plastic rose

The author has something to say: Good morning~

I found that I was wriggling and writing about others, but when I looked at myself, it made the readers feel uncomfortable again and again...

"WTF!!!" That's how I feel now when I'm writing.

I really want to say to myself: "I'm not happy with you, get up!"

It's a new day, you really need to cheer up!

Quietly leave~

Grabbing the wallet and keys, Zheng Yuan said to talk to Gu Jun on the phone, and rushed out of the house in a hurry.But when he came to the stairs, he stood still in a daze.

Going to see Ouyang now, he can't guarantee that he won't tell about Jiang Xiaofan, isn't this playing into Jiang Xiaofan's hands?But after being separated from the relationship by Ouyang, Zheng Yuan found out that he could not agree to Ouyang's unilateral decision.

If you can find a reason to meet Ouyang, his so-called face is worthless.

He could have called Gu Jun again to find out which hotel room Ouyang was staying in, but when he thought of listening to Gu Jun's nagging again, he gave up.In several hotels, finding a person who checked in with his identity verification name, for Zheng Yuan, it was just a few phone calls to talk to the front desk as Ouyang's friend.

Sitting in a taxi, Zheng Yuan got the room number of Ouyang's hotel, ignoring the suspicious gaze cast by the taxi driver from the rearview mirror.

When Ouyang opened the door and stood in front of him, Zheng Yuan felt that he was right to come here.

Seeing Zheng Yuan, Ouyang Wensi's calm face was filled with disbelief.When it was confirmed that the person standing opposite was indeed Zheng Yuan, the incredulous expression gradually receded, replaced by the smile still on the corner of his mouth.

"You can't live in the dormitory, why don't you come to me?" Zheng Yuan didn't want to procrastinate or wait, he just wanted to rescue Ouyang from here.

With a hint of confusion on his face, Ouyang said, "It's no big deal, just make up for two days here."

Ouyang explained that when he saw the cleaning staff walking by with a curious expression pushing a cart full of linen, he called Zheng Yuan into the room.

Zheng Yuan was let into the room by Ouyang.Looking around, this is a room of less than 15 square meters. Apart from the bathroom separated by frosted glass, there are beds, simple tables and chairs, desktop computers, and half a window.Ouyang's luggage was neatly placed beside the bed, and the daily necessities on the table were arranged in an orderly row against the wall. There were two 16-carat thick books spread out on the table. Before Zheng Yuan could see what the books were, Ouyang quickly read them Put it away in the drawer, took the disposable paper cup and poured water for Zheng Yuan.

"How did you find it?" Ouyang asked, handing the water to Zheng Yuan who was sitting at the table.

Zheng Yuan originally wanted to say that Jiang Xiaofan told him, but then he just said: "Go and live with me, my roommate will move out in two days."

Ouyang sat down on the opposite bed, looked directly at Zheng Yuan with his clear eyes, listened carefully to what he said, and said calmly: "I can move back to the dormitory next weekend, no need."

This week is extremely long for Zheng Yuan.He hasn't seen each other for a month in the past, and he has never observed Ouyang as carefully as he is now.Ouyang is neither fat nor thin, the slightly raised corners of his eyes, the curvature of his mouth, and even the length of his hair haven't changed a bit.But in Zheng Yuan's view, Ouyang has changed.As for what changed, he couldn't say.

It wasn't until Ouyang said this that Zheng Yuan realized that it was Ouyang's attitude towards him, the attitude full of distance.

"Are you afraid of the trouble of moving things? I'll help you move them." He hurriedly added, trying to convince Ouyang.

Ouyang shook his head and said, "It's very interesting to live in this place where people don't know each other for two days."

"Ouyang..." Zheng Yuan called Ouyang's name, not knowing why to persuade him.

Ouyang raised his eyebrows, waiting for the second half of Zheng Yuan's words, but didn't hear the rest.He saw Zheng Yuan frowning with concern, his eyes like a begging puppy, and found it funny.After laughing in my heart, it was an irrepressible love.

"What's the matter?" Asking such a question, he wanted to know what reason Zheng Yuan would use to persuade himself.

"...don't live in this kind of place anymore." Zheng Yuan's voice was full of pleading.

"Why do you have to let me live with you?"

Why?Zheng Yuan was stunned.Yes, Ouyang doesn't live here, and he doesn't necessarily have to go to Zheng Yuan's house.Not long ago, Ouyang Gang expressed their wishes for their own well-being.What is the purpose of my begging now?Is it the poor Ouyang who is about to be abandoned?But, pity this kind of feeling, so cheap, and it can't be said.

"If you don't live with me, my mother will break my leg if she finds out after she comes back from Qingyang." Finally, Zheng Yuan found a good excuse.

Hearing this, Ouyang's eyes dimmed, and he said, "Really?"

Zheng Yuan realized in an instant that he had slipped his tongue, and he stammered his explanation: "That's... Don't talk about that, come to my house."

Ouyang turned his head to the side and stopped looking at Zheng Yuan's face.He lives here this week, thinking a lot by himself.Recently, he was in a cold war with Jiang Xiaofan, after thinking about it, he found that there was no memory between the two of them that could make up for the thin relationship.What did you decide to get married in the first place?enthusiasm?no.Maybe it was the extravagant wish to settle down in this city.

After being lost, he suddenly discovered that what he longed for was not to settle down, but to maintain his own stable small world.And the previous extravagant demands for stability are eroding him inch by inch.

Therefore, at this moment, what he wants to hear from Zheng Yuan is not what he just said.

"Forget it." Ouyang replied, turned back and continued to look at Zheng Yuan, wanting to see his reaction.

Zheng Yuan lowered his head and gently rubbed the back of his neck with his right hand. This was a small subconscious movement when he was in trouble.After a moment of silence, he asked, "Why? Why can't you live with me?"

"Why are you so persistent now?"

Zheng Yuan felt like he was sitting on pins and needles when asked this sentence.He rushed here with an impulse, and now he felt that Ouyang was peeling off the wall of his feelings inch by inch with simple words.And he was afraid to face it, and he didn't dare to admit the truth.

It's okay to joke and laugh at yourself, but in front of Ouyang, he dare not admit anything.

However, looking into Ouyang's eyes, he realized: this time, if he still chooses to back down, he will lose his chance forever.

He suddenly raised his head, jumped up from the chair, grabbed Ouyang's arms tightly with both hands, and asked, "Is it because of what I just said? Because I'm afraid my mother will break my leg?"

Ouyang didn't answer, but there was a wry smile on the corner of his mouth.

Zheng Yuan opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but didn't say it.He lowered his head, stared at Ouyang's pale hands propped on the white sheet, and sighed deeply.

"It's for myself, okay?"

"You?" Ouyang's voice was close to his ears, with some small trills.

Zheng Yuan raised his head, looked straight into Ouyang's eyes, and said, "Yes."

Ouyang was stunned.The light in his eyes seemed to have retracted somewhere deep in his heart, and his arms lost their original stubbornness.

He didn't expect Zheng Yuan to be so honest about his feelings, he didn't know how to catch the straight ball.

In Zheng Yuan's eyes, Ouyang has never been so confused as he is now.As if he didn't understand what he said, his face was full of confusion.Just like many years ago, when Zheng Yuan explained to the young Ouyang something he couldn't understand, or a math problem he couldn't solve, the expression always appeared on his face: frowning slightly, eyelids half-drawn, in his own small universe Digest, ponder, ruminate, but never doubt.

Zheng Yuan involuntarily moved close to Ouyang's face, he took off Ouyang's glasses, and wanted to kiss the fine texture of his brow.

Seven years have passed since he kissed Ouyang last time.Ouyang never took the initiative to express his feelings for Zheng Yuan, but he never rejected him either.Just like at this moment, he raised his eyes, although he was confused, he didn't have the sense of distance just now.

"Lizard...", before his lips touched Ouyang's brow, Zheng Yuan heard Ouyang whisper in his ear.

Zheng Yuan was stunned.

lizard?What's the meaning?

Ouyang stared ahead, slapped Zheng Yuan on the shoulder twice, his voice was in a rare hurry: "It's all my fault, I was so busy opening the door that I forgot to put the lid on."

Following Ouyang's gaze, Zheng Yuan looked back at the simple desk. On the left edge was a simple plastic box for placing reptiles such as turtles and lizards.The top cover of the plastic box was wide open, and the inside was empty, except for the brown-green lizard.

Ouyang grabbed his glasses, pushed Zheng Yuan away, rushed from the edge of the bed to the desk to check carefully, even searched the gap behind the desk, but couldn't find half of the lizard's toe.

Zheng Yuan helped him search for the lizard in the house, sweating profusely on his brow while searching.

Did you lose your mind just now?Knowing that Jiang Xiaofan was going to break up with Ouyang, did he get carried away? Zheng Yuan thought so, and slapped himself a thousand times in his heart.

Ouyang opened the vertical blackout curtain on half of the window, and found that he forgot to close the window that was open for ventilation in the morning, so he sat back beside the bed in a sense of loss, and summoned Zheng Yuan who was still groping in the bathroom: "Don't look for it, you should It ran through the window."

After hearing this, Zheng Yuan returned to the room with an embarrassed expression on his face, feeling that there was nowhere to rest his hands and feet.

Seeing his appearance, Ouyang grinned loudly after thinking about the scene just now.

"It's okay, if you lose it, you lose it... Are you busy recently?" After laughing, Ouyang still had regret in his eyes, but he was finally able to resume the normal conversation with Zheng Yuan.

Zheng Yuan looked at Ouyang laughing, and seeing the lost brilliance in his eyes, he felt relieved.He leaned back against the desk, propped his hands back on the edge of the desk, and said with a smile, "Why are you not busy, I made an exclusive negative."

Ouyang raised his eyebrows and asked, "Which developer is this time?"

"Kaiyuan." Zheng Yuan rubbed his eyebrows and said, "A local developer in Nancheng built villas on industrial land. The scale is not small. Because it has a good relationship with the local government, it has not been supervised. But we decided to do it here. Their negativity is actually the problem of Kaiyuan not placing advertisements in our newspaper. As soon as the news was published this Friday, the vice president of Kaiyuan came to the newspaper for public relations."

From the bottom of his heart, Zheng Yuan looked down on the newspaper's way of coercion and lure, but he still ran for two days in a row to visit the site, interview the planning bureau and the developer.He "reported" to Ouyang on all these tasks in detail.

Seeing that he was very interested in what he said, Ouyang listened calmly, with disapproval in his eyes, but he didn't make rash comments.

If Ouyang and Jiang Xiaofan break up, is it still possible for me?Zheng Yuan was talking endlessly, while looking at Ouyang like this, he thought so.

Before leaving, he said to Ouyang: "...if your dormitory is not doing well next week, you can come to my place anytime."

Ouyang nodded with a smile and said yes.Zheng Yuanduo hoped that he would agree on the spot.

In the end, Zheng Yuan failed to tell Ouyang that Jiang Xiaofan wanted to break up.

This approach, no matter for Jiang Xiaofan or Zheng Yuan, is too despicable.

He has avoided Ouyang before, and was rejected by Ouyang face to face, but now because Ouyang and Jiang Xiaofan want to break up, is he in a high mood?Zheng Yuan felt that he was not that thick-skinned.