shadow in daylight gl

"Never show up in front of her."

The gloomy and indifferent voice echoed again in the dream. Lin Yucen suddenly opened his eyes. The sky was clear and blue.

She rubbed her eyes tiredly and looked out of the cabin with a blank expression, as if the time had gone back to the afternoon of July 7th.

On flight C779, Lu Linzhong was wearing an eye mask and resting against the back of the chair. His nose bridge was straight, the tip of his nose was delicate, his lips were red like fire, and his lips were naturally slightly parted.

At that time, even she couldn't help sighing that the person in front of her was so beautiful.

Zhu Yan Ci Jinghua Ci Tree.

She will never see such a bright and fresh face again.

Lin Yucen lowered his eyes, and the corners of the urn lying flat on his lap were sharp and cold to the touch.

Recalling what happened in the past week, the knife wound on my chest is still aching.

Up to now, she still clearly remembers the feeling of An Huaixu stabbing her chest with a knife. The pain of the skin being cut and the blood gushing out is extremely real, and the heart seems to have burst into countless pieces.

Every sleepless night since then, An Huaixu said to her with tears in her mind: Even if you die, I will not forgive you.

She never said how much she liked An Huaixu, but An Huaixu only had resentment towards her.

She promised that Xu Zhongxuan would never show up in front of An Huaixu again, but she was still worried and kept watch in the parking lot all night until the next morning, when she saw An Huaixu getting into Xu Zhongxuan's car, she asked the driver to follow him Outside the funeral home.

Later, An Huaixu rolled down the steps of the funeral home with Lu Linzhong's urn in his arms, leaving many wounds on his pale arms and legs.

She was so sad that she couldn't get any worse, and asked the driver to follow An Huaixu from a distance until the other party entered the gate of Lanting Famous Villa's community without any injuries.

There is a strict access system in the community, and you cannot enter without the owner's card and access records.She stood at the gate of the community for a long time, but finally she could only turn around and leave.

She promised never to appear in front of An Huaixu, so can she stand far behind An Huaixu, watching An Huaixu silently like now, without disturbing her.

After returning to Shanghai, Lin Yucen sent someone to check the properties for sale in Lanting Famous Villa, and bought a villa not far from Lu Linzhong's residence. From a distance, he could see the gate and parking lot of Lu Linzhong's house, as well as the living room. out of the lights.

For two months, she traveled frequently between Jincheng and Shanghai.

An Huaixu seldom went out, and rarely stood by the window. She often didn't have a chance to see An Huaixu for a whole weekend.

She brought 24 to Lanting Famous Villa. When she was in Jincheng, she fed it herself. When she was busy with official duties in Shanghai, she specially hired a caretaker to take care of her.

Now 24 has grown up a lot, can eat and sleep, looks round, and often acts like a baby on her lap.

In the past, An Huaixu laughed that it was called "24". In fact, it was not a name she picked up on a whim, but that day when she was looking through the calendar, she happened to see the twenty-fourth day of the lunar calendar.

Twenty-four, read four.

Her liking for An Huaixu can only be called out in such a veiled way. In the past, she still hoped that one day in the future, An Huaixu would find out by herself, but, there will never be such a day again.

On the third weekend of September, the neighborhood was quiet. She was sitting on the balcony on the second floor with 24 in her arms, looking through the company's materials, when she suddenly heard a crisp sound from An Huaixu's house.

An inexplicable uneasiness surged in her heart, she looked blankly from the window, 24 jumped off her lap, and rubbed against her feet.

In the next second, she walked towards the building before she had time to think about it.

Lin Yucen stood in front of the door, not daring to go any further. In the past, she used to pass here late at night, pretending that she was a night-running owner in the community, and glanced at the light from the living room and the lights in front of the building from afar. green space.

"Never show up in front of her."

That sentence rang in my ears again, and the hand that was stretched out to ring the doorbell stopped in the air, hesitated for a long time and finally retracted.

Lin Yucen walked around to the side of the living room, and saw An Huaixu lying on the ground from the hanging window, his wrists and ankles were cut by the broken wine bottle, and blood dripped all over the floor.She took out her mobile phone and called 120 immediately, and then called the community security room, and told them not to mention her to anyone.

She paced uneasily in front of the building until someone came, she hurriedly hid behind the green belt, silently watching An Huaixu being taken to the hospital, her nails digging deep into her palms.

As long as no one mentions it, no one will know that she is here, and An Huaixu will not let her recall the unhappiness in the past, and she can still pay attention to An Huaixu's life from a distance.

A week later, when An Huaixu was discharged from the hospital and went home, Xu Zhongxuan came to visit more frequently than before. Occasionally, she would see An Huaixu's parents wandering outside the residence, but they never stepped inside.

After coming here for so long, she found that An Huaixu almost never went home, and never met her parents.

Time passed day by day, and gradually, she could see An Huaixu jogging along the trail beside Moon Lake from her terrace.

In late autumn, under the dead branches and leaves by the river, An Huaixu's cheeks were glowing with a healthy pink, and her eyes became as bright and lively as when she first met An Huaixu.

Maybe everything is getting better, she thought.

It wasn't until the spring and summer of the next year that she saw An Huaixu's growing belly that she knew that a new life was about to come into this world.

She was both happy and a little nervous.

She thanked this upcoming new life for giving An Huaixu the courage to continue living, but she was also worried that An Huaixu would have a hard life with the child alone.

In December, on the day the child was born, she carefully hid in the stairwell outside the obstetrics department, and heard An Huaixu's family say that it was a little boy.

It's nice that a boy grows up to protect his mom.

In the middle of the night, the ward became quiet, and Lin Yucen waited for the visiting relatives to leave before walking lightly outside the ward.

An Huaixu seemed to have fallen asleep lying on the hospital bed, his face was a little pale, and there was a faint smile on his mouth.

Xu Zhongxuan and her wife Meng Qiu sat on the sofa and played with the baby in the crib.

"Look at Zhongxuan, he is holding my hand."

"Ah."

"His hands are so small and soft."

Xu Zhongxuan spoke in a very low voice, afraid of waking up the soundly sleeping baby.Suddenly she turned her head sideways as if feeling something, and saw Lin Yucen standing outside the door.

Lin Yucen didn't have time to dodge, the eyes of the two met in the air, Xu Zhongxuan glanced at An Huaixu who was tired and asleep on the hospital bed, shook Meng Qiu's hand, and said, "You stay here with Huaixu, I'll go out for a while. "

Xu Zhongxuan's eyes were slightly cold, and he blocked the crack of the door, "What's the matter?"

Lin Yucen took a step back, remained silent for a moment, and said in a low voice, "I'll come and see her."

"she's fine."

Lin Yucen nodded, and tentatively asked without hope: "Can I take a look at the child?"

The two stood opposite each other for two seconds, Xu Zhongxuan walked back to the room in silence, carefully picked up the child with the help of Meng Qiu, and walked to the corridor.

Lin Yucen always thought that most newborn babies would not be good-looking, but the child Xu Zhongxuan held in his arms had a smooth face, smooth and white skin, especially handsome eyebrows, much like Lu Linzhong.

Xu Zhongxuan raised his eyes and glanced at Lin Yucen. Lin Yucen looked at the child, his eyes were like the gentle wind blowing across the valley and pushing away the thousand layers of green waves, and like the white mist rising from the lake on a moonlit night. Such a cute little life is indeed the easiest Touch the soft corners of the heart.

"Do you want to hug him?" Xu Zhongxuan asked.

Lin Yucen's eyes lit up, and he asked incredulously, "Can I?"

Xu Zhongxuan nodded, Lin Yucen took the child carefully, and held it in her arms. Through layers of cloth and swaddling clothes, she seemed to be able to feel the rhythm of life in this small body, as well as the low and shallow breathing.

The baby's body was extremely soft, and Lin Yucen felt like holding a handful of snow in his hands, afraid that it would melt away accidentally.

"Did he have a name?"

"Well, the one who started Huai Xu's name is Lu Yu'an."

The child's surname is Lu.

Lin Yucen silently called the child's name several times in his heart, and said lightly: "It looks like Mr. Lu."

"Well, it's Lin Zhong's child."

Lin Yucen hugged Lu Yu'an slightly stiff, feeling a sense of relief and sadness for a moment, if Lu Linzhong was still there, he would be very happy to see Lu Yu'an, but Lu Linzhong couldn't see this child who was in her blood up.

Lin Yucen reluctantly returned the child to Xu Zhongxuan, and walked out of the hospital alone.

The sky was particularly dark that night, she walked not far along the street, and the sky slowly began to snowflakes.

This is the first snowfall under the city of Jin this winter, Lu Yu'an's handsome and peaceful sleeping face came to her mind, and she suddenly felt that this snow was also welcoming this lovely new life.

She walked to the door of a maternity and baby products store, and walked in with her feet recalcitrant.

There are many cute little clothes, little socks, and toys of various colors on the shelves.

The clerk was a very friendly middle-aged woman. She looked her up and down and asked with a smile, "What kind of gift do you want to choose for your baby?"

Lin Yucen looked blankly at the dazzling array of shelves. She didn't know what to buy, and she didn't even know if the gift would have a chance to be delivered to Lu Yu'an's child.

"I haven't thought about it yet." Lin Yucen curled his lips peacefully.

"How old is the baby, I can recommend it to you."

"Just born, boy."

The clerk saw that she was wearing custom-made luxury products, so he guessed that the children of this family would not lack clothes, shoes and clothes, and led Lin Yucen to the back row: "Newborn babies don't need early education machines and educational toys, I recommend you to take a look at this A soothing toy."

"Its material is very soft and will not hurt the baby's delicate skin. A newborn baby is unfamiliar with the external environment, and he will be afraid to cry when he is not used to it."

The clerk picked up one of the pacifying toys and put it close to Lin Yucen's ear: "This pacifying toy will make a very soft sound when placed next to the baby, which is similar to the sound of the baby's amniotic fluid in the mother's womb, which can reduce the baby's anxiety."

Lin Yucen reached out and touched the plush fabric of the toy, selected a light beige one and handed it to the clerk.

"Is there anything else to recommend?"

"some."

After nearly an hour, Lin Yucen came out of the maternity and baby products store carrying all kinds of gift boxes.

The snow fell more and more heavily, covering her shoulders. She looked back at the hospital building from a distance, and walked silently to the parking lot.

Since then, whenever she is on a business trip, she always picks out one or two gifts that can be given to children, and even reserves a room for these things.

Three months, five months, one year old, two year old...

She knew that Lu Yu'an could already call "Mom" when he was less than one year old, learned to walk at one year and three months, and liked all kinds of car models the most.

She has seen the child's face several times from a distance. Although the outline of the eyebrows and eyes resembles Lu Linzhong, there is a boy's determination and handsomeness.

After Lu Yu'an was two years old, An Huaixu hired an aunt to take care of the child, and started busy with the work of the law firm step by step.

Occasionally, she would meet An Huaixu on the road and lead Lu Yuan for a walk along the lake. She watched the two of them from a distance, and occasionally could hear the child's childish voice talking to An Huaixu.

"Mom, when can I go to kindergarten?"

"Does Yu'an want to go?" An Huaixu squatted down and looked at Lu Yu'an at the same level. After becoming a mother, her whole demeanor has become gentle and diluted. She has grown long hair in the past two years, and her lips are still shallow when she smiles. pear vortex.

Lu Yu'an put his arms around An Huaixu's neck, printed a kiss on the left cheek, and in order to show fairness, he also kissed on the right cheek: "I'm gone, will mom miss me?"

The smile on the corners of An Huaixu's lips deepened, but it dissipated like smoke in an instant.

Lin Yucen thought, maybe An Huaixu remembered something at that moment just now, facing Lu Yu'an who was similar to Lu Linzhong in charm.

"Grandma Wang said that there are many children in the kindergarten." Grandma Wang is the aunt invited by An Huaixu.Lu Yu'an's soft hand touched An Huaixu's ear, "But I want to be with my mother."

An Huaixu smiled and patted his son's head: "Do you want to go?"

"Think about it a little bit." Lu Yu'an stretched out his hands to cover his face, and rubbed against An Huaixu weirdly, "Yu'an likes mother the most."

An Huaixu pinched his little face, "Yesterday Aunt Xu asked you if you want a younger brother or a younger sister, and you said you like the younger sister the most."

The child's clear eyes blinked, and in the next second he hugged An Huaixu tightly: "Because I know that Aunt Xu likes my sister."

An Huaixu kissed the child on the cheek, and led him for a walk.

Lin Yucen silently watched An Huaixu lead the child away, feeling a little turmoil in his heart. Lu Yu'an was a precocious and sensitive child. After he was born, An Huaixu talked a lot more than before.

She silently remembered that Lu Yuan wanted to go to kindergarten, bought a very handsome schoolbag when she returned to Shanghai, the time was so fast, the little soft babies she had hugged in the hospital corridor that day were all clamoring to go It's kindergarten.

One weekend, she was sitting in front of the building reading a book when a remote control car hit the stool leg of the lounge chair.

Lin Yucen looked around and bent down to pick up the toy.

Lu Yu'an's face was flushed and ran towards this side. When she saw her holding her toy, she stopped and looked at her eagerly and vigilantly with wide eyes.

Lin Yucen looked behind him anxiously, but An Huaixu did not follow.

She fixed her eyes on the little boy in front of her. He was a little taller than before, with pink make-up and jade, and his eyes surpassed the sparkling Moon Lake.

He stared at the remote control toy car in Lin Yucen's hand, and called out politely, "Hello, sister."

sister.

Lin Yucen immediately realized that the child was trying to make her happy and wanted to return the toy car in her hand. He is such a smart and lovely child.

"Is this yours?" Lin Yucen smiled, "I like toy cars too."

Lu Yu'an blinked his big eyes, thought for a while and handed the remote control to Lin Yucen: "Don't you have it? Then I'll give it to you. My mother said that she has something she likes and wants to share it with others."

Suddenly, Lin Yucen patted Lu Yu'an's head approvingly. An Huaixu taught Lu Yu'an well.

There was a soft smile on her lips: "I have a lot."

Lin Yucen pointed to the model placed in the glass window on the window sill, Lu Yuan opened his eyes wide, and let out a voice of envy from the bottom of his heart: "Wow!"

"Do you want to play together? I want to share with you what I like."

He stood there and looked at the door, but did not immediately agree to Lin Yucen's invitation.

Lin Yucen opened the door and took down the model that had been placed for a long time. Even though the house was cleaned every once in a while, there was still a light layer of dust on it.

"Let's just play on the grass."

"Okay." The child's laughter and smile were clean and pure, and Lin Yucen was infected with it unconsciously.

The sun shone on Lu Yu'an's white, tender and even face, thin beads of sweat leaked from his hairline, and when he smiled, his lips were red and his teeth were white and handsome.

"Yuan? Yuan?"

An Huaixu's voice came from afar, Lu Yu'an stood up, said with a smile, "Sister, it's my mother who came to look for me!"

"mom!"

The boy took short legs and ran away following the sound.

Lin Yucen glanced at Lu Yu'an's figure affectionately, and quickly hid behind the door in the house, she heard her heartbeat repeating again and again.

There was only a finger gap between the door, and she saw Lu Yu'an dragging An Huaixu to the lawn in front of the building.

"Yu'an, why did you sneak out without telling mom?" An Huaixu frowned slightly, but couldn't bear to scold the child harshly.

"Because I don't want to disturb my mother's sleep." Lu Yuan tugged at An Huaixu's hand, "Mom, I'm playing with a sister here."

Lu Yu'an turned around and found that the figure on the lawn had disappeared. He looked around and said, "Huh? Why is it gone?"

Premonitioning that An Huaixu might be looking in this direction, Lin Yucen withdrew his gaze and leaned against the wall tightly. The distance between them was only ten meters, but it seemed that they were the closest in the past two years.

A gust of wind blew by, and hugged An Huaixu with the faint fragrance of her body.

"Yu'an." An Huaixu knelt down, wiped off the sweat stains on his head with a tissue, and said softly, "I'll be very worried if you run out like this."

Lu Yu'an might not quite understand what worry is, but he just felt that his mother was suddenly unhappy today, so he kissed An Huaixu's cheek: "Mom hug."

An Huaixu picked up his son with some difficulty, "When mom gets old, she won't be able to hold you anymore."

"Will Mommy grow old?"

An Huaixu smiled calmly, "Of course."

Lu Yu'an put his arms around An Huaixu's neck, and looked at her puzzled: "Then why did mom say that my mommy won't grow old?"

An Huaixu stopped in place, speechless for a long time.

Lin Yucen felt a stabbing pain in his heart, that person's life was always in the best years.

She knew that their residence was full of photos of Lu Linzhong, she didn't know how An Huaixu mentioned Lu Linzhong to Lu Yu'an, and she didn't dare to imagine how happy and sad An Huaixu was every time he mentioned Lu Linzhong.

She heard An Huaixu's low tone and trembling voice, "Yu'an, let's go home."

Lin Yucen watched An Huaixu disappear at the end of the road with the child in her arms, she thought, maybe in this life she would never take steps to catch up, but would just be the invisible shadow behind her.

The author has something to say: The author really has something to say this time.

I haven't finished writing yet, why are they all crying. (bald head)

Two things to say, 1. Take the reassurance pill, He, Lu Linzhong, a bad woman, I will give her the most perfect ending, I will not spoil much, and I will write a lot of words in the postscript.

2. I'm going out this week, so I'll take a few days off.