Bohemia

That kid is called Duoduo.

In Yan Huan's memory, this name is not often mentioned.Until Xie Xiunan broke into his life by mistake and awakened the past for no reason.It's not that Yan Huan never thought of refusing, but when the word Duoduo came out of his mouth, Yan Huan found a little comfort in a strange way.

He hasn't been home for a long time, and he hasn't seen that woman.Childhood is an indelible mark on him.He had been terrified, then numb, and now he was terrified again, but there was another person's flame in this fear.

In ancient times, fire was the most precious gift from the gods, and Xie Xiunan was the mercy God brought to Yan Huan.

He didn't want to lose him, but he accidentally made him cry.

Yan Huan thought, he has sinned deeply.

The two took a taxi back to the hotel from the Bund, and Xie Xiunan didn't speak again.After entering the hotel, he began to kiss Yan Huan.

It was the most intense the two had ever done.

Yan Huan was actually a little hurt, but he didn't stop Xie Xiunan.He looked up at Xie Xiunan, and even began to feel that there was a potential violence in Xie Xiunan.That violence is beautiful.He hoped that Xie Xiunan would choke his neck, suffocate him, and make him feel more pain.It wasn't until the two of them vented all the emptiness in their bodies that Yan Huan realized that Xie Xiunan's tears and sweat were mixed together.

"Don't leave me." Xie Xiunan said.

Although Yan Huan's eyes were open, his spirit was exhausted. He said, "I won't leave."

Xie Xiunan did something wrong, he carried him to take a bath, and while washing, he got angry again, and in the end Yan Huan felt that his footsteps were a little vain.

He wanted to make this drunken dream last longer.

Xie Xiunan hugged him and talked to him a lot, he said, "Duo Duo, come home with me and live in my room, or you can live next door to me. Calvin and I can help you repaint the walls Well, what color do you like?"

"By the way, I will help you apply for schools, so that we can study together every day, and we can go to the city to play during the holidays."

Yan Huan said, "Don't you hate going to school the most?"

Xie Xiunan shook his head and said, "I don't hate going to school anymore."

"why?"

"Because I don't want to make myself incapable."

"But it's good that you are in my heart." Yan Huan held Xie Xiunan's hand.

Xie Xiunan said, "It's not enough."

They hugged each other to sleep, Yan Huan didn't sleep well that night, he woke up many times, every time he woke up, Xie Xiunan patted his back with his hands, as if to say, I'm here.Yan Huan woke up in the morning, Xie Xiunan turned his back to him, he surrounded him from behind, a ray of light came through from the gap in the curtains, they were at a very high place, Yan Huan saw a black bird flying over Xie Xiunan's shoulder .

He suddenly felt that Xie Xiunan seemed to have grown up overnight.

Or he had grown smaller overnight.

But it's not possible...no, maybe it's possible.

Xie Xiunan stayed with Yan Huan in Shanghai for a few more days, and asked him, "Do you really want me to go home with you?"

Yan Huan still said: "Yes."

Xie Xiunan said: "Then I'll buy you a ticket. Let's go to Suzhou to meet my grandfather first."

"Okay." Yan Huan didn't refuse.

When it comes to meeting his parents, Xie Xiunan is very persistent, Yan Huan doesn't want to let Xie Xiunan down again, although he knows 100% that his existence will not satisfy Xie Xiunan's family.

But he doesn't care, he just wants Xie Xiunan to be happy.

In the past few days, the two of them stayed together almost every second, but Yan Huan always felt that something was about to happen, but he also felt that he was just thinking too much.

Xie Xiunan planned such a wonderful life for him, Yan Huan didn't want to believe it, but he couldn't help being attracted.He began to fantasize, he thought, maybe he could really go home with Xie Xiunan and go to a new country together.A few years later, he will be another Yan Huan.

But will all this really go so smoothly?

No, at least not yet.

That day, the two had a quarrel with Li Guoxing and broke up, but Li Guoxing didn't let it go, he called and hoped to discuss it with Yan Huan again.Xie Xiunan was busy editing the film, Yan Huan thought about it, and found an excuse to slip away by himself.

On a night in early summer, Li Guoxing was sweating profusely, and Yan Huan bought him a cold drink on the side of the road.

Li Guoxing was a little stunned, he laughed, and said, "You kid has always been very interesting."

Yan Huan said, "What orders are you going to give us?"

Li Guoxing said: "If you don't want to publish the book, you can just publish it. There will be opportunities in the future. I have accepted some commercials for your cooperation recently. If Xie Xiunan is creative, you can shoot them."

Yan Huan thought for a while, and said, "He may be going home to school."

Li Guoxing raised his voice and said, "What?"

"Go to school." Yan Huan explained, "I guess he doesn't have much time."

Li Guoxing said: "How could this be? Hey, no, don't you guys understand? It's not good for you to do something now. Going to school is meaningless."

Yan Huan said: "But people always have to go to school, don't they? He's still young."

Li Guoxing looked as if the sky was falling, and suddenly said: "You have signed the contract, this live broadcast must be done to the full."

Yan Huan said, "Then I'll come."

"You?" Li Guoxing looked him up and down.

Yan Huan frowned and said, "Yes, what's wrong?"

Li Guoxing hesitated to speak, and finally said: "Little friend, you are not the one who is talented."

"what?"

Li Guoxing said with regret: "It's a pity for you, it can explode."

Before Yan Huan could react, Li Guoxing left.He stood at the same spot, watching Li Guoxing's back going away, his mind was full of the last few words he left.

It's not you who is talented.

Yes, the talented one has never... never been him.

Yan Huan felt that his heart was pierced by something, and the inside flowed out, even if it hurts, it didn't hurt, because it was a fact he knew a long time ago.But the feeling was still indescribable, aggrieved and out of breath.

Until returning to the hotel, Xie Xiunan said, "Are you back?"

Only then did Yan Huan come to his senses, and he handed him the ice cream in his hand, and asked, "What film are you editing?"

Xie Xiunan said mysteriously, "I'll show you later."

The two set off for Suzhou. Recently, Xie Xiunan seldom broadcast live.Yan Huan took out his mobile phone and chatted with netizens for a while, not too much.Suzhou is very close to Shanghai, so he and Xie Xiunan went directly to the university to wait for his grandfather.

Professor Xie and Yan Huan thought the same, very kind and polite, and did not make people feel uncomfortable at all.After they had dinner, Professor Xie took the initiative to show them around the campus.The next day, the three of them went to the Humble Administrator's Garden again.

But this didn't reassure Yan Huan, it just made Li Guoxing's words imprinted deeper in his mind.

They returned to the place where Xie Xiunan lived when he was a child.Yan Huan slept on Xie Xiunan's bed, and saw the poster he put up many years ago.

"Do you like Hokage?" Yan Huan asked.

Xie Xiunan slept next to him, and said, "Well, I was obsessed at the time, and I chased after him for a long, long time."

"who do you like?"

"Naruto." Xie Xiunan said, "Stupid."

"He's not stupid."

Xie Xiunan kissed him and said, "Well, good night, Duo."

Yan Huan slept until midnight, feeling a little thirsty, so he took a sip of water.The lights in the living room were still on, and Professor Xie was still awake.

"Professor Xie." Yan Huan called him.

Professor Xie was reading a book, he waved to Yan Huan, and said with a smile, "Are you awake?"

"Yeah." Yan Huan said, "I can't sleep well, this is... your wife?"

Professor Xie took the photo frame on the table and said nostalgicly, "Yes, she has been away from me for almost 25 years."

Yan Huan didn't speak. Professor Xie took off his glasses and looked at Yan Huan wearily, as if he wanted to say something.

Yan Huan took the initiative and said, "I understand."

"What?" Professor Xie was a little surprised.

Yan Huan smiled and said: "I understand that I am not worthy. Xie Xiunan is very good, this place is very good, and you are also very good. Although I have never met his parents, I believe they must be very good people."

"But I'm not."

"I...I'm the one who shouldn't be with Xie Xiunan."

Professor Xie stared at Yan Huan seriously, remained silent for a long time, and finally said: "It's getting late, go to sleep."