man with long hair

When I came out of the teahouse that afternoon, I accidentally turned to the moat, and found several police cars and a 120 parked on the side of the road.I didn't want to join in the fun, but I don't know who whispered something in my ear.

"At such a young age, he jumped into a river and committed suicide because of love. Why do young people nowadays not cherish their lives so much?"

In a daze, I turned my face to the place surrounded by a group of people by the river. There was a doctor squatting beside him for first aid, and a policeman was anxiously yelling to wake up.Although I couldn't see the face of that person lying on the ground, my whole body seemed to be possessed by someone's soul.Sadness hit immediately, and tears fell suddenly.

No longer in the mood to go to work, I hurried home by car and locked myself in the bedroom.

Lovesick?So stupid so stupid.

In the dark quilt, I hugged my shoulder and wept bitterly.The place he touched was not without heat.In the deepest part of my heart, it's not that I don't want to miss it, it's just that I have no right to miss it now.

In the past, all the colleagues around me felt that I didn’t really love him, I just valued his power and status. At the moment he broke up with me, I also felt that I should be for his money, for his Status accepted the 10 yuan he offered.Even though in the end I had nothing left to spend in several bars in this city, I was happy in my heart, I felt that I would go to be happy with his money, and drink happily, and everyone broke up , It's okay for everyone to be well.

My fucking four years are just for two months of fun for his 10 yuan. "Woooo, I didn't love him, woooo..." None of them said anything wrong, I just went for his status. "It's just...just" I told myself, "It's just that I saw someone jumping into the river, and I felt uncomfortable. I couldn't take it anymore, so I cried so sadly."

I can't remember how I cried myself to sleep that night.I only know that when I woke up at five o'clock the next morning, my eyes felt very uncomfortable, and I struggled to get out of bed and turn on the light in the bedroom.When I walked in front of the mirror, I was really taken aback.

"Oh my God, there's still filming going on today." With my eyes red and swollen, I rushed to the freezer, just as my hands were tortured by the ice and lost strength.A pair of eyes are still not much swollen.

At seven o'clock in the morning, I had no choice but to call the company and ask for a three-day leave for an extremely serious reason.Pushed away all my work arrangements for the day.It's not that I don't want to work, it's because I can't see such eyes even if I go to the company.

As a matter of course, those colleagues and superiors who I called early in the morning and pushed off the schedule scolded me all over.In addition to my promise to return to the company to double the work progress and compensation.There really is no other way to egg.

And when I was wearing a long spring outfit and a pair of retro glasses and walking on the campus boulevard of University A in this city, it was really just to relax, not to see my long-lost younger brother.

On the roads on the left and right sides, there are couples of campus couples coming and going, clinging to each other, I'm really envious.I envy...their youth and vigor.

When I was intoxicated in this campus style, suddenly a person rushed out from behind me and hit my elbow directly, and something in my arms just fell to the ground with a clatter.Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of a young boy about my height.Stronger than me.This bump really hit my nerves.Also I am quite uncomfortable.

Maybe he who squatted down to pick up things, saw that I didn't help him pick up things together, but stuck there like a wooden stake, raised his face and yelled at me angrily: "You How do people walk?"

I was thinking hard, I didn't think that he rushed out from behind and bumped into me, so I just said "I'm sorry!"

He probably didn't expect me to apologize so directly, so he stared straight at me, so he suddenly froze.

"I'll pick it up for you." I pinched my clothes with one hand, and picked up the materials he had buried in the ground with the other and put them in his arms.

Xiao Xiao, in an extra-curricular reading material, there are these two words written.I guess it's his name.Putting the things on the ground into his hands one by one, I looked at him.In that glance, I saw a flash of inquiry and uncertainty in his eyes, probably a trace of confusion about my gender.

A gust of spring breeze blew, and because of the proximity, my long hair immediately covered his face.I stretched out my hand and scooped them up somewhat embarrassingly.I added another sentence: "Sorry!" I sincerely apologize for this sentence. As a man, I know that being overly touched by any body of another strange man will feel disgusting.Even if it wasn't my intention just now.

Seeing the embarrassment on his face, I smiled at him and stood up slowly.I was really thinking in my heart, it's good to be young, even in such a close situation, his skin is so good.What can I say other than envious?

Such a heroic young man can already predict that he will be the killer of young girls and young women in the future.

Then he stood up, glanced at me from time to time and then turned away. The immature he cleared his throat a little bit maturely, "Didn't hit you?" He pointed his eyes at my arm that was hit .

I smiled at him, "It's okay!"

He tightened his slightly handsome eyebrows, and absently replied "Oh".

"Goodbye!" After waving with him, I was no longer in the mood to be intoxicated, and turned around and went straight to the basketball court of University A.

Seeing the stadium from a distance, I, who have always been more confident in my eyesight, didn't even see Qin Qi's figure, there were a few sharp-eyed girls screaming and looking at me, and then Qi Qi turned his face to the same place to face a person Roared: "Qin Qi, your sister is here!"

I followed where they looked, and I saw Qin Qi, who was wearing a black sportswear, spray out a mouthful of mineral water far away, making my eyes fierce and those girls turning back and forth fiercely.In fact, I know that my younger brother doesn't want me to come to his school to find him. He always thinks that an artist like me is a little out of order.In his words, "You don't think it's embarrassing for you to be ashamed of me if you dress so unmasculine or feminine."

It's a pity that I am the kind of person he said that I am not afraid of shame, so even if he doesn't like it, I will still come to his school to find him if I want to.

A few girls rushed to surround me before Qin Qi, jokingly called Sister Qin, and at the same time clasped my shoulders and joked very unpretentiously.

For this group of little girls, I tend to be more gentlemanly. It's not that I have any unreasonable thoughts about them, but that they are all about the same size as Qin Qi, and I regard them as my sisters.I also know that when I come back to their school, Qin Qi is not the only one who doesn't like me, there are many boys in their school.Just look at them playing basketball and know how to flirt with me occasionally.

"Sister, you haven't come to see Qin Qi for a long time, we all miss you so much." There was a fat girl in my arms like a little bird.

"I……"

As soon as I opened my mouth, I felt a strong wind coming towards me, and I was stunned to tear away the girls who were clinging to me, and dragged me far away.You don't need to use your brain to know who it is. "Using this hand all the time, it really hurts me."

Seeing Qin Qi turn his face away, I motioned to him and still held my hand.

"Hmph!" He shook his finger and pointed at me angrily and said, "How many times have I told you that they are already married? If you want to mess around, I won't stop you. I just hope you don't come to our school to look for them." .”

Seeing that he was still talking nonsense, I hurriedly raised my hands to him as a gesture of surrender and said, "I've told you many times, I really didn't offend anyone." Obviously I was wronged when I answered back.

It may be that he saw the red mark on my wrist that he grabbed, and he lowered his voice a little bit embarrassedly and said: "I have warned you many times, and I don't hope there will be a next time."

"I don't want to explain it again."

"Then don't come!"

"..."

Maybe seeing that I didn't refute, he also felt that the tone was too strong, so he calmed down and said: "I can go to you, as long as I have time, I will definitely go to you, okay?"

It wasn't until this moment that I really understood how much he hated me coming to him.Every time he said it in the past, I always thought he was joking with me, even if it was serious, I thought it was mostly a joke.

Seeing that I have been looking at him with no expression and didn't speak, he looked a little flustered on his face, but he collapsed as much as possible.

I hooked the corners of my mouth to him: "This is also my alma mater." After I finished speaking, I turned around and left.

I heard him call my brother in a low voice behind me, and the girl beside me was still jokingly calling me sister. At this moment, I really wanted to slap Qin Qi in the face and say that.Why should you decide whether I should come or not?I won't look for you next time.

In front of the building farthest from the basketball court, I found a stone step and sat down. In fact, over the years, I guess Qin Qi hated me so much because he knew that I like men.It's just that if he doesn't say it and I don't say it, everyone is pretending to be stupid.You know it, I thought, it's not such a big deal, or so it seems to me.

People should live magnanimously. It doesn't matter whether you think I'm ashamed or not. I don't hide it from you on purpose, and I don't tell you on purpose.But if you ask, I'll tell.

"Hey!"

Just when I was engrossed in my thoughts, a somewhat familiar voice appeared not far away. I raised my face to see, wasn't it the little brother who bumped into me before?