Cloudy but no rain

Su Fengmian supported his chin with one hand, and swipe the phone screen with the other.

Sliding his thumb down once or twice, Weibo was updated with a ding-dong, but there was nothing new, so he had to exit the interface and switch to a social platform.

This social software... can basically be counted as a same-sex same-city "friends" software. He glanced at the "central square" and wandered all over the place.

He had no choice but to click on the message box. There were quite a few people in the message box. Although he was not young, he was quite popular because of his never-stalking personality and not old-fashioned face.

However, Su Fengmian didn't want to read other news, so he clicked on a few messages sent to him by "Mr. Ye", which were still a few hours ago. Su Fengmian calculated the time, it was when he just had a car accident.

Who is Mr. Ye, Su Fengmian doesn’t know the basics, he only knows that he is a doctor, and he didn’t ask where he works, Su Fengmian doesn’t need to know, just know that he doesn’t have any strange diseases, in fact, he can’t be 100% Guaranteed, but in short, everything depends on fate, and he knows that his behavior is not worth following.

Knowing Mr. Ye, I feel that the profession of doctor has physiological common sense, and the profession of doctor has a certain impact on him, which is not attractive, so Su Fengmian will not question him too much.

He himself didn't know when his standards for making friends dropped so much.

The friends in these message boxes are randomly selected by the system.

Draw once a day, meet and chat for a few words if you like each other, come out to meet if you see each other, and continue to meet next time if you feel comfortable;

For Su Fengmian, life is like barren soil, occasionally flowers are needed, any flower is fine, as long as it is fresh, it is better than nothing.

Anyway, Su Fengmian knows that no flower is better than the one from 14 years ago, but he has no choice. A misfire was ambiguous, but in the end it was still calm.

Su Fengmian stared down at the words on the screen, feeling sleepy.

"where?"

"I want to see you today."

"Eating? Why didn't you reply?"

"Is it making you unhappy?"

Mr. Ye's questions are always very concise, as if to express his ideas.

Mr. Ye's displeasure probably refers to the hickey on Su Fengmian's neck.Because Su Fengmian doesn't like this.

Seeing this, he unconsciously stroked his neck, and typed a few words with his left thumb: It's okay, let's forget it this time, I'm in the hospital, the student had an accident, let's talk later.

It is not easy to type this long string of words with only one finger. Su Fengmian waited for a few minutes, but the other party did not reply. He was a little bored, so he simply put away his mobile phone and left the ward.

Anyway, will Su Luoqi wake up in a while, and he has to call Su Luoqi's father to inform his family members to pay part of the medical expenses, and also pay the next month's living expenses by the way.

Su Luoqi, a girl, her parents divorced when she was in the first year of high school, her mother was in the frontier, and her father was doing business in other provinces.

Originally, her father wanted to take her to her grandparents, but grandparents are really old and unable to provide psychological and physical support to a senior high school student, so she was entrusted to Su Fengmian by her father. .

Su Fengmian is not such a casual person either, all because of his father's words "he doesn't blame you for what happened", signed the letter of guarantee, and went to the neighborhood committee to make a temporary guardianship agreement, so he dared to take care of Su for him. Losaki.

As far as Su Luoqi's father was concerned, Su Fengmian was in his thirties, single, and had no bad habits.

From her not so responsible father's point of view, Su Fengmian has plenty of time and money, so it's not difficult to bring another mature child, let alone a student in his own class, how convenient it is.

Su Fengmian is not very good at rejecting others, after various compromises and conditions, he had no choice but to agree.

Today, when Su Fengmian was driving Su Luoqi home, he was hit by a motorcycle that was speeding fast. It hit Su Luoqi who was in the passenger seat. Half of the window glass of the passenger car was broken, hitting her. Fortunately, the accident was not a big one, and the other party's attitude was sincere, so the major incident was turned into a minor one.

"Hey, it's me. Fengmian." Su Fengmian casually dialed a number in the address book.

His private life is not clean, and the so-called "clean" does not mean that he sleeps with people casually. He only has two regular sex friends, and they are the kind who don't see anyone for half a month.They don't need each other that much, they just keep each other warm when they are bored, maybe they don't have any real feelings.

One of them is Mr. Ye who seems to care about him very much, and Mr. Ye's feelings for him are also inexplicably rapid.

Coincidentally, his two sex friends are both doctors, and their voices or personalities or interests or other things are a bit like the same person, and that person is Ji Zhifei.

To be precise, it was Ji Zhifei 14 years ago.

Everyone else in his address book was friends, and he had friends everywhere.

He has been wandering in this city for three years, besides having a lot of money, he has many friends.

Most of them are friends from bars and social software—they don’t talk heart-to-heart, they just provide non-borrowed material help when necessary, or make an appointment to kill a script.This kind of relationship is relatively strong, there is no conflict of three views, and everything is easy to talk about without talking about feelings.

For example, now, he can easily ask a commuter to drive him home.

Faced with a soft personality like him, most of his friends are willing to help him anytime and anywhere.

Occasionally, I would hear the female teacher in the school office chewing on his tongue, calling him a "social butterfly", not a proactive type, but making people want to approach him.

Su Fengmian didn't care what they said - because he had a good personality.

It's just that the female teachers are curious why he is still single.

This reason is also quite lonely.

Su Fengmian has lived for 40 years, experienced big and small things, and many times he didn't know how to confide in a person. The [-] years of ups and downs have shaped him as a person, it is too complicated to explain, and he doesn't know where to start.

So he doesn't know how to fall in love with someone, the collision of two hearts is too difficult for him.

What's more, he has always reserved a place for someone in his heart-this place is called "Don't hit the south wall and don't look back".

Su Fengmian came back to his senses, and found that he was only distracted for a second or two, and these things flashed through his mind like a fleeting moment.

Today he hit the south wall. Sure enough, some people, for an old man like him who can be regarded as long-term love, can be regarded as a lifetime of shame and shadow.

Nanqiang Ji Zhifei didn't show any extra emotion to him, not even the normal affection for his old classmates.

It's really just a cold wall.

"Fengmian... oh... what's wrong with you?" After a few seconds, the person over there asked lazily.

"Can you pick me up and go home? My car has been taken to the 4S store. I just had a car accident and I don't really want to take a taxi. The taxi fare is quite high." Su Fengmian talked about the car accident as easily as he talked about the weather. .

Obviously the people over there were frightened: "Ah? Then I'll go there right away. Are you not injured?"

"That's not true. I'm in Jingrong Hospital."

Su Fengmian raised his head and glanced at the plaque of Jingrong Hospital. Under the plaque in italics is a long horizontal LED light screen with a line of words scrolling across it.

"Congratulations to Ji Zhifei, chief surgeon of our hospital, for winning the crown of the provincial clinical technology competition..."

He watched that sentence quietly and scrolled for several times until the screen jumped to the next note, then Su Fengmian pulled on his windproof hat and went to the parking lot to wait for his friend to pick him up.

The car arrived soon, Su Fengmian sat in, said something, the man turned off the heating in the car, opened the window on the right side of the rear seat, and the swishing cold wind cut into the car like a knife to warm it up The air strokes Su Fengmian's forehead.

Su Fengmian tilted his head, but the bustling scene in front of him seemed a little lonely, and he didn't know whether he was more lonely or the city.

Seeing Ji Zhifei today, no one knew that Su Fengmian's heart was already in turmoil.

Ji Zhifei was the same as 14 years ago, his attitude towards him was the same as that of everyone else, calm and not very polite.And a little condescending.

But he just likes being condescending and remote like this, the more Ji Zhifei remains unchanged, the more Su Fengmian will think about it.

He couldn't stop thinking about his college graduation 14 years ago.

It was like a dream broken up in the rain.

On the night of the ceremony, he and Ji Zhifei spent the whole night in the hotel.Without dry wood and fire, Ji Zhifei's urgent need was solved after drinking too much.

Because when Ji Zhifei slept with him, he didn't say a word, as if he was playing with a strange doll.

If he knew that this was Su Fengmian's first time, if he knew that Su Fengmian went to the bathroom by himself in a half-drunk and half-awake state, and tried hard to use the knowledge of medical physiology he had learned over the years to clean himself up and still made himself uncomfortable, he would probably Be a little gentler.

Su Fengmian didn't have too much hope for this joy, he knew that Ji Zhifei drank too much at the banquet and messed up after drinking.

But Su Fengmian really couldn't remember how he and he got into the hotel at that time.

So it's hard for him to tell whether it's him or Ji Zhifei who is messing around.

After lying down, Su Fengmian was afraid that Ji Zhifei would be furious at him when he woke up, and also afraid of seeing the annoyance and apology on his face, and his mind was full of chaos, but Ji Zhifei slept very deeply, and he didn't move much when he closed his eyes. Only the sound of breathing told Su Fengmian that he was still alive and alive.

Similarly, these will also tell Su Fengmian that Ji Zhifei doesn't like you.

In the early morning of the second day after finishing with him, Su Fengmian packed his luggage and went to another city.

However, the fact that Su Fengmian liked Ji Zhifei was widely known during college, and many people would murmur or even feel that it was abnormal.Ji Zhifei also knew, but he never expressed his opinion and pretended not to know.Su Fengmian knew what was contained in this non-statement.

Occasionally, during class, a friend reserved a seat for Su Fengmian and asked him to sit next to Ji Zhifei.

After Su Fengmian sat down, Ji Zhifei didn't seem to notice it, and didn't even show disgust. He just buried himself in copying notes, like a conscientious high school student.

Su Fengmian didn't remember that Ji Zhifei had the habit of taking notes in class, and he didn't always observe him when he sat in the same row with Ji Zhifei.

Ji Zhifei usually reads books with his head down in class, and when his mind wanders less, or stares out the window blankly, especially on cloudy days.

But sitting with Su Fengmian, Ji Zhifei became the MVP of the whole audience studying hard, and he really didn't want to have any academic exchanges with Su Fengmian.

Ji Zhifei never took a good look at him, never talked to him, and avoided suspicion in every move.

Even in group activities, Ji Zhifei finished the task by himself, there was nothing Su Fengmian had to do, and he didn't even need to fill in the names, Ji Zhifei just wrote down both of them.

At that time, Su Fengmian had a crush on the boss, and usually comforted himself: This is a typical case where I am in charge of being beautiful, and Ji Zhifei is in charge of doing homework to deal with the teacher.

Until the graduation banquet that day, when Ji Zhifei drank too much and crossed the line with him, Su Fengmian tentatively asked Ji Zhifei whether he liked him or not.

"Even a little bit..." Su Fengmian lay on Ji Zhifei's body with a little grievance.He buried his face in Ji Zhifei's shoulder, and he was fascinated by Ji Zhifei's incompatible heat and the dizzy smell of alcohol.

At that time, Ji Zhifei was just panting heavily, as if there was something he couldn't bear.Indeed there are.

(…)

Su Fengmian also understood what Ji Zhifei meant - he never wanted to say a word to himself.

The act of crossing the line only made himself more uncomfortable.

But no matter how stubborn he is, liking Ji Zhifei for 14 years sounds absurd, so Su Fengmian no longer mentions it to anyone, and he also knows that this unspeakable feeling has faded to the point where only memories remain.

Later, at the class reunion every year, Su Fengmian only treated the Shanda crush as a joke to deal with those classmates who were still chewing old stalks. Anyway, Ji Zhifei would not attend, and no one could contact him.

He disappeared from the group of classmates after graduation, so far away.

I just found out today.It turned out that Ji Zhifei had been living here all along.In this northern city.

"I'm at your house, buy me a drink next time."

"Okay."

Su Fengmian's friend sent him home and drove away.

Su Fengmian turned his neck, pressed the elevator, the phone ding-dong, he took it out to see, it was Mr. Ye.

Mr. Ye said, "Where are you? Let's meet."

Su Fengmian entered his home address several times, but he was worried and deleted it. After a few minutes, he replied: "See you tomorrow, I am very tired today."

It's very tiring, it's true.

"I'm on the morning shift tomorrow, and I'll go see you in the afternoon?"

"I have class tomorrow afternoon."

"What time does it go up?"

"Six o'clock." He felt a little funny, so he couldn't help laughing.

Su Fengmian and his bed mates are very busy—people in the city are very busy, a bit incomprehensibly busy. When he was a child, he never thought that work and life would make him feel tired. After entering university and later entering society, I realized that there is never a "best" in life.

A few seconds later, Mr. Ye sent a message: "That night?"

Su Fengmian frowned, meeting at night meant that something had to happen.Su Fengmian just had something with him a few days ago, he doesn't like frequent physical contact, it's too hard for him who bears it.

Su Fengmian replied to him: "What's important for you to see me?"

"I just want to confirm whether your injury is serious or not." The words sent by Mr. Ye seemed very sincere.

Seeing these words, Su Fengmian was somewhat touched.

He remembered Ji Zhifei's indifferent appearance, and responded to the poker face of that song. If he could see a little worry on his face, Su Fengmian would feel that the suppressed and ashamed emotions over the years were worth it.

As it turns out, "it's all bubbles."

He typed a few words: "Then I'll go find you, where do you work?"

Asking where a person works means that you want to get to know that person.

"Jingrong Hospital, Cardiovascular Department, Ye Fuyi."

Even the names and surnames are known, so I don't have to worry about Mr. Ye talking nonsense now.

"Okay, I'll stop by to see my student, she is hospitalized in Jingrong."

Su Fengmian's heart skipped a beat along with his right eyelid.

The author says:

There are some minor modifications, you can move to Weibo@达尔景likes to drink coffee, but it won’t affect much if you don’t go there!