I don't want to play anymore

Zhang Ye has never felt such a deep sense of powerlessness. Cheng Yang said he didn’t want to see him, he didn’t want to see him, and he didn’t give any explanation. He didn’t know what else he could do. , then what you do should be in vain!

As for why Cheng Yang suddenly said that he didn't want to see him, Zhang Ye couldn't find the reason: they hadn't been together these days, and Cheng Yang should have completely played, or was still struggling to play.

Take him for example. He hates eating celery. Under the influence of various factors and psychological hints, he ate celery for a period of time. Suddenly one day those external factors disappeared, and the effect of psychological hints disappeared. Then he It must be disgusting, right?This should be Cheng Yang's current situation.

In fact, the two of them have not been together for a long time. After the filming, they are very busy, and there are very few opportunities to meet each other. It stands to reason that they don’t have such a deep relationship. But Zhang Ye still feels very uncomfortable, as if a certain part of his body is dying. As if being torn apart, loss, despair, and pain all swept towards him.

Back then, Shan Hao had a breakup with his current fiancée. Shan Hao hugged a doll bear and wiped his tears like a fool when he was drunk. Zhang Ye still thought it was unbelievable. It's too exaggerated to cry for another person who has no blood relationship, dying or living, but now, when it happened to him, he realized that it was really a big deal, as if the sky had collapsed.His eyes were sore and swollen, if it wasn't for an outsider beside him, he might not be able to bear it.

"Mr. Zhang, where are you going next?" The driver asked cautiously when he saw that his expression was particularly bad.

"Hotel." Zhang Ye said.

When the driver heard the young master's nasal voice, his heart skipped a beat, he hurriedly responded, and drove the car steadily.

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When Cheng Yang returned to the rented house, Chang Chen was cooking in the kitchen. When he heard a knock on the door, he walked out and opened the door and said, "I was about to call you, wash your hands and prepare to eat."

Cheng Yang pointed to Zhao Tao's bedroom: "I want to lie down for a while."

Seeing that his complexion was very bad, Chang Chen asked worriedly, "What's the matter? Are you feeling unwell?"

Cheng Yang straightened his body as much as possible, and squeezed out a smiling face: "No, it's just that I'm a little tired after a day of part-time work, and I ate lunch late, so I'm not hungry yet, you can eat first." He came over last night At that time, it was to tell Chang Chen that he was wearing a doll costume in a nearby square for publicity in the past two days.

Chang Chen was still frying vegetables in the pot. He was afraid that the vegetables would be mushy, so he didn't force Cheng Yang: "That's fine, you go and rest for a while, and you two will eat together when Taozi comes back."

"Yeah." Cheng Yang watched Chang Chen get into the kitchen again, and the breath he had been holding on before entering the door suddenly let go. He walked slowly into Zhao Tao's room and closed the door.

Cheng Yang lay down on the bed and covered his head with the quilt. After an unknown amount of time, he heard the door being pushed open. It must be that Chang Chen came to call him after cooking. He wiped his face hastily and lifted the quilt At one o'clock, close your eyes and pretend to be asleep.

Chang Chen didn't turn on the light. Seeing him sleeping, he tucked the quilt for him and closed the door and went out. When Cheng Yang heard the door closed, he slowly opened his eyes. He glanced out the window. It was completely dark, the seal between the glass and the window frame was not tight, and the wind blew the whistle into it. He thought about getting up and closing the window, but he couldn't move at all, just like when he was downstairs just now.

At that time, he walked past the corner of the building and stopped. Looking back at the back of Zhang Ye leaving, he felt terribly uncomfortable. When he came out, his body couldn't move at all. It seemed that his soul and body were no longer under the control of his brain at the same time. One shouted to hurry up, but the other didn't even have the strength to lift his feet.

Even when he was in the detention center back then, he had never been as desperate as he is now. It is probably what others often say, that there is nothing more sad than heartbroken.

Then he thought again, where is Zhang Ye now?He must also feel very uncomfortable, and he must be very angry. It was all caused by you. Originally, he could live a peaceful life, but it was all caused by you, the unlucky ghost.

What face do you have to complain here, feel that fate is playing tricks on others, that God is playing a joke on you?It's none of your business. It's not your fault. You have a flawed personality. You can't do anything well. Whoever gets involved with you will be unlucky. Just like what my aunt said before, it's not that you dragged grandpa down to death. , so many years because you haven't had a good day, and it's not all because of you that you have suffered so much.

Since your personality is flawed, and since whoever touches you will be unlucky, aren't you doing harm to others when you are with others?Shouldn't you be alone, right?

Yes, that's good, a person can fend for himself, and no longer drag anyone down.

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It was already past nine o'clock when Zhao Tao came back. Chang Chen heard the sound of the door opening and came out to explain a few words to him. Zhao Tao agreed to enter his room. The light that leaked in touched the side of Cheng Yang's bed, Cheng Yang turned his face and glanced at him, then turned back slowly.

Zhao Tao patted the quilt and said softly, "If you haven't fallen asleep, get up and eat."

"You can eat." Cheng Yang said.

"If you don't eat at all, Teacher Chang should be suspicious." Zhao Tao said again.

That's right, we can't let Chang Chen know, we can't let Chang Chen worry, we can't trouble others anymore, Cheng Yang thought silently, and sat up on the bed with his uninjured arm.

Chang Chen had already put the vegetables and rice into the microwave oven, Zhao Tao waited until the 'ding' sounded, and then he took it out, and said, "I have a courier delivered three times today, and when I went in the morning, the person said He went out by himself and asked me to deliver it at noon, and I went there at noon, and he said that I left early, and he hasn’t come back yet, and it was only delivered just now.”

"I can't put it anywhere, let someone collect it for me." Cheng Yang said listlessly.

Zhao Tao glanced at Cheng Yang's face, and raised his hand to press on his forehead: "Why do you look so listless? Could it be that you have a fever?"

Cheng Yang shrank back a bit, dodging his hand: "No."

Zhao Tao has always had a big heart, and after touching it for a while, there was no abnormality, so he picked up his rice bowl again, and after taking two mouthfuls of food, he lowered his voice and leaned over to ask, "Did Zhang Ye see you today?"

Cheng Yang nodded.

Zhao Tao's hands that were chopping the rice stopped immediately, and he said with concern: "What did you say? You didn't reveal your secrets, did you?"

"Don't ask." Cheng Yang finally had some expression on his face, and he frowned firmly.

Seeing that Cheng Yang was very depressed, Zhao Tao couldn't help muttering in his heart, and tried to ask: "You two are not at odds, are you?"

Cheng Yang gave Zhao Tao a cold look, then turned his gaze back.

Seeing him like this, Zhao Tao didn't dare to ask any more questions, and said in a low voice, "Come on, I won't ask any more, you should eat quickly."

Cheng Yang didn't bother Zhao Tao to ask him, he was just afraid that if Zhao Tao continued to ask, he would cry, which would be too embarrassing.

He had no appetite in the first place, so he picked up the rice grains with the bowl in his hand. Seeing that he didn't eat, Zhao Tao didn't dare to say anything. He gorged himself to fill his stomach, and stood up to clean up the bowls and chopsticks.Cheng Yang helped him put the plates and bowls back into the kitchen, Zhao Tao hurriedly pushed him and said, "Okay, leave it alone, I'll do the washing."

"Ah."

Watching Cheng Yang walk out of the kitchen, Zhao Tao became more suspicious, hesitating whether to send Zhang Ye a message to ask, but he was afraid that he would lose the chance to ask. If Zhang Ye didn't know that Cheng Yang was injured, wouldn't it be him? In the final analysis, did the two of them have any quarrels, or did they have a quarrel, and he didn't know why, so it's better not to add to the chaos.After hesitating again and again, he put the phone in his pocket again.

"Is it okay for you to go back to school tomorrow?" Zhao Tao arranged the pillows on the floor. "The heating is on now. The floor is hotter than the bed. Last night it was so hot that I woke up several times."

"It's okay." Cheng Yang said.

"You said that Zhang Ye was here." Zhao Tao turned over on the ground, looked at Cheng Yang, and couldn't help asking, "Did you two quarrel?"

"He probably won't look for me again." Cheng Yang said in a low voice after waiting for a long time.

Zhao Tao was quite surprised, and sat up all of a sudden: "Why did this happen? Is it because you have been avoiding him these two days? This matter can be explained. You can explain it to him. If you can't explain it clearly, I will explain it to you." Say, isn’t it just Lu Gang, it’s okay to tell him.”

With an expression of not wanting to mention more, Cheng Yang pulled up the quilt and closed his eyes: "No need."

"Ah? You, don't you feel uncomfortable breaking up like this?" Zhao Tao said.

"Go to sleep." Cheng Yang turned over on the bed, leaving Zhao Tao with the back of his head.

Zhao Tao scratched his ears, worried for a long time by himself, and then called Cheng Yang twice, Cheng Yang kept silent, and he didn't dare to make too much noise, after all, the house is soundproof, and it would be troublesome to invite Chang Chen up.In desperation, he sighed twice, pulled off the quilt and lay down again.

The next day was Sunday, and Cheng Yang went out early in the morning. He stayed at Zhao Tao's home all day, and left after changing his medicine in the evening. Although he was not sure whether Zhang Ye would be in that apartment Still, I can't help but want to see it.

Unexpectedly, Zhang Ye was not there. He stood downstairs and looked at the windows of the living room and the bedroom. There was no light coming out. He walked around to the other side. The windows were still dark. He remembered the string of passwords clearly, but I didn't have the courage to go up and open the door to take a look.

After standing under the tree for a while, he took out his mobile phone. Zhang Ye didn’t post any Moments, and even didn’t update Weibo. He had seen something about airport fan shoots in his super chat, so he exited the homepage and clicked into the super chat on the chapter page.

He never thought that one day he would use this method to understand Zhang Ye's schedule and status. Cheng Yang scolded himself for what he deserved, while sliding the page, a picture flashed into his sight, and his fingers froze.

Although it was just a back view, he recognized it as Zhang Ye at a glance. Zhang Ye was holding a suitcase in one hand and a shoulder bag in the other. There was an airport sign above his head, and there were a few backs that were closer When the photo slid to the end, there was finally a profile shot of Zhang Ye. He rarely wore a baseball cap and a mask, with his head down and his eyes lowered.

Cheng Yang stared at the photo for a long time before checking the time when it was posted on Weibo. It was posted a few hours ago, which means that Zhang Ye has left City A.

Thinking that he could only pay attention to this person silently in this way in the future, Cheng Yang felt so uncomfortable that his whole chest would explode. The person in Zhang Ye was more self-confident. To put it bluntly, he wanted face. Yesterday he directly said that he didn't want to see him. It was indeed too hurtful. Even if Zhang Ye was full of confusion and anger, he would not chase him to ask the reason. In fact, this is also good, and there is no need to embarrass each other so much.

He couldn't help laughing wryly, after all, he was not worthy of Zhang Ye, Zhang Ye is so good, kind-hearted, good-natured, good-looking, handsome, the focus of the crowd, what is he?All he has is a past that he doesn't even want to face.

Staring at the silhouette on the mobile phone screen for a while, Cheng Yang's eyes were sore and swollen. He locked the mobile phone and stuffed it into his trouser pocket, sniffed, and then glanced at the dark window on the upper floor of the apartment building, looking out of the community go.In fact, God treats him well, even if they are separated like this, at least he still has so many good memories, at least he can still watch the chapter silently in the corner.

The author has something to say: Don’t panic, the next chapter will start the reconciliation mode