man with long hair

With a thin layer of glass between my eyes, I couldn't quite see the expression on the face of this little brother who was only three or two meters away from me.

"Are you crying?" he asked me.

I sniffed and took off my glasses, wiped my eyes and said, "The wind is so strong that it froze me."

He looked up at the sunlight shining through the cracks in the trees, changed the subject and asked, "Just now? Are you really all right?"

I put my glasses back on to look at him.

"I mean, the thing that bumped into you."

He was wearing a pair of black and white sweatpants.A pair of white sneakers made his legs look particularly long.While I was looking at him, he had already stepped up two steps and sat in front of me. "It's okay, I'm so big, I don't like to be so casual."

"Hehe, such a big man." While repeating what I said, he rested his right hand on his leg and supported his chin, looking forward casually.

Only then did I realize that he was wearing the same sportswear as Qin Qi.

"How old are you?"

"Huh?" Suddenly, his slender fingers flicked on his face one by one like playing a piano: "Anyway, I will be an intern next year."

"Really? That's similar to Qin Qi." I unconsciously stared at his hand and muttered.

He had just finished speaking when he turned around suddenly and pointed at me.I thought I was embarrassed when he caught me staring at his fingers and pointing.I saw him quickly reach out and take off my glasses, put them on his eyes and said for a while, "Damn, it turned out to be an ornament."

"..."

Seriously, it freaked me out.

At the entrance of the sports hall in the distance, someone is playing badminton.I remember that many years ago, I also sat in this position, just to watch a senior I admire played there with several beautiful seniors.Now after so many years, the obsession with the senior has long since disappeared, leaving only memories of the time when I liked him.

It will pass, everything will pass.I so comfort myself.

"By the way." As if he just remembered it suddenly, he turned around while playing with my glasses, "My name is Xiao Xiao, what about you? What's your name? Are you the teacher here?"

Seeing him looking at me with the look of not believing that I am a teacher, I looked a little angry: "I have made up my mind since I was a child, and I must be a teacher when I grow up. Although I have no choice but to teach others. I still have some." I proudly puffed up my chest, "In the place where I work, people always call me Mr. Qin."

"Teacher Qin?" Xiao Xiao approached and asked with an expression that seemed neither teasing nor suspicious, "Then what is Teacher Qin's full name?"

Although I can't say that I am wary of such a child, but the intuition he gave me at a certain moment is the feeling of staying away from danger, which I can't explain.Therefore, I stood up and snatched my glasses from his straight nose bridge, replied: "Qin Meiren" and waved to him and left.

"Beauty Qin? Pfft! Hahahahaha!"

Until I walked a long way, I could still hear his insolent laughter, but I ignored him, but put on my retro glasses again and walked towards the school gate.

Qin Meiren This is an official website made by the company for me.There are all my photographed works and the works I participated in being photographed. The website is specially managed by someone. If there are too many fans or not, I still need someone to help me maintain them, and I just occasionally have to take a look at them when I am free.

When I got home, I lay on the bed thinking about it. I felt uncomfortable after using up one day of the three-day vacation. How will I spend the next two days? Besides, I have to work overtime when I return to the company. "Ah! I can't bear to think about it."

Turning over and getting up, I opened the company's WeChat group on my phone, and found that Xiao Zhou was happily throwing flowers, saying that he would be on vacation tomorrow.With a thought, I immediately sent him a private message.

'Have you completed the Women's Day arranged by the company? '

The day before yesterday, he was still grabbing my sleeve and asking me to help. I couldn't believe that he could finish it so quickly after two days of absence from the company?

'Master, master, where has your old man been these two days?Without you supporting me in the company, I would not be at ease. '

I shook my feet impatiently. 'Don't be poor, are you done yet?send it to me. '

As I expected, a tearful emoji immediately appeared on the screen.

I twitched my fingers on the keyboard of the phone and wrote, 'The tasks assigned to you by the company have not been completed yet, can you have fun tomorrow? '

'unhappy. '

'In this case, tomorrow you go to the company to help me carry all my equipment on my back, and we will go to the countryside to collect folk songs. '

Seeing that he didn't respond, I quickly added something, 'By the way, help you complete the task. '

Then, my mobile phone frantically came in a bunch of emoticons sent by him like a cramp. I had no choice but to log out of WeChat.Instead of using information, I sent him a message about where to meet at what time.

At this moment, I threw away my phone, lay on the bed and stared at the ceiling, feeling that my life was really empty to the point of panic, as if I couldn't find anything else to do except work.

The moment I knew Gao Zhen got married, I really didn’t blame him at all. His family has such a big career in his hands. If he really left him with no successor, I guess his parents will not rest in peace until they die. .And, all my life, I'll have a bad conscience for him.If I say I don't blame him, it's not justified, after all, he was the one who provoked me first.

After all, the person I blame the most is myself. Whoever calls me is a fucking fellow. If I can find a woman to live a normal life like most people in this society, I believe I am not as poor as many of them. Difference.It's also my fault, it's my fault that I didn't have this life.

Marriage, three or four years ago, I would really scoff at this word.When I was 28 years old and everyone around me was living a peaceful life, I was also a little panicked. Did I just follow my own heart like this?Or do you not follow your own heart and get married like the public?Although I may not fall in love with any woman, but like... I can give but dare not.It is torture for any woman to marry a man like me.Even if I could be husband and wife to her, maybe I could still be faithful to her, but I couldn't give her love, which would be a disaster for all women.So what should I do?

Looking at the wall, I took a group of photos with the theme of sunshine three years ago. At that time, I smiled so sincerely, but I never thought that I would be so sad when I sat here three years later.