night of reincarnation

When Wu Yi was young, he lived in an alley in the outskirts of city A, because it was very far away from the city center, surrounded by mountains and farms, and the residents nearby were basically poor families, all of whom lived in old bungalows in the 80s. After being exposed to the wind, rain, or sun, those houses look crumbling, the broken wooden doors can be opened with a light push, and the roadsides and narrow alleys are full of rubbish. patronize here.

Wu Yi and his mother live in such an environment. They own a bungalow that is not too big or small. Although the sparrow is small, it has all internal organs, bedrooms, living rooms, kitchens, and toilets. It’s just that the house is too remote and I want to go outside. To buy things or buy daily necessities, Wu Yi had to walk for half an hour with his short legs at that time, before he could see a small supermarket and some grocery stores on the side of the road.

In fact, it’s not that they don’t have money. The property left by Wu Yi’s father is enough for Wu Yi and his mother to squander their entire lives; it’s just that Wu Yi didn’t have the concept of spending money at that time. He thought money was a very precious thing. , Every penny spent is one penny less. He was very afraid of how he would survive if he ran out of money, so he was extremely frugal.

Wu Yi's mother's brain is not bright, so the burden of life is completely on Wu Yi's young body; in fact, when Wu grows up, he can't remember that he was in such a young family environment at that time. , How did you come here step by step?But amidst such doubts, he grew up and survived intact.

Day by day passed like this, so you have to admire that human beings are really smart creatures that can quickly adapt to the environment, a terrible creature; it is precisely because of fear that they can occupy this planet and become kings.

Wu Yi, who survived, would occasionally think of his past. In fact, he really didn’t hate his mother, although his mother had the habit of throwing knives at him, went crazy and destroyed furniture and belongings everywhere, making herself dirty and dirty. The smell forced Wu Yi to clean up and bathe his mother every day, but in fact, when his mother was not crazy, Wu Yi really liked her.

A mother who is not crazy will sit very quietly on the sofa or on a rocking chair on the balcony, and play a piece of lyrical and gentle light music on the stereo next to her, which will make her quiet and obedient all day long. At this time Wu Yi would not bother her, because he knew that she was immersed in her own world, immersed in her unique and wonderful time, and to disturb her at this time would break the disguise of reality, and she would be angry and angry. hysteria.

Wu Yi's mother has been living in that world, her own world, she seems to think that she is still very young, around [-] years old, just met Wu Yi's father, not yet pregnant with Wu Yi, Never had a child; because she always thought she had no children, Wu Yi's mother often didn't recognize Wu Yi, and when she saw Wu Yi, she would scream, tell him to get out, and throw all the things she could throw out at him. Then Wu Yi threw it out.

But she still recognizes Wu Yi sometimes, usually when she is not sick normally, she will reach out and touch Wu Yi's head, and say to him, "Little one, grow up quickly, Hurry up and grow up."

When he was young, Wu Yi had been with his mother for so long, but he still didn’t know his mother’s name. Later, he realized it, and looked through his household registration book and ID card at home, so he finally saw his mother’s name. My mother has a cold name, Wu Dongxue. When she saw this name, Wu Yi realized that she actually followed her maternal instinct.

Of course, Wu Yi didn't know his father's name at that time. He only knew his father's name from his father's will. It is said that a death certificate was obtained after being missing for seven years, others said that he fell to his death or was in a car accident, and there are some strange claims. Anyway, this person just disappeared without a trace.

At that time, his father's will and funeral were handled by Wu Yi's mother. Wu Yi remembered that his mother was not that crazy at that time, but she was on the verge of madness. Wu Yi still remembered that his mother didn't know where to start. A bunch of medicines come out, which can be said to be poured into the mouth bottle by bottle. There are pills on the table and in the drawers of the room. Those medicines seem to be sedative or mentally stabilizing medicines. If you take too much, there will be side effects and dependence. , but there is no way, she has no way out.

After that, Wu Yi's mother became more and more abnormal, often hysterical, and she seemed to be aware of it, often shutting herself in the house for several days, she wrote the money, bank card, and bank card password on a note After coming down, the gate key, ID card and other necessary documents were placed where Wu Yi could get them. She made a lot of preparations, so that Wu Yi at that time realized early on what she should do and what she should do in the future.

When Wu Yi was young, he didn't understand, and would often cry and hate because of his mother's violent treatment; but when he grew up, Wu Yi was very grateful to her, and thanked his mother for being sober at that time, and for being willing to help Wu. Do your best in the future.

But later, Wu Yi felt that he might be unfilial, because when he became an adult and entered university, he sent his mother to a mental nursing home as if he had broken free from shackles, and left her there alone.

In the early years, he would often visit the nursing home, but now he has not been there much.

Wu Yi didn't know how to describe his mentality, the feeling of wanting to get out of the shadows and not wanting to be bound again. He always felt that he was living in an abyss. His mother was like a boulder tied to him. The stone was too heavy. The pressure on him was so heavy that he was almost completely submerged in darkness.

And at the moment when he finally climbed out of the abyss and saw the light again, he strongly wanted to abandon all the past and start again. He knew that among the things he once wanted to abandon, his mother was also included.

Wu Yi hates this kind of self, cowardly, cowardly and without a sense of responsibility, and dare not face the reality of himself; however, no matter how much he encourages himself, he can't take that crucial step, and he is still caught in this desperate cycle.

However, the appearance of the reincarnation night game seems to be an additional window opened by God. Wu Yi saw new things in that window, belief, freedom, and things full of hope. Everything is good. Anyway, Wu Yi is in the game. When he was here, he felt that he was full of strength, he could no longer be afraid of anything, and he even had the desire to see his mother again.

But he did not want to usher in such a result.

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A Central Hospital Intensive Ward.

Wu Yi was sitting in the corridor outside the intensive care unit. He had been guarding here all night without closing his eyes. He took a picture of himself with the screen of his mobile phone. He could see his black eyes with black bags under his eyes, and the mess he had never combed. head, and was still wearing the casual clothes that he had matched when he hurried out.

He had his wallet, ID card and keys in his pocket, everything he could bring with him, but when he walked to the hospital, he seemed a little dazed, and he couldn't even remember why he was here.

When the time was approaching the sunrise in the morning, the nurse on duty in the intensive care unit came over and handed him a cup of coffee. Wu Yi was rarely treated like this, so he murmured thank you as if flattered, and continued to sit with the hot coffee in his hand. Standing guard in the corridor of the hospital ward, through the glass window in the intensive care unit, Wu Yi could see the person lying inside.

The woman who had become the dark shadow deep in his heart.

Wu Yi has always cherished the emotion of love and hate towards his mother. He has wanted to escape from her countless times, and he has been willing to stay with her countless times. Difficult to part with.

But even if it is full of such contradictions, Wu Yi does not want his mother to die. He hopes that she will live a long life. Even if she lives insane, she can still live insane and carefree. A dead body with no sense is tough.

Because Wu Yi is the only family member in this world.

If he lost her, wouldn't he have to be alone?There is no dependence, no belief; even no burden, no responsibility, and no direction.

This was unimaginable to Wu Yi, and even made him a little dazed, so he could only sit on the seat in the corridor in a daze, surrounded by doctors, nurses and patients, until a doctor came over when the sun was shining in the early morning He told Wu Yi that he could go in and see her.

"Passed the dangerous period?" Wu Yi raised his head stiffly, looking at the doctor with a somewhat empty gaze, his body was almost paralyzed, he waited motionless, he couldn't even understand that he was waiting, he just felt The world is impermanent, life and death are unpredictable, and the reality of this world frightens him.

The doctor seemed to have seen Wu Yi's eyes a lot, he didn't have much expression, and his tone was calm, "No, the patient lost a lot of blood, which led to a certain degree of organ failure. Considering that the patient is relatively old and has some mental problems, I advise you to be mentally prepared."

It seems that what the doctor said didn't get into Wu Yi's ears, or it didn't get into Wu Yi's brain. He understood, he felt that he and the doctor were people from two worlds at the moment, he understood every word the other said, but when combined into sentences, he couldn't understand at all.

So he just looked at him blankly, with obvious bewilderment in his eyes.

The doctor sighed slightly, as if he could understand the mood of the young man in front of him, he reached out and patted Wu Yi's shoulder, and said softly in a low voice, "Go in and have a look."

Wu Yi had no choice but to open the door and go in. He walked into the ward to see his long-lost mother. He probably hadn't seen his mother face-to-face for several months. All the news about his mother came from the nursing staff in the nursing home. I learned there; because of Wu Yi's cowardice and cowardice, he didn't want to see her again because of fear, but he didn't expect that when he met again, he could only look at her dying on the hospital bed.

After Wu Yi quit the game last night, he received a call from the nursing home, saying that his mother committed suicide by singing through broken glass in the bathroom.

The news was like a bolt from the blue. After hearing the news, Wu Yi's brain was blank, and he couldn't come back to his senses for a while. The nursing home over there said that his mother had been sent to the central hospital in the city, because there was no new one in the nursing home. Good rescue equipment and no blood transfusion bank. Although emergency measures were taken, when he was sent to the Central Hospital, his mother was still dying due to excessive blood loss.

After Wu Yi rushed to the hospital, he went through a bunch of procedures and paid some fees. His mother has been lying in the intensive care unit in hemorrhagic shock. Due to excessive blood loss, Wu Yi's mother also showed symptoms of organ failure. , although she saved her life for the time being, in fact, the god of death has been sitting by her bedside.

Wu Yi didn't know what to do. After the doctor said that he could go in for a look, he walked in blankly and saw his mother lying on the hospital bed. He was connected to an electrocardiogram and an oxygen tube was inserted into the nasal cavity. Several blood bags were hung on her body, and cold blood was poured into her body, but she still looked pale, as if she was dead.

Wu Yi’s mother, Wu Dongxue, is in her fifties. The nursing home cut her hair short to the ears for easy care. Although she is only in her fifties, she looks very old. Her face is wrinkled and haggard. The hair showed white spots; Wu Yi found that his mother looked even thinner, almost as thin as a stick. Wu Yi went to touch her hand, and all he touched was skinny and bone. Just looking at her makes my nose sore.

Wu Yi was filled with guilt, he almost knelt on the side of his mother's bed, stretched out his hand and held her hand tightly, he opened his mouth to say something, but he was choked up for a long time, but he couldn't say a word.