Cloudy but no rain

Light rain fell outside the window, the lingering, dense and wet sound of rain reached Su Fengmian's ears, and from time to time there was the rolling thunder that belonged to late winter. The thunder was far away, so it was not disturbing, but more like boiling water The sound - the frequency is just in the comfort zone.

On weekdays, he was able to sleep peacefully.

Good for sleeping on rainy days.

But today he couldn't sleep, not at all, not even sleepy.

He slowly sat up and lifted the quilt, not daring to lift the quilt too much, for fear that cold air would penetrate into the quilt and wake up the people around him. Even though the room was not cold, the heating was turned on just right, and the temperature was very comfortable .

Ye Fu Yi had already fallen asleep while he was drunk, and snored slightly, it seemed that he had slept soundly.

Su Fengmian felt sore when he saw his face half buried in the pillow and half exposed.

It was hard for him not to care about the fact that Ye Fu Yi had a son, and Ye Fu Yi had already confessed to him that the business trip was indeed a fake.

A few days ago, Ye Fuyi's son came back from abroad. He had just interviewed for a university and went back to China for vacation. Ye Fuyi's so-called business trip was actually taking time to settle down with his son.

Su Fengmian asked him: "Then your son can accept you being with me?"

Ye Fuyi said he didn't know.

"I'm afraid you won't be able to accept it, so I haven't told you about it."

"If I don't ask you, don't you plan to tell me?" Su Fengmian knew that it would be too hypocritical to ask such a question at such a moment, and Su Fengmian would consider any hypothetical question to be hypocritical.

If Ye Fu Yi hadn't been drinking too much, Su Fengmian wouldn't have asked so bluntly.

He has no sense of emotional security, and this lack of emotional security has been the same since he was a child.

Ji Zhifei may be the only person who really liked him when he grew up, and he spent all his impulses on Ji Zhifei.

But Ji Zhifei didn't make him feel safe, but instead made him less confident and less sense of belonging.

The person I met later only wanted to sleep with him, not fall in love with him.

Until now, it is difficult for him to reveal himself, it is difficult for him to let go of his reason and be emotional and self-willed once.

To put it more plainly, he really wanted to act like a baby and get some exclusive pampering, but for various reasons, age, gender, and identity, he never did it.

Ye Fuyi really laughed when he heard Su Fengmian's question. His eyes fell on Su Fengmian's slightly aggrieved and downcast eyes in the rearview mirror, and said, "You are really...so that's what you care about. Don't worry about it. What does my son think of you?"

"I didn't really want to know your son." Su Fengmian suddenly collected his emotions, turned the car key, and the car shook when it started. He replied, "It's the same with your son. You don't need to know me, I want us There will never be a day when you will be open and honest with your son."

Ye Fu Yi's smile froze for a moment, as he acquiesced to his statement.

Su Fengmian could see clearly and openly than he imagined.

But yes, although his emotional experience is not as good as that of a boy in his 20s, his life experience is always enough, and he also sees a lot of love and love.

Ye Fuyi suddenly felt that Su Fengmian was not as perfunctory as he imagined.

Of course, thinking this way is not because he wants to be perfunctory to Su Fengmian, it's just a comparison standard.

He talked about young people in their 20s, who are too easily moved and deceived, and over time, it is not very interesting.

No matter what Ye Fu Yi said or did, whether the other party was angry or happy, his eyes were full of longing for love.

But Ye Fu Yi couldn't see the love in these eyes, which was direct and sincere, which made Ye Fu Yi dare not go forward.

Su Fengmian's words... Su Fengmian is different.

Su Fengmian has reservations about people, and he also has dedication. He is the kind of person who does not ask to be held even if he reaches out his hand. .

It's not that he is easy to be deceived, on the contrary, he can judge independently in his heart, bear and digest independently, he actually doesn't need other people's explanation, and he doesn't seem to need others too much.

For example, today, Ye Fu Yi still told Su Fengmian some things with some reservations, Su Fengmian quickly accepted, without questioning, but he was patiently visible to the naked eye.

How should I put it, Ye Fu Yi was silent, his eyes still stopped in the rearview mirror, Su Fengmian frowned, he looked a little uncomfortable.

Ye Fu Yi's thoughts fluttered for a while, Su Fengmian said something again, and it started to rain lightly outside the car, so he couldn't hear it clearly.

Ye Fu Yi thought that maybe he felt sorry for Su Fengmian.

Just like in the beginning, when Ye Fu Yi proposed to fall in love with Su Fengmian, it was also because he saw Su Fengmian's forbearance, pretending to be meaningless, and he clearly agreed to fall in love with him, but there was a look of broken love.

His heart was seized by this look.

For a long time, in his life of purely physical relationship with Su Fengmian, he has never experienced such a feeling of soreness like biting an unripe plum and being unable to speak.

But I don't know if such distress is based on love.

Thinking of this, Ye Fu Yi's head buzzed, and as the car drove towards the road, he suddenly didn't know whether he loved the person in front of him or not.

Su Fengmian tucked in the quilt for Ye Fuyi, pulled on the cotton slippers, and went down to the first floor lightly.

Because he has moved out of here, there is no his clothes here. He is wearing Ye Fuyi's pajamas now. Ye Fuyi's pajamas are made of cotton and linen. He doesn't like them very much. He prefers silk ones.

Su Fengmian wanted to go home before dawn, but he didn't drive his own car.

He went to the kitchen to get some food. Fortunately, there was still food here to satisfy his cravings. Ye Fu Yi didn't eat up the fast food he had left in the refrigerator.

Sitting on the sofa, Su Fengmian turned on his mobile phone. He wanted to find out if there was a taxi, but after calling for 5 minutes, he didn't see a driver accepting the order, so he had to give up.

Looking at the contact list, apart from work, it was an insignificant message from Chen Bochen, making an appointment for the next drink.

Su Fengmian replied "Yes" and quit WeChat.

Once you log out of WeChat, it will be the main page.

He stared at the phone wallpaper on the main page. The wallpaper was a photo of him and Ye Fu Yi. It was actually quite silly, but it was the only photo they had together. It was sweet, and it was taken in the mirror. Su Fengmian also posted circle of friends.

Pretty stupid.

At that time, I accepted being with Ye Fu Yi with that kind of mentality that was broken and broken. In fact, it was not correct, but it was difficult to get out, and he was indeed reluctant.

If he was younger, he would have broken up decisively and pursued the person in his heart.

But 40 is not 14. He just wants to live a stable life, whether it is work or relationship, he wants to be stable.

Facing Ji Zhifei, facing this unknown, Su Fengmian didn't dare to try, not at all, and just wanted to get along well with Ji Zhifei as a friend.

Su Fengmian sighed, changed the wallpaper, and returned to the interface, he hesitated for a moment, and opened the dating software.

Foxdog sent him a lot of messages, a total of 32 messages.

Su Fengmian was a little surprised.

In fact, they are all innocuous greetings.

At 08:30 in the morning, Foxdog sent a few messages: Are you working?

Do you have to get up early to be a teacher?

I'm going to work.

My job as a doctor is also very hard.

He can post a paragraph in four times, so it's no wonder that the number of messages has accumulated to 32.

Su Fengmian felt that the other party was so cute, but did this fox dog seem to be in his 20s? Su Fengmian thought about it, did he still pester people like this when he was in his 20s, for friends, family, and people he likes.

Su Fengmian replied to him: I rarely use this software, why don't you add me on WeChat.

There was no movement from Foxdog, but after waiting for a few minutes, Su Fengmian's news had been read.

Foxdog: No, WeChat is too private.

Free today: You can block my circle of friends.

Foxdog: This software is very good.

Free today: whatever you want, but I will reply very slowly, because there will be no push without opening this software.

Fox Dog: Then let's talk at a certain time every day.

Su Fengmian laughed unkindly, and he replied: Every day?Will it be too frequent.

Fox Dog: You decide.

Free today: [-]:[-] pm on date number?

Foxdog: Okay, I will tell you about the night shift.

Foxdog: But, it's past twelve o'clock, are you still up?

Free today: Don’t you?

I didn't sleep because I kept thinking about you.

Ji Zhifei pressed the phone to his chest, and took a deep breath, as if a drowning person had floated to the shore. His heart was beating vigorously, hitting his chest, so the phone and his hands rose and fell together.

He didn't deliberately wait for Su Fengmian's reply. Before receiving Su Fengmian's reply, he thought that Su Fengmian had already fallen asleep.

Ji Zhifei couldn't sleep well, he was always worried about Su Fengmian.

He raised the pillow, changed to a more comfortable lying position, and turned on the phone screen again.

Ji Zhifei typed a line slowly: I drank too much coffee.

Free today: I drank too much milk tea.

Ji Zhifei smiled helplessly, he really wanted to ask Su Fengmian directly how he and Ye Fuyi were doing, but under this network identity, he couldn't pierce himself, otherwise, it wouldn't end.

So he didn't intend to respond, but only replied with a smiling face.

However, his mobile phone rang at this moment, it was a message from WeChat.

Ji Zhifei clicked on it and was stunned for a moment, it was from Su Fengmian.

Feng Mian: I'm sorry today, I didn't know that Ye Fuyi would come back, and I caused trouble to both you and Chen Bochen, I'm very sorry.If possible, I will treat you to dinner next time.

Fengmian: Good night.

The two independent messages are like talking to someone at night, if you don't say good night, you can't end it, but the word "good night" kills what Ji Zhifei wanted to say.

Ji Zhifei didn't know whether to respond to him, his head was indeed blurred, but his hands moved quickly, and he had already typed a line and sent it out.

Afterwards, he was like a child who had heard a horror story. Without waiting for Su Fengmian's news, he directly turned off his phone, threw it on the bedside, pulled the quilt over and fell asleep.

The quilt is tightly wrapped, and there is no room for ventilation. After all, no matter how scary the world outside the quilt is, he will never get in. He has been like this since he was a child. When he encounters something, he is worried and afraid, so he tucks himself in the quilt and closes his eyes. Sleep and don't have to think about anything.

This look is indeed a bit embarrassing, but he just fell asleep to the sound of the rain at night.

The next morning, the phone turned on automatically, Ji Zhifei took the phone over in a daze, and glanced at it.

Feng Mian: Fu Yi and I are on good terms, he just drank a little too much and has fallen asleep now.Thank you for your concern.

With bitterness in his mouth, Ji Zhifei turned off the screen.

He was glad that he didn't wait for Su Fengmian's news before going to bed last night, otherwise he would probably really have trouble sleeping all night.