Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

Early the next morning, when Li Shi'an was going out, he ran into Shen Yan and saw that his face was wounded.Li Shi'an's mind went blank for a moment, and when he reacted and chased after him, Shen Yan had already disappeared.

Just because of that glimpse, Li Shi'an couldn't be serious in class that day. He was full of worries, worried about what the man next door did, and worried that the domestic violence next door would become commonplace again.

The more Li Shi'an thought about it, the more uneasy he became. He deliberately passed by Shen Yan's class during recess, and Shen Yan was buried in the questions without looking up at all.

Tang Doudou saw Li Shi'an wandering outside the classroom at a glance, ran out overjoyed and said, "Why come to our class when you are free? I haven't seen you for so long. Miss me?"

Li Shi'an didn't have time to talk nonsense with Tang Doudou, so she asked her to call Shen Yan for help, Tang Doudou went, but Shen Yan only raised his head in his seat, and then buried his head down like no one saw it.

If it was a normal day, Shen Yan would have gone out happily, but not today, he had a fight with Fu Youcheng last night, he was embarrassed and tired, he didn't want to see Li Shi'an like this.

Li Shi'an waited outside until the class bell rang, but Shen Yan didn't come out either, so he could only leave resentfully.

Thinking that Shen Yan was annoying him, Li Shi'an stopped looking for him, but just this weekend, he heard something falling next door again, this time the noise was even bigger than last time.

Li Qishan was at home that day, and saw his son fidgeting in the living room, knowing what he was thinking, he held him down and said, "Go, dad."

Li Qishan went to the next door and knocked on the door, Fu Youcheng wiped the blood from his nose and mouth, adjusted his tie and opened the door, saw his neighbor, and asked with a smile: "Hey, Lao Li, what's the matter?"

Li Qishan was quite disgusted by his "Old Li", but after all, a businessman, he opened his mouth and said, "What's the matter at home? It sounds like there's a lot of movement. The neighbors, let me come and see. Help."

Fu Youcheng said: "It's okay, it's a trivial matter, I'm teaching the children."

Li Qishan thought that his son should not be beaten, let alone if he was not his own. Fu Youcheng was really a beast for making such a noise, and he was still polite on his face. Go up to the house to reveal the tiles." He changed his tone, "But children, as elders, we still have to move with emotion and reason."

When Li Qishan was negotiating with Fu Youshang, Li Shi'an kept sticking to the door to eavesdrop, and soon Li Qishan came back. Li Shi'an obviously heard the whole conversation, but still asked eagerly: "How is it?"

Li Qishan's face was as heavy as water, and he regretted that he hadn't made up his mind to move at the beginning, but he felt that he couldn't be blamed for this matter. Shen Yan's mother and son had moved here for so long and hadn't heard anything. He took it for granted that maybe it was the last The woman and Fu Youcheng couldn't get along, now that they changed, naturally everything would be calm.

Unexpectedly, scum is scum.

Li Qishan pondered for a moment and said: "This man is a bastard, but I don't think he has made good on Shen Yan."

Li Shi'an asked anxiously, "Did you see Shen Yan?"

The door was opened a crack, as if guarding against a thief, what could Li Qishan see?He shook his head and said, "Don't you have Shen Yan's phone number? Ask him?"

Li Shian said at ease that I can call him and I want you to ask a fart. He walked around the living room a few times in a frizzy manner, and then ran back to the room. Unexpectedly, when he looked outside the window, Shen Yan was in the swimming pool. There are a few soda cans on hand, and it looks like he is drinking.

Li Shi'an forgot that Shen Yan brought it with him for the first time drinking, and cursed in a low voice: "I'm good, I'm still drinking."

Cursing, scolding, he wanted to make up his mind not to look at it, but couldn't help it, he even counted how much he drank.

drink so much!Don't be afraid to hold on!

No, he couldn't stay any longer, he jumped up from the chair and went downstairs to the swimming pool.

Shen Yan was sitting on the edge of the swimming pool with his feet dangling in the air. Hearing the sound of approaching footsteps, Shen Yan turned his head and saw that the person was Li Shi'an. His eyes lit up and then darkened, and asked, "What are you doing here?" ?”

"The swimming pool is not yours either." Li Shi'an sat next to him in the same posture, "Did he hit you?"

Shen Yan shook his head: "I hit him."

The mouth is very hard.

Li Shi'an didn't speak, and moved away a few unopened cans, and suddenly heard Shen Yan say: "She gave birth to me when she was 20 years old, and my own father is an idiot, scared away, and never came back to look for us. Later, she took me to the homes of various men..."

So the man who died in Shen Yan's mouth is not actually dead, but Shen Yan just thinks that he no longer exists.

Shen Yan couldn't open his mouth to tell Li Shi'an that the person Qu Ya chose was either deceiving her for money or for her sex. In the end, she looked down on marrying Fu Youcheng for money.

He couldn't talk about Qu Ya's past like this in front of others, especially Li Shi'an.

After a moment's pause, he said: "I always think that Fu Youcheng is very hypocritical, but I never thought that he has violent tendencies. When business is not going well, he often fists and kicks her, and she has to hide it for him. Cheng’s company had a problem recently, he drank too much every three days, and when he came back he cursed, and I knew he was a jerk.”

After saying this, Shen Yan's tears finally flowed down.

Li Shi'an listened quietly, unable to tell what it was like when she heard "she still has to hide it for him".

Fu Youcheng can speak sweet words, and he often makes various promises to Qu Ya. Not long after Qu Ya moved in, he and Fu Youcheng became a legal couple. In fact, Qu Ya was not impulsive. She took care of the children in the community. Big Mom and Big Sister have heard of Fu Youcheng's reputation to some extent, but as far as he can provide Shen Yan with the life he wants, Qu Ya can bear everything.

Every time she was beaten by Fu Youcheng, she would grit her teeth and keep silent. Because of her reputation, Fu Youcheng would not beat her where others could see her. That's why Li Shi'an didn't listen to her since Qu Ya entered Fu's house. root cause of domestic violence.

In the past six months, the domestic violence next door has never stopped, which makes Li Shi'an shudder.

For people like Fu Youcheng, women are not like people, but more like brooches around their necks, which are decorations and show offs.Young girls would not tolerate people like him no matter what. Qu Ya wanted something from him, and she had scruples about having children, so she would not leave him.

Even so, Qu Ya would never attribute the unsatisfactory life to Shen Yan, nor would she speak harshly to Shen Yan, but Shen Yan often felt that Qu Ya's patience was a kind of blame, her patience pushed him, Urging him, asking him why he didn't grow up quickly and why he dragged her down.

Shen Yan tightly grasped the soda can in his hand: "I want to hate, but I can't, because no matter how hard it is, she never thought of giving up on me, it's just..."

It's just that he doesn't know how to complain. No matter how hard it is, never giving up on the child is the most fundamental promise a mother makes to her child. Qu Ya has done it. What else can he complain about?Compared to Li Shi'an, perhaps he was lucky.

Li Shi'an took the can from Shen Yan's hand, but Shen Yan couldn't continue, so he hugged Li Shi'an.

People were rude, lying, impatient, and he wasn't treated well.

Li Shi'an let him hold him, and for a moment, he felt that he was very similar to Shen Yan.

Both Qu Ya and Li Qishan are impeccable parents, Shen Yan and him both grew up under the meticulous care, but this feeling can make people breathless.

Li Shi'an is slightly better, he doesn't work so hard because he has always reconciled with the world, except for Liang Jing, he can forgive everything, just like forgiving his grandparents who cheated on him.

However, Shen Yan is different, he has been fighting against the world, he lives repressedly, clumsily, and cautiously, he cannot accept and forgive, including everything that Qu Ya did for him in his good name.

Li Shi'an sighed silently. He used to never understand one thing, why Shen Yan wiped it with a wet tissue every time he left his room, but now he understands that erasing the traces of his existence is a kind of cautious expression .

Li Shi'an felt distressed inexplicably, although his feelings towards Shen Yan were different from Shen Yan's towards him, but these days of separation were actually uncomfortable for him.

He couldn't let it go, he would still think about it, the little things since he met Shen Yan, the way he supervised him to finish his homework, the way he panicked when he punched out his nosebleed in Luozhi Lake, he would miss him The way he cooks for himself... and the way he waits by his side when he is sick.

I don't know exactly why I think about it, but... I just think about it.

Now that something happened to Shen Yan's family, he couldn't help expressing his concern, what will happen in the future?Can it still be as good as before?Or will it continue to go back to the same as before?Li Shi'an didn't dare to think too much.

The two sat by the swimming pool, watching the sunset in late autumn.

Li Shi'an took out a coffee candy from his pocket and handed it to Shen Yan, and tore one off himself, pinching it between his thumb and forefinger.

He pointed to the same coffee candies in Russia, one coffee-colored and one milk-colored coffee candy, and said: "Don't be sad, life should be like this. You see, today is bitter, tomorrow will be sweet, and the day after that will be bitter again." , and the next day will be sweet again."

Life is such a cycle of reincarnation, never despair.

This is what Li Qishan told him. When he had a high fever and Li Qishan had to let him go to work, Li Qishan comforted himself and him in this way.

This is why Li Shi'an has been fond of eating this candy for so many years.

"How did you plan?" He asked Shen Yan.

The coffee sugar in his mouth melted, and the burnt bitter taste spread across his lips and teeth, Shen Yanzhong was stunned, he was still a dissatisfied boy, the people around him didn't treat him as a child, but the society didn't treat him as an adult, he couldn't even go to an Internet cafe to hide all night No, what can he do?

Li Shi'an saw the blood on Shen Yan's clothes, and said, "You can stay at my house."

Shen Yan's heart moved, he tasted a bit of sweetness from the burnt bitterness, and finally shook his head and said, "No."

"Don't be awkward at this time." Li Shi'an got up and patted Shen Yan on the shoulder after speaking.

Li Shi'an led Shen Yan into the house, Li Qishan didn't know that Shen Yan spent almost a summer vacation at home before, and said to make Shen Yan's bed.

Shen Yan and Li Shi'an looked at each other for a moment, he hoped that Li Shi'an would refuse, but he said, "Okay."

The little joy just now disappeared, and Shen Yan knew that Li Shi'an was pitying him.

After the bed was made, Shen Yan lay on the bed, thinking about the question Li Shi'an asked him: what to do in the future.

Qu Ya has always wanted him to study abroad, but he never agreed. When she told Zhuang Jing that she was going to leave, she was angry and wanted to see Li Shi'an's reaction.

Now that he and Fu Youcheng are in such a mess, they can't stay next door anymore, but where can they go?Do you live on campus?If he leaves by himself, will that bastard hurt Qu Ya even more recklessly?

The best way is for Qu Ya to leave with him, but will Qu Ya go with him again?

The more he thought about it, the more uncomfortable he felt, and even his stomach hurt.

The door opened suddenly, and Li Shi'an came in and said, "I don't think you brought anything, you can wear mine after you take a shower." After he finished speaking, he handed over a set of pajamas, and seeing Shen Yan's pale face, he quickly asked, "What's wrong with you?" ?”

It was fine if he didn't ask, but when Shen Yan asked, he felt his stomach churning, and said painfully, "My stomach hurts."

Li Shi'an said with a stern face: "I can't bear it, I still drink. Last time you bought me medicine, I should have some more. I'll find it for you."

Bringing water, Shen Yan swallowed the medicine Li Shi'an handed over and fell asleep. Worried that it would be inconvenient for him to call someone if something happened, Li Shi'an guarded him and did not go out.

One of his hands hangs naturally on the bed, while the other is playing with his phone.

Shen Yan's fingertips slowly moved towards Li Shi'an's hand that was hanging on the bed, the movement was very slow and cautiously probing, and finally his fingers crossed to hold Li Shi'an's hand.

Feeling the warmth of his palm, Li Shi'an was startled, tried to break free but failed, turned his head to look, and found that Shen Yan had his eyes closed.

The warm white light shone on his face, and the 1.8-meter-long man curled up slightly, like a young animal seeking comfort. Li Shi'an couldn't refuse, and finally he didn't pull his hand back. He said in his heart: just holding hands, it's nothing ?