Before and After Divorce

Xia Tingwan suddenly received a call from Su Yan on the road.

He glanced at the time in astonishment before pressing the answer button, and heard Su Yan's low voice: "Where are you?"

Su Yan's tone was a bit gloomy, and he rarely asked directly without calling his name like this.

Xia Tingwan couldn't help but feel a little nervous for a moment, he cleared his throat, and since he had just met Zhang Xueqiao, he subconsciously wanted to temporarily avoid this question: "Su Yan? Why did you get up so early today?"

Su Yan said directly, "I'm in Xiangshan."

"Ah?" Xia Tingwan was taken aback immediately, he opened his eyes wide and stuttered: "You, didn't you say you won't be back until a week?"

"How long are you going to lie to me?"

Su Yan suddenly asked directly, "About the reality show."

He was obviously angry.

Xia Tingwan knew Su Yan too well, even if it was only a slight change in tone, he could feel the change in emotion.

"You know it all?"

Xia Tingwan's voice suddenly became weaker with guilt.

He straightened his back subconsciously like a primary school student about to be reprimanded: "You've been too busy recently, I'm afraid you'll be worried, and I want to deal with it myself, but it's actually not that serious, it's just..."

When he said this, he didn't know how to explain it, so he asked cautiously: "Su Yan... Did you fly back as soon as you got the letter?"

"Ah."

Su Yan was silent for a while before answering.

Xia Tingwan took a sniff.

"I miss you very much, Su Yan." He said without beginning or end.

When it came to the end, I couldn't help but choked up again.

He had just finished crying, and the circles of his eyes were still red, but his heart seemed to be gently squeezed by a gentle hand, and it was warm and aching.

As soon as his attitude softened, Su Yan suddenly stopped talking.

They just listened to each other's steady breathing through the phone, until Su Yan finally lowered his voice: "Tingting, go home."

Su Yan never changed.

Whenever, as long as he needs it, Su Yan will always rush back to stay by his side.

Su Yan is his hero, a silent hero.

……

When Xia Tingwan hurried back to Xiangshan, his whole heart was jumping for joy.

His life has been full of ups and downs lately.

Being hacked to the point of mental breakdown, she endured humiliation in front of Zhang Xueqiao, until she finally revealed the truth about her marriage contract five years ago.

But those impetuous people and things suddenly become blurred and distant in front of the word "go home".

After getting off the car, Xia Tingwan didn't care about anything, and rushed into the house after saying hello to Zhao Nanshu.

The hall on the second floor was brightly lit.

Seven or eight suitcases were opened, and Aunt Rong and another servant were sorting out the contents.

Su Yan looked like he had just taken a shower, and was sitting on the sofa reading a document, only slightly raised his head when he heard footsteps.

Perhaps because of the busy work, Su Yan seems to have lost weight again.

But because of this, the facial features are even more sharp-edged, and when a pair of long and narrow light gray eyes look over, there is a faint majesty.

When Xia Tingwan saw Su Yan, his nose suddenly became sore.

He didn't care that Aunt Rong and the others were still there, so he walked over quickly and threw himself into Su Yan's arms.

As soon as he hugged Su Yan, he didn't let go, buried his face in Su Yan's chest, smelling the pleasant cold breath on Su Yan wantonly like a small animal.

He had only been separated from Su Yan for less than a month, but he felt that he was almost overwhelmed by longing.

Su Yan stroked Xia Tingwan's back, and asked in a low voice, "Have you had dinner? Are you hungry?"

Xia Tingwan shook his head, he actually didn't have time to think about that question, he just subconsciously didn't want to do anything else.

He didn't want to eat, or even move a finger.

He just wanted to hold Su Yan so tightly, and extend this moment infinitely and infinitely.

But his body's reaction couldn't be concealed, his stomach grumbled after a while, Xia Tingwan's face was a little hot, he raised his head slightly, seeing Su Yan was also looking at him deeply, a trace of helplessness appeared in his eyes smile.

Su Yan pulled Xia Tingwan's hand around his neck and held it in his palm, sighed, and said to Aunt Rong: "Aunt Rong, make him a bowl of hot soup wontons, it's cold outside, put the little The paws are freezing cold."

Aunt Rong couldn't help laughing when she heard this, she stood up and asked Xia Tingwan gently: "Then make your favorite fresh shrimp wontons, okay?"

Xia Tingwan's face turned red, but he still nodded his head vigorously. He ate lunch late and hadn't eaten at night, so he was already hungry.

Su Yan put Xia Tingwan down, went to the side, picked up the teacup and took a sip of the hot tea slowly.

Xia Tingwan looked at Su Yan eagerly, looking very closely, afraid of missing something even in the blink of an eye.

Su Yan is probably the kind of man with a bit of a feline nature, and his tongue is naturally afraid of burning.

So always be careful when drinking it hot, because it looks extra classy because of being careful.

He is so charming.

Xia Tingwan suddenly felt a throbbing heartbeat like passionate love.

His admiration and love for this person seemed to rise from his empty stomach, and he couldn't help grunting because of his hunger and desire.

At this moment, Su Yan turned his head to look at him, and said calmly: "After eating, please explain to me everything during this time."

Although his expression seemed calm, the end of his speech involuntarily increased, and there was a hint of deep displeasure in his eyes.

Like a reserved old cat, although he tried his best to suppress his anger, his whiskers couldn't help trembling.

Xia Tingwan knew that Su Yan must be annoyed, what he did in "On the Road" was one aspect, and his concealment added fuel to the fire.

A man who seems to be gentle but is actually very domineering at his core may not be able to bear the fact that the person he protects is secretly wronged.

But the strange thing is, unlike the previous five years, he didn't seem to be afraid because of Su Yan's anger anymore.

Perhaps it was because love finally took root firmly in his heart.

Looking at Su Yan with a sullen face, he felt a complicated feeling of wanting to kiss this man's brow lovingly.

He blinked his eyes and replied very obediently: "Okay."

……

Xia Ting ate a large bowl of warm fresh shrimp wontons at night, sweat dripped from his forehead, and then took a refreshing hot shower, feeling his body relax happily.

He dried his hair in the bathroom and pulled it loosely on a black bathrobe.

Just as I was about to go out, I suddenly remembered something, turned around and rummaged in the cabinet beside me, found a bottle of Davidoff cold water, and sprayed it on my neck restrainedly twice.

Davidoff was the first bottle of perfume he used in his youth. Although the price was very economical, it was an out-and-out luxury for him at that time.

Maybe it is the taste of memories, even after he became famous, he always loves the beautiful and cool fragrance of fresh clothes just after washing.

Su Yan was leaning on the big bed in the master bedroom and waiting for him. He seemed to be thinking about something, so he was a little lost in thought.

Barefoot, Xia Tingwan quietly crawled between Su Yan's open legs.

Su Yan narrowed his eyes and looked at him with his head half propped on his hands.

Xia Tingwan lowered his head silently and took off his bathrobe. The bed was very warm and he didn't feel cold at all.

He knelt between Su Yan's legs.

His white body looked like a beautiful and vivid fish on the bottom of the sea in the night.

Su Yan's eyes darkened, and he asked in a low voice, "What are you doing?"

"Be honest about everything during this period, and then admit your mistakes to you."

Xia Tingwan raised his head, his ears were light red, but his eyes were bright.

"Oh?" Su Yan raised his eyebrows suspiciously: "That's all?"

Xia Tingwan's face turned red all of a sudden, his frank and lenient attitude was serious, the back of his upper body was straight, and his eyes were cute, but the toes of his lower body, which were pressed under his buttocks, curled up involuntarily.

Sitting naked and kneeling in front of Su Yan, there was a sense of taboo ceremony.

The erotic feeling of waiting for admonition made him uncontrollably excited.

"and also……"

Xia Tingwan's heart was beating violently, he lowered his eyes, his eyelashes fluttered, and said softly: "I love you, sir."

"If you're not tired, I want to give you a mouthful, okay?"

When Su Yan heard those three words, his expression fluctuated slightly, and then he stared at Xia Tingwan with a pair of eyes, with the taste of scrutiny when a cat was hunting.

Seeing that he didn't answer at night, Xia Ting felt a little disappointed, but still lowered his head and thought about it, and decided to start talking after the divorce.

He knew that although Su Yan hadn't asked that many questions yet, what he wanted to explain wasn't just the current plight of the reality show.

Talking about being unaware of money and being extravagant, coupled with the embarrassment of buying a series of luxury cars for Zhang Xueqiao, and then talking about the panic of lack of money when she suddenly found out that she had to take care of Yin Ning, and then made it out to participate in a reality show embarrassing decision.

As he spoke, he couldn't help rubbing his fingers impatiently.

It is really a torment to admit one's incompetence and naivety to the man one loves.

Su Yan didn't speak all the time, but when Xia Tingwan said that he was locked in the car by Ye Bingwen and beat him in the parking lot, he suddenly sat up straight.

"Where did you hit?" Su Yan asked in a low voice.

"..." Xia Tingwan hesitated for a moment.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Su Yan suddenly put his foot under Xia Tingwan's buttocks.

The posture of kneeling and sitting was not so comfortable. Xia Tingwan was caught off guard by his hook forward, and immediately fell down in panic, but immediately fell firmly into Su Yan's arms.

Su Yan asked again: "Where did you hit?"

Xia Tingwan was hugged tightly by Su Yan, he raised his head to see Su Yan's serious face close at hand, and whispered, "Face."

"He slapped me twice." His voice trembled, but he couldn't help but say it all.

Thinking of being dragged into the car forcibly, facing Ye Bingwen in the cramped space, the panic and helplessness, the hot and humiliating pain of being slapped hard on the face, I felt lingering fear.

In fact, he is no longer so weak, he can face Ye Bingwen alone, and he no longer feels afraid.

But in Su Yan's arms, a long-lost soreness suddenly appeared in his heart.

The little canary who was suddenly thrown out of the house bumped and lost a gorgeous feather in the strange world.

He wasn't injured, but when he finally fell back into Su Yan's palm, he still couldn't help complaining arrogantly and coquettishly.

"Ye Bingwen, is that right?"

Su Yan repeated the name slowly and word for word.

At that moment, an extremely gloomy and violent expression flashed in his light gray eyes, like a large beast that had been enraged, releasing a dangerous aura.

Although she quickly restrained herself, Xia Tingwan still instinctively felt her back go soft.

Su Yan stretched out his hand to lift his chin, and stared at him seriously, as if he wanted to see the traces of a few months ago through time.

After a long time, a vague sadness gradually appeared in his eyes, and he said hoarsely, "It's my fault."

He shook his head and continued: "I didn't expect you to know about Yin Ning, and I didn't expect you to have such a big financial burden because of it. It's my fault. I..."

"I do hope that you can have a little pressure, in life and work, and I want you to grow up, but..."

His eyes were filled with anger and pain, he took a deep breath, and the fingers stroking Xia Tingwan trembled: "But I can't bear you to suffer like this, Tingting, did I really do something wrong?" ?I can't always be perfect, and I'm always hurting you."

"no."

Xia Tingwan shook his head vigorously, and covered the back of Su Yan's hands with his hands: "Su Yan, no, listen to me."

His voice trembled a little: "You can't blame everything on yourself."

"During the time you left me, I did experience a lot of setbacks and turmoil that I never thought of before. When I made up my mind to tell you all about it today, when I recalled those things, I didn't feel so wronged or sad. .Su Yan, I just want to tell you every step I have taken. My heart has never left you. "

"After the divorce, at the beginning I always acted recklessly relying on instinct. Every time I saw you, I wanted to save you, but when you refused, I flinched in fear, and then I couldn't bear it anymore and came back to beg you. I repeated it several times. Now that I think about it, I feel silly, but in fact, I feel a little grateful to myself for being so thick-skinned, because I really never gave up—I never gave up the desire to be with you again .”

"Because I don't want to give up, I have to force myself to think over and over again-why I have come to this point, what should I do, how should I grow up, and what should I do to make you feel at ease with me. Yes , The pain and entanglement I have experienced in the past three months has even surpassed the entire past five years. The decision to participate in a reality show was wrong, and they randomly edited me to broadcast like this and attracted so much criticism. It was also designed by Ye Bingwen to pay a huge amount of liquidated damages, even now I can't afford the money..."

When Xia Tingwan said this, he lowered his head and sniffed a bit in embarrassment, but then raised his head again, showing a shallow smile.

"I know you will feel sorry for me, but I still told you honestly. Because I feel that all of this is nothing. Really, after five or ten years, looking back at all of this, it must be I think it’s like a fleeting moment.... During this period of time, I have re-recognized my life and met many people. Thinking about it carefully, in fact, everyone’s life has a lot of lameness and helplessness. Ji Zhan works so hard, but still has to Bear the loss of being dissatisfied with his own music; Xing Le, Xing Le, he must have too strong a desire in his heart, so he is willing to endure cruel sexual abuse and let Shaoguang praise him. Everyone lives like this, In the midst of pain and setbacks, find a way forward and work hard to go on.”

"Su Yan, you love me too much, but you are not a god, you can't reverse the laws of this world - everyone's growth is accompanied by pain, and I am no exception."

Su Yan looked at Xia Tingwan silently, he seemed a little speechless.

After a long time, he just stretched out his hand and hugged Xia Tingwan tightly in his arms.

The hearts of the two were pressed together, and the beating sounds gradually covered and overlapped.

"Are you still short of money?"

Su Yan didn't ask any more questions, and said in a low voice.

"lack……"

Xia Tingwan nodded frankly: "It's very short, I can't afford to pay liquidated damages, and I can hardly afford to hire a public relations team."

"What should I do?"

"Borrow it from you."

Xia Tingwan broke out of Su Yan's embrace, blinked his eyes, and then whispered softly in Su Yan's ear: "Pay the meat first, and then pay back when you make money."

Su Yan laughed, and the lines on his chin became beautifully deep.

He also asked in a low voice as if whispering: "That's why you said you want to give it to me? There is a purpose, right?"

Xia Tingwan smiled shyly, and lay on Su Yan's chest: "Also,"

"I hardly ever tell you," he lowered his head, muttering a little aggrievedly, "I don't want you to remember someone else."

He seemed a little worried that Su Yan thought of something else, and immediately shook his head again, explaining: "It's not that I still mind, I just..."

He gritted his teeth, his face flushed suddenly, and he mustered up the courage to say seriously: "Sir, your place is mine alone. From now on, you can only insert me, no matter where you insert it——I want to start again." Divide my territory."

Su Yan didn't speak.

Xia Tingwan is weak, but in his frailty, there is a tenacity like a vine.

Maybe it's because direct confession is better than everything, his eyes were stimulated to a strong desire.

Xia Tingwan knew that he didn't need to wait for an answer, he knelt between Su Yan's legs obediently, and took off Su Yan's underwear with his hands.

The big, hot part pops out all at once, looking aggressive because of the excitement.

Xia Tingwan's face suddenly became hot, and his body also became hot.

He leaned down on Su Yan's thigh, didn't open his mouth immediately, but carefully brought his face closer - as if he could jump, the fresh hot breath merged with his rapid breathing.

After the divorce, he never had such intimate contact with this place.

He was ashamed to admit it anyway, he missed Su Yan, and he also missed... Su Yan conquering his thick parts.

Su Yan stretched out his hand, inserted his fingers into Xia Tingwan's soft hair, and pulled it up roughly.

Xia Tingwan had to raise her head fragilely, looking over with wet eyes.

"Will it?" Su Yan asked hoarsely.

Xia Tingwan nodded vigorously.

He leaned between Su Yan's legs again, first tentatively licked the plump top with the tip of his tongue, then gradually lowered his face, buried his face deep, and rubbed the root of his nose affectionately.

After repeated several times, he finally supported the erect avatar with one hand, took a light breath, closed his eyes and swallowed it into his mouth.

Su Yan involuntarily snorted.

Xia Tingwan could feel Su Yan's body tense up due to the sudden excitement.

He was a little anxious, but Su Yan was not a size that could be easily swallowed. When the huge thing suddenly filled his mouth, he couldn't breathe for a while.

Su Yan stretched out his hand to caress Xia Tingwan's cheek, and said in a low voice, "Relax."

Xia Tingwan frowned uncomfortably.

He really wanted to be obedient, but it was still too jerky. As soon as he relaxed, he was pushed deep into his throat by Su Yan's huge clone. They all vomited out.

His body was trembling and he retched from his throat, his face was flushed red from choking, and he couldn't help looking at Su Yan helplessly.

Su Yan squinted his eyes with a suppressed expression, and spit it out just after being swallowed into the warm mouth, which probably felt uncomfortable.

Xia Tingwan hated herself a little bit.

He had never realized before that it could be so difficult.

He really can't be regarded as a qualified sexual partner. Su Yan has spoken to him countless times, but he has never asked him anything.

He only knows the taste of enjoyment.

He couldn't help feeling a vague sadness, and lowered his head again, trying to suck that scary thing in again.

It is still very difficult.

The roots of Xia Tingwan's eyelashes were trembling wetly, and the two delicate butterfly bones on her white back arched nervously involuntarily.

Because his mouth was ruthlessly stuffed, as long as Su Yan moved his waist a little, he could feel the dry and bitter taste coming back from his stomach.

Xia Tingwan subconsciously stammered, his eyes were red and he wanted to cry.

I can't tell what it feels like, although the senses seem to be suffering, but the body is throbbing because it is completely and cruelly occupied.

Xia Tingwan sucked air through his nose, feeling a little lack of oxygen in his head.

Between the ups and downs, he couldn't help but touch his lower body, and he was so excitedly stiff.

At this moment, Su Yan suddenly pinched his chin to force him to open his mouth, and then pulled out the thing.

Xia Tingwan was drowsy until he felt his face suddenly pressed against the bed sheet, and realized that he had been completely turned over by Su Yan, kneeling under the man's body.

"Ass up."

Su Yan supported his waist.

The man who has always been calm and self-sufficient now had a hoarse voice with deep desire that he couldn't control himself, and his hand was so hard that Xia Tingwan felt his skin was pinched and painful.

Xia Tingwan felt that part that was even more shockingly sized in a state of arousal pressed menacingly against the entrance between his buttocks, and wanted to crawl forward in panic.

"Don't run,"

Su Yan forcefully dragged him back and pressed him under his crotch, and repeated word for word: "Lift your butt up for me."

Xia Tingwan suddenly realized the fear of being held under the paws of a cat. He lowered his body tremblingly and raised his buttocks, but he still trembled instinctively because of fear.

"My little peacock, I'm going to fuck you until you open your tail."

Su Yan leaned down and whispered meaningfully in Xia Tingwan's ear.