Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

However, the matter was not over yet, Li Shi'an and Shen Yan were invited into the office again after school, Li Qishan rejected the client who came at night, but Shen Yan waited for Fu Youcheng.

The director of the Political and Educational Office explained the whole story. A few ugly photos were placed on the table. The director kept talking about children's education, but Li Qishan smelled something wrong in the photos on the table.

In his eyes, Shen Yan's disheveled clothes and the kissing picture can be regarded as a spoof of boys' adolescent restlessness, but the picture of Shen Yan practicing dancing in the swimming pool is not right.

From the angle of view of the photo, it was taken in Li Shi'an's room, and the time was at night. Why did Li Shi'an secretly watch Shen Yan dance?Compared with what the teacher said about the child's indecent behavior and limitless mischief, he cared more about Li Shi'an's state of mind when he took this photo.

Li Qishan looked at Li Shi'an, and when Li Shi'an met his gaze, he lowered his head.Knowing a son is like a father, Li Qishan probably guessed something, with mixed feelings in his heart, but he didn't dare to confirm.

Li Qishan and the two children didn't say a word, but Fu Youcheng chatted with the director in the office with the appearance of a successful person. After all, it was difficult to be a stepfather and the child was rebellious, but there was a hint of difficulty in his eyes. Feeling proud.

When the four of them left the school, everyone was silent, but Fu Youcheng suddenly laughed, as if he had caught Shen Yan's trick, and proudly said: "Gays, you're promising."

Shen Yan glared angrily.

Li Qishan on the side became annoyed when he heard this: "What homosexuality? Didn't you hear the director say that the children were having fun?"

This time, Fu Youcheng didn't even bother to cover it up, showing his rascal face, while looking up and down at Li Shi'an, he said to Li Qishan, "Oh, do you believe it? These two boys sleep together every day, and they can't decide what to do or not. You have done everything you need to do, it seems that you are not much better as a biological father than me as a stepdad?"

Li Shi'an's heart twitched, and the next moment he saw Li Qishan ruthlessly pushing Fu Youcheng onto the car parked outside the school gate, with one hand tightly choking Fu Youcheng's neck.

Li Qishan has always been refined and polite, but when facing his son's problems, he was absolutely unambiguous. He gritted his teeth and warned Fu Youcheng: "I tell you, you'd better shut up. If this matter gets out and affects my son, I will kill you." !"

After speaking, he gave Fu Youcheng a hard push, and turned around to order Li Shi'an: "Let's go!"

Li Shi'an had never seen Li Qishan like this before, so he followed in silence.

Fu Youcheng was pushed by Li Qishan and staggered a few steps, bumped into a person, looked up and saw Shen Yan, he became furious, grabbed Shen Yan's neck, and pushed Shen Yan into the car just like Li Qishan pushed him: " Can you be more honest now? Ah!"

Shen Yan's heart is full of worries about Qu Ya, and he has no energy to fight against Fu Youcheng.

Li Shi'an, who had already walked a few steps, heard the movement, turned around and saw Shen Yan being bullied by Fu Youcheng, and begged Li Qishan, "Dad!"

He hoped that Li Qishan could stop Fu Youcheng, but Li Qishan just ordered him again: "Go!"

Seeing that Li Shi'an was worried about Shen Yan with all his heart and eyes, Li Qishan was so angry that he even came over and pushed him. Li Shi'an was pushed into the car. When the car drove away, he turned around and saw Shen Yan running after the car.

When they got home, the father and son sat on the sofa. Li Qishan smoked one cigarette after another. After finishing the few remaining cigarettes in the cigarette case, he finally said to Li Shian: "I only ask once, and I only ask you once." This is a question, and I will never mention it again, so this time I want to hear the real answer. What is going on between you and Shen Yan?"

Li Shi'an lowered his eyes, he knew that sooner or later he would have to face this day when he was with Shen Yan, but this day came too fast, and he was defenseless.

Li Shi'an didn't want to lie, he mustered up the courage to speak slowly: "It's just like what you see in the photo."

The room was terribly quiet. Li Qishan waited for the answer he least wanted to hear. Although he had prepared himself, he still couldn't accept it.

"Snapped!"

The thick glass ashtray brushed against the forehead and smashed to pieces on the ground.

Li Qishan couldn't forgive himself for his negligence, let alone Li Shi'an for being so deviant.

Li Shi'an closed his eyes: "Dad, don't blame me."

"Don't blame you?" Li Qishan smiled, suppressing a huge anger and incomprehension in the laughter, "Do you know what you are doing, Li Shi'an!"

Li Shi'an: "I know, I like him."

When Li Qishan heard the word "like", he instantly lost his usual dignity, and he was furious: "You don't know! Because you are too small! You can't even deal with a mere seventeen or eighteen-year-old boy in school. What a malicious person! Do you know how others will look at you! What will they say about you behind your back? Do you know how many holes others will dig for you to jump! I always thought you were a sensible child, do you know Know how disappointed I am!"

When Li Shi'an heard the word "sensible", tears suddenly rolled down, and he couldn't say anything for a while.

Li Qishan tried to calm down. He walked back and forth in the living room irritably, and finally restrained the idea of ​​"breaking his son" in just one conversation. He said: "Now is not the time to talk about this, let's calm down first, but you I can't meet Shen Yan anymore, I'll hire you a driver to pick you up from school every day, and I will try to move by the end of this month."

After Li Qishan announced unilaterally, without waiting for Li Shi'an to say anything, he went to the balcony and called the driver to arrange the pick-up. Li Shi'an looked at his back and went upstairs quietly.

Shen Yan ran all the way back to Fu Youcheng's house, he rushed into Qu Ya's room, the child fell asleep, Qu Ya was full of sleepiness, when he saw his son came back, he first showed a tired smile, the next moment Shen Yan lay down on her In a begging tone, she said to her, "Mom, can you come with me? Let's go out and rent a house. I will be able to take the college entrance examination soon. When I go to university to get a scholarship, I will go to work. To support you and your sister, come with me, okay?"

Qu Ya saw the tears in Shen Yan's eyes, and the smile on her face disappeared little by little. The birth of her second child always made her feel suffocated and flustered, and she was even a little unresponsive. It took almost a minute before she remembered to ask Shen Yan :"What's wrong?"

Shen Yan didn't dare to answer, Qu Ya's condition was very bad all the time, she was always depressed, especially after giving birth to a younger sister, she always smiled in front of the child, but Shen Yan didn't knock on the door several times after entering the house , they all watched her staring out the window in a daze for more than an hour, when Shen Yan just entered the door, he found that it was still the same.

Fu Youcheng did not know when he was already standing at the door, he stared at Shen Yan's mother and son like a ghost: "The school called the parents, do you know why?"

Seeing Qu Ya looking at him, he said, "They said your son is gay, and now the whole school knows he is gay!"

Qu Ya looked like a dying person, looking at Shen Yan blankly.

"Mom..." Shen Yan held Qu Ya's hand, and turned around to see Fu Youcheng's disgusting smile.

This night, Shen Yan and Fu Youcheng quarreled again, but Qu Ya closed the door of the bedroom, a door isolated everything that was happening outside, and Xiaotong in the crib slept soundly. Not yet full-term, with no male or female appearance, Qu Ya sometimes felt in a trance that the baby was just a little Shen Yan, and she seemed to have a chance to stop all the unbearable things in life before they happened.

Shen Yan beat Fu Youcheng hard that night, he rushed out of the house and had nowhere to go, so in the end he could only go to the dance studio to make do for the night.

When he walked to the bottom of the building and waited for the elevator, he wanted to send a message to Li Shi'an, but suddenly remembered that Li Shi'an's mobile phone was taken away by Yu Qiao, so he had to give up.

The elevator opened, and Shen Yan was about to walk into the elevator with heavy steps, when he found a person following in the elevator——Old Yu.

Lao Yu thought that Shen Yan was here to practice dancing, so he casually asked him to help him move some things.

Shen Yan followed Lao Yu into the studio, and saw that the classroom was almost emptied. Seeing Shen Yan's surprised expression, Lao Yu explained: "I'm going back to my hometown. There are some things in the studio that need to be disposed of."

Under Shen Yan's questioning eyes, Lao Yu continued: "When you met me in the hospital that time, my dad was hospitalized with a stomachache, but he refused to be checked. Another investigation revealed that it was stomach cancer, it has been a few months, my mother passed away early, I have to take care of him, so the studio cannot be opened, and I have to go back to my hometown.”

"Going back to my hometown, what about Lu Fei?" Maybe he and Li Shi'an were in a stage of changing relationship, so it was rare for Shen Yan to ask more questions.

Lao Yu smiled sadly: "My house has already been sold, so I can't drag other girls down. I have been doing things I like for half my life, but I don't seem to get anything in return. What I told you and Shi'an before to pursue my dreams is my dream." It’s farting, dreams are nothing, you can’t get money, you can’t buy a house, you can’t find a wife, you can’t save my dad.”

Shen Yan fell silent.

Lao Yu looked up at the time, it was already ten o'clock in the evening, and there was only half an hour left before the building closed. He realized that Shen Yan hadn't come to practice dance, and saw that Shen Yan's face was slightly hurt, and he felt something was wrong. Ask: "What's wrong with you?"

The two stood in front of the picture of Li Shi'an. Shen Yan told Lao Yu the truth. Lao Yu was actually not much older than two and a half boys. He had seen similar feelings in school before. Although he was surprised, he I didn't think it was shocking, but I just thought it was difficult, too difficult.

Lao Yu never expected that the obedient boy who came to his studio at the age of eight would choose such a path. The fate is really amazing.

After knowing that Shen Yan had nowhere to go, he said: "I haven't finished processing the things here, and I can't transfer them out after a while, and the rent is still half a year away. If you don't mind it, you can live here with me." Bar."

***

The room was very quiet, and after a quarrel broke out next door, there was no sound. Li Shi'an was afraid that something would happen to Shen Yan, so he ran to the window and tapped lightly three times, but there was no response.

Knocked three more times, still nothing.

There was no one in the swimming pool downstairs, would Shen Yan be kicked out by Fu Youcheng?Li Shi'an felt uneasy, but there was nothing he could do. Li Qishan was watching downstairs and did not go out tonight.

Li Shi'an sat in the room distraught. He tried to log in to WeChat on the computer, but he forgot the password and asked for various verifications, but he still couldn't log in.

The image of Shen Yan chasing after the car has always been imprinted in his mind, and he felt an indescribable pain in his heart.

He didn't sleep very well that night, he would dream when he fell asleep, he dreamed that Shen Yan was still running with the car, kept running, but ran further and further.

The next day Li Shi'an was going to leave early, Li Qishan saw him off, and said that he had contacted the driver and would pick him up in the afternoon, told him the license plate number, and asked Li Shi'an to get in the car and ask the driver to call him.

Li Shi'an couldn't remember what Li Qishan said at all, he wanted to get off the car, and ran to the art and sports class, but he didn't see Shen Yan, but he attracted a lot of curious eyes.

Everyone has seen the photos posted in every corner of the school, and many girls secretly collected the photo of Shen Yan with his shoulders exposed.

Although the school later announced that Yu Qiao had framed him, there were gossips wherever there were people, and everyone talked about it in private. When they saw Li Shi'an, some people even whistled.

After learning that Shen Yan didn't come to school at all, Li Shi'an was very confused. He didn't want to enter the classroom, so he simply climbed to the balcony of the activity room of the teaching building to sit.

Lao Xie saw Li Shi'an from a distance in the corridor. Everyone was in a hurry yesterday. He asked many things urgently, but now he hurriedly followed him.

When Li Shi'an saw Lao Xie coming, he gave him a little space. Lao Xie sat down next to Li Shi'an and asked him, "Your father didn't beat you, did he?"

In Lao Xie's impression, Li Qishan was an educated person at first glance, and he taught people the kind who could move their mouths but not hands, so it should not be possible to beat him.

However, Li Shi'an answered him: "I beat you."

Lao Xie has some regrets.

Thinking of the photos he had seen yesterday, although Lao Xie helped to lie together, in fact he knew in his heart that he and Li Shi'an were still at the stage of the king of mouth when they were fooling around, and they would never have a real kiss like Shen Yan.

He didn't have much doubt about the authenticity of what Yu Qiao said, and based on daily observations, Shen Yan really cared about Li Shi'an so much... Besides, if it wasn't true, there was no need for Zhu He Hidden so badly.

My five-year classmate was gay, and Lao Xie couldn't tell what kind of mood he was in. After deliberating over and over again, he finally asked, "Will you speak first or Shen Yan?"

Li Shi'an said, "He."

Lao Xie asked again: "He forced you?"

Li Shi'an: "Have you watched too many scenes of bullies robbing civilian girls?"

Lao Xie thought about it, yes, what age.Then he said, "Then you...could it be that you just can't bear to refuse?"

Li Shi'an thought about it, there was a little bit, but it shouldn't be the main thing, because when Shen Yan pulled him and kissed him for the first time, he didn't feel disgusted, he was still very curious, probably the kind of curiosity that ordinary boys and girls get together.

He shook his head.

Lao Xie didn't understand: "I haven't seen you have this problem before. You didn't tell me and I didn't ask about it all these years. You don't have any girls you like?"

Li Shi'an said, "No."

Lao Xie said regretfully: "I always thought that you didn't like Tang Doudou because she was too good... Sigh, did you get enlightened late, and just after you enlightened, you accidentally shot Shen Yan?"

Li Shi'an turned his head to stare at Lao Xie, feeling that Lao Xie's tone and eyes seemed to be discussing his terminal illness with himself.

"What do you mean I hit the muzzle?

Lao Xie felt that it was not right to say that, and said, "Why don't you find a girl to try?"

Li Shi'an didn't know what was going on in his brain: "How do you try? Have a relationship?"

Old Xie faltered: "If you're in a relationship, can you say you're looking for it? I'm talking about...that...that..."

Li Shi'an: "...Get lost, beast!"

Lao Xie felt that this seemed to be a bit of a beast, and asked again: "Then did you react to the educational film?"

Li Shi'an was worried about Shen Yan, and he became irritable when he asked him: "Of course he did! Before I knew Shen Yan, Scarlett Johansson was posted on the wall at home!"

Old Xie: "..."

Although not discriminatory, Lao Xie really felt that the road between Li Shian and Shen Yan might not be so easy. After a moment of silence, he said in a tone of mourning for the deceased: "I heard from them that when you like a divorced person who still has children If the family disagrees, you tell them that you are gay, and then they accept not only women, but children too. Do you understand me?"

Hearing these words made Li Shi'an a little uncomfortable, mainly because of Lao Xie's tone.

Even though Lao Xie said that he felt that his time was running out, Li Shi'an still said: "Understood."

He didn't know that this was a road full of thorns, but he was sober every step of the sinking, and he had no complaints.