dear little fool

"Shixu, Shixu." Shen Ruoqing called his name, and I held his hand tightly and said, "It's okay, I'm here."

Shi Xu didn't wake up, but kept struggling.

Shen Ruoqing knew that this person often had nightmares and had slept with him so many times. Shi Xu would often struggle in the middle of the night. At first, he didn't understand Shi Xu's situation. It wasn't until later that he began to understand what this person went through. I know that Shi Xu is experiencing things from his childhood in his dream.

Shi Xu never told him how he was when he was a child, he only knew some things about Shi Xu intermittently after asking Shi Jiu, and after investigating some things, he found out that this person came here like this when he was a child.

"It's okay, I'm here." He held his hand tightly, and then rubbed his forehead, which was covered in sweat, not knowing how to wake this person up.

"Ah—" Shi Xu woke up suddenly, panting for breath, and it took a while before he came back to his senses.

"Is it better?" Shen Ruoqing looked at him worriedly and wiped the sweat from his forehead.

"You—" Shi Xu looked at him, and originally wanted to ask him why he was here, but after thinking about it, he forgot, and pulled his hand back from his.

"I'm sorry." Shen Ruoqing said softly, kneeling beside his bed, "I didn't know you would come back, and I didn't know it would become like this. I'm sorry."

"It's okay." Shi Xu is already a mature person, there's no need to get angry over such a trivial matter. After a while, he finally calmed down and said, "Should we be separated for a while?"

"Huh?" Shen Ruoqing felt as if she had heard it wrong, "What did you say?"

Shi Xu didn't speak, but hesitated, and after a few minutes, he finally said: "Let's break up, I'm tired."

Shen Ruoqing was originally kneeling beside his bed. When she heard this sentence, she immediately stood up and asked, "What nonsense are you talking about? I like you, I really like you, don't marry me just because of this little thing. Shall we make a fuss?"

"I didn't quarrel with you. It's been more than two years, and I feel that I'm very tired." Shi Xu leaned against the bed and looked at him and said, "You may not be able to give me what I want."

He wanted understanding, a sense of security, and absolute preference and care, but Shen Ruoqing didn't seem to be able to give it to him. He couldn't see the future of the two of them.

"Shi Xu!" Shen Ruoqing didn't speak, but just called his name, Shi Xu smiled helplessly.

"Sorry for wasting your best youth, go find someone else."

"Looking for your mother!" Shen Ruoqing swears directly, leaning close to him and pulling up his collar and said, "Listen to me, I can give you whatever you want!"

Shi Xu looked at Shen Ruoqing's irritable face, sighed helplessly and said, "I'm tired."

"Tired you ball of yarn, let me continue talking when you're tired, who/mother will allow you to break up!" Shen Ruoqing's voice rose three or four decibels, and Shi Xu was so scared that he didn't dare to speak, he was still the first It was the first time I saw Shen Ruoqing angry like this.

"Don't make trouble for no reason, please?" Shi Xu said impatiently, "It's because you are a child that I feel very tired."

"But I was a child, didn't you know this fact when you were with me just two years ago?" Shen Ruoqing said this with a particularly aggrieved voice, "I know I'm immature, but it's because I like You, that’s why I’m only a child in front of you. In the eyes of others, I’m an alpha who won’t act like a baby, feel wronged, or be cute. Only in front of you can I look like this. Because it’s you, so I That’s why I’m willing to show my most vulnerable side in front of you.”

"Don't...don't cry..." Seeing him like that, Shi Xu panicked, "This is not what I want, what I want is understanding, it's— —”

"I know." Shen Ruoqing directly covered his mouth and said, "I know everything, but I can't do it."

Shi Xu looked at him, how could he honestly say this, what should he do?

"I know it's unfair to you for me to say this, and I know I'm self-willed, but I've been changing." Shen Ruoqing looked into his eyes and said seriously, "When a boy grows up, it's a It's a very hard thing, so, please, don't leave me, okay? Stay with me for a few more years, and I will soon become your reliance, so wait for me a little longer, okay?"

Shi Xu looked at the boy with red eyes, and didn't say a word for a long time, and didn't dare to look at him, he didn't know how to promise this person.

"I--"

"Please, don't talk about breaking up, I really like you." Shen Ruoqing grabbed his shoulders tightly, "I want to continue to be loved by you, and I want to continue to love you."

Shi Xu was softened by what he said, but he still didn't agree with him because he was really tired.

Two years has already made him very tired. If he waits for a few more years, he is afraid that he will really not be able to hold on. If it becomes useless and there is still no result in the end, he will really become a stumbling block for this person. He didn't want Shixu to think about his youth years later, and said: "I regret that I didn't fight back with Shixu earlier at that time, and wasted so many years together."

He was very afraid of words like this, and he didn't want to be what this person said in the future.

"Shi Xu—"

"We won't go for long." Shi Xu said softly, "Let's end here, I'm really tired."

Shen Ruoqing never thought that this person would be so heartless, as expected, the world of adults is always indifferent.

"Shi Xu, I know this is not good, but I don't want to lose you." Shen Ruoqing said coldly, this is the worst method, but it is also the most effective method.

"Huh?" Shi Xu hesitated for a second, and then a wave of pheromones filled the room in the next second, and there was a moment of silence.

"Put it away." Shi Xu panted slightly, "What do you want..."

"Do you know what is the most common method for an Alpha to obtain an Omega?" Shen Ruoqing squinted at him, with danger in his eyes.

"Shen Ruoqing—"

"I'm sorry, I don't want to, but I don't want to break up even more." Shen Ruoqing moved closer to him, Shi Xu wanted to push him away, but his body instinctively leaned towards him. This kind of inductive pheromone is really fatal. He was so hot It's a little uncomfortable, Shen Ruoqing is like a refrigerator at this moment, cooling people down.

"Open your mouth." Shen Ruoqing supported his waist, stretched out his hand to untie his pants, and then said: "Open your legs too."

Shi Xu obeyed obediently, Shen Ruoqing kept wrapping his arms around his neck, and then whispered in his ear: "I want to mark you, you will be mine forever."