L and R (Nian Xing)

growing up

After a few months of ignorance, I went to junior high school and met new friends.Because the existence of a certain person gave me a lot of strength, I became more confident, dared to face people's eyes, and began to dress up secretly.I took the initiative to become an English study committee member, and I started to study actively, and my English scores were among the best.Because of his good looks and good figure, he can be regarded as a little famous.Successfully admitted to the key high school.

In the first semester of high school, a transfer student from Shanghai was transferred, and he instantly became the most influential person in the discussion of the whole grade after school.His name is Ren Yinhang. He has fair skin, handsome appearance, and tall figure, especially like Xuan Bin.Girls were crazy about it, some wrote love letters to him, some gave him snacks, and some even confessed to him on the radio station.The boy fell on both sides. Those who played with Ren Yinhang praised him for his good character, good golf skills, and being a good brother. Some boys looked down on him, called him a jerk, relied on his parents, and asked why girls like him.He comes from a good family, his father is an executive in the Education Bureau, his mother is a doctor, and his teachers treat him kindly.Because he is a science monster and his English is very poor, the head teacher arranged me to be his deskmate. The girls cast envious eyes on me and often asked me in groups about his personality.What do you think?I'm still very happy in my heart, who wouldn't be tempted by such a tall, rich and handsome man?

After the drastic change in temperament, I basically didn't catch any external stimuli.If you always allow yourself to be influenced by others, you will have low self-esteem and sensitivity all your life, and you will not be able to hold your head up.Faced with difficulties and challenges time and time again, I forced myself to go down the bar, starting with looking directly at the eyes of outsiders. I competed with myself in my heart, and won without dodging.Then preview homework in advance, take the initiative to answer the teacher's questions, and actively give speeches on stage. The courage increases with the affirmation of teachers and classmates again and again.Doing exercise for half an hour before going to bed, and secretly practicing the basic skills of jazz dance, my temperament and demeanor are also quietly changing.My mother will send me money every month, and my father’s pocket money is enough. I can buy daily necessities for girls, and sometimes I am determined to buy some brand-name shoes and clothes.I am changing every day, becoming more at ease, becoming more natural.When walking alone, I no longer feel inferior, but walk with my head held high. When a group of people talk about study or life, what I say can always be followed. Anyway, I don’t care. As long as I am not embarrassed, it is others who are embarrassed.

I just met him for a few days, and my communication with him is second only to "what homework did the teacher assign", "lend me the pen" and "thank you, you're welcome".One day, I felt that he always wanted to say something, and he would peek at me.Finally he couldn't help it anymore, "Would you like someone else now?" He tentatively returned my pen, I blushed, turned my head slightly, and said as if nothing happened, "Who do you like? You?" He decisively Shaking his head emphatically, "A buddy who plays with me, Zhang Yang, said he likes you, and asked me to ask you for a QQ number."

"Zhang Yang? The English class representative from the class next door?" "That's right! What do you think of the buddy who is shorter than me? Do you want to give me a QQ number?"I chuckled, "No, my mother won't let me fall in love." He also smiled brightly, a very sunny boy, his smile was exactly the same as Hyun Bin's, with dimples. "Student Wang, you are still arrogant." He pushed me with his elbow, and I opened my mouth exaggeratedly and deliberately slapped him lightly on the arm, "You still push people!" He yelled in pain, "School committee, please forgive me!" We I finally got acquainted with each other through small fights, and I am very happy.We are like Chinese tablemates, we can copy each other's homework, borrow each other's books to read, whisper in class, and act as each other's detectors to report whether the teacher is peeking at the back door.Sometimes I would hum English songs to him, and he would pretend to be a fan to cheer me on.

"Xiao Wang, why didn't you bring me the sesame biscuits from your house today?" He put down his schoolbag and patted me. "Young man, my little girl was very greedy for the big Burger King's burger last night. No, I ate it in my dream and slept so soundly. I got up late today. I couldn't line up to buy it and burn it. What can you do with me? "I resented him helplessly, "Hey, if you bully me because you can't speak Beijing dialect, then both of us will be hungry this morning!" He said sourly.Actually, I ate bread in the morning, but I didn't tell him, not because I was afraid of irritating him, but because I wanted to fake the grievance of sympathy.Every day he asks me to bring him breakfast, and he packs my drinks, which is mutually beneficial, but he spends more on me, and sometimes brings me Shanghai specialties. We are getting more and more like brothers.

He disappeared after the morning self-study, and he hasn't returned to his seat until the first class is approaching.I looked down the window and didn't see him on the basketball court.If he was late for math class, that bald Liu would scold him regardless of his face.We all call the math teacher Bald Liu. His hairstyle is like a bird's nest and the top of his head is bald.The class bell rang, and the bald Liu came. He saw that the side next to me was empty, and immediately asked, "Wang Si, where is Ren Yinhang, and you won't come to class in the morning? Yesterday I was smart with me, and today I am rubbing fire, right?" Ren Yinhang Math Very good, I often challenge the authority of the bald man, and openly questioned the bald man's problem-solving ideas in class yesterday, which made him very angry. "No, teacher, he's going to the bathroom, come right away!" I hurriedly smoothed things over. "Where did this little Xuan Bin go, and I didn't say anything. Don't let me be scolded by the teacher." I muttered in my heart, a little worried about him.In the middle of the class, Ren Yinhang broke out suddenly, bowed to the bald Liu Jingli, glanced at the blackboard and said, "Report to the teacher, this question seems to be an old version of the problem-solving idea, I learned a new one..." He said Before he finished speaking, he was reprimanded by the bald Liu, "You stand outside for a whole morning, and you don't say sorry for being late and you talk nonsense about math problems! No teacher will allow him to come in!"

Ren Yinhang walked straight into the classroom, crossed the podium, ignored the angry eyes of Bald Liu, walked up to me, stuffed a pack of fragrant outer packing bags into my arms, bent down and said to me in a low voice, "Here, Don’t you want to eat Burger King? My elder brother bought it for you. Eat it quickly after class, don’t starve yourself.” Then he turned around smartly and looked at the bald Liu with a smile on his face. !”, the bald headed Liu slapped him heavily when passing by, “Old fried dough stick!”.

The classmates in the class were stunned, and some girls cast envious eyes on me, and of course there were some sharp eyes.Our good relationship has caused a lot of gossip, and many girls also gossip about me behind my back, and even blatantly target me.I don't care, but some spreading rumors are more convincing than myself, and some of my friends have also alienated me.This move undoubtedly made some people hate me even more, after all, the human mouth is the most lethal weapon.After school in the morning, many groups of girls ran to the door of the classroom and pointed at me and talked about it. I pretended not to see them go out the back door, but they were still following me, talking loudly behind me as if I couldn’t hear them.After Ren Yinhang came out of the teacher's office and returned to the classroom, he saw that I hadn't opened the hamburger bag, so he hurried to catch up with me.

"Why didn't you eat it? Do you know how much effort I spent to buy a hamburger?" I stopped angrily and stared at him, "Did I ask you to buy it? You don't have to do this today." He lowered his head I shook my head, with a sorry expression on my face, and my heart softened all of a sudden, but the crowd next to me really made me angry, so I lowered the volume, "Do you know how many people don't like me because of your actions?", he He suddenly raised his head, looked around, and shouted to them, "Haven't you seen the excitement? It's none of your business, why don't you gossip like a paparazzi?" People also ran away.Both of us were silent for a while, not knowing when the corridor was empty.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were wronged." I have nothing to say, so I won't say anything. "I will definitely warn them, don't be unhappy." His big hand suddenly grabbed my arm, not strong but powerful.Before I knew whether to resist or obey, he dragged me to the basketball court. "Come on, I'll teach you how to play basketball. It's fine to play basketball every time I'm in a bad mood. Exercise is a medicine to relieve anxiety." He is like a leader, and people have to follow in his footsteps.Was it his fault that he was jealous and attacked?No, I know very well.But in this society, there are endless people who can express themselves through their mouths, but why should I be talked about like this?I have always made myself strong and let myself be indifferent, so it is time to give myself a chance to cry.My tears were spinning, he opened the tissue and wiped my tears, "Ah, I'm going to cry too", he put on a face and howled, which made me laugh out loud.He held the basketball in front of me and showed off three layups, and he also made some artificial tricks to scare me. He was almost hit several times. I still didn't fully believe in his skills, and I was so scared that I hid behind the basketball board. "Usually watch Yin Shuai play more, you will know how strong he is, it is impossible to beat you."

"Slick tongue, it's just your skill" "Yo Yo Yo, you're starting to taunt again, right?" He threw the ball at me, and I miraculously caught it, "Xiao Wang, come and play." He was very gentle and taught me with his hands. I'm dribbling and shooting, and I'm being encouraged and I'm being deliberately pissed off.I have been very interested in sports since I was a child, but I didn't have much chance to study, so I played basketball with him ecstatically all afternoon, leaving all my troubles behind.The mid-term exam is coming soon, and he has become interested in English during this time. How can a boy who watches NBA every day have poor English?His spoken English is very good. I once suspected that he was just pretending to be poor in English. Anyway, during this period of time, the two of us have improved each other in our studies. My progress in science is thanks to his tireless teaching.

The mid-term exam teacher will arrange the seats according to the grades. On the eve of the exam, I sent him a text message, "If you don't have a score of 120 in English, you will be miserable. Teacher Wang will make a fuss!" "Just wait and see."The test results came out, and his English was in a mess.The head teacher assigned him to my side again and said earnestly, "Wang Si, he has improved a lot anyway."Ren Yinhang and I laughed at the same time. We will be at the same table for half a semester again. Although there is a lot of pressure, we get along very happily. He actively adjusted my mentality, and I have completely ignored those rumors.After school that day, Zhang Yang suddenly walked up to me and said he wanted to take me home.I'm not interested in him at all, and I don't want to waste his time dealing with me.Zhang Yang has good grades in English, is good at sports, has a strong body, and looks good.But I just don't like him. If the ordinary friendship with him deteriorates because he likes me, then I would rather not have this friendship.

He beamed and talked about him, and I replied politely.I know that he, like everyone else, thinks that I like Yin Shihang and reject others, that I am a hypocritical and self-important person. "Hey, is Ren Yinhang sitting with you again this time?" Sure enough, he would mention Ren Yinhang to attract my attention, "Yes, the teacher asked me to help him with his English. I can also learn scientific thinking, which is very good." I don't need to lie, let him misunderstand that I am happy because of Ren Yin Hang, I don't care. "Didn't Bald Liu call him to the office that day? When I was handing in my English homework in the office, I heard the class teacher stop him." He deliberately stopped for a while and said, "And then?" I asked. "Then the head teacher told him that if he does well in the English test in this midterm exam, he will be arranged to sit in the center with the class monitor." He stopped again, and I was a little impatient, "Can you finish the sentence in one breath?" "The teacher said this Ren Yinhang did well in the English quiz a few times, and there were no major problems in the midterm. Ren Yinhang said that if he didn't pass the exam, would he still be able to sit with you?" I pointed at me suspiciously, "Me?". "Yes, the teacher promised that if he failed the exam, Wang Si would continue to be his English teacher."

When I got home, I kept thinking about the information Sun Yang told me. I was still wondering, obviously he has been studying English very hard, and he is also very stable in every English test. His grammar is better than mine. How could the midterm exam plummet? .It turned out that he was sitting next to me. This scheming man did not hesitate to do so badly in the exam for his purpose!I couldn't help but call him at night, and he answered right away. "Scheming man, so you failed the test on purpose." "Whatare you talking about?" (What are you talking about?) "Stop pretending hahaha I know it all!" Sure enough, he would not lie, and admitted in disguise.We talked and talked on the phone for more than two hours. "Baby, it's time for you to sleep", I was stunned, what did he just say? "You're crazy, don't talk nonsense, okay?" He laughed loudly, "You got it wrong, hurry up and get some sleep, there's still class tomorrow!"

This week, there was another explosive topic that we like to talk about in the school. Ren Yinhang and Zhang Yang had a group fight on the basketball court.It was a group fight, but it was better to say that some boys who didn't know the truth helped Zhang Yang beat Ren Yinhang, some blood flowed from the corner of Zhang Yang's mouth, and his face was swollen from the beating.And Ren Yinhang was carried into the ambulance and sent to the hospital.When Ren Yinhang's grandfather came to help him pack his books, I asked him about his situation. After he told me his hospital address, he hurried to the office to meet the dean and the parents of other troublesome students.I met Zhang Yang at school, and before I could ask him why he was fighting, he gave me a hard look and walked towards the office.

I spent huge sums of money to buy a fruit basket at the entrance of the hospital and walked to his ward.After the operation, he was wrapped in bandages, but he didn't look very weak, and he felt that he could be alive and well again in the next second. "Why are you here?" He seemed to be about to bounce. "Spend a huge amount of money to supplement you with vitamins, lie down quickly, and don't stretch your neck." I put the fruit basket on the table and sat down, "Why are you fighting? You said that Zhang Yang is your good brother!" "Don't tell me, my good brother was just beaten up. This time, my relationship is even stronger, believe it or not?" "Don't play tricks, you were beaten to the hospital, buddy, wake up, 2 or 2? I peeled a banana and fed it to him, and he swallowed it desperately. "I've been craving fruit for a long time now. You came just in time." I interrupted his witticism, "Do you live with your grandpa? I’ve said it.” He thought for a while, and said lightly, “My parents are busy, and my relatives in Shanghai have passed away, so I can only come to Beijing to have a meal, hehe.” I scratched his nose, “It’s nothing When it's time, I still like to joke!"

I heard from the teacher that Ren Yinhang needs to recuperate in the hospital for a period of time, so let everyone not worry about him.Occasionally, I went to the hospital to visit him a few times. I specially asked my grandma to make soup to nourish him. I would listen to the tape player with him, and he mercilessly laughed at him, "Why are urban beauties so rusty, and they still use tape players." .I haven't mentioned Luo Nianxing's story to anyone yet, and this story has become a new chapter for me that cannot be opened.Except for this tape player, I locked everything about her in a cabinet, and I haven't opened that cabinet after the decadent period, and it must have been three years.

"What do you know, these are old antiques, and they will be valuable in the future, where is the baby from Australia?" "Oh, see if you can do it, I can recite these songs, don't you get tired of listening to them?" "What are you talking about?" , the way you recuperate your body and mind is basketball, and I am the music on the tape! I don’t listen to it often, okay?” “I understand, because I was injured for you, so you are sad for me, right!” He said in a flash When he came out, he suddenly covered his mouth with a bandaged hand, and with a click, he didn't cry out the pain. "What did you say, you got hurt because of me?" I looked into his eyes suspiciously. "No, it's nothing, I made a slip of the tongue," he faltered, his eyes dodging. "I can tell at a glance whether you are lying or not. Tell the truth earlier, we don't need to lie."He looked at me seriously, "Zhang Yang is not a man. The basketball players in the morning asked him how he was chasing you. What he said made me explode, and then I hit him." "Huh? He What can I say to make you angry?" "You don't need to know, it's already been fought anyway." I suddenly felt that this boy was a man, so righteous, so righteous, and his eyes were always shining.I didn't ask much, because I can probably guess that the so-called face made Zhang Yang say some big things, such as I'm not a good guy, hanging on to him, saying I like him, and other nonsense that attracted those gossip boys. Laugh, if it wasn't for insulting me, Ren Yinhang wouldn't hit him.

After recovering his health, Ren Yinhang returned to the class, and we didn't have much time to spend together.The second year of high school was a watershed, and the students were discussing the division of arts and sciences enthusiastically.I have nothing to worry about. What I am good at is liberal arts. Although I also like the science of logical reasoning, I know that my direction is linguistics. For the sake of the person who regrets to miss it, I have been working hard towards a promising path. .

"You must study science, you are so strong in mathematics, physics and chemistry." "I don't know, maybe you will study liberal arts," he joked.He was teasing me for laughing, maybe he had thought about studying literature with me, but even considering the practical factors, we must give up these thoughts.There is a high probability that we will not be assigned to the same class, and we specialize in completely different directions. There is no need for him to give up the mathematics, physics and chemistry that he is interested in. We are all rational people. This kind of giving up our direction for the sake of good friends is probably a part of the novel. .

Although we were not in the same class in the second year of high school, we kept in touch regularly.He would run most of the way to my classroom to bring me water, listen to music with me during lunch break, and use the Bluetooth headset he gave me on my birthday.On weekends, we occasionally invite each other to watch movies, rollerblade, play badminton, eat, and once went crazy to Shanghai to see the Bund.But we have never crossed the line. He is really a good boy with a good tutor. I feel that he was once as sensitive and reserved as I am. Later, I also verified it.His parents are busy with work, so he lives with his grandmother in Shanghai. His grandmother is a great elementary school teacher. She believes in Buddhism and is a vegetarian. Young hearts sow the seeds of kindness.He respects people at the bottom of the society from the bottom of his heart, whether they are the old, the young, the sick, or the uncle who picks up rags, he will help as much as he can.Grandma also died of a sudden cerebral infarction while doing good deeds. He cried very sadly, feeling as if the sky had fallen.Later, he stayed at a relative's house in Shanghai for several years. The relative had some conflicts with his father, so he was asked to come to Beijing to join his grandfather.

He told me that before his grandma passed away, he was a little crying bag. After his grandma passed away, he never cried again. Grandma said that when she left, no one would protect him, and he had to become a man.Later, living under the fence made him feel very uncomfortable. His relatives are typical Shanghainese, shrewd and self-interested, and he had to swallow some grievances by himself.On the Bund in Shanghai, we leaned on the fence, blowing the wind, and watched the gorgeous night scene and shared our thoughts with each other. I also told him some of my stories with some reservations.We were so touched by each other, tears were rolling, and then we hugged each other, until now our relationship is pure, I cherish it, and I believe he cherishes it too.