Shen Zicheng

I started falling asleep, often, often.

I'm not as good as a shadow, so I back off.

Occasionally when struggling to wake up, she would always see a smiling Shen Qiao.

But that smile is gradually not the same as before, it seems very forced.

I remember very clearly that Shen Qiao in the past would not smile like this, but now Shen Qiao looks like a shadow.

Familiar with some strange.

I don't know what happened while I was asleep, and Shadow can't remember either.

The shadow keeps forgetting things over and over again because I don't want it to remember things that aren't pleasant.

But one day I was awakened by someone's cry. When I opened my eyes, I saw Shen Qiao holding onto the shadow and crying in frustration: "I was wrong...it was me...I'm sorry...it's all my fault, Please, let him come back, let him come back..."

Shadow looked at me, bewildered.

I looked at Shen Qiao, puzzled.

Isn't the shadow always there?

Who does Shen Qiao want to come back?

……

While I was asleep, Shadow met someone.

In other words, one recognizes the shadow.

I couldn't see his face clearly, it was a blurry black mass.

But when I wake up, he always speaks to me in a manner that is familiar to me.

I am always in a strange room.

Shadow couldn't remember his name.

But whenever she finds out that he is communicating with me, Shen Qiao will always angrily take me away.

So I know his name is Ye Cheng.

After leaving that room, Shen Qiao would always hold my hand worriedly, and repeat nervously: "You can't follow others, you know? Ah Cheng, you are not allowed to follow others."

But Ye Cheng still appears frequently.

He's always saying things I don't understand, and that's probably why Shadow keeps doing other things while he's talking.

Shen Qiao will always show up in time to take me away, he seems to dislike this dark man named Ye Cheng very much.

Finally one day, Shen Qiao didn't show up for a long time.

I'm still in a strange room.

I remember this is Yecheng's home.

Ye Cheng said that Shen Qiao was going to take some important exam, so I can temporarily stay at his house.

He said something I couldn't understand, probably something like mental illness.

I remembered what Shen Qiao's father said.

So I called Ye Cheng to stop him from continuing, and asked him, "Am I not normal?"

Ye Cheng was surprised.

It's like I didn't expect me to speak suddenly.

He didn't answer my question, but asked me hesitantly, "Are you Ah Cheng...no, are you Shen Zicheng?"

I nodded.

……

Shadow doesn't seem to like Ye Cheng.

So when Ye Cheng talks, I often answer.

Ye Cheng told me that the shadows of normal people cannot speak.

I'm a little sad.

It turned out that I was really abnormal.

Ye Cheng went on to say, I once had the opportunity to heal my illness and become a normal person.

But because Shen Qiao was too paranoid and unwilling to admit that I was abnormal, she strongly opposed sending me to the hospital.

So I'm still not normal me.

Ye Cheng spoke a little angrily. Shen Qiao didn't like him, and he seemed to hate Shen Qiao: "Who does he think he is? Does he think he can cure you by himself? He has been like this since he was a child. Going to the dark, one tendon will die."

I don't like him talking about Shen Qiao that way.

After a pause, Ye Cheng softened again, and said to me: "If it were me... I would not decide everything arbitrarily like Shen Qiao, I would respect your choice, if you want... I can help you, take you Go to the hospital for treatment."

treat?

I looked at the shadow.

Shadow looked at me.

Ye Cheng said that the shadow of a normal person cannot speak.

So if I want to be normal, the shadow has to turn back into a non-speaking shadow.

but.

Isn't the shadow better than me?

Shouldn't it be me who should disappear?

……

I can't find a chance to talk to Shen Qiao.

When Shen Qiao was around, Shadow was always active.

Only when Shen Qiao showed a depressed expression occasionally, the shadow would hide behind me as if afraid.

I was able to speak to Shen Qiao.

But when I opened my mouth, I didn't know what to say.

Shen Qiao was very depressed. He sat on the ground, grabbed his hair, lowered his head, and muttered something softly.

I leaned over to him and listened, and found that he was constantly blaming himself.

His voice became lower and lower, until it became a soft sob.

Shadow was even more frightened.

I grabbed Shen Qiao's hand.

He looked up in horror, his eyes were misty.

……

It seems like I haven't talked to Shen Qiao for so long.

He cried very softly, but it was also heartbreaking.

He asked me if I hated him, and said that if it wasn't for him, I might have another life.

He said he thought I was slowly getting better, but he didn't expect that he was slowly pushing me into the abyss.

He said it was all his fault, that his willful behavior made me more confused.

He said he should have let me go, he shouldn't have me tied to him.

Ye Cheng probably told Shen Qiao about our conversation.

I don't know how he told Shen Qiao, but I started to hate him.

I told Shen Qiao that I don't hate him, I like him.

But Shen Qiao's eyes were still filled with sadness, and he said in a low voice, "Thank you...A Cheng."

"...I will choose a school far away from home, so that you will no longer be influenced by me, and you can do whatever you want."

"Goodbye, Cheng."

Shen Qiao kissed my forehead.

……

I heard Shen Qiao's father on the phone.

Men in white coats grabbed me and threw me into a car.

This reminds me of the bright red flower.

I was gasping for breath with fear and desperately struggling to get out of the car.

There was a sudden sharp pain in the arm.

Something entered my body along with the pain.

I slowly fell into a deep sleep.

……

I was admitted to the hospital.

I hate it here.

Cold, scary, and without Shen Qiao.

They always give me injections and medicine.

They look at me like garbage.

I hate it here.

Shadow hated it too.

help me.

……

I started hearing people talking in my ear again.

This time I couldn't tell whose voice it was.

I hide under the bed.

But they snatched Shadow out from under the bed.

Then it was thrown into a room with no windows and no lights.

help me.

……

It's hard for me to stay awake anymore.

My consciousness is becoming more chaotic every day.

I don't know what I'm doing.

Shadow is like me.

It started crying a lot.

help me.

……

I hate it here.

I was abandoned.

I live with the shadow.

No one will come to my rescue.

……

I was abandoned.

I hate it here.

No one will come to my rescue.

……

No one will come to my rescue.

……

……

……

"A Cheng...A Cheng...Shen Zicheng!"

I heard Shen Qiao's voice.

I often hear Shen Qiao's voice, but every time it is a disappointing hallucination.

I turned around and saw Shen Qiao standing beside the hospital bed.

But this time he didn't have the smile I like.

Is this a new hallucination?

I looked at him in bewilderment.

Shen Qiao was very angry, her face was livid.

I was a little scared and curled up at the head of the bed.

I can't remember what I did to make him so angry.

The people in the white coats next to me were also very scared.

And why are they afraid?

Someone was whispering something to Shen Qiao.

Shen Qiao didn't respond.

He just looked at me angrily, then slowly reached out and touched my cheek.

Somewhat warm.

I ducked away in some fear, then realized that hallucinations are never warm.

Fear becomes dread.

I opened my eyes wide and grabbed Shen Qiao's hand, which was a real touch.

Is he the real Shen Qiao?

He is the real Shen Qiao.

I looked at Shen Qiao.

Shadow suddenly cried out.

……

Shen Qiao took me out of the hospital.

I can't remember how long I stayed in the hospital, but at least Shen Qiao didn't know how to drive before I came in.

I'm still terrified of cars.

But Shen Qiao attracted more attention than fear.

The rain was loud.

He was still very angry, saying that they lied to him and that they did not keep their word.

He said that they clearly promised to take good care of me, but they threw me into the hospital and ignored them.

Shen Qiao said: "I will never trust them again, do you want to come with me? Ah Cheng..."

Shen Qiao's voice stopped abruptly.

As if reacting suddenly, he added eagerly: "No, I mean you...whether it's you or Ah Cheng...you all..."

I looked at the shadow.

Shadow looked at me.

Shen Qiao was a little incoherent, and finally fell silent again.

The gray-black road retreated rapidly.

Shen Qiao's voice was tinged with regret: "...It's all my fault."

He began to blame himself again: "I'm obviously...always by your side...I used to think that the shadow you mentioned was a person you imagined, I always thought...you closed your heart because of uncle and the others, so I was so stubborn that they didn't want them to send you away... However, by the time I realized it, you had already... blamed me..."

Shen Qiao spoke intermittently, a little choked up.

I'm a little confused so.

Shen Qiao wiped her eyes, and then said: "Ah Cheng, I always mean you, do you understand? Shen Zicheng, I want to talk to you, and I have been looking at you, I... I like It's you, it's all you, not your shadow, do you know Shen Zicheng?"

it's me?

……I?

……why?

Obviously the shadow is better than me...

Obviously the shadow is better than me.

why me?

I turned to look at Shadow.

Shadow was disturbed.

It looks at me.

Pointing out the window.

I look out the window.

I heard a rumbling sound coming from the mountain.