Lin Meiling's temper had only become a little weirder, and her thinking in all aspects was still normal. It can be seen from the fact that she still remembered what to do with Li Rende after she left before she died.Moreover, Lin Xi had also been given medicine during the time she was lying in bed, and Lin Meiling had never had a reaction similar to this moment.

Realizing that she was wrong, Lin Xi leaned back subconsciously.

"How long are you going to stand here? You can go out after reading it. Don't you have anything else to do? If you want to persuade me to kill the child, you'd better give up this idea immediately." But even if he didn't say anything , Doing nothing, Lin Meiling's irritability is still rising, the needles and threads in her hands are knitting wrong, she is so annoyed that she wants to bite her nails, but when she thinks of something, she barely stops.

Lin Xi: "Mom, I..."

Unable to decompress, unhappiness accumulated in her heart, Lin Meiling's expression looked more anxious than before, but she had something to fear in her heart, she didn't dare to move her hands and feet, and she was restless on the bed.

She couldn't stand it anymore, and didn't listen to Lin Xi's words, her voice immediately became sharp: "Li Rende? Where's Li Rende? Come in quickly and get Lin Xi out of here!"

She yelled too loudly, before she even landed on the floor, the sound of Li Rende running in hastily came from outside, the door of the master bedroom was pushed open, and Li Rende rushed in anxiously, gesturing to Lin Meiling continuously: "You Don't shout? No, pay attention to your body and don't shout! What are you shouting? Xixi just came back..."

But at this juncture, Lin Meiling couldn't see it at all. The longer Lin Xi stayed with her, the more her little patience seemed to be exhausted.

For a moment, even the faint smell of daffodils in the room seemed to have disappeared, and only Lin Meiling's suppressed and uncontrollable cry could be heard: "You let him out, let him out! He wants to touch my child, you let him Get out!"

The more she called Li Rende, the more anxious she became, and she bumped into the bed board as she walked forward, so she could only gesture vigorously: "No, my wife, don't shout, don't shout, Xixi just came back, he didn't want to touch your child, he just wanted to come look at you……"

Li Rende gestured quickly, but Lin Meiling didn't even look at it, she just screamed: "Let him out! I won't listen to you and let him out! Get out!"

Hearing her yelling louder and louder, the blue veins on her neck came out, Lin Xi was worried that Lin Meiling couldn't bear it, so she hurriedly said: "Okay, okay, mom, I'll go out first, don't get excited, don't get excited, your body is important- –”

He retreated while talking, and he was about to leave the master bedroom, but Lin Meiling's voice on the bed did not fade at all.Now she is like a balloon full of emotions, thinking of nothing but venting.

Seeing her like this, Li Rende looked at her, and suddenly reached out and grabbed Lin Xi who was at the door.

When Lin Xi entered the door, Li Rende was obviously haggard and looked like he hadn't seen the light of day, but now seeing Lin Meiling screaming, his complexion became colder and colder.

I don't know if it's because I have endured too much during this period, or I feel that it is not an option for Lin Meiling to continue to get used to it.Stretching out his head and retracting his head was also a stab, and saw Li Rende dragging Lin Xi, suddenly he felt overwhelmed, stretched out his foot and kicked the chair beside the bed to the ground.

The metal hit the floor with a sharp sound, covering Lin Meiling's voice at once.

"You, calm down, my wife, calm down!" Li Rende was so anxious that his throat made a sound, and his gestures kept going together for a second, while letting go of Lin Xi and walking in the direction of Lin Meiling: "Think about it carefully, Xixi is a child, and it was born by you. What can he do to you? He hasn’t come home for so many days and just wants to come in to see you. You can’t even understand this, the child is still in your stomach Woolen cloth."

The moment Lin Meiling on the bed heard the sound of metal hitting, her chest shrank inward forcefully.

Immediately afterwards, her cry stopped, but the frozen expression on her face became sharper and meaner. She seemed to feel a little discomfort, her chest heaved, she raised her face to look at Li Rende, and gritted her teeth, "Li Rende, you just don't want me to be born." This child, you just don’t want me to have this child!”

Li Rende has already lifted up the chair and sat next to Lin Meiling. He has seen that Lin Meiling is abnormal, but the matter has reached a certain point, and he doesn't want to go back. He simply gestured cruelly: "Yes, I just don't want you to have this child!"

"Didn't I tell you before? We don't want this child. Isn't it good to have another child? You have another one, let alone the one who is not in good health. I may not be able to raise it. I, I am not As I told you, my ears haven’t been very good for the past two years. After we’re ready to go to college, shouldn’t we go to rest? I may not be able to support another one, and I’m not in good health. What did he inherit..."

"I'll raise it." Lin Meiling squeezed the quilt tightly: "You don't have to worry about it, I won't let you touch him, that's my child, I'm his mother, I can afford him, I'll raise him!"

Li Rende was anxious: "What are you raising? Can't you hear what the doctor said? This child may not be saved! Even if you can save your body after you are born, you may..."

"Then I will give birth too!" Lin Meiling stared her eyes straight and said fiercely: "Understand Li Rende? The doctor said that I will give birth! I must give birth! Even if I die, I will give birth. Do you understand? If I die, I will give birth!" All born!"

She said these words so hard that her entire neck was red.

Seeing her like this, Li Rende subconsciously wanted to hug her, but when he heard her words, he felt anxious again, and hurriedly gestured: "Don't talk nonsense! What nonsense are you talking about, everything that dies will be born, Lin Meiling, please understand, you Don't talk nonsense to me, what will happen to me and Xixi if something happens to you, Xixi is still underage, don't talk nonsense here--"

But no matter how vigorously Li Rende gestured, Lin Meiling still bit that sentence to death.

Even if she dies, she will give birth to this child. She and the child can either keep both of them, or both of them can leave. If one can be kept, only the child can stay.

Li Rende was afraid and anxious, and kept asking her why she insisted on having this child. Standing by the door, Lin Xi could almost hear him sobbing softly. There was really nothing he could do about Lin Meiling's appearance.

Lin Xi looked at him, then at Lin Meiling, he was supposed to persuade Lin Meiling with Li Rende, but he stood here for a long time, as if he finally understood something.

He did not pursue the question like Li Rende did, nor did he continue to persuade him. Instead, he took two steps back slowly and left the room.

The instinctive pressure on Lin Xi's body subsided the moment Lin Xi exited the room, and all that remained was a slight sadness after being suppressed by him.

He understood everything, he knew why he had been instinctively unwilling to go home, and he also knew why Lin Meiling was going to give birth to that child whatever she said.

The noise of Lin Meiling and Li Rende could be heard from time to time in the room. Standing in the dark living room, Lin Xi thought about it carefully, and suddenly felt that the old saying that kinship is hard to break is not wrong.

His relationship with Lin Meiling in his previous life was very tense, and for a long time after Lin Meiling passed away, Lin Xi didn't even allow himself to think about her.When he first returned to this era, he also said that he and Lin Meiling were like each other's Pandora's boxes. When they saw each other, they could recall the times and people they least wanted to recall.

Therefore, the communication between Lin Xi and Lin Meiling can be said to be very little.No matter how much Lin Xi rejected Li Rende back then, he probably had more words with Li Rende than Lin Meiling, and between him and Lin Meiling, there was almost no difference between him and a stranger under the same roof.

But on the other hand, Lin Xi didn't expect that he was the person who knew Lin Meiling best.

In the real sense, the person who lived with Lin Meiling the longest and the longest is also him.

So Lin Xi immediately figured out why Lin Meiling wanted that child so much.

Because that child symbolizes a new life in Lin Meiling's vision.

She had been holding back in that dark memory for too long, she couldn't escape, she couldn't digest it.If there is no unexpected arrival of this child, Lin Meiling will probably continue to suffer, and she will probably survive it, just like in her previous life.

But when this child appeared, he was like a ray of light in Lin Meiling's dark life. She saw a better life from this light, and desperately wanted to catch it.It's like a drowning person sees a driftwood, from then on he sees the world full of oxygen on the water, so he desperately wants to float up to catch it, and if he catches it, there will be infinite air. I don't want to take another look underwater.

Where can people be nostalgic on the seabed without air?

And the reason why Lin Xi has been reluctant to go home from instinct to heart during this period is because he knows very well that he is still at the bottom of the sea at this time.

Lin Xi didn't want Li Rende to have another biological child. He didn't dare to go home because he was afraid from the bottom of his heart that Lin Meiling would choose to leave him and go upstream.

Although Lin Xi is no longer in a state of being immersed in the bottom of the sea, he really doesn't want to see such a scene.

It will crush his last thought of Lin Meiling.

Thinking of this, Lin Xi took a light breath.He seemed to know what he could do with Lin Meiling's current state, but before he could do anything, there was a sound of ping-pong-pong from the master bedroom, and Li Rende rushed out from the master bedroom holding Lin Meiling.

Lin Meiling fainted because of her emotions.

Lin Xi accompanied Li Rende to send Lin Meiling to the hospital, along with Xu Hanlai who was waiting outside the community, and Liu Hao who did not know when to come.

The latter two were originally standing outside Lin Xi's community and chatting, but when they saw Lin Xi and the others coming out, they immediately helped send them to the car.

Then he went to the hospital and accepted the doctor's stormy criticism with Lin Xi and Li Rende.

Lin Meiling's situation is inherently bad, and she shouldn't have any emotions under such circumstances. If she hadn't been raising her well during this period of time, and had taken some medicines prescribed by the doctor, the baby just now would have been born directly. It's gone.

Even if it is sent to the doctor in time, it is not safe now, and a miscarriage may occur at any time.

Li Rende kept nodding his head and apologized. After hearing Lin Meiling's state, Lin Xi took the initiative to ask Li Rende to go home and clean up the mess after he and the doctor calmed down a little.

Li Rende was already embarrassed when he saw Lin Xi's classmates, but now he apologized again and again, and asked Lin Xi to treat the classmates to something to eat on the way back.

Lin Xi didn't invite him, and he didn't let him follow him when he went home, but returned home by himself.

He first cleaned up the overturned porridge and chairs in the master bedroom, then turned off the lights, thought for a while, and poured some water on the daffodils on the windowsill before turning back to his room.

He hasn't returned for a month, but Li Rende has been cleaning his room, the air is dry and fresh, and the bed is also very tidy.

Lin Xi looked at the door for a while, then walked in, and took out a piece of paper from the table.

He thought for a while, if he and Lin Meiling were really each other's Pandora's box, then maybe it would be better not to live together.

And if Lin Meiling doesn't want to listen to him, then he can write a letter to Lin Meiling.

The letter was not very long, and he didn't have much to tell Lin Meiling. He just told Lin Meiling that he would be a sophomore in high school after school started.In order to have a better mood and provide a good living environment for the baby, it may be a good choice to see a psychiatrist. She also told Lin Meiling that many miracles happen because of a healthy mentality. If she can have a good mentality The status, maybe the doctors in the obstetrics and gynecology department will change their words in the future.

Signed: Lin Xi.

After writing the letter, Lin Xi put it on the table in the living room, thought about it, and went back to the room to take away the doll that lost its eyes last time.

Open the door and go outside.

When Lin Xi was writing the letter, he was originally in a relatively calm state of mind, but as he walked, he suddenly discovered that the stitches he used to mend his eyes clumsily last time had been removed by Li Rende and replaced with a row of neat and strong stitches.

For some reason, Lin Xi looked at the line of moldings, as if the softest part of his heart had been poked by something, and the circles of his eyes turned red all of a sudden.

So Liu Hao and Xu Hanlai, who were anxiously waiting downstairs, saw him hurrying like a rocket.

I saw that after Lin Xi ran out, he dragged Xu Han out without looking back. Liu Hao hurriedly followed him when he couldn't sit still at home before, but he just caught up with this one.

He didn't know what happened to Lin Xi's house, but he vaguely understood, and now he followed the two of them, and deliberately said in a tone that made Lin Xi happy: "Oh no, Xiao Linzi, wait a minute, you want Why don't you hold me together, brother missed you and rushed out to see you, don't act like you didn't see me, I'm so sad..."

Before he finished speaking, Lin Xi stopped in his tracks, stuffed the doll into Liu Hao's arms, and stretched out his hand to fuck him again.

The two of them were dragged out by Lin Xi for several blocks. Lin Xi kept rushing forward, as if he wanted the wind to blow away all his unhappiness.

It was true that some of them were blown off, but at a certain intersection, Liu Hao suddenly shouted from behind: "Xiao Linzi, Xiao Linzi——"

When Xu Hanlai also stretched out his hand to stop him, Lin Xi suddenly couldn't hold back when he looked at the motorcycle whizzing by in front of him.

He turned his head and slammed his head into Xu Hanlai's arms, silently grabbing the corner of his clothes tightly.

"What, what's the matter? What's the matter with Lin Xi?" Liu Hao quickly caught up, scratching his head with a question mark on his face.

Xu Han glanced at him, shook his head, and stroked Lin Xi's head twice.

It was getting late, and the time spent looking for dessert shops in the afternoon was almost wasted like this.The three teenagers stood by the side of the road, Lin Xi's body twitched more and more, Liu Hao stood aside, although his face was full of confusion, but when passers-by looked at them curiously, Liu Hao would still send them away.

As the wind came and went, Lin Xi cried louder and louder.Xu Han came to make him cry, put one arm around the child's head, raised his head, after an unknown amount of time, he caught a glimpse of something, and reached out to pat Lin Xi's shoulder in his arms.

Ask him, "Are you done crying?"

Lin Xi shook his head violently while trembling, his body strengthened, and he even burrowed a little deeper into Xu Hanlai's arms.

It was the smell of mint that made Lin Xi's brain react suddenly, and he took a step back.

The child was crying for a long time with an extremely embarrassed face, Xu Hanlai saw it with lowered eyes, didn't say anything, just stretched out his hand to point him in the direction and said, "Look over there."

Lin Xi turned his head, but he didn't see it at first, it was the senior who reached out from behind and smashed his head away, so he saw it.

Eyes widened suddenly, and then tears started to fall again.

Xu Hanlai pulled Lin Xi into his arms from behind, let his back rest on his chest, then passed his hands across his shoulders, hugged Lin Xi's chest, put his chin on Lin Xi's head and said, "Does it look good?" ?”

Lin Xi nodded vigorously.

good looking.

Especially nice.

It turned out that during the summer vacation of his freshman year of high school, there was such a beautiful rainbow on the day after the continuous rainstorm all over the city.