Starway Raiders

In Lou Zhan's heart, Shiguang is a very sunny person, he is very aggressive, he knows exactly what he needs and what he must give up, although he lacks some backbone, he has gained more others.

Lou Zhan disdains such flatterers.

But he had to admit that Shi Shi got what he only wanted because of this.

Lou Zhan has never seen it clearly.

It's just strange, although I dislike Shi Shi's behavior, but I don't feel angry about Shi Shi's sticking to me.At least at that time, he had 1 ways to keep time away from him, but he never thought about it.

Maybe it's too lonely.

he thinks.

From an early age he knew that his parents were busy.He also lost his temper, refused to eat or drink, cried and made a lot of noise, but since then, he realized that he could not stop his parents from being busy with work.

He couldn't remember exactly when it started.

But when he grew up, when he didn't like socializing with people, he heard people around him say that it was all the nanny's fault.

He couldn't even remember the nanny's face and name, and of course Lou's family wouldn't hire a nanny who would sneakily beat and scold him.

It is said that he was only brainwashed occasionally.

It is said that the nanny has recessive autism and suicidal tendencies.

It is said that the nanny knew that she was wrong, but she still came out to work because of the pressure of the family's life.

So when no one is around, she always gets sick.

She was keen to tell him how pitiful he was.It is better to say that he has parents than a poor child without parents. What is the use of guarding such a big house empty, it is better not to come to this house in the first place.

Repeatedly said to a three-year-old child that this world is so unfair, to live is to suffer, and children come to collect debts, and marrying a husband makes life even more tiring. If I had known this, I might as well have died from the beginning Forget it.The 11-year-old daughter of a relative in my hometown in the countryside was raped by an old man in the same village.The couple next door got into fights every day and smashed the head of their two-year-old son, turning him into a vegetative state.During the summer vacation, three six-year-old children went to the river and were washed away...

Countless negative energies entered Lou Zhan's ears and imprinted in his brain.

Little by little, little by little.

Until it can no longer be counted and wiped away.

Lou Zhan never thought about death because he was too young to understand the meaning of death, but the most important thing to him at that time was the nanny who accompanied him every day.

He listened to those words, day after day, year after year, and firmly remembered them in his heart.

I feel that the world is too dirty, even breathing makes people sick, and people will get sick if they touch it.

Mom and Dad don't love themselves, and they will hide when they see them.

Those children who come to the house have a purpose, and they don't want to be friends with him at all...

No one thought that a nanny's idle words would have such a big impact on a child, and no one knew that Lou Zhan was such a precocious person.

When he was in elementary school but he was unwilling to associate with any of his classmates, even when he was silent for a day without saying a word, Uncle Bai, who was transferred from the master's house, discovered the problem at a glance.

A child's world view is shaped by the words and deeds of those around him. A nanny completely destroyed Lou Zhan's perception of the world.

After that, the family tried their best to help him heal, Xun Lexue even took a hiatus for two years, but all the methods were exhausted, only to let Lou Zhan live as normal as possible.As for problems such as obsessive-compulsive disorder and cleanliness disorder, they have become deeply ingrained and become part of his body.

He is always at odds with those around him.

As he grows older, Lou Zhan also gradually realizes that he is abnormal, but he can't change it, so he can only pretend, act, and socialize as everyone expects, at least don't let himself become an outlier in the eyes of others.He went to university and lived on campus. Although he meant to deal with his family, he also meant to take a step forward and make friends.

So, he met time.

He thought, at the beginning, time should know nothing, right?He is close to himself, so sincere, just like all the college students of the same age around him, just like the rising sun, very warm and aggressive, even a little naive, always thinking that he must be able to illuminate and warm everyone.

time, light.

It's a pity that he missed that time.

He erected a cold wall with indifference, surrounded himself in it, and watched other people's lives with cold eyes, unmoved.

Time put his body against the ice wall, trying to warm him, but unfortunately he was frozen.

Shi Guang hit the ice wall with his fist and head, trying to pull him out, but his head was bleeding.

He watched Time's cry and worried eyes in the ice wall, unmoved.

He just looks at him.

Time knocked tired, hurt, and left helplessly.

Lou Zhan wasn't sure if he moved at that time.

It's a pity that time didn't look back at him again.

For a moment, Lou Zhan had this thought: Yes, they are just classmates, that's all.

The restless heart returned to calm again.

It sank deeper.

Another year passed, and I didn't expect time to come back again.

He didn't know from what channel Shi Shi knew his identity, and he could almost confirm it at a glance with a clear purpose.And as if he had experienced something before, his temperament changed drastically overnight, he became smoother, his mind became heavier, and he also had the kind of indomitable toughness that most people lack, it feels... It's like growing up.

Even those eyes that were childish and young yesterday were darkened, with too many emotions suppressed inside, making it hard to see through.

This time, he allowed time to approach.

He introduced Time to Tianheng, and even bluntly stated his identity.At least, he needs a peer to compare with, a sensible college student who understands what he should think and what he should not think is better.

So he retreated step by step, and the opponent pushed forward step by step. When he came back to his senses, the opponent was already standing beside him, walking side by side with him.

It feels so good.

You can feel the other person's body temperature, you can appreciate a person's elation and frustration up close, you can be called out when you are walking on the road, and then stop, watching the other person walk to you step by step, showing a brilliant smile. smile.

He has classmates.Have friends.With a normal college life.

He still remembered that early morning on the campus road, a large shady tree was neatly arranged on both sides of the road like soldiers, and the mottled light penetrated the branches of the trees and sprinkled on the yellow fallen leaves, as well as the body of time.

Time goes backwards, and the feet rustle on the dead leaves.He smiled to himself, revealing four bright white teeth that looked like pearls, and his narrow eyes became crescent moons, filled with a puddle of black and white delicacy.

At that moment, his heart moved inexplicably.

Unforgettable so far.

Maybe this is how it all started.

……

The person lying beside him turned over, and even in the dark, he was looking at him with gleaming eyes.

"Aren't you sleeping yet? It's almost two o'clock?"

Lou Zhan patted the other party lightly: "Go to sleep, I'm thinking about something."

"I can not sleep."

Then the speaker turned around and turned on the desk lamp, and the dim light descended on the bedroom, covering everything with a layer of golden edging, and also illuminating the face of time.

The four eyes faced each other, the light softened the facial features, the shadow of the other party was in the depths of the black eyes, and the tender warmth flowed endlessly between the two.

Shi Shi said: "I'm going to Denmark tomorrow. I'm so excited and a little nervous. I don't know how the preparations are going there, whether we can get married on time. And now that the media reports are like this, I'm afraid your grandpa's side will be even worse." I'll pay attention to me. I'm not saying that I have to get the old man's consent. I have never thought about the status of the Lou family. You also know that I have a little money now, which is nothing compared to the Lou family, but it is enough to support the two of us. The point is that when we got married, for example, when we asked if we would like it, the old man suddenly ran over and yelled that he didn’t want to, I must have a kidney failure! Let’s talk about it first. I don’t want you to do something, or Speaking of this matter, after all, it is a major event between us, the more blessings you receive, the better...I don't mean to ask you to persuade grandpa to agree, but I just say that when we chat like this...Grandpa, he I've been angry with you all the time, but I actually really mind it. Besides this incident, I'm actually a little worried about how the outside world will react. Although the media has long been speculating about our marriage, we haven't actually got married after all. After this time is over, I don’t know what the audience thinks. Even if Tianheng invests in making movies and arranges theaters for me, if the audience doesn’t buy it and don’t go to see it, you say once or twice is okay, and I feel sorry for more That money! Whose money came from the strong wind? Didn’t they all earn a little bit? Because I lost tens of millions of dollars, I feel very sorry for uncle. How about we rest for a while after we get married, and then Try to make one and see how the market responds. If it works, don’t force it. You know the mobile game I invested in, right? It was released half a year ago, and I endorsed and advertised for myself. Can you guess how much money I’ve made now? ? 8000 million! It’s only been half a year! And there are new mobile games under development, coupled with the search engine of the online shopping mall. So I just want to say, don’t worry about me if you can’t film, I always have another way out.”

"Hey."

"Hey! Lou Zhan, did you hear that?"

Lou Zhan woke up, sure that time had finally stopped his long speech, turned over to face him, hugged him into his arms, and said, "Sleep."

"..."

Lou Zhan rubbed Shi Guang's forehead and closed his eyes.

"..."

After half an hour.

Shi Shi suppressed his voice and asked, "Can you sleep?"

"Yeah." Lou Zhan replied with his eyes closed.

"Lou Zhan, we're getting married soon. Two men. We're getting married."

"Ah."

"Can you sleep?"

"..."

"Fell asleep?"

"..."

Time waited for a while, moved his body, hugged Lou Zhan tightly with his backhand, and said, "Lou Zhan, I'm so happy now, it's like a dream."

"Good night."

Shi Guang closed his eyes and forced himself to fall asleep.

next second.

He heard Lou Zhan say, "Me too."

The smile on the corner of Shi Shi's mouth suddenly bloomed, and he leaned over and kissed Lou Zhan: "Good night."

"Good night."

Shi Shi fell asleep soundly, but fell asleep in an instant.

Lou Zhan opened his eyes helplessly.

He used his eyes to describe the facial features of time in detail, silently recalling the chatter of time just now, waiting for the next sleepiness to come.

... The wedding scene should be almost ready.

... It doesn't matter to grandpa, anyway, mother's belly is a boy.

... If Shi Guang wants to make a movie, it doesn't matter if he invests in one film and loses one film, in short, he will work harder to earn his money back.

...Also, time is so rich now?You have to be optimistic about people, so as not to provoke a bunch of mad bees and butterflies.

... Ah!we are getting married...

……get married! ! ! ! !

……marry! ! ! ! ! ! !