private romance

"What is your dream? After sleeping for so long, it must not be a nightmare. If it is a nightmare, I will buy your dream." ①The large screen surrounds the entire wall, and the stereo sound also fills the room every corner of the

Speaking of Song Mingzheng, it has been a while since he watched a movie. In fact, this activity is already one of the many pleasures in life for him. Let alone He Tingzhao’s body can’t hold it, it’s Before He Tingzhao was injured, he didn't like to go to the cinema, it would be best if he could watch it at home.

The trajectory of life is best to follow only one line, and if there are too many, it will cause extra problems. Song Mingzheng will feel disgusted physically. He hates all contact with the outside world and clearly distinguishes himself from the world. But if It's another matter if He Tingzhao likes it.

But fortunately, his lover knows him very well, and they rarely force him to step out of his comfort zone these years.

A thick carpet was laid on the floor, and the two sat on the floor like this, leaning on the pillows behind them.He Tingzhao was crooked in his arms, and this time he was really crooked, not to mention any posture, all relying on his embrace and some soft cushions around him to support his upper body from falling down.The heating in the room was adequate, and He Tingzhao's blood circulation was not good, but he couldn't perspire, so he just covered his lower body with a loose blanket.The two slender legs still hung with soft fat lay on the soft cushion, and Song Mingzheng moved them occasionally.But most of the time, he doesn't care what state they are in, as long as they don't have convulsions or anything that makes He Tingzhao uncomfortable.As for the appearance, whether it is sagging, or whether it is indecently sideways, it is actually not something he would take to heart.

Half of the nightgown was lifted, revealing He Tingzhao's chubby belly with some fat, which was being pinched and played by Song Mingzheng.

There was a long low table in front of him, and some snacks were placed casually.Song Mingzheng held He Tingzhao's shoulder from above with his other hand, holding a Coke in his hand, paying attention to the time and frequency, and occasionally feeding him a sip.

The two hid in the darkroom and watched a movie. "Season Change" is a Korean gay movie in recent years, and they didn't choose this one deliberately. The kind of people who are looking for a sense of identity.

It is much easier for people to achieve success in a certain field than others, and they will become more greedy.Sometimes I think about whether it is too difficult to achieve love or not in this world. Homosexuality seems to be easier to separate than too many heterosexuals. They have each other. This love seems to come from thousands of people with the same sexual orientation as them. Everyone wants to look easy, so there will always be more to ask for.

Really young and frivolous, dare to talk about the world until this moment.

"When I was in a coma, did my mother make things difficult for you?"

Halfway through the movie, the protagonist was accidentally injured during a trip with his lover and became a vegetative state. Their relationship was also accidentally exposed. The mother of the protagonist couldn’t accept this, and she didn’t allow her lover to come and take care of him, hoping that he would disappear between herself and her son. in life.

So this scene suddenly became subtle in their ambiguous and comfortable space.He Tingzhao actually just asked a casual question, which doesn't mean he really cares about it, but if Song Mingzheng's answer is yes, he will still feel guilty in his heart, even though he understands his parents very well.

"Forgot." Song Mingzheng took a sip of Coke himself, leaned his head back on the pillow behind him, and felt soft and delicate.But he couldn't help wanting to lean on He Tingzhao and hold him in his arms.No matter what kind of touch it is, to him, it is not as gentle and joyful as the skin-to-skin kiss of his lover. "It's been too long, I don't seem to notice."

"At that time, my mind was full of when you would wake up."

"That's right." He Tingzhao smiled, and raised his head tremblingly. Song Mingzheng could almost immediately feel what he wanted to do, so he lowered his head immediately to save the lover in his arms from straining.The two lips touched, almost without any hints, and there was a sweet kiss naturally, "You man, it's useless even if my parents don't let you come, you can't beat me, no one knows what you are It’s not scary enough to be surrounded by mercenaries when you lose your temper.”

"You little heartless one, you framed me." Ruifeng raised his eyes a little, and stared lightly under his bushy eyelashes, but he didn't seem convincing, "Every time I saw your parents, I shot them down. "

"All of my people are under it too..." Song Mingzheng spoke without any tone, but somehow He Tingzhao felt a little wronged.He just felt that he hadn't seen Song Mingzheng like this for a long time, and he felt a little strange but very cute, as if he didn't hide anything in his heart, and life was much easier.

"Oh, well, I know you treat me well." In this gentle and familiar embrace, he felt much more relaxed, "It's best to know Ah Zheng."

"That boy will be very happy too? That friend, he has been helping to take care of him before. He should be very happy when he hears that his friend wakes up." ②The movie is only over an hour, which is not too long.But he still had to stop halfway. Song Mingzheng wanted to help He Tingzhao change his diapers. He had been intubated in the hospital so that it was difficult for him to urinate independently for a few days after returning home. Song Mingzheng was distressed, but this function could not be recovered in one day. You can only take care of him more carefully.

The video was paused, and stopped at the moment when the protagonist woke up.But he didn't know that his mother had already known about his relationship with his lover, and he and his lover broke off contact with each other and never communicated again.

Song Mingzheng first took a few cushions to fix He Tingzhao's upper body, but this job was not easy to do, as if no matter how many cushions were placed around the body to assist the sitting posture, Song Mingzheng held the person under the armpit and set it up , but as soon as he let go, He Tingzhao would immediately slump to one side, so frightened that he could only hug him immediately.He tried it several times in a row, and the result was the same, but in the end, He Tingzhao probably thought it was fun, leaning against his arms and laughing non-stop, which made him feel better.

"A Zheng, look, you seem to have to hug me." He Tingzhao's eyebrows were curved, his words were coquettish, and his condition today is actually not bad, and he hasn't felt difficulty in breathing. It's a big improvement without oxygen.

When did Xiao Zhao become inseparable from artificial oxygen in his daily life?This made Song Mingzheng's back feel cold, but he quickly came back to his senses, and he couldn't think too much about things that shouldn't be thought about now.

Otherwise, the rest of his life would be extremely difficult.

The lower abdomen was loose and sagging, and the white, tender and loose layers were in stark contrast to Song Mingzheng's eight-pack abs.It's just that the two of them didn't feel any embarrassment. They were too used to these things, and everything became a matter of course in love.In the end, Song Mingzheng held He Tingzhao in his arms, hugged him with one hand, and rubbed his lower abdomen to urinate with the other hand.The two thin noodle legs rested on his own legs respectively, and the arched insteps rubbed against Song Mingzheng's ankles like this.

He Tingzhao couldn't feel it, but for Song Mingzheng, every pore in his body felt the closeness to his lover.In fact, even if it was just that, He Tingzhao had already brought him the ultimate sexual tension.His lower body stood up quietly, but it was a pity that even if He Tingzhao was sitting on him and brought him such dull pain and happiness, he still didn't feel it.

In fact, most of the time, his body is not completely taken into consideration.

He Tingzhao was still in good condition for a few years after his injury. At that time, Song Mingzheng almost hugged him and begged him day and night.But the number of times gradually decreased later, not after He Tingzhao was found to have heart failure.

He found that only he himself was happy.

No matter how hard he tried, but the injured position was too high, the sensitivity He Tingzhao could feel was really limited, and those were really not enough to support the nighttime pleasure of an adult male.

It's just that every time he acted as if he was very comfortable, as if he felt all the useless work Song Mingzheng did.They used the same method, telling each other that they had a very happy and comfortable life. You let me go up to the clouds and experience the incomparable beauty of the world.

Then I comforted myself and loathed myself in the bottom of my heart, as long as he can be happy and I am not enough to make him happy.

If you can't experience it, it doesn't really matter if I have this long night or not.

Song Mingzheng chose to give up this right at the age of 20. Some hardships cannot be borne for you, but there are always some, which he thinks they can bear together.

"Are you still in touch?"③

"Occasionally contact, but rarely meet."③

At the end of the movie, the protagonist wakes up and resumes a normal life through reconstruction. The mother finally accepts another boy who exists as a lover in the midst of resentment and entanglement, but the protagonist and lover part ways.

In the movie, it seems that everything will get better after the rain, even the body after a huge accident.It seems that only feelings are not like this, as if love is something that can never wait.

They seemed to understand each other, but neither could agree with it.

"Tsk, Ah Zheng, I think it's a pity." After watching the movie, He Tingzhao was a little tired.Leaning on Song Mingzheng's shoulder, with a weak laughing voice, his breath sprayed into Song Mingzheng's neck, "Obviously just take a step forward, but luckily you were much braver before."

He doesn't have such a good life, he can return to the original life track unscathed, and be a normal person who can take care of himself.After waking up, he thought about giving up countless times, but there was no way to do it. He couldn't drag his loved one down for the rest of his life with such a body.Even if he has no regrets about what he has done, he also asks for nothing.

If you, Song Mingzheng, can't bear it with your conscience, then give me a sum of money, and we won't owe each other.

But his lover is not an ordinary person who would be afraid of the world, he ran over when He Tingzhao took 99 steps back.

"No." Song Mingzheng's voice was light, he supported He Tingzhao's back neck, put his other hand under his knees, hugged him horizontally, and slowly got up, "I just want to be with you, so I must be with you." That's all."

"You didn't think about anything else?"

"what else?"

"Hey you." He Tingzhao leaned in his arms, his body was raised but he still felt at ease, so this process of gradually becoming weak became unscrupulous.The saliva began to hang uncontrollably on Song Mingzheng's shoulders, and his voice gradually became muffled and quieter, "Why are you so stubborn...how do you make me feel at ease..."

Song Mingzheng didn't speak, the corners of Yin Hong's lips lifted quietly, and he walked slowly back to the bedroom with He Tingzhao in his arms.

Anyway, life or death, we always want to be together.

Baby, don't think too much now.

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