Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

On the first day of school, even though he witnessed Li Shi'an turning a blind eye at the swimming pool the night before, Shen Yan still waited at the door for a long time. After a little bit of disappointment, he rushed to school 10 minutes before class.

Before the sophomore class, he also reported to the original class. As soon as Shen Yan entered the classroom, he heard that Zhuang Jing called him to go to the office. He didn't know that Li Shi'an was there until he opened the door of the office, so he walked over and stood side by side with Li Shi'an.

"You two, you two agreed to make me mad, right?" Zhuang Jing poked the two of them on the forehead and scolded.

Shen Yan had a puzzled look on his face, it wasn't a fight or a brawl, and he didn't know where Zhuang Jing was recruited. After listening to her heartbroken for a long while, he finally realized that he was talking about his transfer.

Zhuang Jing persuaded Shen Yan not to take the art test. This child's grades are too good. In the future, there will be a lot of first-class colleges to choose from. It would be a pity to take the art test. Of course, she also has her own selfish intentions and wants to keep this top student.

Of course Shen Yan was unmoved, for him dancing was the most important thing, and he said like an oath: "I like dancing, and what I like must be done to the extreme."

Hearing this, Li Shi'an seemed to be accusing himself of going back on his word, and said to himself, isn't the matter of not taking the art test already over?What's the meaning?

Zhuang Jing asked Li Shi'an to take the art test, and she really thought of him, because Li Shi'an's grades were not stable, and taking the art test was a safe choice, but when Shen Yan didn't come, he held back and didn't speak, but now Said: "I like painting, just like it, and I dare not say that I can like it for a lifetime, let alone rely on it for a living. What I like may not be a lifelong choice."

Secretly pinching the two of them for a while, it was reasonable anyway, Zhuang Jing couldn't listen to anything else she said.

Shen Yan didn't mean to allude to Li Shi'an just now, he just said that he insisted on dancing, and Li Shi'an's reply, Shen Yan also heard a different flavor.

What is "like not necessarily as a life-long choice"?He was already holding back his anger at someone who saw him outside the swimming pool last night and pretended he didn't see him, and he was also angry at him this morning. He was even more heartbroken to hear this. A hint to leave him alone?

Shen Yan said angrily to Zhuang Jing: "I will apply to a foreign dance academy in the second semester of my sophomore year, so don't worry about it."

Since she was going abroad, Zhuang Jing had nothing to say, so she let him go, leaving Li Shi'an to continue persuading her.

Li Shi'an's mind was buzzing, and the words of applying for foreign colleges lingered in his ears. He didn't listen to what Zhuang Jing said. He thought of every little friend who left when he was young, and felt that this was what it should have been. ending.

Perhaps the ending was doomed since Shen Yan's behavior crossed the line that night.

Shen Yan finally went to the art test class, and Li Shi'an stayed in Class 1. The relationship between the two seemed to end without a problem, and they didn't say hello when they met every day. They just walked back and forth on the way to school, exactly the same as when Shen Yan first transferred. .

Suddenly changing back to a person, Li Shi'an is not quite used to it, and feels that there is Shen Yan's breath everywhere in the house.

His slippers are still in the shoe cabinet, his recipes are posted on the refrigerator in the kitchen, his cups are on the dining table, there is a set of pajamas in the closet specially reserved for him to wear, his toothbrush is in the bathroom, and on the desk There are the wet paper towels he used to wipe the table when he left, and even the draft book that Li Shi'an is using now is the formula he left when he lectured.

Li Shi'an casually poured the city hourglass at hand, and the fine sand began to leak down, making a weak, "sizzling" sound.

By the way, the hourglass was also given by Shen Yan.At that time, it was also Shen Yan who was making trouble, he even forgot to say that he likes this hourglass very much.

Left, only to find that he has invaded your bit by bit.

Li Shi'an was very helpless, because he knew that Shen Yan's feelings for him were "wrong", and keeping a distance was the right choice, but he couldn't help thinking about it, especially when he went home and faced the empty room every day, When listening to Li Qishan's constant apology for thousands of years, when ordering takeaways of varying quality.

Everything turned bleak.

The study in the second year of high school was obviously a lot more nervous. After Shen Yan left, Li Shi'an felt that the study was boring. Although he was not too slack, he didn't have much effort. The turning point of all this was one night.

When Li Qishan came back that night, he was drunk and vomited until Li Shi'an saw blood in the contents, so he took a taxi to the hospital overnight.

The doctor said it was nothing serious, but everything has a beginning when it comes to an end.

What's the meaning?It means that if you continue to drink and boil like that, you will be useless sooner or later.Li Qishan promised the doctor to take good care of him, but he turned around with the indwelling needle within two days.

Alcohol may be avoided, but busyness cannot.

From that day on, Li Shi'an really felt the burden on his shoulders, and began to study hard. He studied according to the method Shen Yan had formulated for him before, and he didn't watch the movie. Focus on learning.

He was already smart, so he calmed down to study, his grades improved a lot, and his mid-term grades caught up with Zhu He.

Shen Yan quit their small group. Zhu He got the grade ranking and saw Shen Yan's rank, and suddenly asked Li Shi'an: "Good guy, Shen Yan is the second grade this time, alas, he went to the art test class and ignored him." What about us?"

Li Shi'an brushed the questions, and answered perfunctorily: "Now I have to study art and culture, so be busy."

Old Xie suddenly jumped out and said, "I'll tell you a gossip about Shen Yan. Do you know who the first grade is this time?"

The number one in grade has always been Zhu He's goal, especially this girl who dominated the first grade all year round before Shen Yan came, of course he knew: "Tong Min!"

Li Shi'an wondered, what kind of gossip could Shen Yan have?What does it have to do with Tong Min?

Lao Xie didn't make a fool of himself, and said mysteriously: "Tong Min is chasing Shen Yan, that girl is a study committee member of Class 7, she has good grades, she is pretty, and no one can see how proud she is. Last semester, I heard that Shen Yan snatched the first place in the grade last semester, so I paid attention to Shen Yan, and then I saw that Shen Yan ran to the art test class, such unruly and unconventional wild schoolgirls like it the most Yes, I handed you a love letter after the midterm exam."

Zhu He was speechless: "What is 'rebellious'? What is 'unconventional'? What is 'wild way'? Can you speak?"

"That's what it is," Lao Xie said. "How could he take the art test with such good grades? When he came to me, I thought he was an embroidered pillow!"

Zhu He: "This is what makes people have their own ambitions..."

"It's obviously stupid..."

The two got into a pinch, and Li Shi'an wanted to ask Shen Yan if he had accepted the love letter, but couldn't get in the way.

After thinking about it, why do I care if I have received the love letter?So I gave up on this matter, and I didn't know why, but I was sulking.

Studying is boring, life is boring, it’s boring without movies, it’s boring not being able to draw, and it’s boring without Shen Yan.Li Shi'an grew up little by little in such a boring life. The strange thing is that he always wanted to grow up when he was a child, but now, he only hopes that time can slow down.

Li Shi'an got a new deskmate after the sophomore class. One day in the self-study class, the new deskmate was always muttering words. When Li Shi'an recalled a formula, he was influenced several times. He couldn't bear it, and roared: "Shut up!"

With this voice, the whole class looked back. Li Shi'an was famous for his easy-going temper in the class. No one knew why he lost his temper, and he didn't know it himself. Without saying a word, I felt that after I stopped drawing and painting, my temper seemed to become irritable unconsciously.

Lao Xie and Zhu He turned around and looked at him with concern, but he packed up his things and walked out of the classroom.

The impetuous feeling hadn't disappeared these days, and Li Shi'an couldn't explain why. He couldn't continue doing the problems all night, so he took off his glasses and opened the window to let in the night wind.

The lights in the swimming pool were on, and he saw a blurry figure dancing in it, so he quickly put on his glasses again, and at a glance, it was indeed Shen Yan.

Shen Yan had been practicing in the swimming pool for a long time, and when he was tired, he collapsed on the swimming pool resting platform, motionless.

He was thinking about the long gone summer vacation, the happiest summer vacation of his life.

Thinking of Li Shi'an watching him busy in the kitchen, fearing that he would blow up the kitchen, Shen Yan thought it was funny, and then he really laughed out loud, but with a smile, tears fell down his face.

The love of a seventeen or eighteen-year-old boy does not need to experience anything unforgettable. All the experiences of this period of time are unforgettable.

He really liked that person, but, without giving him a chance to say it, everything ended without a problem.

why?

Shen Yan is very smart, he can find the reason why he made a mistake on a complicated topic, he can find a dish that is difficult to prepare, and the presentation method is simple and yet flavorful, but he can't find the reason why Li Shi'an avoids it.

Because he doesn't like other kinds of feelings, or because he is afraid of others' ridicule?

Sometimes he really wanted to ask Li Shi'an to ask, but he remembered that when he met him one morning, Li Shi'an turned around and went downstairs, avoiding him was like avoiding the plague.

Shen Yan rubbed his face hard, and continued to lie motionless.

Upstairs, Li Shi'an also watched without moving, remembering what Shen Yan said two months ago about going abroad, he accidentally took out his mobile phone and took a photo of Shen Yan lying on the rest table.

In fact, it is impossible to see people's facial features clearly from such a distance, but Li Shi'an still saved the photos.

When he clicked on the photo album, he flicked the screen twice, and accidentally saw the photo of Shen Yan's clothes deformed on their sofa, he was a little dazed, he clicked delete, and finally clicked cancel again.

Looking at the swimming pool again, Shen Yan was already practicing dancing.

Li Shi'an also went back to the desk and continued to write questions. For some reason, this time he calmed down.

From this night on, he would lie on the window and watch for a while every night, when he was stuck doing a problem, he would lie on the window and watch for a while, if he didn't want to do it, he would lie on the window for a while, and when he was done, he would lie on the window and watch for a while.

In this way, night became Li Shi'an's most anticipated moment of the day, a dull and boring life, a restless soul, only when he hid in the window at night and peeked at Shen Yan's dance practice, he could find a trace of peace.

This kind of calm comes from Shen Yan's quiet temperament, as if everything is empty, only him and his dance are left.

In Shen Yan, Li Shi'an likes this the most. The spirit of persistence and excellence is what he lacks.The sketchbook in hand was dusty, he gave up, but Shen Yan downstairs persisted.

It's good to hold on, he thought.

At this moment, Shen Yan, who was still practicing in the swimming pool, suddenly became unsteady, and his body swayed for a while. Li Shi'an upstairs followed him and became nervous, and he couldn't help but grab the curtain beside him.

Shen Yan twisted his foot, and when he hopped one foot to lean against the corner, he inadvertently caught a glimpse of a figure somewhere upstairs on the opposite side, but when he looked up, there was no one there.

He looked around the floor, his heart pounding.

Li Shi'an hid behind the curtain, he saw Shen Yan raised his head, but he didn't know if Shen Yan had noticed him, he closed the curtain indiscriminately, and went back to the desk, but couldn't read a word.

Shen Yan was sure that the person he saw just now was Li Shi'an, and Li Shi'an was watching him secretly. No matter what the reason was, he wanted to ask and confess his love in person, but he felt useless when he was rejected thousands of miles away without saying anything.

Climbing up the stairs, Shen Yan stood in front of Li Shi'an's house, and was about to raise his hand to knock on the door, when there was a crisp sound of porcelain falling to the ground, but it was not the door in front of him.

Shen Yan heard a man's violent roar, and crazily pulled away the neighbors.Qu Ya rolled her sleeves and was tidying up broken porcelain bowls all over the floor. Shen Yan caught a glimpse of the bruises on her hands, stepped forward and asked, "He hit you?"

Qu Ya didn't hear the door opening at all, Shen Yan usually stayed at the swimming pool until eleven or twelve o'clock, and never came back at this time.She hastily pulled down her sleeves to cover it up: "What nonsense, my mother bumped into it by accident."

"Show me!" Shen Yan went to grab Qu Ya's sleeve regardless.

"I'm your mother!" Qu Ya yelled sharply with red eyes, knowing that the child could not be bluffed, and then explained for Fu Youcheng, "He only did this after drinking, don't worry about me, you just need to Practice dancing and study hard."

Shen Yan had already lost his mind when he heard the words, he glanced at Qu Ya, his eyes were red, then he rushed upstairs and smashed the door: "Fu Youcheng, open the door! Open the door!"

Li Shi'an was still afraid that Shen Yan would come to him, but instead of waiting for Shen Yan, he waited for the loud quarrel coming from the next door.

There was a burst of horror, and the dreaded thing finally happened.