dear little fool

seaside.

Mumumu (o゜▽゜) o☆[mumu]

Shi Xu sat by the sea, looked at the coastline, and didn't say a word for a long time. It took about ten minutes before he cursed: "Damn it."

He is really tired.

He rushed back overnight, went to pick up the cake, took the gift he had prepared a long time ago, and planned to go to their school to surprise Shen Ruoqing, but it was all in vain.

After waiting in the dormitory for two hours without seeing a single person, it really wasn't appropriate, there was too much estrangement between the two of them.

He couldn't figure out why he agreed to be with Shen Ruoqing.

Counting the time, we have been together for two years.

How did they live these two years?

Shi Xu was recalling their life in the past two years. From a certain point of view, when they were together, they were basically doing AI, which was very direct.

The time of the two of them basically does not match, one is a student and the other is the president of a listed company.

The circle of life is completely different, Shi Xu basically has no free time a day, Shen Ruoqing is bored after class, often invites him to play games together, and sometimes just chats and calls.

Although I would ask him every time: Am I bothering you now?

But even if it was really disturbing, Shi Xu wouldn't say it. Several times, after chatting at twelve o'clock in the evening, he stayed up late to deal with work matters, and finally went to the meeting with dark circles under his eyes. I don't know, I thought he was Went to be a thief last night.

But even so, Shen Ruoqing would still quarrel with him, and the reason for the quarrel was because of him.

Last time, Shen Ruoqing came to him and asked him, "Why didn't you answer my call?"

He looked at his mobile phone, thinking that the meeting was in silent mode, so he said, "I'm in a meeting."

"You can talk to me during the meeting, don't answer my call, I'll be worried." Shen Ruoqing said in a coquettish tone, "Why don't you take the initiative?"

He was in a bad mood at that time, because there was a problem at work, so he said in a heavy tone: "Am I not active enough?"

As a result, Shen Ruoqing said: "Have you taken the initiative? I call you every time. If I don't look for you, you don't know how to send a message every day. Do you take the initiative?"

Just like this, Shi Xu suddenly felt tired. In this relationship, he is indeed the passive one, but it doesn't mean he doesn't like Shen Ruoqing, he is also working hard to cater to Shen Ruoqing.

No matter how busy he was at work, he would chat with Shen Ruoqing about meaningless things, and no matter how busy he was, he would still come to see him once a week.

Shi Xu felt that he was changing, but Shen Ruoqing took his change for granted, and this was the most uncomfortable thing for him.

What happened today was like a straw, instead of saving him, it crushed him to death.

The idea of ​​breaking up really came to him several times when he went downstairs, but he didn't say it.

He was thinking, what if he regretted saying these two words?

After thinking about it for a long time, the weather gradually became hotter, so he got up and prepared to go home, take a shower and rest.

There's no need to make yourself so tired. If it's really not suitable, break up. Isn't falling in love just to make yourself happy?

He had just returned home when he saw Shen Ruoqing. After a moment of silence, the housekeeper looked at him and said, "Second Young Master Shen has been waiting for you."

Shen Ruoqing looked at him with flustered eyes, but he said with evasive eyes: "I'm tired today, you can send him back, I'll go back to my room to rest."

He thought that Shen Ruoqing would disagree, but Shen Ruoqing said: "Okay, you rest first."

Shi Xu's face changed instantly, he clenched his fists tightly, finally nodded and said, "Seeing off the guests."

He went upstairs without looking at him at all, just like this, Shen Ruoqing watched his back downstairs until he disappeared.

"Second Master Shen—" the butler tried to tell him to go back, but before he could say anything, he waved his hand at the butler.

"You don't need to say it, I know what you want to say, but I just want to wait for him." Shen Ruoqing knew that he had made a mistake, so he had no right to bother this person, let alone go back.

He has to wait for this person.

"I'll be downstairs waiting for him to come out."

"This is not good. Young Master Shi hasn't rested for a long time. This sleep may not be until tomorrow morning."

"It's okay, you can send him some food later, don't starve him." Shen Ruoqing said softly, "I'll just wait for him."

"Then when are you going to wait?" the butler asked symbolically.

"I'll be there when he thinks of me." Shen Ruoqing said with a smile, and then sat on the sofa and played with her mobile phone.

Shi Xu was in his room, took a deep breath, and told himself not to be angry.

He doesn't need to be angry, this person doesn't care about himself at all, he doesn't need to be angry.

In fact, he also expected this person to hug him, comfort him, and tell him not to be angry, but he didn't. He just let himself rest, and didn't even say a word of regret. As expected, he was the only one who was in trouble. Tangled, after thinking.

He was tired, and when he came out of the shower, he saw the porridge prepared by the butler, drank a little casually, filled his stomach, and then fell asleep without knowing it.

Shi Xu dreamed of a person in his dream.

That was the father he had never met, he didn't know what he looked like, but he knew that that person was his father.

"Shi Xu..."

The man called his name, and he stood there looking at him, not knowing what to say for a moment, then the man approached him, and he took a step back.

"Are you afraid of me?"

Shi Xu looked at him, not because he was afraid of him, but because he didn't want to see this person again.

I have never owned this man, so I am not afraid of this statement, and of course, I have never thought of getting close to this man.

"Shixu, do you miss me?"

Shi Xu didn't speak, he didn't miss anyone, not to mention he clearly realized that this was a dream, his father died 27 years ago, at the hands of his mother.

"Why don't you speak?"

"Dreaming can lead to poor sleep quality, so don't let it affect my sleep quality again."

How official and ruthless, he is such a person.

"You will die alone like this."

"so what?"

The man looked at him, and finally stretched out his hand to grab his neck: "It would be great if you were not born."

Shi Xu was strangled by him, this feeling was just like when he was a child, he couldn't keep up with his breathing, he was going to die, who can give him a hand.

Or, he just died like this, if he hadn't been born, he wouldn't have this kind of sadness anymore.