Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

In the following days, Li Shi'an was out of his mind every day. He asked Zhuang Jing for personal leave, saying that there was something at home, and he refused to tell what it was.

Zhuang Jing asked Li Qishan for verification, but Li Qishan didn't explain clearly, but still asked Zhuang Jing to approve Li Shi'an's leave.

From this day on, Li Shi'an stayed at home watching movies in the dark, sleeping, and feeling so boring when he woke up.

Shen Yan saw it in his eyes and was anxious in his heart, but he didn't know how to enlighten others, so he could only make as detailed notes as possible in every class, so that it would be convenient for Li Shi'an to take tutoring after he was depressed for a while.

Lao Xie and Zhu He couldn't see Li Shi'an for a few days, and he didn't reply to his WeChat messages. They were also anxious, and began to question Shen Yan, who had been acting calmly: "Shi'an's family said something happened, what is it? Listen to him, shall we?"

Shen Yan nodded. He was packing his books and rushing to the training room. Just now Lu Fei sent him a WeChat message saying that he met Li Shi'an, and asked Shen Yan if he was going there too. Shen Yan didn't plan to go there today to practice dance, but wanted to see Look at Li Shi'an.

Zhu He asked: "What's the matter? I haven't responded to WeChat or phone calls these days? Could something be wrong?"

Shen Yan zipped up his schoolbag and said, "There's no trouble, don't worry, he's just resting for a few days."

Lao Xie was almost suffocated by Shen Yan's half-talking temper, so he simply pulled Zhu He and said, "Well, anyway, school is over now, why don't we go and have a look together?"

"He's not at home now." Shen Yan put his schoolbag on his back and stood up. Facing Lao Xie's questioning eyes, Shen Yan was finally forced to give him an explanation, "I live next door to his house. I'm really fine, don't worry."

After speaking, Shen Yan hurried away, leaving Lao Xie and Zhu He looking at each other.

Shen Xueba and Li Shi'an are actually neighbors?This kid Li Shi'an can really hide!

When Shen Yan came to the building, many students after school had already gone to the training classroom in twos and threes. Li Shi'an saw that the studio was crowded with people and was coming out of it. When he bumped into Shen Yan, he naturally stepped forward and put his shoulders on him and said, "Go, let's eat noodles." .”

The two came to Chang Lai Noodle Restaurant, and even in his busy schedule, Lao Chang quickly served noodles for them, plus a bowl of hot vegetables and a hard-boiled egg for each of them.

Li Shi'an slurped eating noodles, but Shen Yan was not in the mood. He couldn't hold back his words, and asked Li Shi'an, "When are you going to school?"

Li Shi'an raised his face, and quickly said indifferently: "The final exam is three days away, so what does it matter if you don't go back?"

"Do you still know about the final exam?" If it weren't for knowing that something happened to Li Shi'an's family, Shen Yan would have been bored with his dead pig's unafraid of being scalded by boiling water, but Shen Yan was really worried about just such a person, " It’s okay if you don’t go back, I’ll continue to give you extra lessons at night.”

Li Shi'an picked and picked a few noodles in the bowl, but didn't speak.

Shen Yan regarded him as a refusal, and said angrily: "Don't you want to take the X beauty test? How do you take the test with your poor grades..."

"Did I say I won't let you make it up?" Li Shi'an interrupted Shen Yan aggrievedly before he could bite off the noodles, looking quite happy.

These days at home, Li Shi'an couldn't stop thinking about the truth about Liang Jing's departure, but after all, he couldn't let this matter affect him for the rest of his life, right?Li Qishan never came back, probably to let him calm down for a while.

Li Shi'an is not a child who sticks to the horns. The biggest difference between him and Shen Yan is that when Shen Yan suffers from fate, he always thinks about how to fight against the world, while he always thinks about how to reconcile with the world.

Li Shi'an is like a tree with strong self-healing ability. Even if a branch is accidentally broken in a storm, it does not prevent him from stretching the remaining leaf buds in the sunshine after the storm.

It is one thing to have conflicts with Li Qishan, but it is another thing to study, he can clearly understand that it is almost time for him to be decadent for so long, if this continues, he will be destroyed.

In fact, he read the book for about half an hour before coming to Lao Yu's place today, but he couldn't read it at all, Shen Yan appeared just right.

Now that Shen Yan heard Li Shi'an's words just now, he was also relieved, and he had already started to think about which homework he would start to make up for tonight. When he thought of the papers Li Shi'an had pulled down, his mind was in a mess.

"Then hurry up and eat. I don't know when I will make up for tonight after so much homework."

Li Shi'an had already finished eating, and it was Shen Yan who was struggling there alone. Li Shi'an watched Shen Yan grab the chopsticks, put his elbows on the table, leaned over and asked, "Hey, classmate Shen Yan, the dance studio is not free today." Ah, what are you doing here? Don’t you miss me?”

Shen Yan had just swallowed the noodles, and was almost choked to death by Li Shi'an's words.

In this way, with the conscientious and diligent help of student Shen Yan, student Li Shi'an still failed the final exam, grade 47, and dropped two places from the mid-term.

In just three days of assault, Li Shi'an knew that Shen Yan was doing his best for him, so he circled a lot of key points for him, and even accompanied him to study the questions until midnight.

Li Shi'an couldn't help feeling: "If you have such a friend, what can you ask for?"

Of course, I didn’t think like this during the three days when I was doing the questions. What I thought about in those three days was: Don’t let me sleep and break up with you after finishing this question!

Shen Yan finally got the first place in the grade this time, dropped No.2 by a full 8 points, and blinded the eyes of the other six classes. Even the always the most arrogant class teacher of the seventh class began to regret letting go of Shen Yan, a top student.

There were even rumors that the head teacher of the seventh class in the grade approached Shen Yan and asked him to transfer classes.

On the first day of the official summer vacation, Li Shi'an accompanied Shen Yan to the community swimming pool to practice dancing. Li Shi'an sat on the edge of the pool without water, and said boredly, "The old man from class [-] really looked for you?"

There is a resting platform in the swimming pool. There is a row of handrails along the resting platform near the swimming pool, and a row of floor-to-ceiling windows on the opposite side. It looks like a mirror at night. It is a good place to practice dancing. The only downside is that the floor is made of floor tiles instead of floor glue , there is no buffer, and there is no way to jump, but it is enough to correct the movement and practice the basics.

Shen Yan was correcting his movements facing the huge floor-to-ceiling windows of the swimming pool in the community, and he answered Li Shi'an: "Yes."

Li Shi'an got excited: "How did you tell him?"

Shen Yan said casually: "I told him that I will take an art and sports class next year."

"How did he say?"

"He asked me to think carefully, saying that with my grades, there is absolutely no need to be an art candidate."

"How did you answer him?"

"I told him that for me, the college entrance examination is what I need to choose, and dancing is a must."

"Hahahaha." Li Shi'an raised his head and laughed, as if he was so happy to see the arrogant old head teacher of class [-] slumped in front of Shen Yan.

After the fun, he fell into silence again, remembering the WeChat message Li Qishan had sent to him during the day, asking him if he wanted to travel to Luozhi Lake.

Luozhi Lake is a very beautiful plateau lake. Li Qishan knew that Li Shi'an liked that place very much. He had made promises to his son several times before, but the trip failed in the end.

The father and son haven't seen each other for a while, the so-called knowing son is like a father, Li Qishan knew that Li Shi'an should get over that period, and hoped to mend the relationship between father and son through the trip.

It's a pity that the reason why Liang Jing left has become a thorn in Li Shi'an's heart, and he replied to Li Qishan: [I don't want to go, I failed the exam, Shen Yan will make up lessons with me. 】

Li Qishan replied to him: [Call Shen Yan together, if you don't want Dad to go, Dad will send you off and leave. 】

Li Qishan's answer reveals a father's cautiousness, as if his suggestion to travel is for Li Shi'an's happiness, not for anything else.

Li Shi'an suddenly felt distressed, he hesitated, but did not reply immediately.

Li Qishan had been hanging out for a full two hours by now, Li Shi'an thought about it, and suddenly asked Shen Yan: "The summer vacation is so long, do you want to go on a trip together?"

His voice is lazy, but it seems to be wrapped in the morning dew and birdsong in the deep and secret forest, passing through the hot summer wind, cool to the bone.

Shen Yan almost sprained his foot, he hurriedly helped the handrail and asked, "Where...where?"

Then a walk-and-go trip began.

Luozhi Lake is a ten-hour drive from D City. Li Qishan drove the two children there. During the time, Shen Yan was there. He didn't have a chance to talk to Li Shi'an. Seeing that it was a hard day to send the children to him, he should fulfill his promise to send them and leave. In the end, Li Shi'an finally retained him on the grounds that it was late and the mountain road was not safe.

It's just that Lao Li opened a suite, and Li Shi'an went to sleep in Shen Yan's room.

It clearly means refusing to communicate.

It wasn't the first time that Li Shi'an squeezed a bed with Shen Yan here, he didn't feel embarrassed at all, and asked Shen Yan to move to the side when he got on the bed.

Shen Yan had always been looking forward to accepting Li Shi'an's invitation to go on a trip from the very beginning. It was only when he got in the car in the morning that he realized that the father and son were using him as a human shield. Now, why are you still not reconciled?"

In the cold night on the plateau, Li Shi'an squeezed towards Shen Yan as if he was afraid of the cold, his expression seemed to be seriously thinking about Shen Yan's question.

After calming down, Li Shi'an actually thought about this matter. To be honest, Li Qishan is a responsible father, and he has never seen him with a woman who is not good at all these years, so he feels that Li Qishan is cheating, which may not be true.

But this matter has its own cruelty, that is, if Li Qishan hadn't cheated back then, then Li Shi'an had to accept the fact that Liang Jing didn't want him, or even want him to come to this world.

This is too difficult for Li Shi'an, even if the woman who should be called "mother" has never looked after him for a day, Li Shi'an still feels uncomfortable when she thinks that she doesn't want him.

And every time he thinks about this, Li Shi'an can understand why Li Qishan has kept his mouth shut for so many years, and also understands how much he loves himself as a father.

Because of his cowardice, Li Qishan suffered such unfair treatment, and Li Shi'an was also full of guilt. He said, "Actually, I've been angry for a long time, but I'm not ready to tell my dad yet."

Facing Shen Yan's puzzled eyes, Li Shi'an told him another truth that Li Qishan told him that night, and Shen Yan asked, "So, you still think your father's words are more believable?"

"What else? After all, my dad has raised me for the past 16 years. If his private life is chaotic, he should have married ten times or eight times." After saying this, Li Shi'an still felt sad. He heard that his mother was always unconditional. He loves his children, but he is an exception.

Shen Yan asked: "Then do you hate your mother?"

"Hate." Li Shi'an blurted out.

The conversation came to an abrupt end, and the two were silent for a long time. Li Shi'an suddenly remembered that Shen Yan's family situation seemed to be very special, and he asked, "Where's your father?"

Shen Yan looked at the ceiling with a dull expression, and said without a trace of emotion: "My father is dead."

Li Shi'an seemed to notice Shen Yan's hesitation when he said this, but after a day's driving, he was so sleepy that he didn't think about anything, and just replied vaguely: "In comparison, death is a decent confession. "

After speaking, he tucked in the quilt tightly and squeezed towards Shen Yan, then closed his eyes.

At first, Li Shi'an climbed into his bed and Shen Yan was just a little secretly happy, and he couldn't tell the reason, but he was very happy anyway.

Later, the faint joy was diluted by the conversation between the two of them. Li Shi'an squeezed, and the loose pajama pants shrank up, touching Shen Yan's bare legs under the shorts, skin to skin, slippery Very weird.

Shen Yan let Li Shi'an lean on him, and he didn't dare to move, because he didn't want Li Shi'an to move away, and hoped that he would just keep leaning on him.

The night on the plateau was cool and the moonlight came in through the tulle curtains. Looking at the cold white sleeping face under the moonlight, Shen Yan couldn't help but think of the feeling when he fiddled with Li Shi'an's eyelashes that night.

That night he stole a tear from Li Shi'an, and the tears wetted his fingers, and the wet feeling stuck to his hand as if it had never disappeared, making him want to touch it again.

After making sure that Li Shi'an was asleep, Shen Yan did the same.The moist feeling is gone, but the tingling that suddenly hits the spinal cord is still addictive.

Shen Yan is a very smart kid. He had always interpreted that he wanted to study with Li Shi'an and go to college in the same city as Li Shi'an, and he understood it as wanting to stay with his only friend. Even this trip, those uncontrollable emotions Little expectations, he deliberately misinterpreted them as his longing for travel.

But when he made such an almost ambiguous move towards Li Shi'an for the second time, he understood what it meant almost instantly.

Between friends, there is no such desire for skin-to-skin contact.

Because of the ups and downs of his childhood, Shen Yan has always shown a posture of resistance to any emotion. He thought that he didn't need the so-called love and love, and he always looked down on that kind of emotion, but he never thought that he not only needed, Also very out of line.

What does it mean to pursue a same-sex relationship?To be honest, Shen Yan doesn't care what irrelevant people think, but what would Li Shi'an think?

After getting along for so long, Shen Yan knew that Li Shi'an was the kind of child who seemed to be rebellious, but it was only on the surface, he was actually very obedient and well-behaved.

Will an obedient and well-behaved person accept unconventional feelings?Besides, Shen Yan knew very well in his heart that "normal" boys would like girls.

In other words, Li Shi'an will fall in love with a girl in the future, get married and have children, and will go to the end of the road of obedience and obedience.

Self-knowledge and sobriety made Shen Yan fall into a kind of infinite fear and ignorance. Looking at Li Shi'an who was so close, his breathing was a little tight. He said word by word with his mouth: I like you, Li Shi'an.