Yuque Qiu

After winter, Jiangnan is also chilly. However, Lianfu, which was so deserted that it made people tremble, became more popular because of a certain person's frequent walking.

Even the indifferent and aloof master showed some expressions that he didn't usually see from time to time, and sometimes the voice of embarrassment and anger escaped from the small window of the study.

"Li Yongshan! You are going to die!"

Sometimes it's a shy blush that hasn't had time to subside, spreading lightly on his fair skin, from the cheeks to the neck, and the embarrassment he's trying to hide in a panic makes this young but mature young man look a little older Just the way it should be.

Liu Qi watched these changes slowly manifest in Lian Yulou's body. He didn't know before, and he always thought that what a person looks like will always be like this in the future, until that year when he accidentally appeared on the street. I saw Hefeng and Qiran who had been renamed Lianer and Liansan on the Internet. They had already washed away the dusty smell of the past. One was elegant and casual, the other was handsome and suave. After being redeemed by Lian Yulou, the two had nothing to do but lived a good life. They learned to do business with Lian Yulou and took charge of the Buzhuang branch. They were very happy and envious at the same time.

It turns out that even if one's background is not good, one can work hard with one's own hands. No matter how humble one's original status is, one day one can become a master...

Intertwined with the envy and jealousy in my heart are the ridicule and jokes of that person.

"Look, this is said to be the red card of Tianxiang Pavilion, who of you is interested in trying it?"

"Master Rabbit, tell us, if the man wants to have sex with you, where will he get in?"

At that time, his face was already ruined. Those humiliating words and the scars left on his body during the torture filled his heart with hatred for that man.

Because of him, I ruined my life, but also because of him, I had the perseverance and courage to ask Lian Yulou to take me in, and then I faced a completely different new life.

He felt that he should only have hatred for Yan Yuque, because of this strong hatred, it took him so long to set up a situation, so that Yan Yuque, who hated men and had humiliated him, could only have lust for him , let the originally indifferent person lose everything for a child who has nothing to do with him...

I thought that after the revenge succeeded, my heart would be filled with joy, but now I just feel that my heart is very empty. He came to Lian Yulou to start a new life. This new life started with revenge, but now, He has achieved his goal, but he doesn't know how to continue this long life in the future...

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"Master, these are the property deeds of the Yan Mansion and the transfer letter of the Yan family's cloth village in the capital..."

It was just a few pieces of paper, but when Liu Qi held it in her arms, she felt that the box was very heavy and heavy, as if it contained more than just those few pieces of paper, and the night Yan Yuque stayed in her mind flashed again. The look he gave himself, even if he was treated like that, his face did not show the anger and shame after being humiliated. In the look he cast, apart from contempt, there seemed to be some sympathy...

Can't figure out what qualifications he has to sympathize with himself in that situation?Obviously he is the miserable one, without power and status, without family property and business, even the biological son he thought was lost and recovered is not his at all, he has nothing, no different from a commoner.

No, maybe it will be harder.

Suddenly falling from the high place of being flattered and served to the bottom, such an injury may never recover in a lifetime.

Lian Yulou's body was a little frail, and such a bit of intrusive chill had already shrunk into the thick jacket, as if it wasn't enough, and curled up slightly.His expression is a bit lazy, with delicate facial features, slightly frowning and pursed lips, if one doesn't know the true temperament of this person, one can't help but feel a little pity.

I haven't made a careful comparison in the past. After staying by Yan Yuque's side for a long time, and looking at Lian Yulou again, I found that blood relationship is really magical. Personality is so similar, even the reaction of being stepped on the painful place is so similar, but one facial features is more refined, the other is more mature and tough, one is hiding the inferiority and weakness of the past under the surface indifference and arrogance, and the other One hides guilt and regret for the past under the superficial inhumanity.

Liu Qi couldn't help but have the same thoughts as Yan Yuque...

If Lian Yulou hadn't encountered those things back then, and hadn't been sent back to Lin'an's mother's house... what kind of life would the two of them be living now?

Probably looking fascinated by Lian Yulou's face, Lian Yulou tilted his head, showing doubts, "Is there something on my face?"

Liu Qi came back to her senses, realized her impoliteness, and hurriedly replied respectfully: "No, no."

Lian Yulou fixed his gaze on the wooden box containing the title deed, reached out his hand from the sleeve trimmed with fluffy animal hair, picked up the topmost piece of paper in the box, and looked at it casually. , for a moment, looked back at Liu Qi, "After knowing the truth, how did he react?"

Liu Qi thought for a while, "Master Hui, he was shocked and wanted to argue with me, but he was beaten up by the shop assistant and kicked out, and then he was humiliated in the street by the former enemy..."

Hearing this, Liu Qi saw Lian Yulou's lips curled up slightly, "And then?" as if suddenly thinking of something, "By the way, why didn't I see Doudou? You didn't bring him back?"

Liu Qi said, "Doudou was taken away by Yan Yuque..."

Lian Yulou's eyes froze, "Take it away?"

"Yes, I took it away..." Liu Qi repeated the previous answer.

After a long period of time, even Yulou fell into a deep silence. I don't know what he was thinking, but Liu Qi could more or less guess it.

Doudou is not Yan Yuque's biological son, but Yan Yuque took Doudou away after knowing the truth.

"Doudou is like my conscience..."

Now, maybe Yan Yuque and Lian Yulou understand clearly in their hearts that this is not a question of who is right and who is wrong, and Yan Yuque, who was still kept in the dark at the time, can continue to use the methods in the past to get Doudou and Don't lose everything you have, but if you continue to fight with me, maybe it won't end until you die.

So at that moment, Yan Yuque chose to give up, let go of everything he had, and regained his conscience, or maybe he regained not only his conscience, but also his guilt and regret, and his apology for Lian Yulou. Doudou is like a sustenance, which somewhat makes up for past mistakes in his heart.

"Master..." Liu Qi called softly, "Knowing his current fate, will you feel better?"

After asking this question, I saw Lian Yulou's face was in a daze, and his eyes fell on the house deed again, but it was as if he was looking at something that did not belong to him. When they arrived in the wooden box, Lian Yulou didn't answer him, but said: "You go out first."

Liu Qi still wanted to say something, but her words stopped when she reached her mouth, and she leaned forward and slowly left the study.

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When I laid out the situation back then, I was full of anticipation in my heart. When I lay on the bed countless nights, I was immersed in Yan Yuque step by step into the trap, fell into the trap I set up, and the moment when the truth finally came to light. Here, although I couldn't guess how Yan Yuque would react at that time, as long as I thought of the downcast appearance of this selfish and arrogant person, I couldn't wait for that moment to come.

But really, when everything went according to what I thought, the original joy had long since disappeared, and a trace of indescribable emotion fell in my heart instead.

"Luqi..."

Hearing the voice and turning around, it turned out to be Lian Er, and after a glance not far away, he saw that stupid piece of wood standing there, probably because Lian Er didn't want him to come over and disturb their conversation, so he could only wait at the nearest place. Fang Fang looked at this side, like a stupid dog who was only waiting for his master not to let him out of his sight.

So he laughed and said, "Why are you willing to leave that stupid piece of wood behind and come over to talk to me? I'm worried that I'll be knocked out by that stupid piece of wood and thrown into the moat when no one is around."

"He, he just dares to turn around and act coquettishly and wag his tail in front of me to pretend to be pitiful." His tone was full of happiness, but he quickly restrained himself, replaced by a bit of worry, and stretched out his hand to brush the scar on Liu Qi's face, "Why? I don't think you're happy when you come back?"

Liu Qi shook her head, turned around and looked at the lonely lotus pond, "I don't know, I thought I would be so happy to see Yan Yuque's end, but now, I'm worried , where did he take Doudou with the few silver taels left? I don’t know if he is doing well?... I don’t know what happened to me. He is my enemy, the enemy of our Lord, but My hatred for him doesn't seem to be as strong as it was in those years, I don't know if it's because time has faded, or because I know that he has always been guilty..."

Closing his eyes, the images of those two years together in the Silk Brocade Court flashed through his mind from time to time, as well as those days after the truth was revealed, and the encounter at Cheng's Zhifang many years ago...

"When we first met, I didn't know what kind of person he was. I only knew that he tortured me, humiliated me, and even left scars on my face. I thought he was heinous and wanted him to pay the price. , Later, when I came to his side and got along with him, I felt that he was actually not as bad as I thought. He always regretted what he did in the past, and he also had a kind and gentle side deep in his heart..."

Lian Er showed a doting and distressed expression, "Fool, I reminded you at that time not to sink into it, but in the end you still couldn't help but lose yourself first..."

Liu Qi was taken aback, "Sink?"

Lian Er said: "Isn't it?" As he said, he stretched out his hand to Liu Qi's heart and pressed it there, "You ask yourself, at this moment, what is missing and empty here? What is it? For whom?"

Liu Qi closed her eyes and fell silent, her heart was throbbing with pain. Perhaps in this world, no one knew that person better than herself. Although he was wrong, he was sorry to many people, but he did it with his own hands. Deprived him of everything, or used the conscience that he gave up and saved.

Now, he and Yan Yuque had the same idea.

If it wasn't for what they did back then... then what would happen to the two of them now?

Perhaps once such an idea came up, it represented his regret, but in fact, when he led Yan Yuque into the game step by step, he had already stepped into the game first.

It was laid out for Yan Yuque, and it was also set up for himself.

The play has been played for a long time, and the acting is so real that... even I believe it is true.

Now both of them are deeply trapped in that situation, and neither of them can escape, nor can they escape.

"Second Brother Lian, what should I do?" Liu Qi showed a trace of confusion on his face. He really didn't know what he should do in the future, as if he had returned to those days in Tianxiang Pavilion, with no hope in sight. The road ahead is a fog, and we can only live in confusion.

Lian Er smiled and said softly: "Do as you want, I don't want to hear someone say to me many years later, 'If that year...'."

Lucy was taken aback for a moment. "But sometimes, I would have such a thought in my mind... If I asked Dad to keep Yulou in that year..."

So Yan Yuque chose to leave with Doudou...

What about yourself?

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Xiangquan County, Jeju is a very ordinary small town, with hundreds of households and less than a thousand people, but the life is stable and peaceful.

A few months ago, a few foreigners came to the town. After settling here, they opened a small cloth shop. They sold all kinds of exquisite fabrics, and sold some special fabrics from various places, which attracted the interest of many young women in the town.

The shopkeeper of the store is a young man of about 27 or [-] years old. He looks handsome and capable in doing things, but his expression is often cold, which makes people not dare to approach him. Even so, he has attracted the attention of many young women who quietly asked the matchmaker The background of the shopkeeper, but seeing that there is a big baby beside the shopkeeper, those girls are all discouraged.

He and Yan An are the only ones in charge of the store, and we can't leave everything to the shop assistants like before. Yan Yuque tidied up the cloth on the shelf and was about to go to the inner hall to pick up the new cloth. The curtain of the inner hall was pulled open at once, Yan An rushed out from inside and bumped into Yan Yuque.

Yan Yuque frowned, "What are you doing in such a panic?"

"Yes, I'm sorry, sir..." Yan An looked up, but his eyes were looking around, "I'm looking for Doudou... The little devil disappeared when I wasn't paying attention..."

As soon as Yan An finished speaking, he heard a childish voice behind Yan Yuque.

"Sister, you are so beautiful, it looks best with this piece of fabric."

"Little brother, you can really talk."

"I'm not good at talking. Children only tell the truth. If they lie, they will be picked up by wolves when they sleep at night."

Yan Yuque turned around and saw that Doudou had slipped to the front of the cabinet at some point, and because of her small stature, she was standing on a chair and was skillfully making calculations.

"Suzhou curtain satin is one or two dollars, Quanzhou plain yarn is one or two or three dollars, and Tongxiang flower silk... the total is four or two dollars. You can count it as four or two dollars. I will give you some Suzhou Song brocade tailings to make a Purses, purses, and the like are beautiful.”

"Little brother, you really know how to do business."

Yan Yuque's forehead twitched twice, and Doudou had already paid the bill, collected the money, packed the fabric and sent the guest away.

"Sister, please introduce a few more people next time, and I will give you a whole piece of Song brocade as a wedding dress~"

Yan Yuque walked over, "Where do we get so many Song Jins to give away?"

Doudou waved his hand, looking old-fashioned, "You can just take a piece of brocade. Anyway, people here have shallow eyesight, and I probably haven't seen the real Song brocade..." Saying this, he suddenly realized something was wrong, and quickly shrugged his shoulders and held it with his hands. Covering his mouth, he turned around with a flattering smile after a while, "Father, don't I want to share with you..."

Yan Yuque raised the cloth resting on the cloth and tried to beat him, "What time is it? Don't you go to school yet? If my husband comes to complain again this month, I will punish you and ban you from entering the front shop for half a year!"

"Ah, half a year..." Doudou wailed, jumped off the stool with a bitter face, walked towards Yan An with his head down, and was dragged into the back hall by Yan An , turned around and looked at Yan Yuque eagerly, "Is it okay to only punish for one month?"

"No, okay!" Yan Yuque refused sternly.

"Three months?" Doudou still didn't give up, trying to continue bargaining.

"If you keep talking, I will send you back to the capital!"

Doudou didn't dare to say anything this time, and ran away like a rabbit.

Yan Yuque took a deep breath and continued to sort out the fabrics in the shop.

Although he opened a cloth shop here, the money in his hands could not be transferred for two weeks, and life was still a bit tight, especially on the day when he left the capital, Doudou was overly frightened and caught a cold, and developed a high fever after going on the road. He was a little delirious here, and kept crying to tell Yan Yuque not to leave him.

Yan Yuque ran around the town holding him for a long time before finding the doctor the locals pointed out. He knocked on the door in the middle of the night. When the doctor saw that the children were sick, he let them in without saying a word. Fang Zi asked his wife to help boil the medicine, tossing and tossing until dawn, and the heat of Doudou was under control. When Yan Yuque wanted to give him a consultation fee, the other party refused to accept it, saying that no matter whose child had an accident , everyone will lend a helping hand like him, and a few simple words made Yan Yuque feel a warm current in his heart.

In an instant, he somewhat understood Liu Qi's feelings when he met him in Cheng's Weaving Workshop that year.

It turns out that when a person is in trouble, as long as a little favor is enough to be remembered for a lifetime.

Then he settled down in this town and lived a quiet and slow life, but with Doudou's company, it was not so boring.

After the shock of knowing the truth passed, I realized that blood relationship is really not that important anymore. Doudou is so smart and cute, and I have already determined from the bottom of my heart that he is my son, but now, I have nothing. However, Doudou is still willing to follow her. This father-son relationship is not inferior to others at all.

An ordinary life, not many customers, Yan Yuque has more free time, the business of the shop has not been on the right track, Yan Yuque sits in the shop in his spare time, flipping through books, studying patterns Or make up the flower book by yourself, but I have never done this kind of thing before, and the flower book I made often makes Doudou laugh for a long time.

I was not used to this kind of life at first, but I lived it, but I also felt that this kind of life was also very good, quiet and casual, like a slowly flowing river, even my mood gradually changed, and my heart was restless and ups and downs Those things have all settled down bit by bit...

It was like staying beside Liu Qi at that time and watching his edited book with a serious expression. Time passed slowly, but many things settled around the two of them...

It's just that I didn't pay attention at that time, but now I think about it, but I can't catch it anymore.

Yan Yuque would think from time to time—how is Liu Qi doing now?

He has achieved his goal and got what he wanted, will he be happier and satisfied?Will you still show that lonely expression when you are absent-minded?

Most of the time in this life, I have been thinking about myself, protecting my family business, and maintaining my official career, but now, I often think about other people's affairs, or the affairs of the person who caused me to become so downcast .

When leaving the capital, Yan An asked himself cautiously.

"Master, do you hate Mr. Liu...ah, no... that Lianwu? He treats you like this, why don't you fight back like you used to?"

At that time, Doudou was sleeping soundly with her head resting on his legs, with tears on her face that had not been wiped clean, her little mouth was pouted, and she muttered a few words in her sleep from time to time, looking pitiful and cute.

I don't know why, I obviously lost everything because of this child, but my heart is still full at this moment, only one place is still empty, and it hurts when I touch it.

How he answered Yan An at that time, Yan Yuque couldn't remember clearly, or even he himself didn't know whether he hated that person or something else.

But now that the days have calmed down, he found that his heart is also slowly sedimenting like the years around him.There is no hatred, but there is a feeling similar to loss.

It's as if Yan An couldn't change his words all the time, and always wanted to call that person "Mr. Liu", whether it was Liu Qi from Silk Brocade Academy, Liu Qi who was hurt by him back then, or Lian Wu who worked for Lian Yulou. One can't be erased in my heart.

Not only because of what Liu Qi did to him, he couldn't have lust for women or even other people in his life. In fact, the impression of this person was already engraved in his heart long before that.

He always remembered that handsome and gentle young man back then, who confidently handed the flower copy of the dress he was wearing in front of him.

The sun fell on him, so dazzling, so warm, and the whole person was covered with a gentle light. Although it was only for a moment, Yan Yuque still remembered that at that time, his cold heart was beating hot and almost broke. Jumped out of the chest...

It's a pity that I can't go back to that day, and I can't see that person's face again...

Yan Yuque withdrew his thoughts, only to realize that the sun was approaching noon as soon as he was distracted, so he quickly tidied up the remaining fabrics.

Walking around with the cloth in his arms, he accidentally pushed the amount resting on the cloth out of the counter and dropped it outside the shop.

Yan Yuque could only put down the things in his hands, and was about to go outside to pick them up, but when he was about to turn around, he found a person standing outside, who had already picked up the measuring stick and handed it over.

Yan Yuque couldn't help showing a surprised expression when he saw the person coming.

The man was thin and had good features, but the scar on the left side of his face ruined the original delicacy of his face.

"How do you...?"

The corner of the other party's mouth was slightly raised, and he smiled gently, and the warm winter sun shone all over his body, just like the moment when we first met in Lingjinyuan back then.

"Since I have arranged for you the rest of your life...I want to watch you, how to finish it..."

In an instant, the past time seemed to pass by the two of them one by one.

There have been grievances, love and hatred between them, and the entanglement is like tangled vines, which can't be sorted out, but at this moment...

Everything seems to start all over again.

——The end of the book——