Preemptive

Loveme,feedme,andneverleaveme. - "Garfield"

When Jiang Zhao was studying, he often felt that he was out of tune with other people.

At that time, when going to the bathroom, the boys would stand in a row walking birds to compare their size, fight each other, and like to say some unscrupulous nasty things unique to puberty. This is normal, and no one would care, except him.

He will deliberately avoid everyone to go to the bathroom alone, try to choose a cubicle, and if there are people around him as a last resort, he will force himself to keep his eyes straight, because he will blush when he sees something he shouldn't look at.

At a certain moment in the physical education class, he would feel that the red faces of the boys after exercising were cute, but he was not interested in the lively smiling faces of the girls at all.

Including the body, the unique sweetness of a girl during puberty cannot make him excited, but the hormonal smell from the boy's body after sweating like rain, and the sweat flowing down his neck will make his heart pound and he even wants to touch it. kiss.

He has never been willing to make colorful jokes with others, and this habit continues to his work, and he just smiles and walks away when others are laughing, not thinking those things are so funny.

These were omens, and he had known for a long time that he was different.But he deliberately ignores the problem.

Since he was a child, he has excellent grades and a good personality. He is not too popular as a monitor in school. Although he may not have friends all over the world, everyone thinks that the monitor is tall and handsome. Apart from being serious, everything else is good. The teacher also likes him. So Jiang Zhao only wants to be a good child in the eyes of his parents and others, and wants to get great satisfaction from the praise and affirmation of others.

After entering university, he also fell in love twice, but it was a pity that they didn't last long each time.

He did what theoretically all boyfriends should do, sending gifts and writing love letters, picking up and dropping off on time, going on dates for dinner and watching movies on holidays.Meticulous and considerate, everything is perfect, but in the end, when the girl breaks up, she will still say: You don't like me, don't force it.

Jiang Zhao didn't understand.

what is likeHe has never experienced the dizziness and heart-pounding feeling described in novels and TV dramas before. Does love have to be a life-and-death experience?He thought that his parents had been married for decades and respected each other like guests, didn't they come here?I didn't even see that they were inseparable in love, so why couldn't he?

When it came to the third girlfriend, the other party seemed to like him very much and pretended to want to make out with him, but he refused because he hoped to "get to know each other better before going further."

The girl was very disappointed, she slapped him with a sneer, and asked him: "Jiang Zhao, are you okay?"

After graduating from university, relying on his family relationship, Jiang Zhao became a teacher in a local private high school as a matter of course, with a stable job and a considerable income.

There was a student in the school he taught, named He Qiu.

The child's homework is poor, and Jiang Zhao communicated with his parents many times to no avail.His parents didn't show up seven times out of ten parent-teacher meetings, either on business trips or overtime, and he was too busy to see anyone.

Jiang Zhao really had no choice but to leave He Qiu alone to make up lessons. He stayed late twice and saw how pitiful he was, so he brought him some snacks and encouraged him to spend more time with his classmates.

He said: "You can find two people who are good at studying to help you make up lessons. People of the same age are easier to talk to. You can still play ball together at your age. More exercise is good for your body."

He Qiu shook his head, expressing that he doesn't like playing basketball and doesn't want to get along well with others.

Jiang Zhao seemed to not care about his attitude at all, and patted his head jokingly: "Yes, you can't play ball."

He Qiu froze.

If the students don't like it, the teacher will not force it.Jiang Zhao wanted to go back and communicate with the class monitor, and find some students who usually care more about him, maybe he can't let go in front of the teacher.Peers are easy to talk to.

He Qiu is usually withdrawn in the class, doesn't get along well with his classmates, and walks alone.The classmates were also afraid when they saw him, thinking that he had a weird temper and looked a little perverse and angry. Although he didn't cause any trouble, it's better not to get in touch with him.

But He Qiu is different now, he grabbed Jiang Zhao's life-saving straw, and ran to the office if he had nothing to do, even helping Jiang Zhao with some chores of sorting and copying.

At first, Jiang Zhao was a little bit sorry, and told him not to waste time, and read more books when he had time.

He leaned over to Jiang Zhao and said, "Teacher, if you really feel sorry, just let me have dinner."

The child said every word very seriously, not like a joke at all.The light from the black eyes made Jiang Zhao suddenly feel guilty.

He avoided his eyes and asked, "It's better to go back early, your parents will be worried."

He Qiu shook the key in his neck: "My parents work overtime and there is no one at home. I used to buy meals by myself or instant noodles."

I have to admit that he is very good at catching Jiang Zhao's weakness. For this kind of child who is like a stray dog, Jiang Zhao's heart softened immediately, and he promised him to have dinner together.

Their school is divided into boarding and day students, and the corresponding teachers also have staff dormitories. Jiang Zhao’s home is far away, and sometimes he often stays in the dormitory for the night when he works too late.

Jiang Zhao's single dormitory is fully equipped with bathroom and kitchen.

Jiang Zhao was busy in the kitchen, while He Qiu was obediently doing his homework in the living room. For a while, there was only the sound of cutting vegetables in the room, mixed with the sound of flipping books, which was very harmonious.

Because this was He Qiu's first visit, Jiang Zhao also harbored a bit of a competitive mentality in his heart, thinking that he was a teacher, and no matter what, at least in front of He Qiu, he would try his best to be perfect in all aspects.

So he took out his housekeeping skills and made the "Yushu unicorn fish" that he would only try during the Chinese New Year.

This is an ancient Cantonese dish with complicated recipes, and restaurants on the market basically don’t sell it.The fish is peeled and sliced. Before steaming in the pan, it needs to be mixed with rice wine, egg white, and dry starch. Then slices of ham, red dates, and fresh mushrooms are added one by one, so that the dishes out of the pan are light and delicious.

That night He Qiu almost swallowed most of the fish, his eyes narrowed into two slits.

Jiang Zhao couldn't help being happy, and said as soon as his brain got hot: "Don't rush to eat slowly, I will make it for you later if you like it."

Just because of his promise, He Qiu became Jiang Zhao's "fan friend". But the good thing is that he started to become cheerful, and occasionally joked with his classmates. Jiang Zhao found that when he smiled, his eyes It will bend beautifully, and two shallow dimples will appear at the corners of the mouth, which is very cute.

There are also more girls who have a crush on him, and his homework has risen from the bottom of the class at the beginning to about half.

The teachers in the office joked, "Mr. Jiang, you are a great contributor. Other students run away when they see the teacher. You are a student who is very close to you."

Jiang Zhao smiled and said nothing.

One day, Jiang Zhao was writing lesson plans in the office, and He Qiu lay down on the opposite side after finishing his homework.From the corner of Jiang Zhao's eyes, he could feel the gaze from the opposite side, staring at him intently and motionlessly.

The temperature was too high, as if it was going to burn a hole in his face.

Jiang Zhao finally couldn't bear it anymore, put down his pen and asked He Qiu: "Are there any flowers on my face?"

"what?"

"Then why are you staring at me?"

The child's secret was exposed, and he was a little embarrassed, his eyes flicked around and he didn't dare to look at Jiang Zhao.Jiang Zhao laughed instead, and decided not to argue with him, so he went to pour him a glass of milk and said, "Let's go, I'll take you back after drinking."

He Qiu didn't answer, just drank the milk in small sips, even licking off the milk stains on his lips, and the disposable cup was bitten by him, leaving deep teeth marks.

"Teacher." He asked softly, "It's too late today, can I live in your dormitory?"

When He Qiu was speaking, he lowered his eyes and dared not look at him, his eyelashes flickered on his face, Jiang Zhao's heart skipped a beat, but he wanted to try to make himself look more natural, so he said, "It's ok, it's just simpler."

When the two returned to the dormitory, He Qiu lay down after washing up early.Jiang Zhao originally wanted to sleep on the floor, but he was afraid that the child would have something to say, so he could only pretend to be carefree and lay down next to him, with his back turned to him and said, "Good night, go to bed early."

He Qiu's thin voice came from behind, as well as the boy's unique body temperature and smell.

He said, "Good night, Teacher Jiang."

The moonlight was bright that day, just like the countless nights Jiang Zhao spent alone, peaceful and ordinary, nothing happened.Only the clothes on Jiang Zhao's back were soaked in cold sweat.

Staying overnight is the same as eating, once and twice, if you take a step back, he will take a step forward.

Later, He Qiu often used various methods to stay in Jiangzhao's dormitory.

One night, the water pipe in the dormitory suddenly burst, and He Qiu happened to be in the middle of taking a shower. He was so embarrassed that Jiang Zhao could only wrap him up in a big bathrobe and take him to the next public bathroom.

There was no one in the bathroom in the middle of the night, so Jiang Zhao deliberately chose a place far away from He Qiu to wash, with his back to him and washed quickly.

Unexpectedly, He Qiu came here.

He said behind Jiang Zhao: "Teacher, I will rub your back for you."

Because it was too close, Jiang Zhao could almost feel the hot breath he exhaled when he spoke, and it went into Jiang Zhao's ears like an electric current.

Jiang Zhao turned around.

The mist in the bathroom made He Qiu's thin and fair body a beautiful pink color. There were two small curves on his waist, his legs were long and straight, and his two delicate feet kept rubbing against each other.

Jiang Zhao blocked it with a towel calmly, and said, "No need, you can go out first if you finish washing, I'll be fine right away."

He Qiu broke his shoulders, but he didn't insist, he looked down and went out.

After this day, He Qiu began to tease Jiang Zhao intentionally or unintentionally. Although Jiang Zhao tried his best to avoid it, he also began to think whether he was too gentle with He Qiu, so that the child had some unreasonable thoughts. .

One day He Qiu finally couldn't hold back, and hugged Jiang Zhao from behind, his whole body trembling uncontrollably due to excitement.

"Teacher, I like you and I want to be with you."

Jiang Zhao clenched his fists and then loosened them, but he never looked back and never touched him.

He is persuasive: "Why are you still too young, you have a crush on me just because you have no friends, and I happen to be the closest person to you, just like the feelings of a young bird for an old bird, this is not true I like it. You should study hard, get admitted to a prestigious university, step into society in the future, marry a wife and have children to live a normal life, you have to abandon this sick idea, it’s wrong.”

He was not only saying this to He Qiu, but also to himself.

Jiang Zhao has always firmly believed that one day he will also find a woman to marry and have children, and to live the life that I have, so that he will have no worries when he gets old.Jiang Zhao didn't care about the discrimination of the people around him, but he thought more deeply. For example, when he gets old, he has no legal protection and no offspring. Should he die alone in a nursing home?

This is a very realistic question, Jiang Zhao likes to think clearly about all the questions.

Knowing that the road ahead is rough and bumpy, you should stop losses in time. In this society, there is nothing more secure than insurance.

After He Qiu listened, the trembling of his body slowly stopped. He put down the hands around Jiang Zhao's waist, and then said something that Jiang Zhao will never forget: "Mr. Jiang, what is a normal person?"

If it is now, Jiang Zhao believes that he can give a better answer, as long as it is true love, it is normal.But then he couldn't answer because he didn't have an answer himself.

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Many little fairies have read this article, so I brought it here.