L and R (Nian Xing)

We are in the third year of high school, and we are ready to sprint for the college entrance examination. Our connection has changed from playing together to meeting in the library.I never thought that I would be so self-disciplined and serious, reviewing homework day and night.Because of her, him, and my grandmother who is getting seriously ill, I must do my best to meet the college entrance examination, reverse my miserable life, and make up for some missed fate and feelings.The college entrance examination is getting closer and closer. Although there are some learning problems and difficulties, it will not deviate too much from the direction I expected.I will definitely work hard to enter the university I want to enter, try my best, and get ready to go.

A few days before the college entrance examination, I suddenly lost contact with him.I didn't reply to messages or calls, and I didn't come to school. I asked a group of friends and they said they didn't contact me.Ren Yinhang evaporated from the world.I sent him the last text message "There must be a limit to joking, right? You suddenly left without saying goodbye without leaving any messages. Do you still regard me as a friend?"

Because I was busy with the college entrance examination, I didn't pay much attention to him. Once I was distracted, I couldn't help being full of him.On the day of the college entrance examination, my father silently cheered me on by wearing a cheap but decent suit for the first time.He was still so inarticulate, he hurriedly asked me if I had all the food and if I had eaten, and then didn't ask me any more. He didn't dare to look at me the whole time, and occasionally glanced at me a few times.The daughter grew taller and taller, even a little taller than him. He didn't know when the daughter changed. In short, he felt that he didn't know her anymore.

My mother, whom I hadn’t seen for a long time, called me after the first exam. I was hesitant to answer or not, and then I saw her figure at the door. Our conversation was very awkward, and she still looked at me with the disgusting eyes from before. She looks at me, but I won't be as inferior as I was when I was a child, pretending not to see her and avoiding her eyes. "What are you looking at? Why are you here?" "I will definitely come on such an important day as the college entrance examination. Do you have any money?" I said disdainfully that I didn't need it.Thanks to her, I can achieve the freedom to spend money, but we haven't called more than five times in a few years, I don't know what to talk to her, her tone and attitude still sound so strong, it makes me angry and not I would like to say more to her.She is still the one who looks full of resentment. It must be hard for her to work outside the past few years, and she has suffered no less grievances than at home.Her purpose is to get as many points as you can, as long as you try your best, but my father and grandpa always blindly let me take the Tsinghua University and Peking University. Holding my hand, "Just work hard. Grandma doesn't want you to get into the same place in the exam. Grandma hopes that you will be healthy and happy."

She would also close her eyes and say, "Call your mother back, and we will cancel it. I don't care about her faults, and I ask her to forgive my faults." My grandma was so strong all her life, and she never thought she would If she does something wrong, even if she is wrong, she will do everything possible to shirk it to others.It's not that she can't afford it, but that she is too high-minded. She will bravely take on heavy responsibilities in the face of big right and wrong. She is an upright and enthusiastic person, but she will never bow her head in the face of family "small troubles".I was very surprised and joked, "Grandma, you still admit your mistake, I don't know you anymore." "Grandma is old, I am old." She looked at the sky outside the window and sighed.I couldn't see grandma's face, but the tears couldn't stop rolling in my eyes. I suppressed my sadness and went back to school after chatting for a while.On the way back to school, I couldn't help crying on the bus. When I thought of my grandma's words "I'm old", I felt sore. It was an old man's sincere sigh about life.Such a strong woman will finally be defeated by the word "old". In my mind, I eliminated all the sad memories of my grandma's arrogance, and precipitated all the past events of our intergenerational relatives. Her love is far greater than my hate for her.Tears are like a flood, wetting my clothes, I can't calm down for a long time...

As soon as the college entrance examination was over, I walked out of the school gate and saw my father's eyes were red. I thought he was touched by his daughter's success in passing the college entrance examination, but I didn't expect it to be a bolt from the blue. "During your exam yesterday, your grandma died." My mind went blank and I felt like I was suffocating. "In order not to affect your college entrance examination, she asked me not to tell you before she died, and go to the hospital with me." My mother came over to help me who was paralyzed, "What? She died? Let me go there together." .My father looked at my mother in amazement. He hadn't seen her for many years, but his emotions were completely mixed with the depression of the death of the old man at this time. Everyone didn't say anything, and they went to the hospital quietly by car.A white cloth was spread on grandma, and I threw down my schoolbag and hugged the corpse, "Grandma, grandma!" My screams echoed in the corridor, my mother wiped away her tears, and my father sobbed in a hoarse and low voice.When my grandfather passed away a year ago, I didn't see my father crying. My aunts cried like tears.Maybe it's the face of being an incompetent eldest brother, he can't cry, maybe he cried secretly but we don't know.But this time when grandma passed away, he couldn't hold back and howled.I cried all night until I couldn't cry anymore. If the time could be repeated, I would rather give up the college entrance examination to see my grandma for the last time.

Grandma and grandpa were buried together, "Mother Rong Duxiu, father Wang Chaoyang's tomb, born on March 26, 26, January [-], [-], died in June [-] Seventh, February [-], [-]".We wore black clothes and mourned for the two old people.It was a sunny day, and the warm sun shone on my face, and I seemed to hear my grandma calling, "Si'er, live well, don't live like us, do whatever you want, grandma will always support you in the sky. "

"Thank you, grandma. Thank you for leaving me so many precious life attitudes and wealth. You let me know the truth that no one is perfect. You are not perfect but you are also the most perfect grandma. Go well."