Young

For the next time, I lay quietly on my bed as usual, staring at the ceiling in a daze.I always look forward to being able to lie down like this, and suddenly I can't wake up, which is also a kind of relief.

"Xiao Mu." The doorknob was turned, and Dad pushed the door open and entered.

I didn't respond, I was in a daze.

Dad came over, sat down on the edge of my bed, and said, "I've discussed it with your mother, and now I'm here to negotiate a deal with you, do you want to listen?"

"..."

"About Liu Chenfeng."

I suddenly turned my gaze to look at him: "What's wrong with Chen Feng?"

Dad's expression stiffened, he took a deep breath, and said: "Let's have a discussion, as long as you get on the plane obediently tomorrow, Dad will find a way to get Chen Feng out of the prison, how about it?"

I turned over and sat up, very pleasantly surprised: "Dad, is what you said true? Are you really willing to help Chenfeng?"

Dad said, "As long as you obediently fly to America tomorrow."

"..."

My hesitation made my father lower his face: "What? You don't want to?"

"Dad..." I said hesitantly: "Can you... let me see Chen Feng and say goodbye to him?"

"no!"

"dad……"

Dad stood up abruptly, with a stern expression on his face: "Think about it carefully. But Dad wants you to understand that even if you refuse to get on the plane tomorrow, Dad will always have a way to get you to America. But Liu Chenfeng is different, If he misses this opportunity, he might really go to jail."

My heart trembled, and I blurted out: "Okay! I promise you, tomorrow... I will go to the United States."

Only then did Dad smile, patted my shoulder, and said: "Don't worry, when you receive a call from your aunt tomorrow to report your safety, Dad will immediately find someone to fish Liu Chenfeng out."

I was silent, and knew in my heart that everything was already irreparable.

***

Standing in front of the huge floor-to-ceiling glass windows at the airport, watching the roar of the planes and slowly flying into the sky, my thoughts are pulled back to the past bit by bit.

I recalled the first time I saw him, his blushing smile, a faint scar between the browbones, what should have been a heroic face, but had opposite peach blossom eyes.

He said, let me wipe, why don't you sit here to enjoy the cool?

At that time, no one would have thought that a single encounter would become a bond of a lifetime.

Chen Feng...

If you hadn't met me...

Are you still as high-spirited and frivolous as when we first met...

If you hadn't met me...

Would you have a better time...

If we had never met, knew each other and loved each other...

Now you may still be the boss who everyone respects and respects in Baiying Gaoli...

And I am still an ordinary and boring nerd in Nanhai Gaoli...

Wouldn't it be better...

The sun penetrated the glass and shone warmly on the body.

I raised my head, closed my eyes, and a line of tears flashed across my face...

——Chen Feng, where are we going this time?

——I want to go to a place farther away, so that the chance of being found is relatively small.But... After leaving, I don't know when I can come back. Have you really thought it through?

——Well, I will go wherever you go.

——This time, you won’t sneak away by yourself again, right?

——No, I will never... never leave you again.

—Promise me that no matter what happens, we will face it together and never leave each other behind.

—Okay, I promise you.

- idiot...

--Um?

——When I make money in the future, I will buy an island, and then we will live on it, no need to care about what others think, and no need to hide, do you think it is good?

--……good.

— Are you moved?

--……Um.

——Do you love me very much?

——…

——Tell me, do you love me very much?Um?

--……Um.

— Haha, give me a kiss.

——There are... a lot of people!

--in spite of!

boo.

【postscript】

As for the memories of my childhood, it is almost over here.For me, a life without Chen Feng is no different from a walking dead.I hide in my room every day, unwilling to go out or talk. What I do most is stare at the sky in a daze.My aunt arranged for me to see a psychiatrist, and the conclusions I drew were the same—depressed and autistic.After discussing with my parents who are far away in China, my aunt arranged for me to enter a local high school to continue my studies with the consent of a psychologist.It may be because my personality is too dull, or my body is too thin. I have been teased and bullied by foreign classmates in my new school.But it doesn't matter, for me, living at that time was really just living.

It wasn't until I was in a physical education class that they snatched away the silver ring hanging around my neck in the locker room. I was finally irritated and threw a classmate down like crazy. No matter how the other party beat me, I would bite him to death Holding on to his throat, it almost caused irreparable consequences.The school's punishment came down quickly, and I was expelled.In that chaos, I lost my ring, as if I lost my soul, and I was in a trance every day.The longing for Chen Feng did not fade with the passage of time, but became more and more intense, too strong to bear.That kind of pain is heart-piercing, and it feels like I am going through a long period of time every day. It makes me want to die.In order to divert the pain, I picked up the blade and cut my wrist. Watching the blood gushing out, I felt the joy of relief in my heart.

Depression, strong suicidal tendencies - these are the most recent assessments by a psychiatrist after a suicide attempt.My aunt was terrified, and my parents were also terrified. They left their jobs and went to America to see me.As soon as I saw my parents, I felt as if I had come to life, and I grabbed them and kept asking about Chen Feng's news.But my parents didn't want to talk too much. If they asked me too much, they would scold me impatiently. Slowly, I stopped asking, and then new problems appeared again——I started to have memory faults.Sometimes I suddenly can't remember where I am, or I fall asleep well, and when I wake up, I find myself standing in the kitchen, but I can't remember what I am doing in the kitchen.

My aunt didn't dare to take me in anymore, and my parents didn't want me to go back to China.Under the strong suggestion of a psychologist, I was admitted to a nursing home. In layman's terms, it is a mental hospital, where many patients with mental problems live.But it's not bad, I spend a lot of time every day sitting in the garden and looking at the sky in a daze.But as long as I think of Chen Feng, tears will fall uncontrollably.Perhaps because of crying too much, my eyesight deteriorated so much that I had to wear glasses.

After staying in the nursing home for a year, his condition showed no sign of improvement.Just when I thought this life might be spent like this, I met a very important person in my life, and it was her who changed my life.

I have said that as a teenager I was always blessed to have met four people.And she is the last person I'm talking about.She is a new psychiatrist in the nursing home, she is only 38 years old, her appearance is not outstanding, but her smile is impressive-like, like an angel, making people feel peaceful and warm.

Her name, like her person—

Angela.

That day, as usual, I sat on a stone chair in the garden and stared at the sky in a daze.She came over silently, sat down beside me, didn't rush to speak, just looked at me tenderly for a long time.

Then, with a soft sigh, she said, "I've heard about you."

"..."

"My dear, you not wrong."

"..."

"Love knows no race, creed orgender."

My whole body was shocked, I thought I heard it wrong, I slowly turned my head, looked at the strange blonde woman in front of me, and after a while I said blankly: "What do you mean?"

She smiled gently, touched my head, and said: "Youaresoyoung, whygiveupsoearly? IfIwereyou, Iwillwait. Nomatterfiveyears, tenyearsortwentyyears, tillthedayofthepowerful."

I looked at her blankly, and blurted out: "You mean, if I become stronger, then... Chenfeng and I still have hope, don't you?"

Although she couldn't understand, she still smiled: "As long as you heenough perseverance and patience, life will be full of hope."

A cloud like cotton wool floated in the blue sky.

It seems as if the wind blows and it disperses.

For the first time in a long time, he smiled in the sunshine.

——Chen Feng, wait for me.

(to be continued)

["Youth" ends here, thank you for accompanying me all the way until now, and thanks for the friends who supported me and "Youth".Adults often say that we are children, where there will be troubles.In fact, who is not troubled?Adolescence has the most troubles, and the feelings of youth are the purest. You must cherish it even more when you are still studying.In fact, "Youth" is a story that is both true and false. Of course, it is not my story.Don't blame Mumu's parents for being cruel. Any parent can't accept this kind of thing. As parents, there is nothing wrong with them doing this. Chen Feng is not strong enough to be independent.Don't blame Yang Xiaomei for beating mandarin ducks, she is just a little girl. Although her methods are despicable, she really likes Chen Feng and really plans for his future.The reality is like this, the one you love and the one who suits you may not be the same person.But - that's already the story of 2007-2008, so what will happen to them in 2014?Friends who are tired of listening to their stories can stop here, friends who want to continue listening, please wait for Yaoyao for two weeks, we will see you in two weeks (^o^) / Please look forward to the second episode of "Youth" Season - "Fate". 】

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