Bohemia

The train is late.

Yan Huan looked at the time, it was already 07:30 in the evening, he should have left here long ago.

He didn't want to stay in the crowded station, so he dragged his suitcase and walked out. Then, he went to a noodle shop to eat a bowl of Chongqing noodles.

A person.

When he realized that he was really going to stay away from Xie Xiunan, Yan Huan didn't feel relaxed for the first time.

The noodle shop is full of people, and the business here is pretty good.The proprietress yelled loudly, and the cook kept pouring bowls of noodles, like a precision instrument, and like a movie that has been filmed countless times.After Yan Huan ate his noodles, he sat on the chair and stared blankly for a while.The surroundings are very noisy, with various accents from all over the world, this is everything Yan Huan is familiar with.

Forget it, Xie Xiunan.

Yan Huan smiled self-deprecatingly, stretched his waist, Xie Xiunan was nothing special, just like the people he had met before.

He won't be with him all the time.

Yan Huan went to pay the money, and his stomach began to heat up.He wanted to smoke a cigarette in the cold wind, and under the street lamp, the stock in his shriveled cigarette case made him a little upset.

Let's look at the sea again, Yan Huan thought, look at the sea, write a diary, and then take the train.

Yan Huan walked casually on the road and smelled the sea.He stopped by the stone railing and saw a staircase there, and the waves came in waves and covered the stairs.

Yan Huan kept staring at the waves.He didn't know what he was thinking, maybe he was thinking, could he just walk on?

Go down the stairs and into the ocean.

After that……

Sea water covered the body.Don't struggle, don't make those unseemly yells, just dive slowly.

Do you want to take off your shoes?Yan Huan thought, maybe, maybe not.

What about clothes?have no idea.

When will his body be found?a week?a month?

Will fish eat his eyeballs?

Yan Huan thought a lot, and finally forced himself to look away.He rubbed his face with his hands and smoked another cigarette.

It wasn't the first time he had suicidal thoughts, definitely not.

But this may be the first time that Yan Huan felt that he was about to lose control of himself.

What a fucking world, he thought.

Yan Huan closed his eyes, as if he could see that room again, the blue-green wallpaper was about to peel off little by little, and then he...

"Yan Huan!"

He opened his eyes suddenly and froze for a moment.

"Yan Huan."

In the darkness in the distance, someone ran towards him quickly. He ran so fast that Yan Huan seemed to sprain his ankle when he saw him.

impossible.Yan Huan thought, what kind of monster is Xie Xiunan?

When Xie Xiunan ran in front of him, Yan Huan saw that he was carrying a cake box in his hand, it was transparent, and the cake inside had been mushy, it was a horrible sight.

Yan Huan stood up straight unconsciously, watching Xie Xiunan panting in front of him, the kind of panting after sprinting, his forehead was a little sweaty, and his breath in winter seemed to have turned into a palpable white mist.

Xie Xiunan just looked at him like this, Yan Huan thought he would be questioned angrily by Xie Xiunan, but Xie Xiunan didn't say anything.

In the end, it was Yan Huan who spoke first and said, "How did you find me?"

"Looking around." Xie Xiunan got better and calmed down a lot, "What are you doing here?"

"Look at the sea and smoke." Yan Huan smiled.

Xie Xiunan frowned at him and said, "That's all?"

"Yes." Yan Huan said.

Xie Xiunan said: "You resigned? Did you quit? I went back to find Sister Li, and she said..."

Yan Huan nodded and said, "Yes, I don't want to do it anymore."

"Are you leaving?" Xie Xiunan pursed his lips tightly.

"Yes." Yan Huan confessed.

Xie Xiunan lowered his head and said, "But you didn't tell me, and WeChat also blocked me."

"Yes." Yan Huan said cruelly.

After Yan Huan finished smoking, he pressed the cigarette end on the stone railing and said, "Didn't you already know that? I really thought I was your brother."

Yan Huan suddenly wanted to know where Xie Xiunan's bottom line was, and what did Xie Xiunan want from himself?

He is not that writer.

Xie Xiunan is more persistent and difficult than the writer who tried to understand Yan Huan.

Because of……

Yan Huan quickly rejected that ridiculous idea in his heart.

"Yan Huan." Xie Xiunan suddenly said with difficulty, "I thought that after so many days, I would have a little weight in your heart."

Yan Huan found it a little funny and asked, "So many days? Have we known each other for 20 days?"

"Soon." Xie Xiunan looked into his eyes.

"You want to follow me..." Yan Huan suddenly became interested, "But what exactly do you want? Huh?"

Xie Xiunan said, "I..."

"Let me guess." Yan Huan folded his hands on his chest, and slowly approached Xie Xiunan, "Money? There must be no money. Other than this, that is..."

He walked in front of Xie Xiunan, and said in a low voice: "Could it be that you want to..."

Xie Xiunan's Adam's apple twitched, Yan Huan reached out and touched his ear, "Shall I go to bed?"

Xie Xiunan's eyes widened immediately, and he stepped back, his eyes a little dodged. Yan Huan was taken aback, and laughed: "Fuck, is it true? Do you really like men?"

"Xie Xiunan, are you gay?" Yan Huan laughed, not knowing what he was proud of.

Xie Xiunan looked at him and said, "Aren't you? When I first met you, it was hard for me to think that you were not."

Yan Huan laughed enough, calmed down, and said, "I'm not, I'm just doing it for money."

"Do you want to? Yes, give me the money, and I will promise you." Yan Huan smiled, "But if I sleep with you, I may have to give you a discount. After all, I feel that I have earned it..."

Xie Xiunan said with some embarrassment: "Stop talking."

"Do you want it?" Yan Huan pressed hard, "Hurry up and decide, huh? After this village, there will be no such shop..."

"I told you to stop talking!" Xie Xiunan said angrily.

Yan Huan froze in place for a moment, this was the first time he saw Xie Xiunan lose his temper.

He thought a little inappropriately, Xie Xiunan was pretty good-looking when he lost his temper.

Xie Xiunan's facial features are deeper than the average person's, so he is a bit fierce when he keeps his face cold and silent.Yan Huan watched him clenched his fist, then loosened it, clenched it, then let it go... After a while, Xie Xiunan said, "Yan Huan, you have to love yourself."

These words really hit Yan Huan's nerves, he said: "Who the hell are you?! Get lost!"

Xie Xiunan said it again: "You have to love yourself."

Yan Huan trembled angrily, and stepped forward to beat Xie Xiunan, but Xie Xiunan grabbed his wrist.

"Let go!"

Xie Xiunan didn't say a word, Yan Huan felt a pain in his wrist, he was pushed to the stone railing by Xie Xiunan.

"Fuck." Yan Huan's waist bumped against it, and he cursed because of the pain.

Xie Xiunan lowered his head to look at him, Yan Huan raised his head, and said, "The wolf's tail is finally exposed, isn't it? It looks like it's usually dressed."

Xie Xiunan turned his head and looked at the stairs, just as the waves were hitting him, he suddenly said, "Did you just want to die?"

Yan Huan's body trembled, and his eyes widened in disbelief.

"Will you go down?" Xie Xiunan asked softly.

"None of your business!" Yan Huan said.

"Do you want to die?" Xie Xiunan asked.

"Go away!" Yan Huan lost his mind a little bit.

At this time, Xie Xiunan hugged him hard, no matter how Yan Huan beat him, Xie Xiunan didn't let go.

"Do you know what a drowned person looks like? It's fine if it's picked up quickly, but if it's soaked for a long time, the whole person will rot... Your body is full of those corrupt gases. Open your eyes, Tongue protruding..." Xie Xiunan said expressionlessly.

"Shut up!" Yan Huan was going crazy.

"Then, when you are salvaged, it may be incomplete... The rats in the water will bite off your ears and bite your lips..." Xie Xiunan continued.

Yan Huan said, "I'll bite you to death first!"

He really bites.

Because there was no other way, Xie Xiunan controlled his arms and couldn't kick him with his legs.

He bit Xie Xiunan's neck hard.

Xie Xiunan didn't even blink, and just let Yan Huan vent on him.

Xie Xiunan said softly: "...So, so you have to love yourself, Yan Huan."

After a while, Yan Huan let go and stopped struggling.

His nose was a little sore, and his eyes seemed to start to blur. He felt that he was bleeding from biting Xie Xiunan, and there was a faint smell of rust in his mouth.

Xie Xiunan was still holding him, and whispered in his ear, "Is it better?"

"No." Yan Huan closed his eyes.

Xie Xiunan let go of him a little bit, Yan Huan opened his eyes and saw the deep tooth marks on his neck.

Xie Xiunan smiled at him, and said, "Is it true that no one loves you? Then I'll be the first, okay?"

Yan Huan looked at him and thought, of course not.

But in the end, he couldn't say a word.