don't let me go

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There was another knock on the door.

This is the fifth time in 10 minutes.Duan Xu's mother stood outside the bedroom door, asking anxiously over and over again: "Xiao Xu? What happened? Did you fail the exam? Did your teacher tell you? Did you get into a fight?"

In the bedroom, Duan Xu was lying on the bed staring at the ceiling in a daze. He closed his eyes again when he heard the sound, and said again wearily: "I'm fine."

"It's okay, you... well, why are you locking the door?" Duan Xu's mother pressed the handle again, but she couldn't push it away, "What happened to you? Tell Mom, Mom will solve it for you .”

Duan Xu covered his eyes with the back of his right hand, and looked down through the gap to see the white wall of the room turning yellow under the soft light, "Mom, I'm tired, let me sleep for a while."

What should he be doing at this point?Brush questions, brush questions, brush questions.Lin Guo sat at the foot of the bed reading a book with great interest.

When he is thirsty, he only needs to cough, and when he is tired, he only needs to sigh. The sign of the end of today's study is to press the pen on the closed exercise book, hear a crisp sound, and watch the pen tip shrink back .

At the same time, there is Lin Guo who stands up with a "whoosh"—sometimes he is awake, and sometimes he is sleepy and rubbing his eyes.

Duan Xu covered his eyes, and he would play the man's phrase in a loop in his brain: "If I do everything?"

Did everything?

These words were so suggestive that Duan Xu couldn't pretend not to understand and continue to ask.

It's not like he didn't see Lin Guo that night, his clothes were torn to pieces, his body was drenched even though it wasn't raining or snowing outside, his red eyes were crystal clear, he stared at him for a long time, and then cried .

Lin Guo's mother was a well-known woman in the original area. Fame lies in her beauty, but also in the fact that she misses many men and sleeps with many men.

That woman didn't want Lin Guo from the very beginning. Who knew that the child would be so fatal, and she insisted on it for the first few months. Later, the risk of abortion was high, so she was born.But the mind has never given even one tenth of it to the children.

Lin Jianyi also died.

Now Duan Xu is the only person Lin Guo misses in this world.Now something happened to Lin Guo, but he couldn't even find out the reason, let alone find anyone.

Duan Xu got up in the middle of the night and sat in the living room in a daze. Duan Xu's mother, who had put up a bed and slept on the balcony, woke up immediately. Duan Xu didn't turn on the light, so she didn't turn it on either.

"I don't sleep in the middle of the night, what are you doing sitting here?" Duan Xu's mother asked.

Duan Xu was silent for a long time, then swallowed, feeling a sharp pain in his throat, "Mom, have you seen Lin Guo recently?"

"Lin Guo?" Duan Xu's mother frowned, "Where should I go to meet him? In the end, it was just... that night, the time I ran over to look for you in the middle of the night, and I never saw him again."

Duan Xu relaxed his strength and slammed his back on the back of the sofa, "I can't find Lin."

"Why are you looking for him? Isn't he very busy at work all day? He will come to you when you wait for the weekend."

Duan Xu's mother still didn't hear it, or she didn't take it seriously if she heard it.

Duan Xu could understand, but he couldn't suppress the anger in his heart that was already burning to the core.

"He may have an accident, or he may not want to see me, but I can't find him now. He has resigned, and there is no one in the rental house, and everything has been cleaned up."

Duan Xu's mother thought for a while, and said with relief: "It's definitely okay, that kid is destined to die."

Duan Xu sat up suddenly, "Yes, he has a lot of life. Lin Jianyi didn't die after fighting for so many years. Is this an excuse for everyone to spoil him?

He has a big life, so he can toss about it at will, so he should bear everything.

So he should be disliked wherever he goes, and lonely wherever he goes.Parents don't love him and don't want him, I..."

Duan Xu felt that his throat was sore and he was almost speechless, "I'll pick it up for him as a kind person, wash him up and raise him as a normal child for two years, and then you will kick him out?"

Duan Xu knew that he couldn't hold back his emotions. He knew how to suppress his anger, but he didn't know how to restrain his anger.

He still had a bit of sobriety left, he knew how obvious his words meant to vent his anger, but he just couldn't suppress it no matter what.

"Of course I'm doing it for your own good!" Duan Xu's mother said that although she didn't treat her son so harshly, she couldn't tolerate her son educating herself and challenging her dignity as a mother. For his sake, I think you like him quite a lot, so I won't say more.

You go back to our original area and ask from door to door, who wants to provoke the Lin family?

Yes, Lin Jianyi is a drunkard, beating his son is not a thing.But what good is Lin Guo?Can the child be a good parent? "

Duan Xu became even more angry, "Where did he go wrong? Lin Jianyi beat him, and he was the victim! Why would the victim be guilty?

Lin Jianyi beats people any day he wants to. Lin Guo can't eat a full meal every day, and he is not allowed to read books. His father forced him to look like a good child. He has not grown crooked at all. He didn't follow Lin Jianyi at all. Where did he go wrong?Are the victims guilty?Was it his fault that he should not have been born or should not have lived? "

"Yes! His fault is that he shouldn't have been born!" Duan Xu's mother shouted out of breath.

Duan Xu didn't speak anymore.

Duan Xu's mother thought that she had won the quarrel that was late for many years, so she naturally vented her remaining anger: "How dare you be stubborn with me? Mom is usually too tolerant of you, and you don't treat me as your mother at all." look."

The night's farce came to an end with Duan Xu's silence, when Duan Xu returned to the door, he turned to his mother and said: "Mom, today you will treat me like you say anything, and I will treat you like you say nothing.

I will not give up on my future, but if Lin Guo doesn't come back for a day, I will look for him for a day, even if I still haven't seen him after ten or twenty years, I will keep looking for him.You shouldn't have forced him away, he is very obedient, very obedient, and treats me very well. "

Duan Xu's mother took this as a joke that a three-year-old promised to fly a plane and take the Tsinghua University exam.

How can a child have ten or twenty years of perseverance, he will always forget after a long time.

The days of the third year of high school passed quickly, and the same thing will be repeated mechanically tomorrow, and the sleep time will be compressed regularly.

Duan Xu also showed a little nerve on the way to go home every day every day -see the forest back.

During the final sprint days, Duan Xu was surprised to find that the motivation for him to continue writing and memorizing was actually "after the exam, you can go to Lin to pass it".

Find Lin Guo.

This is a very wide-ranging matter, but Duan Xu didn't have time to think about it, and he relied on this belief to survive the last period of time.

After the college entrance examination, he fell ill. He lay in bed for three days and rested for a week.

His mother is still busy, but this time there is no cursing like chanting sutras.

Duan Xu's father rarely came to see him. His son fell ill after the college entrance examination, so he made up for it and asked the boss for two days off to accompany him.

In fact, Duan Xu still likes to get a little fucking attention when his father is around.

On the day he got the admission notice, his parents were very happy. They took pictures of his admission notice for a long time, and they were so excited that they burst into tears.

I didn't calm down until I posted on the circle of friends, posted on the family group, and showed off with relatives and friends.

His parents took the notice and read it again and again, and Duan Xu's mother said: "The days go by so fast, and our little Xu is going to be a college student in a blink of an eye."

Duan Xu's father smiled and joked: "In a few years, I think I will be able to bring my girlfriend back."

When people were in the event, Duan Xuma also thought about this problem. "It's really fast. I got married in a few years, and then I became a grandma."

Duan Xu lowered his eyes and shook his head: "There will be no girlfriend."

His parents just thought it was because he was embarrassed, and blamed him, how can he talk nonsense, how can he not have a girlfriend when he is an adult?

Duan Xu didn't speak again, went back to the room and sat on the floor staring at the empty suitcase in a daze.

That day he went to the man he met for outdated Lin Guo that he had said that Lin Guo had left himself, and he would probably not return again.So there was no report.

Duan Xu didn't take the second half of the sentence seriously, he didn't believe that Lin Guo could never see him again.

This kind of self-confidence is so strange that Duan Xu can't explain it clearly, it probably started from the day when Lin Guo kissed him unconsciously.

In fact, it's not that he can't explain clearly, it's just that he doesn't want to explain it to anyone before reuniting with Lin Guo.