you are the star that fell into my eyes

Lu Zijin looked away, and his voice was extremely heavy: "You know, I never thought that life would disappear so quickly, so I... have no preparation at all."

He continued: "My mother runs a multinational company, and she can go home very few times a year. My father is a bridge architect. Over the years, foreign cooperation has increased, and he rarely goes home. My first and second grades are almost the same as You also spent time alone at home."

"One person with eyes open, one person at home, no matter how many things are piled up in the house, it still feels empty."

"I often think, if one day I can make a lot of money, will my parents be able to stay at home and live a stable life."

"But... I can't wait for this day anymore..."

Lu Zijin said it in an almost calm tone, but Shi Chen keenly felt the tremor in his words.He went out and stood shoulder to shoulder with him on the balcony.

The breeze blows with a little bit of coolness, and the vast river, which is only a few hundred meters apart, is rushing continuously. Embellished with a sea of ​​light.

"Time," Lu Zijin suddenly said.

Shi Chen's eyes moved, and Lu Zijin asked, "How do you define the word loneliness?"

Shi Chen was silent for a few seconds and said: "You are alive, but there is nothing in this world related to you."

"are you alone?"

Shi Chen hesitated for a moment and said: "...No." I always thought I was lonely, but now I find that I am inextricably linked with this world, and everything I love is by my side, so, it turns out that I am Never alone.

Lu Zijin seemed to chuckle slightly, and he continued to ask: "Have you ever resented your parents?"

Shi Chen was taken aback, not knowing why he asked such a question.

Lu Zijin didn't care whether he answered or not, he looked at the lights on the side of the road and said, "Shi Chen, I always felt that nothing in this world is greater than death, and I always felt that death was far away from me, but now... I hope my parents went on a trip, or even don’t want me anymore, but at least they are still alive, as long as they are alive, they will have time to make up for everything they have done, but death... is the only thing that cannot be made up in this world.”

He looked at the time.

Shi Chen was silent for a few seconds, and replied: "...I know"

"You are luckier than me," Lu Zijin said suddenly.

Shi Chen was slightly stunned, but Lu Zijin smiled calmly: "You met Luo Zhan, and you have changed a lot."

"And I... haven't met that person yet."

Shi Chen: "Haven't you been with them all the time, why..."

Lu Zijin shook his head: "It's different..." They are my brothers and friends, but they will not be my salvation, because I am still happy when I meet them.

He glanced downstairs, and the small figures of Luo Zhan and the others appeared downstairs, as if they were fighting, he smiled and lowered his eyes and said, "How good Luo Zhan is, you will understand."

"They're back, have a drink."

……

That day until the night, the five of them were so drunk that they lay staggered on the floor of Shichen's house. Fortunately, the place was clean, otherwise they would all be covered in ashes.

Xie Ning held his wine glass high and burped: "Hi, today, we must be strong and continue to live in the future!"

Xu Qiao raised her hand: "Yes, if it doesn't work, just tell us, we'll be here all the time."

Lu Zijin was a little moved, he sniffed: "Okay..." It's really good to have a few brothers in life.

Luo Zhan moved over and hugged Lu Zijin, and patted him on the back: "Everything will pass, no matter what difficulties you encounter in the future, you must have the courage to cross over. No matter how high the mountains on the road are, they will not block you from seeing the sun. Let's have another drink when it's all settled."

Lu Zijin wiped his face and wiped away his tears, but suddenly burst into tears again: "There is a chance, after my parents' funeral is over..."

Luo Zhan hugged him hard.

In the middle of the night, Xie Nu and Xu Qiao had already fallen asleep on the ground one after another.Shi Chen leaned on the sofa with his eyes closed, because of drinking, his face was slightly flushed, with a beautiful luster, he was thinking seriously about what Lu Zijin said, very serious, and he agreed with it, but how good Luo Zhan is, he Already feeling a little bit, but this will lead to a deeper realm, and he can't help thinking whether he should touch it or not.

Luo Zhan and Lu Zijin fell asleep leaning against the wall. He was the only one awake in the room. He got up and turned off the light. Only the shining moonlight and the strong smell of alcohol remained in the room. people, into the bedroom.

After a while, Luo Zhan opened his eyes from the darkness, stretched his waist, got up and dragged the people on the ground onto the sofa one by one, and finally glanced at the closed door.

Shi Chen was sleeping in a drowsy state, feeling that someone beside him was pushed into the quilt, he turned over with a murmur, and pulled the quilt.Afterwards, the bed beside him sank, and it seemed that warm breath was spreading on his face. He reached out to touch his face, but was easily caught and stuffed back under the quilt. He unconsciously rubbed the person's smooth skin The back of his hand, he got a chuckle.After a while, there was a trace of soft touch on the face in the haze, as subtle as a superficial touch.

Then, it was dawn.

When Shi Chen woke up, the sound of tinkering and cooking came from the living room. He rubbed his eyes and looked at his side. The pillow and mattress were very smooth, and the quilt was all over him. There was no trace of another person at all. Shi Chen yawned , didn't care.

Open the door, the room is very harmonious, thank you, Xu Qiao is sitting on the sofa watching the football game, Lu Zijin is on the phone, in the kitchen is... Luo Zhan? !

Shi Chen froze at the door.

Xie Nu discovered Shi Chen first, and he waved: "Hey, Shi Chen, I just woke up, it's almost eleven o'clock."

this late?Shi Shi looked at the clock suspiciously, it was 58:[-], it was indeed a little late, it seemed that he would sleep better after drinking some wine.

Luo Zhan walked over with a spatula on his shoulders and an apron tied on his shoulders. He looked like a chef. He leaned down, leaned closer and smelled it, and then poked at the time: "Hmm...he smells of alcohol, go take a shower, and take a shower. dinner time."

Shi Chen took a step back and asked, "What are you doing?"

"Egg fried rice," Luo Zhan laughed, "Luo Zhan brand egg fried rice, simple and affordable, the best choice for home."

Time: "..."

"Oh, it's going to be muddy!" Luo Zhan slapped his head and turned to look at the pot, but he kept saying, "Don't be dazed, go take a bath."

Shi Chen raised his eyebrows. If it wasn't for today, he really wouldn't know that Luo Zhan could cook, even though it was just simple fried rice with eggs.

When Shi Chen came out of the shower, Luo Zhan had already served the food on the table, Xie Nu and Xu Qiao sat on the table grabbing a bowl of rice, and Lu Zijin was still on the phone.Shi Chen walked over and sat down, Luo Zhan handed a bowl of rice in front of Shi Chen: "Dangdang! Come and taste it, it shouldn't kill anyone."

Time: "..."

Under Luo Zhan's expectant eyes, Shi Chen took a bite, and Luo Zhan immediately asked impatiently, "How is it? How is it?"

Xie Nu said vaguely: "There is less pepper, and there are fewer eggs."

Luo Zhan turned his head and glared: "Go away, I didn't ask you, it's good if you have something to eat!" Then he turned his head and looked at Shi Chen with a smile, "What do you say?"

Xie was angry and shook Xu Qiao desperately: "Look! This guy is eccentric."

Xu Qiao shrugged, and said as a matter of course: "I didn't ask you about it."

Xie Nu: "..."

Shi Chen propped his head up, thoughtfully: "It's okay, when did you learn it?"

"Self-taught!" Luo Zhan lifted his head triumphantly and laughed three times, thanked him with a contemptuous "tss", and Luo Zhan kicked him under the table.

Xu Qiao sat up straight and glared at everyone present: "Who kicked me?!"

Luo Zhan: "..."

Xie Nu jumped up and pointed at Luo Zhan: "He! It must be him! He was going to kick me, but he kicked you!"

Luo Zhan turned his head and didn't look at them: "Today, don't come over for dinner!"

Since they woke up, Lu Zijin has been calling all morning. Although he doesn't know what he is talking about, he can guess that it has something to do with "inheritance", "funeral" and so on.Compared to yesterday, Lu Zijin has calmed down a lot and returned to his original rational appearance.

Lu Zijin said a few last words, hung up the phone and came over: "My aunt said that I will go home in the afternoon, and there are many people coming home."

Luo Zhan nodded: "Alright, finish it early."

Lu Zijin continued: "My aunt has hired a lawyer to deal with the inheritance, and I will be busy from now on."

"Is it all inherited?" Xie asked angrily.

Lu Zijin thought for a while: "Maybe, I'm not sure."

"It should be a lot." Luo Zhan touched his chin, "at least it should be able to protect you from finishing high school to getting married."

Lu Zijin nodded and said: "Yes, there are a lot, and there are still a few houses. If I don't fight for the rest of my life, I should be able to rest easy."

"That's good, have a good time," Luo Zhan patted him, "Call us if you feel lonely, we will definitely go to accompany you."

Lu Zijin had a relaxed smile on his face, it's great to have you all, but maybe there is no chance...

The funeral of the Lu family was done very quickly. Eight days later, Lu Zijin's parents were buried with ashes. Luo Zhan and the others went to worship his parents. Think, they want their children to live the rest of their lives smoothly and peacefully.

After the funeral, Xie An went back to the training camp, and everything returned to the past, except that Lu Zi didn't come to school for three days today, and on the fourth day his desk was suddenly cleared, leaving no books behind.

When Luo Zhan came, Xu Qiao was standing beside Lu Zijin in a daze.

"Why..." Luo Zhan asked, his eyes widened suddenly, and he rushed to Lu Zijin's seat in shock, "What about the books, why are they gone?!"

Xu Qiao took out a white letter and said in a harsh voice, "This letter was the only one on the table when I came."

Luo Zhan quickly opened it.

The letter was in Lu Zijin's neat and square handwriting, as if he was talking with them face to face.

Luo Zhan, Shi Chen, Xie Nu, Xu Qiao:

When you read this letter, I have already left. I left in a bit of a hurry. I didn't have time to tell you. I'm sorry.

I am going to her city with my aunt. Everyone has their own way. My way has changed more than ten days ago. I hope you can understand.

My house will be sold in a few days, so don't go there anymore, I'm no longer there.I didn't leave a phone number, and the QQ was also deleted. Don't look for me, I'm afraid I won't be firm.Also, don't fight while I'm not around, I'm afraid I won't be able to help you.

I am very fortunate to have met you at the most energetic age.

It's also a pity that I left so early.

These days I'm in a hurry and it's terrible, the responsibility and the pressure are overwhelming, I can hardly hold on, but just like you hope, I will live strong, overcome all the difficulties and hardships, and still have hope The courage of the stars and the sun.

I will be fine, and you will be fine too.

If we meet one day in the future, I hope to see you who are new but familiar.

Thank you for accompanying me for a ride, and I am extremely sorry for leaving without saying goodbye, but there is no banquet in the world that lasts forever, and I need to go by myself for the next ride.

Don't cry, you idiots will be very ashamed, I, Lu Zijin, can't afford to lose this person.

And then... goodbye, my brothers.

I wish you all the best for the future and we will definitely meet again.

treasure.

There is no signed letter, but they all know who it is.

Xu Qiao sniffled, changed her usual calm look, and said angrily, "Bullshit! If you have the ability, come and tell us in person! You're ashamed to write letters at what age!"

Luo Zhan remained silent.

Shi Chen said: "Lu Zijin should have come to the school to clear the books last night."

Xu Qiao said angrily: "Just avoid us like this, you will die if you say it, and delete QQ, damn..." Suddenly he paused, Luo Zhan also realized something, the two hurriedly took out their mobile phones and opened the phone. look.

In the five-person chat group, a harsh message hangs: L has quit the group chat.

There are also countless question marks and questioning messages sent by Xie Angrily.

"Damn!" Xu Qiao was so angry that he almost wanted to smash the phone, but he bumped into Luo Zhan, "Say something!"

Luo Zhan read the letter over and over again, and suddenly found a line of small characters at the bottom of the letter paper. He took it closer and took a closer look. It was Lu Zijin's characters:

"Luo Zhan has another letter for you, it's in your drawer, only you can read it."

Luo Zhan took a photo and sent it to Xie Yuan, then closed the letter and said, "No one likes to say goodbye, and today is no exception. This is already the best farewell."

Lu Zi has already made up his mind to leave now, and he has talked enough these days, and he can't say anything when we meet, so it's better to just keep it in mind and meet in the future.

The news of Xie Nu swiped the entire group, and the number of people in the group returned to the four people before they met each other.Although everyone complained about Lu Zijin's leaving without saying goodbye, they agreed in their hearts that there would always be a place for Lu Zijin here.

You will always be our brother, no matter where you are, no matter who you become, that will never change, never, ever.

Because Xie Nu is training, only Luo Zhan, Shi Chen, and Xu Qiao are in the school now.Similarly, many students in the school have gone to the training camp, and the number of people playing basketball in each class has also been greatly reduced.But life is still peaceful and fulfilling, but Luo Zhan is keenly aware of the meaning of parting.

Lu Zijin's departure seems to be the prelude to parting, not only the end of high school, but also, the five of them...

The author has something to say: Lu Zijin's Farewell Ceremony See you in the future

Q: How would you define the word loneliness?