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After the funeral, An Huaixu lived back in Lanting Villa.

At first, she couldn't sleep at night, and she learned Lu Linzhong's habit of drinking lightly before going to bed. It only took a month for her to go from not drinking at all to drinking too much.

She wakes up day by day, uses alcohol to paralyze her nerves night after night, and dreams back at midnight, all of which are Lu Linzhong's shadow.

When they met for the first time, Lu Linzhong was wearing a pair of gold-rimmed glasses and sitting in Xu Zhongxuan's office.

In Yuyuan, she was drunk and they had sex.

In Yunding Garden, she pushed Lu Linzhong against the wall and kissed him passionately.

In Zhitian, she scalded Lu Linzhong's leg and took care of Lu Linzhong.

In the Goethe Theater, Lu Linzhong bought her a pair of flat shoes that fit her feet. Lu Linzhong said that when they were together, those things she didn't like to do didn't have to be done.

She was heartbroken, and tried to restrain herself.

How good would it be if she had been rebellious from then on and didn't care what everyone thought?

But she wants this kind of love, and also wants to give Lu Linzhong a marriage blessed by everyone.

I chose a road that few people take, and I hope that the road will be sunny and full of flowers.

how can that be possible.

She is too greedy, God is punishing her, so take away her true love.

Their wedding rings were placed in front of the urn by An Huaixu, and they were tightly attached to each other.

Every night, when she looked at the photos of Lu Linzhong, she was always wondering, if she survived, how would she go through this life?They agreed to grow old together, but Lu Linzhong hid in this small box first.

During this time, Xu Zhongxuan and Yi Ziyue took turns to visit and comfort him from time to time.Over time, she became numb to what they said, not only at night, but even during the day she began to drink too much.

One day in late September, she was drunk and fell down the stairs. The broken wine bottle cut her arms and legs, and she was found bleeding all over the floor.

An Huaixu woke up from his lethargy, and when he opened his eyes, they were disgustingly white again.

This year, she seemed to have an indissoluble bond with the hospital, and she almost became a frequent visitor to the hospital.

Xu Zhongxuan sat beside her as usual, busy with his work while holding the computer.

"Wake up, let's eat."

She wasn't hungry, but she mechanically picked up the packing box beside the bed and repeated the action of swallowing.

"In the future, stop drinking."

She didn't speak.

"not good for health."

"I've listened to her and lived." An Huaixu put down the tableware, his expression was as calm as a pool of stagnant water.

Xu Zhongxuan was silent for a moment. An Huaixu had never returned home for so long. Jiang Mu and An Cheng asked her to take care of An Huaixu. Since she agreed, she should explain to the two elders.She can understand An Huaixu's sadness, but she can't let An Huaixu wallow in memories and pain.

"Since you're alive, live your life well." Xu Zhongxuan's tone was slightly cold, "Everyone in the world suffers, and you're not the only one who lost your love."

"Do you want to compare yourself with me? Can we be the same? Although Meng Qiu has left you, you can still hear from her occasionally, but what about me?"

"what do I have."

Her tears had dried up in the past time, and she slept in the bedding and clothes with Lu Linzhong's body fragrance every night, but as time passed, the smell became weaker and weaker.

People can't keep it, and neither can the taste.

"You don't know how much I envy you. If I were you, I would try my best to chase Meng Qiu back." An Huaixu smiled wryly, "But I can only envy you."

Xu Zhongxuan was dumb, looking out the window thoughtfully.

On a certain weekend shortly after being discharged from the hospital, An Huaixu huddled in a corner of the sofa as usual, looking out the window with empty eyes.

A knock on the door broke the silence in the room, and An Huaixu walked over to open the door indifferently.

The person who came had long black straight hair and cold eyes. He was Lu Linzhong's old friend Sherry. An Huaixu stood at the door with her for a while before Sherry slowly explained the purpose of his visit: "This one belongs to Lu."

The uniquely shaped necklace pendant, coupled with the thin collarbone chain, is reflecting the brilliance in Sherry's palm at this moment.

An Huaixu looked at the pendant. She asked Lu Linzhong before, but Lu Linzhong was vague.How did this thing appear in Sherry's hands? Lu Linzhong gave it to her?

"I'll give it back to you." Sherry handed the pendant to An Huaixu.

"You, come in." An Huaixu bent down and took out a pair of slippers.

Sherry suddenly looked at the furnishings in the house. She had known Lu Linzhong for many years and had a crush on her for many years. In fact, there were not many opportunities to live close to Lu Linzhong.

This is the second time she has walked into Lu Linzhong's home, and there are traces of two people living together in every corner and even every crevice.

There was a faint smell of wine in the room, looking at An Huaixu's pale face and empty expression, she could probably guess how An Huaixu survived these days when Lu Linzhong was gone.

"Why is it with you?" An Huaixu took the initiative to pour a glass of warm water for the guest, and held the pendant tightly with special care.

"I asked Lu Yao." The corner of Sherry's mouth curled up in embarrassment, "You know, I..."

An Huaixu nodded, she did know that Sherry liked Lu Linzhong, very much.

"Lu took a fancy to a violin in my piano store. She rarely asked me for something, and I didn't want to let go of this opportunity, so I asked her for this pendant." Sherry looked far away, as if separated by sea fog The lights on the other side flicker on and off.

"Since I knew her, she has been wearing this pendant and almost never leaves her body. I thought she would be reluctant, but I didn't expect her to."

An Huaixu's heart stabbed, and Lu Linzhong exchanged a violin for her with the pendant she never left her body, but she used to quarrel with Lu Linzhong because of that violin, complaining that Lu Linzhong didn't understand her, and she didn't even give Lu Linzhong the violin. Play a tune.

Sherry looked at the things in An Huaixu's hands reluctantly.

"Since you can't bear it, why give it back to me?"

"I want to exchange it with you for Lu's clothes." Sherry pressed the center of her eyebrows, and there was sadness in her eyes that could not be concealed. In fact, she was not sure whether An Huaixu would agree to her unreasonable request.

She loves that person, but the person she loves already has a family.Her love is superfluous, as long as she gets close, she is disturbing.

She envied that An Huaixu could guard all that Lu Linzhong left behind, and was able to get drunk for Lu Linzhong, crying bitterly, and she was not even Lu Linzhong's friend.

It was her greatest selfishness to exchange a pendant for a dress.

"is it okay?"

An Huaixu held the pendant tightly, turned and went upstairs.

The cloakroom remains the same. Lu Linzhong always likes to be tidy, and puts things in an orderly manner. Shirts in spring, satin dresses in summer, knitted sweaters in autumn, fine cashmere sweaters and coats in winter...

Even though there are many clothes of the same style and different colors, she is still reluctant to part with any of them.

She stood in the cloakroom for a long time, picked out one of several identical white shirts, folded it neatly, put it in a paper bag and walked back to the living room.

Sherry heard her footsteps, stood up and looked at her, eyes glued to the paper tape in her hand.

"You can take the clothes with you. I want to hear you tell me about her past." An Huaixu put the paper bag on the coffee table, "She mentioned it, you two have known each other for a long time."

Sherry nodded.

"There are many things about her that I want to know, but I have no chance to listen to her personally. Would you like to tell me?"

On this day, there was finally another person's voice in the empty living room. From daytime to night, most of the time it was Sherry who was talking and An Huaixu was listening carefully.

Some people regret that time cannot be turned back, but she regrets that she is younger than Lu Linzhong, and cannot catch up with the years that Lu Linzhong has more than her.

Sherry's few words were sporadically pieced together in An Huaixu's mind, and gradually turned into vivid pictures, as if she also had the opportunity to participate in Lu Linzhong's past.

Only then did she know that Lu Linzhong's parents had divorced long ago and their relationship was weak. It turned out that Lu Linzhong liked to cook and clean the house because Lu Linzhong wanted a warm home.

Only then did she know that before becoming a shining and slick business leader, Lu Linzhong also experienced setbacks and failures, and was also concerned about gains and losses.

Sherry repeatedly mentioned how Lu Linzhong cherished this pendant, and she also began to wonder what the pendant meant to Lu Linzhong.

There are too many things she doesn't know about Lu Linzhong's past, but she always has the feeling that this pendant may be the most important one among them.

Sherry took Lu Linzhong's clothes and left. An Huaixu collected his emotions and began to organize the things Lu Linzhong left behind.

When Lu Linzhong was still there, she knew almost nothing about Lu Linzhong's past. After Lu Linzhong left, she could slowly walk into the past time from other people's mouths and the old things left by Lu Linzhong.

She found Lu Linzhong's photo albums in the study, lined up in order from birth to ten years old.Lu Linzhong was a good-looking milk doll when she was a child, she wished she could hold this child in her arms and kiss him more.

In the utility room, she found the princess dress Lu Linzhong wore when he was a child, crystal shoes, and a bunch of dolls and fairy tale books. The little girl's princess dream turned out to be Lu Linzhong too.

There are several safes at home. Lu Linzhong told her the password before, but she is not interested in money, jewelry, real estate, etc., and has never opened it.

She found the key to the safe from the bedside table, inserted it into the lock, and entered a string of codes.

There was a "click", as if someone reached out and gently brushed away the fog covering her heart. There was something waiting for her here, and it had been waiting for many years.

There are some asset certificates at the bottom of the safe. Although the Lu family’s domestic company was acquired by Zhitian, there is no substantial loss. The prices of many commercial properties that Lu Linzhong bought in the past have now doubled several times.Lu Linzhong still has some shares in her father's company.

She flipped them over hastily and put them back where they belonged.

There are several sets of high-end jewelry in the middle of the safe, which are now priceless and hard to find. She secretly sighed at Lu Linzhong's picky eyes, but she felt that these things would complement each other only if they appeared on Lu Linzhong.

There is an exquisite box on the top floor, hexagonal, made of metal, with uneven antique patterns and elegant decoration, which is incompatible with the jewelry box on the next floor.

An Huaixu stretched out her hand, touched the box with her fingertips, and suddenly felt a subtle feeling, as if something was driving her to open it.

What could it be?

She held the box and felt a slight tremor, the bronze-colored lock piece was pushed open, the lid of the box popped up, and a small black cloth bag lay peacefully in the center of the box.

She opened the cloth bag, and inside was a light beige peace amulet. The folded shape of the amulet matched the peculiar shape of the pendant.

She breathed a sigh of relief, when Lu Linzhong said that the pendant was a "magic talisman", she just thought it was a joke, but it turned out to be a talisman.

The color of the paper was different, and the water stains on it were clear. It should have been wet by water. When she reached out to touch it, the paper suddenly fell apart, and there were clear red ink marks on it.

She regretted for a while, why did she open this box, she actually broke Lu Linzhong's beloved thing.

An Huaixu's fingertips trembled, and he stacked the scattered fragments together at a loss, but inadvertently saw the clear writing on the fragments: "An Huaixu".

In this dark and cramped space, An Huaixu heard his breathing quicken.

Why is there her name on it?

She carefully spread the fragments on a piece of white paper to form a complete peace talisman.

Her parents don't believe in religion, and her grandparents are not keen on things about gods and Buddhas. Only her grandma often copies scriptures and worships Buddha.

An Huaixu put away the talisman, took off the car keys, and drove to grandma's house.

It was dark at night, and since the day she brought Lu Linzhong's ashes home, she hadn't gone home to take a look.She learned from Xu Zhongxuan that after she left home, Jiang Mu was overly sad and sick for a while.Grandpa and grandma originally lived abroad, but after hearing about her and Lu Linzhong, they returned to China and lived in Jincheng.

She parked the car on the side of the road and reached for the doorbell.

It was An Chengyan's mother who opened the door.

Seeing that it was An Huaixu, the old man shouted excitedly into the living room: "It's Xiao Man, our Xiao Man is willing to go home."

Grandma held An Huaixu's hand, she was so happy that there were tears in her eyes: "Hurry up, come in!"

An Huaixu bent his lips, pulled out his hand calmly, and stood at the door, "Grandma, let me show you something."

The old man froze for a moment, An Huaixu opened the box, and put together pieces of paper in an orderly manner.

"Is this my thing?" An Huaixu's hands hanging under his coat trembled slightly.

The old man helped the reading glasses on the bridge of his nose, and squinted his eyes to look carefully: "Yes, I can still recognize it! This is the peace talisman I asked Master Dezheng to draw for you, and his talisman is the most effective."

An Huaixu's heart felt depressed: "When?"

"You were still young at that time. I begged you before you went to England to participate in the violin competition. You looked like four or five years old, so a little tall. Right, Xiaomu?" The old man glanced at the steps on the second floor.

An Huaixu followed her gaze and saw Jiang Mu standing on the steps. The mother and daughter looked at each other, but they looked away for a moment.

The old man thought for a while, and joked: "You were very naughty back then, and you wet the piano because you were so playful, and you were afraid of being scolded, so you lied to me that you saved a sister by the river."

Saved a sister.

The old man caressed the peace talisman with his fingertips, and murmured, "Didn't you say you lost it? Why did you find it all of a sudden?"

"I'll go first." An Huaixu carefully put the peace amulet back into the box.

"Xiao Man." The old man's voice came from behind, hidden by the night.

An Huaixu clutched the box tightly and sat back in the car. Lu Linzhong once nestled in her arms and told her in his mind that when he was in a boarding school in England, Lu Linzhong was pushed down the lane by his classmates and fell into the river.In late autumn, the river was icy cold, and someone held Lu Linzhong with a piano bow.

If the pendant was polished and cut according to the shape of this peace talisman, if this peace talisman was left by the person who rescued Lu Linzhong back then, is this person himself?

Memory is so cruel, things that have been completely forgotten will not be awakened for a long time because of a few words or one or two old things from others.

Now she wants to verify all this with Lu Linzhong, but she has no chance.

The street lights and buildings outside the car window were retreating sharply, but she couldn't go back to the age of five and see for herself what it was like when they met for the first time.

A night light was lit in front of Lanting Villa, An Huaixu took off his coat, and impatiently walked to the fireplace in the living room, and reached out to caress the portrait of Lu Linzhong.

"Is it me? Is it me who saved you before?"

Her long-dried eyes filled with tears again.

If she had been lucky enough to save Lu Linzhong once 20 years ago, on the day of the car accident 20 years later, she would have jumped off the Jin Bridge desperately, but failed to save Lu Linzhong again.

She finally knew why Lu Linzhong cherished that unique pendant so much.

She finally knew why every time she got close to Lu Linzhong and looked into Lu Linzhong's eyes, she felt a sense of déjà vu in her heart.

She finally knew why when she brought up the first meeting, Lu Linzhong would always look at her with implied expectations, because he hoped that she would remember.But she didn't remember every time, time and time again, Lu Linzhong had so much sadness and regret in her heart that she had never noticed?

"Liu Liu, you should have told me before."

"I know, Liuliu. I know, and I never thought that your kindness to me was to repay the grace of saving my life."

An Huaixu rubbed his hot eye sockets, opened the safe again, and put the things back in place.

There is also a paper material under the metal box, An Huaishu took out the document.It was actually an egg freezing operation agreement in the United States. The operation time was two years ago. The operation fee, storage conditions and subsequent annual fees were clearly written. The agreement was signed by Lu Linzhong Junyi.

An Huaixu sat on the floor holding the materials. She used to think that Lu Linzhong might not like children, so she never talked with Lu Linzhong about having a child after marriage. She didn't care if she had children, she just wanted to be with her. Lu Linzhong walked through this life slowly.

An Huaixu came back to his senses, took out his mobile phone and hurriedly called Yi Ziyue, hoping that Yi Ziyue would come over sometime.

She anxiously waited for Yi Ziyue, her heart full of anticipation, she is Lu Linzhong's legal partner, does having this agreement mean that she can...

"This, she really did it." Yi Ziyue looked at the things in An Huaixu's hands, "She used to be an unmarriageist, I just suggested it to her casually, I didn't expect her to really do it. did it."

"Thank you."

Yi Ziyue looked at An Huaixu in a daze. This was the first time she saw a smile on An Huaixu's face after Lu Linzhong left, and she quickly realized it.

"Huai Xu, don't you mean it?"

"Can I have a child of hers? I'm her wife."

"It's really legal abroad."

Yi Zi said that his thin lips moved, but he stopped talking.

Yi Zi said that she wanted to tell An Huaixu that Lu Linzhong had left, but when she saw the happy expression on An Huaixu's face, she could only change her words and reminded gently: "Having a child is not just to give him life, but to nurture him and accompany him. Train him, you alone"

"I want a child of hers."

Seeing that she has made up her mind, Yi Ziyue folded the things and put them on the table: "I have someone I know over there, if you make up your mind, you can contact me."

"Is it possible to choose the gender of the child if you do it now?"

"Currently in foreign countries, you can choose the gender of your child through genetic screening." Yi Ziyue paused, and added, "If you really want to do it, you must take good care of your body. You have been drinking so much recently, it must not be possible. "

"it is good."

After seeing off Yi Ziyue, An Huaixu walked to the fireplace and quietly faced Lu Linzhong's portrait.

She wanted a child of Lu Linzhong, not to support herself to survive, but because she knew that Lu Linzhong longed for a complete family in the past.

She hoped that besides Lu Linzhong's parents, Lu Linzhong could have another close relative in this world.

"Blame me for being capricious? If you knew, you would definitely not agree." She smiled, "I have already thought about the name of the child, whether it is a boy or a girl, it will be called Lu Yu'an, it is the treasure you left for me. "

"Do you like little boys or little girls? I think both are good, but I heard that boys will be more like their mothers. I hope that in the future, that child can be like you."

"You don't have to worry about me, I can definitely do well, just like you."

At the end of November, An Huaixu resumed his work at the law firm, and his life gradually became more regular.

In the spring of the second year, accompanied by Yi Ziyue, An Huaixu flew to the United States to pass the inspection and underwent the embryo transfer operation. Fortunately, the operation was successful once, the embryo survived, and all indicators were normal.

An Huaixu returned to Jincheng, the small home where they lived together, looked at the photos hanging on the wall, and was a little dazed for a moment.Perhaps Lu Linzhong also hopes that someone can accompany her, so they have their own children now.

She put the B-ultrasound test sheet in front of the portrait, her lips dimpled slightly: "Do you like this year's birthday present?"

Finish.

The author has something to say: They agreed to grow old together, but Lu Linzhong, a bad woman, hid in this small box first.