don't let me go

After entering university, Duan Xu only goes home every year for a few days during Chinese New Year.I will find reasons to go home late, and then find reasons to go to school early.

I didn't come back at all during the summer vacation, and worked in various places.

Duan Xu's mother was always trying to use various reasons to ask her son to go home, but it was always unsuccessful.She probably knew that Duan Xu was holding his breath, but she was unwilling to lower her head.

Over the years, Duan Xu has traveled all over the country with the money he earned as a tutor and part-time job. Every time he arrives in a city, he will go around the city and take a lot of photos.

The college roommates thought he was a travel enthusiast, but they were just amazed at why he always ran to the most corners of the city.Duan Xu didn't explain either.

Duan Xu had inquired about the location of Lin Guo's mother, and also went to look for it, but when he saw the woman holding another man's arm and leading another child, he knew that this road would not work.

At first Duan Xu vowed that Lin Guo would definitely come back to find him, but at the time he felt that such confidence could not be explained.

As time went by, his self-confidence became weaker and weaker, and finally disappeared completely—because he suddenly discovered that he didn't know Lin Guo well.

A child's personality is not fixed. Lin Guo's childhood was so miserable that he matured much later, more like a child than his peers, and his personality is more difficult to understand.

At first Duan Xu only knew that Lin Guo was very attached to him and that Lin Guo listened to him very much.But after thinking about it, what is this, is it a child's respect for "elders"?

Duan Xu thought with a smile, in this case, his feelings for Lin Guo seemed extremely funny.

Duan Xu has always kept his life busy these years, and he found a lot of things for himself to do.

Because when he was a freshman, he found to his surprise that as soon as he was free, he would start thinking about what he had and what he didn't have.

For example—he accidentally searched for "what happened to the people who have been missing for many years?" and then saw the answer with the most likes saying "gone" succinctly.

He was so scared that he turned over and got off the bed, threw his mobile phone on the bed, picked up his schoolbag and rushed to the library.

Duan Xu is one of the tens of thousands of lone rangers in school, but this is his own choice, and there are not a few people who want to accompany him.The school has a confession wall, and there are always people who confess anonymously.

Duan Xu's name will be posted every once in a while. At first, every day, people would "ahhhhh" on the confession wall, asking if anyone knew Duan Xu, a freshman computer science student, and wanted a WeChat account.

After a long time, Duan Xu refused more, and they doubted more——

Someone asked very bluntly on the confession wall: Does Duan Xu like boys?

There is no other reason. The girls who are recognized as beautiful in the school have also received the same flat rejection in the ranks of the charge.

That day there was a new ID named Duan Xu, who replied "yes".

It didn't cause much fluctuation, and the replies were all "hahaha" and "Niu, just pretend to be the real master."

It's just that after that day, a few more strange anonymous confessions suddenly appeared—"Junior Duan, can you see me, Senior?"

The ID of "pretending to be the real master" replied: No.

Duan Xu didn't take the postgraduate entrance examination, and started working directly after graduating from university.Parents really can't afford the expenses in big cities, even if he saves food and money, works and studies.

His mother also persuaded him, saying that there is no harm in studying for a few more years, but Duan Xu said that he was tired and couldn't learn anymore.

He followed the seniors who came out to start a business. There are many opportunities to start a business in a big city, but it is indeed not easy.

Duan Xu occasionally laughed at himself, what is wrong with a person like him who is extremely short of money to choose this place.

I get up early and work late every day, and sometimes we live in the company together because we think it's time-consuming.

Duan Xu doesn't care, there is nothing unbearable for people who are used to hard times.

But the bitterness of starting a business is seeing the fruits of your labor go to waste every day, and your hard work turns into a pile of waste paper, and you have to start all over again every day.

Within a year, the company with few employees has changed wave after wave of people. Even the senior who was full of confidence in describing the future with Duan Xu said to Duan Xu unshavenly: "How about You can go too, with our education, we can find a job without worrying."

Duan Xu refused.

He likes to go all the way to the dark.

There was no turning point after that, Duan Xu still watched his progress bar go back to [-]% every day.

People always forget to clean up when they are busy, Duan Xu is a typical example.His hair was long enough to be tied up, so he thought it would block his eyes, so he bought a rubber band from a female colleague in the company, and tied it up when he was busy.

Until the senior couldn't bear it anymore, he gave him half a day off, and gave Duan Xu half a month's salary out of his pocket, saying it was a bonus, and asked him to get a haircut quickly, and then buy some clothes for himself to tidy up.

Duan Xu was kicked out of the company just like that, and he took the money and walked into a barber shop closest to the company.

He hasn't been very energetic these years, either he looks stern with a sullen face, or he doesn't talk much, and his mood is always low.

He didn't have the vigorous spirit of a young man when he walked. He lowered his eyes and pushed open the door of the barber shop, hearing a familiar yet unfamiliar welcome.

Then he stood at the door, maintained the movement of pushing the door, and raised his head very stiffly.

This welcome sentence is just a conditioned reflex. As soon as the speaker finished speaking, he bent down to look for something. After more than ten seconds, he raised a black bottle and got up and asked the people in the store: "Is this it?"

The woman who was caring for the customer's hair said helplessly: "Lin Guo! It's been more than half a year, and you still can't tell the difference?"

While talking, she took off her gloves and walked over, took the bottle away from Lin Guo's hand, took out a light pink bottle again, and pointed accusingly at Lin Guo's forehead, "This one."

Lin Guo lowered his head in embarrassment, and before he had time to apologize, he heard the woman ask behind him: "Hello, do you want to cut your hair?"

Lin Guo turned around following her gaze, and saw Duan Xu standing at the door like a statue staring at him.

His expression was fixed on his face, and he looked at Duan Xu who was only five meters away for half a minute, and then his first reaction was to squat down with his head in his arms.

After squatting down, he stared at the cabinet with wide eyes for a few seconds, and then hurriedly pretended to tidy up his things.

Duan Xu finally let go of the doorknob that was about to be pinched and deformed, and responded: "Cut your hair..."

The woman lowered her head and glanced at Lin Guo who was huddled in the corner and placed things. She couldn't help ignoring Duan Xu first, and asked Lin Guo with a smile: "What are you doing? It's like being caught by your father and falling in love with you. Hurry up and wash your hair." .”

Then he walked back and took up his gloves and said to Duan Xu: "Wait a minute, he will come right away to tidy up his things."

In fact, there are other people in the store, but all of them are customers, and they are all busy in front of the mirror.

Lin Guo dawdled for a long time before standing up, thinking that Duan Xu had gone to wait elsewhere, but as soon as he straightened up, he met Duan Xu's eyes again.

He was startled with fright, like a conditioned reflex, and blurted out: "Brother..."

When doing business, when you see an older man call him brother and a woman call him sister, this is the most basic rule of survival in the contemporary world - to be close.

But the woman turned her head subconsciously when she heard Lin Guo calling out.

Because this kid has always been a seldom talker, he acts like a mute when he does his work, and he can stay in the store without saying a word all day.

Duan Xu didn't speak.

I obviously have so many questions I want to ask Lin Guo, and there are countless things I want to say to him, but I just can't utter a single word.

It made his throat ache.

He followed Lin Guo silently, and then followed his instructions to lie down.

He raised his head and opened his eyes - always looking at Lin Guo.

The person being stared at was extremely nervous, his fingers were trembling but his movements were gentle. He took off the rubber band and let Duan Xu's hair loose.

Wait until the water temperature is right before wetting your hair.

When making foam, it is inevitable that water mixed with foam will splash into Duan Xu's eyes, and the fundus of his eyes turns red visibly, probably because the shampoo irritated his eyes.But he still stared at Lin Guo non-stop.

Lin Guo felt that he was about to be burned through a hole by his gaze.

"Brother, you, don't..."

"You still know how to call me brother." Duan Xu finally spoke, but his throat was tight and his voice was very hoarse. Every word seemed to be dug out from the deepest part. It sounded very heavy and hit Lin Guo. It hurts a lot.

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