Xiao Lang Jing

Liu Nengbin was dumbfounded when he heard about Song Qiran.

Originally, he just thought that Song Qiran hadn't had time to speak clearly with others, how could he know that the little policeman didn't know that Song Qiran liked him, or he didn't even know that there was such a person as Song Qiran.

It can really kill people.

Before Song Qiran finished speaking, Liu Nengbin interrupted him unbearably.

"No, what did you say you were planning?"

He shook Song Qiran with a heartbroken expression on his face, unaware that a little concern for the other party's injustice had already been revealed in his tone.

Song Qiran patted his hand.

"Then what are you planning?" He asked, "According to what you said, if it is for the benefit, you can force yourself to be with someone like Wang Li, so why not be more straightforward and make up a lie that you like it?" Girls, then you don’t have to come back here all the time, so you see, you can’t lie to someone you really like.”

Liu Nengbin was exposed, he let go of Song Qiran and touched his nose, and retorted in a low voice:

"Then you can't make yourself so miserable. You are not as good as me..."

After hearing Liu Nengbin's words, Song Qiran laughed again.

"So you really don't have to be jealous of me. I really haven't been luckier than you."

When Liu Nengbin heard those two words, he seemed to have lost face a lot, pushed Song Qiran away, and cursed unnaturally:

"Who the hell is jealous of you!"

He sat back on the bed and gave Song Qiran a flamboyant look.

"Let me tell you, don't think that you are great. In fact, it's not good to be like you. I don't care about it."

"Why not."

Liu Nengbin "cut" him.

"Take this little policeman as an example. Even if you really find him and tell him clearly, and he agrees to you, how can you be sure that it must mean that he likes you? Didn't I tell you, like you, long You look good, and the conditions of the family are good. It is very deceiving. Even a straight man like Wang Li may not reject you. But they agreed, and they didn’t really agree with that meaning. People who are in the same situation as you It’s not that I don’t know each other. We were together. For the first two years, I thought it was fresh, and it was okay to play. After a while, I recovered, and I still think it’s better to get married and have children. It’s just miserable.”

Song Qiran stopped talking.Liu Nengbin looked at him deflated, and was a little proud.

"You are not as good as me in this regard. You see, I don't have any outstanding advantages, but as long as I find someone who is willing to like me, it must mean that true love has not escaped."

Song Qiran let out a "poof".

"You're pretty optimistic."

Liu Nengbin snapped his fingers.

"That is, keep a positive attitude so that you can avoid entering the electric shock room."

He suddenly mentioned the electric shock room, and the atmosphere that had just become harmonious froze in an instant.Song Qiran's eyes also deepened.He hasn't forgotten his most important goal at this stage, dealing with Wang Li is only one aspect, and more importantly, leaving the rehabilitation center.

"People who come here can't escape that, right?" He asked Liu Nengbin.

Liu Nengbin didn't look too happy, but compared to Song Qiran's cautiousness, he was more accepting of the situation in front of him.

"You can't escape, don't even think about it." He replied to Song Qiran, "Bonus points can only allow you to escape punishment at most, but treatment must be done. The electric shock for treatment is different from when you are punished. I don't know. What kind of principle do they use? It seems to be called exposure therapy. I heard people say it before. It hooks up all your memories and bad experiences, so that when you think about it, you feel like you have been electrocuted. Cure us This kind of person just makes you unable to think about men. Thinking about it is like suffering, and you can’t make love. It hurts when you make love. In the end, you will forget all related things. Just forget it. But there are also sequelae. Like what I just said, there are some sexual disorders. These are all good. Some people are afraid when they see the same sex, and they don’t like being touched. They get goose bumps all over their bodies. , It’s uncomfortable, it’s disgusting to hear a louder voice, it’s not like a person, I’ll tell you, I’ve seen, the parents came over thankfully and took the person back, but it’s like taking back a machine, it won’t I can't laugh even when I cry, it's scary to watch."

Song Qiran shuddered.What Liu Nengbin described was what he was most worried about.He is not afraid of the hardships of life in the center, nor is he afraid of a bully like Wang Li. The only thing he is afraid of is that, as the director said that day, the treatment will deprive him of all his memories and feelings about Zhao Meng.

That bit of memory is inconspicuous, but it belongs to him alone, like the root system of weeds buried in the soil, no one can see it, and it grows wantonly and stubbornly.Once the rhizome is broken, it will wither.

"Is there no other way?" he asked quietly.

Liu Nengbin was silent for a while.Originally, he only intended to keep the silence, but after meeting Song Qiran's eyes, he couldn't help comforting him.

"Just bear with it and pass."

"What?" Song Qiran looked up at him.

There was a look on Liu Nengbin's face, which was very different from the tone of his mouth. It was not the kind of light and comforting look. There was something very serious in his eyes, and he looked more serious than ever before. Much more serious.

As if he was afraid that Song Qiran would not understand, he emphasized it again.

"Be patient."

Song Qiran understood.

Liu Nengbin is different from him. This is the third time he has been sent to the rehabilitation center.He has experienced all the things that Song Qiran has not experienced.

That's not a sentence, that's a hint.His eyes became surprised and puzzled, and just as he opened his mouth to continue asking, Liu Nengbin blocked his mouth.Liu Nengbin pointed to the schedule of the rehabilitation center on the wall, and made a silent gesture to Song Qiran.

Circles were drawn on that schedule.

Song Qiran knew that it was the day when he received electric shocks after the official treatment started.A time period preceding each shock treatment is marked with a red bold mark.

It's time to take your medicine.

Song Qiran had read the code of conduct of the rehabilitation center when he was staying at the hotel before, and there were some very strange clauses in it that left a deep impression on him, one of which was "do not take medicine on an empty stomach", and violating this rule is considered a serious violation of discipline, and attempts to The intensity of punishment for contacting the outside world without permission is the same level.

He didn't realize at the time that taking medicine was an important part of rehab.

"You know, the human brain is actually very fragile," Liu Nengbin told him in a low voice, "Have you seen TV dramas, many people have car accidents, or are injured and fell off a cliff, I like to make up a plot for you to lose memory , I used to think that the screenwriters couldn’t write things to write scribbles. Later, I realized that the hippocampus is very prone to problems in accidents. Once the human body suffers from insufficient oxygen supply, the area that stores memories is the first to be damaged. The doctors here are directly shocking your brain with a tiny dose, and they have to deal with it. Even if you turn homosexuality into impotence, you won’t be able to see it for a day or two, but it’s definitely not okay to accidentally turn you into a fool. So I guess, it must be because of that that they strictly supervise you to take the medicine. The medicine is to help control the dosage of the effect. If you don’t take it, there is risk, but if you take it, it will definitely fall into their way.”

Song Qiran suddenly became very vigilant.

"You mean, those medicines... have any bad ingredients?"

"I don't know what the ingredients are. I only know that after eating it for half an hour or an hour, your whole reaction will become very slow. The answer is not the kind of brain."

"Then no one secretly reduced the dose, or simply hid the medicine?" Song Qiran asked.

Liu Nengbin shook his head.

"Everyone eats it." He replied, "You talked to the director when you came in. Did they say that electrotherapy doesn't hurt at all? In fact, how can electrotherapy not hurt? No matter how small the dose of electricity is, it is very painful. It hurts, but they will tell you that that kind of medicine can be used to relieve the pain of electrotherapy, you will know if you try it, but you are not lying, taking the medicine does relieve the pain, but it does not happen instantly, it still hurts at the beginning , they will ask you some questions, slowly distract you, and then you lie there, your mind is clear, but your consciousness becomes as if it is not your own. Gradually your reaction slows down, they ask You can’t answer some basic common-sense questions. Just after the treatment, you will feel nauseous and nauseated, and you will be in a trance, but you really want to sleep. When you really go to sleep and wake up, you will talk to Waking up in the morning and knowing that I had a dream, but I can't remember what I dreamed. It feels like there is something in my mind that I can't remember anyway."

Liu Nengbin described it in detail, he had experienced everything, but he was still able to describe everything calmly, Song Qiran knew that he must have his own way to survive the previous two times.That gave him a glimmer of hope.

"What should I do?" he asked bluntly.

"Don't take medicine." Liu Nengbin replied, "It's not difficult. Almost everyone is afraid of pain, so here is only a rule that you can't take medicine on an empty stomach, but no one is watching you. As far as I am observing, it is still very casual when taking medicine. There are more than a dozen people in a room with one nurse, and each of them takes two medicines, and pours water to eat by himself. I tried hiding the medicine under the base of the tongue, it’s a capsule, it dissolves slowly, so you don’t have to swallow it all.”

"What did you think of it in the first place?"

Song Qiran originally thought that with Liu Nengbin's personality, he might seize the opportunity to show off his wit again, but Liu Nengbin just smiled miserably.

"What did you think of, I didn't think of it at all..." He jokingly replied, "When I first came in, I would be beaten to death, just like you today, I couldn't eat at all. Taking medicine on an empty stomach is against the rules, I'm too afraid of being punished I didn’t tell anyone, and lied to them that I had eaten it. In addition, my health has never been particularly good, and I couldn’t resist the side effects. I had a headache and nausea. After eating it, I ran to the toilet and vomited. Only then did I know."

"Know what?" Song Qiran asked nervously.

Liu Nengbin grinned at him, smiling very strangely.

"If you don't take the medicine, it will hurt. It hurts like dying. And what should be forgotten will be forgotten faster, but when they hypnotize you, you are at least awake."

"Will someone hypnotize you?" Song Qiran opened his eyes wide.

"Unexpectedly, it was not written in the admission manual. You said that if you took the medicine, you would be stunned and stunned, and you would never know that someone would intervene in hypnosis in the middle of the treatment. The electric shock will only scare you. It should be hypnosis that makes you shrink back. What really works in the subconscious is hypnosis. Forgotten things may be remembered again. I don’t want others to tamper with my consciousness. Anyway, after that, I never took it again medicine."

He coughed lightly.That was his secret, and he didn't intend to tell anyone about it, but hearing Song Qiran tell the story about Zhao Meng made him inexplicably feel some kind of sympathy for Song Qiran, or sympathy for each other.

Song Qiran didn't know, in fact, they were all the same, what they liked was someone who was close at hand, but didn't even know that there were people around him who liked him.

Liu Nengbin scratched the back of his head twice, lowered his head in embarrassment, and whispered to him:

"This is actually a stupid way. You may not believe it when you say it, but this is the only way. Even if you lose your memory, you can still keep the feeling in your subconscious. What I like...is the senior who was two years above me at the same school. In fact, we don't often When we met, he basically couldn't remember who I was, but last time I went back to school after a winter vacation here, and I met him by accident..."

Liu Nengbin took a deep breath, blushed and looked at Song Qiran,

"You're right. You can't lie to someone you really like. The moment I saw him, I knew that he must be different from others. I must have liked him. It feels like I have liked him in my previous life. In the last life, even if you don’t remember it, your feelings will still be there. Look here, it’s like a prison cell, everyone is still on guard against each other. I still have to give myself something to think about. This is the only thing I can fight for myself."

He grabbed Song Qiran's shoulder and said solemnly:

"But this method is also risky. If you don't take medicine for a long time, you will have some mild sequelae if you are directly connected to the electricity. I also have it. It is just like a nervous headache every once in a while.

"I'm not afraid." Song Qiran shook his head, Liu Nengbin's words made him clenched his palms tightly, and a burst of courage surged from his body.

"I know you are kind."

Liu Nengbin punched Song Qiran in the chest.

"So you have to persevere. It will be very painful if you don't take the medicine. You have to stay awake. No matter what questions they ask you during the hypnosis stage, you have to answer, otherwise they will see it. But believe me, as long as you If you can hold it back, when you see that little policeman of yours in the future, you will definitely understand what I'm talking about."

Song Qiran knew what Liu Nengbin was emphasizing.

He said that even if he doesn't remember it at that time, he can still feel it, as if he has liked someone for a long time, so long that it seems like the last life, the last life.As long as he and Zhao Meng still have a chance to meet, no matter how long they have been apart, he will immediately know that it is someone he once liked.

He will not really lose Zhao Meng, he will find his sweetheart back.

In any case, he had to go back to the provincial capital.

This time, he didn't hesitate any more.

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After being discharged from the hospital, Song Qiran bid farewell to his parents and went to the provincial capital alone, even though he could no longer remember it. Others thought he was angry with his family, and he himself did not understand why he had to choose the provincial capital, but his subconscious still told him to do so .

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