Before and After Divorce

At the meeting, Xia Tingwan was very uncomfortable again.

A reporter from U Weekly asked about his acting skills. He first praised him for his portrayal of Xiaoxia, who was a victim of domestic violence, so realistically. people.

Xia Tingwan felt as if someone had suddenly tightened his throat.

Under the spotlight, even a loss of speech for three or four seconds is very embarrassing. He felt sweaty on his palms, wanted to smoke a cigarette, and wanted to drink a few shots. When his eyes wandered, he saw the person sitting in the first row Su Yan.

Su Yan folded his hands and looked at him steadily. That kind of focused gaze made him feel relieved suddenly.

He finally managed to come up with a reasonably reasonable response: "I personally have no experience or contact with it. In fact, Director Xu Zhe really gave me a lot of inspiration and help on how to interpret the character Xiao Xia."

When it comes to entering the entertainment circle, he has always been in a state of not being conscious and self-aware.

To become a star, the most satisfying thing for him is that someone likes him.

Of course it was too naive when I thought about it later, but to him at that time, that was his true thought.

He wants to be liked by many people, he wants free love that does not pursue the real him, does not require any responsibility and returns,

He is like a vain peacock, he only wants the flashy splendor when he opens his tail.

As for his real self down there, he didn't want to be seen, to be approached, to answer, to be remembered.

After the meeting, small-scale chatting and socializing took place in twos and threes.

Xia Tingwan should of course be the protagonist, but he himself felt that he performed really badly during the interview and was in a bad mood, so he wished that no one would pay attention to him, and soon slipped to the corner alone.

It was the manager Zhou Yang who found him first, "I have something to do."

Conversations that start like Zhou Yang's are usually accompanied by some headaches. Xia Tingwan sipped champagne, glanced at Zhou Yang, and signaled him to continue.

"Someone wants to treat you to dinner."

"No." Xia Tingwan refused without even thinking about it. Since he became famous, there have been many such things. There are rich businessmen and directors, but firstly, there are no too big figures, and secondly, Xia Tingwan's willful personality Extremist, he enjoys admiration, but hates the approach of ambitious people, once his liking is forced, he will step on his safety line.

"This Mr. Su's face, I'm afraid I have to give it." Zhou Yang shook his head, he turned sideways, and pointed to Su Yan who was standing in the distance and talking to Xu Zhe for Xia Tingwan: "Tingwan, I understand you , it’s not that I can’t be offended, I’m sure I won’t even mention it to you.”

Xia Tingwan was a little stunned at first, but then a wave of anger welled up in his chest.

He ignored Zhou Yang, but held the champagne glass tightly, and strode directly towards Su Yan. .

"Mr. Su,"

He abruptly stood next to Xu Zhe and Su Yan who were chatting happily. Although his dimples were revealed in his smile, his eyes stared at Su Yan provocatively: "As you, you don't have to do this if you want to find me for dinner." Come on. Do you need to make up a movie fan identity to tease me?"

Xia Tingwan's words were thoughtless and extremely blunt, causing Xu Zhe to turn his head in astonishment.

But Xia Tingwan was really angry.

He thought that the personable movie fan was actually a rich man playing old tricks.

If Su Yan had made it clear, he wouldn't have been so angry, but Su Yan lied to him like a puppeteer, watching him complacent, and then condescendingly forcing him to agree, it was really boring.

Su Yan is not as cool as he imagined, which annoys him.

"Actually, it's very easy to find me for dinner. The last time someone offered 30 yuan, I rejected it, so Mr. Su... why don't you make an offer?"

As soon as Xia Ting said the evening words, he immediately regretted it.

The 30 yuan thing was made up. Although there are such things in the circle, the price tag is too vulgar, and no one will say it in the open. He just wants to use it to choke Su Yan.

But in fact, this of course not only lost his own face, but also made Xu Zhe look bad.

What's more, he hasn't quite figured out Su Yan's background, but if Zhou Yang said that, of course he shouldn't offend him.

Xia Tingwan exploded quickly, but in fact he was also very quick in his heart, but he didn't want to give in immediately, so he could only stand there stiffly.

Su Yan looked down at Xia Tingwan with a slightly surprised expression.

"Feel sorry."

Su Yan apologized first, which surprised Xia Tingwan, he looked like the kind of person who never needed to say sorry in his life.

"Seeing that you are not in high spirits today, I really want to treat you to a meal. In fact, I should have told you directly, but I didn't see you after the meeting, so I entrusted Mr. Zhou. It must be that something happened during the relay." Misunderstand."

"As for fan status..."

Su Yan turned around, only then did Xia Tingwan notice that behind him was a bodyguard wearing a black suit and nearly two meters tall. Su Yan took a thin CD from the bodyguard and handed it to Xia Tingwan .

"The blu-ray disc of "Whale Language" that I entrusted someone to buy some time ago, I brought it here today, just to get Mr. Xia to sign it."

Su Yan looked at Xia Tingwan, sighed softly, and said, "I'm really a movie fan, and I didn't lie to you. It's just that it's a little embarrassing to make this request now?"

"No, not embarrassing."

Xia Tingwan felt his face burn instantly, he didn't dare to look at Su Yan's expression, he only sneaked a glance at Xu Zhe, who put his finger between his brows and rubbed gently, didn't talk to him, apparently feeling troubled.

Su Yan set up a hundred steps for him to go down. While Xia Tingwan breathed a sigh of relief, he felt even more ashamed, so he hurriedly found a pen and wrote his name on the CD.

"Mr. Xia."

When Xia Tingwan was writing, Su Yan's deep voice sounded beside him again: "If someone asks you to eat again, no matter how much it is - tell him to go."

Xia Tingwan involuntarily raised his head to look at Su Yan.

Even if it was just such a hasty meeting, Su Yan's body was almost firmly labeled as elegant and decent, and Xia Tingwan was really surprised when he spit out the word "get out" from his mouth.

"So if you get into trouble, Mr. Xia can come to me at any time."

Su Yan didn't explain any more, he took the CD signed by Xia Tingwan, a gentle smile appeared in his light gray eyes, "Thank you".

After leaving these two words, he turned around and left.

-

It took Xia Tingwan a full week to organize his things.

It had been seven days, and Su Yan hadn't come back, nor had he said a word, only sent Secretary Lu back to pick up the documents once.

Xia Tingwan felt very depressed because of this, but this was what he expected.

The housekeeper, cook and driver are still in Xiangshan's house to help. They have a subtle but decent attitude, leaving enough space for Xia Tingwan most of the time, but they will show up at any time if needed.

No one showed any unusual attitude, no one urged, and no one said much.

This is of course the Su family's style.

Su Yan handles things appropriately and steadily, but without dragging his feet.Even if it was the fanatical pursuit back then, he has always maintained his own principles.

If he said he wanted to work, he would never reply to Xia Tingwan's message.But when Xia Tingwan was annoyed because he doubted his own charm, Su Yan had often returned to him by plane.

Su Yan is often very busy, and when he comes back, he only spends one night talking with Xia Tingwan. Early the next morning, Xia Tingwan often flies away before everyone wakes up, but he is very concerned about the hardships of travelling. Not a word.

He doesn't interfere with Xia Tingwan's work, nor does he interfere with Xia Tingwan's life. He has written so many touching love letters, but he always turns around and leaves simply.

At that time, Xia Tingwan often complained to his friends in private that Su Yan was an antique, but in fact, he always felt that Su Yan had an old-fashioned dignity and calmness.

He didn't have that kind of demeanor, and neither did anyone around him.

On the eighth day when she was convinced that Su Yan would not appear, Xia Tingwan finally couldn't drag on any longer.

In fact, he didn't have that many things. He packed up all the inconvenient things and waited for the housekeeper to arrange to send them to his house directly. He only carried a delicate leather suitcase in his hand and left Su's house wearing a pair of sunglasses.

"Mr. Xia, shall I take you home?"

"not going home."

Xia Tingwan replied while sitting in the back seat and looking out the car window at the scenery of Xiangshan Mountain.

He didn't want to go back to that home.

Back then, his mother Zhang Xueqiao and his stepfather insisted on marrying Su Yan. Now that the media reported the gossip about his divorce with Su Yan, Zhang Xueqiao had already called him dozens of times.

Xia Tingwan didn't pick up any one, he thought he knew what Zhang Xueqiao would say if he did, it was nothing more than asking him to hurry up and beg Su Yan not to divorce.

Zhang Xueqiao is the kind of woman who has lived on the charity of men all her life. Even at the age of nearly 50, she is still coquettishly coquettish with her stepfather.

But he didn't blame her, she just wanted to be a little woman forever, not a mother.

She wants to live comfortably, and for this reason, the happiness of her son is not so important.

Just like when he was eight years old, one day, she ran away because she couldn't bear the domestic violence, and she threw him to the alcoholic father Xia Zhongyu to abuse him wantonly.

But Zhang Xueqiao was not completely cold-blooded after all. One day when he was 13 years old, she suddenly came back with her stepfather who was a businessman. As soon as they met each other, she threw 10,000+ to Xia Zhongyu, knocking this man who only knew how to drink and gamble into a dizzy state. Then he took Xia Tingwan back to his stepfather's house neatly.

Zhang Xueqiao still thinks that she and her stepfather are the saviors, and pulled the injured Xia Tingwan out of the swamp.

But Xia Tingwan was like a stray cat that refused to be disciplined. He was neither loved nor obedient. His stepfather felt that he didn't know how to be grateful, so he seldom talked to him.

It wasn't until five years ago when his career was hit hard and his underwear was about to be lost, that he had a sincere conversation with Xia Tingwan: Why don't you just live with Mr. Su, I think he also treats you sincerely.

Xia Tingwan has never been home.

Until five years ago, Su Yan said to him: "Tingting, no one can change your past life, but it will be different in the future. I will give you a home."

But now he has no home.

"Go to my assistant."

Xia Tingwan thought for a long time, and finally managed to think of a place to go.

-

Xia Tingwan began to slump at his assistant Zhao Nanshu's house.

Every day he would either sleep in the quilt, or sit on the edge of the bed in a daze. Zhao Nanshu finally couldn't bear it after serving him like a cat for nearly ten days.

"Boss, it's today!"

That night, Zhao Nanshu held a takeaway crayfish in his left hand and a few beers from 7-11 in his right. He kicked open the door bravely and almost comically, and shouted at Xia Tingwan who was still under the quilt. ;"Crawfish Night—Let's Forget About Men!"

Zhao Nanshu is a 0 who has a gay flame soaring to the sky. He works full-time as Xia Tingwan's personal assistant, and in his spare time, he is a beauty and skin care blogger. More importantly, he is Xia Tingwan's friend.

Zhao Nanshu is good at falling in love, falling in love, and the whole process of self-recovery. "Forget all the stinky men" is his mantra.

Xia Tingwan was not in the mood at first, but for some reason, upon hearing Zhao Nanshu's familiar declaration, he felt a strange impulse in his heart.

People have the instinct of self-help. When they fall into emotions and cannot get out, they say they need a sense of ritual.

So there is a little solemn boundary between today and tomorrow.

Xia Tingwan felt that he really needed a lobster night.

Xia Tingwan and Zhao Nanshu closed the curtains, turned on the TV and tuned to a random variety show. They sat cross-legged on the wooden floor and unpacked the crayfish together. The air was instantly filled with the fire brought by the crayfish. Spicy and crisp.

"This is Shisanxiang, this is spicy, and this is garlic." Zhao Nanshu ordered the boxes one by one, and handed Xia Tingwan a can of beer while talking: "I bought too much, but It’s okay, I’m going to indulge a bit today!”

Xia Tingwan's fingers touched the cold beer, and he couldn't help flinching. He hesitated and put the beer aside: "Stop drinking."

After marriage, Su Yan had several conflicts with him about drinking and smoking.

He said that he was not afraid of anything, but he was actually a paper tiger. When Su Yan really got angry, as soon as his face darkened, his legs began to weaken.

Strangely, after the drunk driving incident happened, Su Yan didn't say a word.

But he himself became afraid. He hadn't drunk a single drop of alcohol in the past six months, but Su Yan didn't seem to notice.

"Boss, a broken-hearted person can't get out without drinking." Zhao Nanshu said earnestly.

"I'm not broken in love, I'm divorced." Xia Tingwan explained, but immediately felt even more miserable.

He thought, fuck it, he's divorced, why should he care what Su Yan thinks, so he opened the beer and drank half of the can.

For a while, Xia Tingwan felt that what Zhao Nanshu said was indeed right.

The two of them sat lazily on the floor after drinking, watching the variety show and laughing.

Zhao Nanshu told him some gossip about people in the circle during this period, and he listened to it, feeling like a story from another world.

When Xia Tingwan opened the third can of beer, Xia Tingwan looked at the shrimp shells piled up in the trash can, but the circles of his eyes turned red instantly.

He paralyzed slowly and weakly, lying on the floor like this, and said softly: "Nan Shu, do you still remember the crayfish we ate in Feng County?"

After meeting for the first time, Su Yan added his WeChat, but didn't say much.

During that time, he followed another director to film in Feng County in the mountains for a month, and he could only eat some farm fried food all day long, so he posted a circle of friends saying that he wanted to eat crayfish and was going crazy.

Three days later, Su Yan took the chef and driver into the mountain, and there was a car full of fresh crayfish raised in water tanks. Xia Tingwan still remembers his astonishment and surprise.When thanking Su Yan, Su Yan smiled and just said: "It's an honor to finally find the time to invite Mr. Xia to dinner."

That night, the entire crew ate to their heart's content and drank more than a dozen boxes of beer.

In the slightly drunken atmosphere, some people sang loudly, some people jumped into the river to swim naked, making a lot of noise.

He and Su Yan found a secluded lakeside. He was in a hurry to eat, and Su Yan was beside him patiently helping him peel the shrimp shells one by one.

"Remember." After Zhao Nanshu subconsciously replied, he felt something was wrong. He straightened up and moved to Xia Tingwan's side: "Oh, boss, did you think..."

"I miss him so much." Xia Tingwan covered his face with his palms, he took a deep breath, what he breathed into his chest was full of nostalgia, the pain made his voice sound like a moan: "I miss him so much. "

"Boss, you, you don't do this."

Zhao Nanshu didn't know what to do. He scratched his head anxiously, and couldn't bear to see Xia Tingwan so sad. After struggling for a long time, he finally whispered, "Otherwise, don't give up and try again?"

"How to try...?"

It was a long time later before Xia Ting asked weakly.

"I think," Zhao Nanshu couldn't tell whether he was comforting or really thinking for a moment: "Mr. Su loves you so much, I have never seen anyone who has loved others so sincerely in my life. You have lived together for another five years, and it is very difficult to let go. You see, when he talks about divorce with you, he doesn't show up, maybe he knows it himself, maybe he can't bear to see you. "

"really?"

Xia Tingwan finally managed to support himself up. A faint hope flashed in his eyes when he looked at Zhao Nanshu.

"Uh……"

Of course Zhao Nanshu didn't dare to guarantee it.

He has seen Su Yan's affectionate appearance, but anyone who has loved like that can propose a divorce. Who knows whether Su Yan has bid farewell alone in his heart at a certain moment, and has decided not to look back? .

He sighed, raised his head and drank a big mouthful of beer, and said seriously: "Boss, it doesn't really matter what Mr. Su thinks."

"If you're still reluctant, try to save it. If you fail, you'll be ashamed at most. It won't be worse than it is now. You've been rolled over hundreds of times. Is it a big deal to lose face in front of Mr. Su?" ?”

-

The first time Su Yan talked about divorce was a month ago, and he didn't mention it to Xia Tingwan in person, but on the phone.

Xia Tingwan didn't know what was wrong with him at that time, but he responded with a "huh" like that, and he seemed very stubborn at the moment. .

People are sometimes very blunt. He felt that Su Yan's tone at that time was distorted, but also felt that it was a foregone conclusion and there was nothing to say.

After putting down the phone, it was the next day that he sent Su Yan a WeChat message in a daze: "Su Yan, thank you for the past five years."

Now that I think about it, I feel so stupid. He is not really free and easy, but he sent a farewell message to pretend to be generous.

Su Yan didn't answer a word, and never came to see him again. In the end, he only sent Secretary Lu to discuss the divorce with him, as if silently slapped him.

Of course he was afraid, but it was not because he was afraid of losing face, but because he was afraid of Su Yan.

But Xia Tingwan decided to listen to Zhao Nanshu and try again.

He was decadent for almost a month, and finally pulled himself together after making up his mind, cut his hair more neatly, and trimmed his eyebrows a little.

But when I sat in front of the mirror, I couldn't help but stared at the scar on the right side of my face again.

Zhao Nanshu stood behind him holding the concealer, a little hesitant: "Boss, how about... cover it up a little?"

"So be it."

Xia Tingwan shook his head.Su Yan had seen more than this scar on his body, and he had never thought it ugly before.

After the car accident, Xia Tingwan stopped driving, so it was Zhao Nanshu who sent him to Xiangshan.

The Fragrant Hills at night are really beautiful. Drive up slowly along the Huanshan Road, and you can see the city center of H City across the sea.

The vast starry sky borders wonderfully with the sea of ​​lights in the world.Away from the hustle and bustle, but here is comfort.

The security guard of the Su family recognized Zhao Nanshu's car, he might not be sure, he hesitated for a while and finally let it go.

Zhao Nanshu parked the car in the front driveway, and Xia Tingwan came out alone. In front of the porch was a large rose garden that Su Yan planted in the year they got married.

Xia Tingwan stood among the blooming red roses, took a deep breath, walked to the door, and finally mustered up the courage to ring the doorbell.

The waiting time was short, but Xia Tingwan felt very long.

He couldn't help fantasizing about seeing Su Yan's face when he opened the door. He had discussed a lot with Zhao Nanshu before, but at this moment he had forgotten all about it.

He missed Su Yan so much, he wanted to throw himself into Su Yan's arms as soon as they met, and wanted to tell Su Yan how wronged he was during this time.

When thinking about it so earnestly, his head felt hot, and it felt like the divorce didn't exist, and Su Yan was still so close to him.

Just then, the door opened.

"Hello." It wasn't Su Yan who opened the door.

The young man in front of him looked to be in his early twenties, wearing a white coat, with an elegant and beautiful face.He looked at Xia Tingwan and was taken aback for a moment: "Xia, Mr. Xia...?"

Xia Tingwan didn't know who he was, but he naturally knew Xia Tingwan.

"Please wait a moment." After the initial surprise, the young man quickly showed a polite smile.He has a pair of warm brown pupils, and he looks like a man with a very gentle personality.

He turned around and walked two steps into the room, raised his head and called to the second floor: "Brother Yan, Mr. Xia is here to find you."

After shouting, he turned his head and gestured to Xia Tingwan to come in.

His name is Su Yan'Brother Yan', he stands in the atrium of this house, so natural and leisurely, like a hostess, beckoning Xia Tingwan to come in.

Xia Tingwan almost pressed on the door frame with his fingers to force himself to stand still at this moment.