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When Qin Zhou woke up, it was already night again, his internal organs, body and skin were burning like fire, and there was no pain anywhere.He was almost retched by the smell of alcohol and blood on his body. Holding on to the wine cabinet, he struggled twice before standing up. He touched his forehead and knew that he had a fever.

Distraught and confused, he went to take a bath, washed himself from the inside out, returned to the master bedroom, and lay down on the bed that Ning Linfeng had been lying on for seven years.

He lay on his side at first, and after a few seconds, he silently shrank back to Ning Linfeng's position. He imagined how that person usually leaned against the bedside to read and answer emails, and how he reached out to turn off the bedside lamp before going to bed. How can I not help leaning against him when I fall asleep at night.

As long as he thought of this, he felt his heart tear and he couldn't breathe.

He was shaking, he felt, it was too hard.

He never thought of such a day, never thought of losing, and never thought that losing would make him so painful.He felt that when he had nothing, he didn't have such a hard time, but now that he lost Ning Linfeng, every minute and every second was so hard for him.

Too hard.

He thought, without Ning Linfeng, what would he have left in this world?

There is nothing left.

Without Ning Linfeng, he felt like he was going to die.

He was too tired, he didn't eat or drink for a few days, he passed out after drinking for a whole day, and now he had a high fever, before he fell asleep, he had only one thought in his mind, to chase Ning Linfeng back.

He thought, I always want to be with him, one month if one day fails, one year if one month fails, I still have a lifetime, I always want to be with him.

Qin Zhou has been dreaming. For a while, he dreamed that Ning Linfeng left him, coldly told him to get out, and told him not to touch him, and for a while, he dreamed that in high school, he confessed his love to Ning Linfeng, and the person only looked at him in surprise. I'm really sorry, I have someone I like.Dreamed about many things, one after another, Ning Linfeng always wanted to leave him.

His heart was pounding, he called Ning Linfeng's name, he woke up suddenly, and sat up.His eyes were blank, he looked at the needle on his wrist and knew he had arrived at the hospital.

There was no one else in the room except him. He stared blankly at the needle that started to return blood due to the violent action, and did not move until someone walked quickly into the room, rang the summoning bell, and helped him to lie down again.

He obeyed the man's movements, looked up at the man's tight lips, and said softly and contentedly, "Linfeng."

Ning Linfeng hummed, covered him with a quilt, then sat down on a chair beside him, and said lightly: "Xiao Li couldn't find you for a few days, so he called me around and asked me to go back to your place to have a look , You didn’t eat for a few days, you passed out with a high fever, and you were sent to the hospital again.”

Looking at Ning Linfeng, Qin Zhou felt as if he was dreaming, but then thought that dreaming is not such a good thing.Unlimited happiness suddenly surged in his heart, he thought, his Lin Feng always worried about him.

He was also a little embarrassed, they had known each other for so many years, yet there was such a moment, he was happy but had nothing to say.

Ning Linfeng didn't speak either.

During their silence, the nurse knocked on the door and entered the room. Seeing that he was awake, he asked about the situation, looked at the wounds on his arms, and asked him to eat some digestible food and pay attention to rest.

When the nurse left, Ning Linfeng also stood up. Qinzhou immediately became nervous and asked, "Where are you going?" He went to the floor, pursed his lips, stumbled and said, "If you're busy... then, I, I'm fine."

He couldn't say a sentence like you go first, but in the words, it meant that.

Ning Linfeng heard it clearly, and sighed in his heart, he didn't know how much he sighed.He had just returned to the ward, and happened to hear Qin Zhou wake up calling his name, so he sighed and waited for a while before coming in.

He looked at Qinzhou and just said, "I'll go buy you something to eat, and I'll be back in a while."

Qin Zhou raised his head in surprise, that look of surprise was a little too revealing, which made Ning Linfeng's eyes hurt.He wanted to sneer a little bit, and wanted to ask him why he acted like this, but the words rolled around in his throat, but he couldn't come out.He was a little tired, and knew in his heart that even if he stabbed Qin Zhou's heart with words, he would not feel happy.

He turned around and when he left the room, he heard Qin Zhou say cautiously but happily: "Then I'll wait here for you to come back."

Ning Linfeng came back in ten minutes, but ten minutes was so long for Qinzhou, he looked at the door, wanting to see through.

Ning Linfeng put down the porridge, lifted the bed, looked at him, and knew that he couldn't drink it by himself, so he fed him spoonful by spoonful.

Qin Zhou was very obedient, he ate spoon by spoon, Ning Linfeng was so close, he really wanted to look at him carefully, inch by inch, but he didn't dare, Ning Linfeng raised and lowered his elegant wrist, as if he was thin After a while, he really wanted to shake her hand and ask him if he was having a bad day, but he didn't dare.

He was silent, happy, and felt that he was so embarrassed that he had done all the disgraceful things, and Ning Linfeng waved his hand to let those things go, but now he was embarrassed and moved in front of this person, begging for mercy.

He thought, am I insane?He actually left such Ning Linfeng behind to be with someone who was somewhat similar to him.

The two of them were silent like that, until the bowl of porridge was finished, no one spoke.

Ning Linfeng looked at Qinzhou from top to bottom, seeing him with his head slightly lowered, his docile and trying to please people, like a big dog waiting to be petted by its owner.

He still doesn't speak.

At this time, his cell phone rang, he read the notes, picked up the phone, and gave a hello, with a little imperceptible intimacy.

Qin Zhou realized this intimacy, and suddenly tensed up.

The other side seemed to ask him what he was doing, and he replied, "It's in the hospital, something happened in Qinzhou."

There was a lot of talk there, and Qin Zhou could hear it vaguely, but felt that the tone was filled with righteous indignation.

Ning Linfeng listened patiently for a while, then got a little impatient, and said, "No need, I'll be home in a while, why, don't you think you haven't been photographed enough?"

Qin Zhou knew who it was. He lowered his eyes and chewed the word "go home", feeling extremely heartbroken.His eyebrows were wrinkled, his hands hidden under the quilt were clenched tightly, and his nails poked his palms fiercely.

Ning Linfeng finally said: "That's enough, that's enough, I understand after talking so much." After speaking, he hung up.

Qin Zhou heard the intimacy of Ning Linfeng talking on the phone with him in the past, his heart ached to the point of madness, and he seemed to be numb. He lowered his head and finally spoke. He didn't say a word about the phone call. Said: "I didn't invite you here on purpose, and I didn't expect that I would faint on the bed."

Ning Linfeng didn't expect him to say such a sentence, he froze for a moment, and said with a smile, "I don't think you will."

When Qin Zhou heard him laugh, he raised his head, and almost subconsciously, he also smiled. There was infinite tenderness in his brows, but there was a little joke in his voice, and asked: "Seeing that I fainted, are you so happy?"

Ning Linfeng nodded, and said frankly: "Although I am not a petty person, but you make me feel uncomfortable. I see you are unhappy, and I feel fair in my heart."

Qin Zhou's eyes were full of sadness, but he still smiled, and he said, "I'm sorry, I did a lot of things that made you sad, so I won't talk about those..." He paused, "That day in the restaurant, I I don't know what's wrong." He shook his head and laughed at himself, "In my bones, I'm not a good person. At that time, I didn't know how to reflect on myself, but I was overwhelmed by jealousy."

Ning Linfeng nodded and said, "I hit you too, it's fair and reasonable."

Qin Zhou looked at him and said, "You fought well." Then he said, "I deserve it, you can fight whatever you want."

Ning Linfeng nodded again, and agreed solemnly: "What you said makes sense."

Qin Zhou looked at him, looked at him very tenderly, smiled lightly, and lowered his eyelashes, like the ink painting of the smiling face of the first acquaintance, he said: "I'll come to chase you again, okay?"

He was so humble, he didn't even dare to say "start over from scratch", he just said, I'll come after you all over again, okay?

Ning Linfeng stared at him for a few seconds, smiled, and said, "I have a clear conscience all these years. Now that things are like this, there is nothing to say about the ending. Forget it."

Some ungrateful person downstairs honked the horn, and at the same time, Ning Linfeng's cell phone rang.He picked up the phone, waved his hand to Qin Zhou, and said, "That's it, take care."

Qin Zhou chased him out of bed and asked, "Do you have no love for me at all?"

Ning Linfeng didn't look back, paused, and answered, "Do you remember the cistern in the junior high school math problem that filled and drained water at the same time? You drained my cistern, and someone put his water in."

tbc

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